Christmas performance

Well, things has certainly been happening- finally found myself involved in The Voice again- small Christmas production for Steph's company..

The Voice

Samuel
I've got some pics for you guys- finally.. ahah.. happy? I spent quality time with Samuel^^ I'm so happy.. been missing that guy for ages.. kept wondering when will I ever see him again.. he used to be the only one who really talks to me when I was still in my previous cell.. love that guy so much, man.. sorry I had to leave, sam.. You're the only reason I stayed on.. and the only thing I regret leaving behind.

Ben

Well,.. needless to say, ben and sam are great guys.. ahah.. here are some pics of the coolest people in my planet :)

Sam in theVoice tShirt, Ben in white.. Sam is going to be 17 next year.. All the best, Sam~!


The maid

Maria - haha.. yesss??? (it's me, actually)


Well, in the end, no one really laughed.. so it was sad.. I guess.. aihh.. but we did our best ya? =)

Poor Sam had to play 3 roles that day- drama actor, caroler and santa..

Sam the Santa

ahah.. no one was more busy than him.. oh wait.. there is another one- steph.. she was drama actress, volunteer caroler and puppeter.. ahah.. sorry. dont know what you call those people who does the puppet thing.. Why I said volunteer caroler is because she came up suddenly during the caroling to join them- she just spontaneously ran up the stage like that- I would have joined her if not for me wearing white and everyone else wearing the Voice t-shirt.. thought of changing just for that- because my t-shirt was in my bag upstairs.. ahah.. but I decided that I was just too plain lazy..

Had a nice friend to accompany me for dinner- Rachel.

Little Rachel - Sam's younger sis

she's so cute.. and she helped me take so many pics.. hehe.. here are some pics of her.. ain't she so cute? Esp when she wears that scarf.. eheh.

Last but not least, there was Deborah and Mark..

Deb and Mark

ahah.. her new bf. To tell you the truth, I didn't know they were together because the last time i checked, which was the first time I met Mark, which was Wed (2 days ago- today is fri), she said that he was not.. hmm.. maybe she was just covering up. Anyway, they both looked like they had a great time too..

And Ben took some extreeeemely random pics.. he stole lotsa stuff from my phone too- from vids to themes.. ahah.. it's all yours, ben!


A random pic of his jeans -_-"


Random - Ben's hand.. he thinks it rocks..


Kidney beans - told ya he was random!

Rachel hands and mine.. randomness

And thanks for trusting me with your phone- you shouldn't have.. and I really mean.. SHOULDN'T have.. ahah.. because I seriously can't be trusted. The more it says 'Don't open..' .. erm.. ahhah..




* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

Getting your friends saved

Sometimes, when we are too far away, it's hard for our friends to hear us calling them- we have to get closer to them in order for them to hear us..

What do you do when you call a friend who doesn't answer? -you get closer to them and sometimes tap them on the shoulder, if you have to, right? Well, it's the same thing when it comes to bringing your friend to Christ. When you call them for evangelical meetings or harvest events, they may not come, and that's because you're too far away for them to hear you- they don't know you enough as a friend- you have to get closer to them, close enough to 'touch' them.

* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

Quotes

If you thought letting go was hard, try taking back- it's almost impossible once you've finally let go and thought it was for good.

* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

Waiting for my bed to dry before I can sleep

It's not easy being a girl.. I repeat- it's not easy being a girl.

To you who don't know what pms is, it's like a wound that bleeds continuously. And the most you could do is put a bandage around it, but that's about it- and you have to keep changing your bandage because the bleeding doesn't just stop there.. some people take pain killers, but then again.. there's nothing you can do about it. The wound is more like in your stomach, if you want to explain the feeling of it.. and the bleeding is internal, and you can't stop the bleeding. It bleeds for a couple of days to as long as a week, or slightly over a week- you can never predict.

Here's the two worst things about pms for me personally, (not sure about the rest, though- do post your comments) :

1. Stomach Cramps (normally only the first day, and you may lose your appetite along with it; but if you have been sleeping early and eating your veggies, you may be spared the stomach cramps, and gain a flippin' large appetite for food :)
2. Laundry (yep.. no catch here- just plain washin' and scrubbin' in the wee hours of the morning)
3. Overstraining (don't know what it's called, but its pain when we don't sit down enough and walk or stand too much.. so we need to take breaks.. like sit down every now and then in the shopping malls.. its very much what happens when you shove a towel into the tap hole and try to on it.. that's what it feels like.. so when you stand up a long time, the gravity pulls the blood downwards.. gravity can be merciless and it is painful when it is over strained, you've just got to sit down and then everything will be alright.. don't stand too long- don't over strain yourself)
   

I am not including mood swings in this list because it can be controlled (trust me, guys.. and girls, you have to try- don't let it get to your head) and besides,- it is more a symptom that an effect if you see it from my point of view.. Why? Because mood swings can tell you when a girl is about to have her pms in the next couple of days or so- so you have time to prepare yourselves.

You want to know the truth? Girl's mood swings are not the worst during their pms,.. It's worse just a couple of days before the period- when the girl is unprepared for it and doesn't know what hit her- she just goes through an emotional wreckage with no explanation whatsoever until she gets her pms, and then she goes something like.. "Oh.. darn.. no wonder.. should have known better."

Possible mood swings are as follows:

1. Loneliness
2. Sadness (over almost anything)
3. Low self confidence
4. Anger/ getting irritated easily
5. Others.. can't think of them right now, but I think you get the picture.. they're all negative, anyways. It depends on the girl's personality- I think I'm more a melancholic and choleric, so I go more towards those two extremes.. It's obvious, isn't it? 1-3 are melancholic attributes, whereas number 4 is more on the choleric side.. scared of me? ahah.. you bet! The maids get it most of the time, though.. I don't dare scold anyone else. You know DISC? Well, I'm D and S- bad combination, huh? I'm not a C kind of person.. but it would be kinda fun to watch them worry like nuts for no apparent reason.. Let's talk a bit about personalities..
   

   Melancholic
   a person who was a thoughtful ponderer had a melancholic disposition. Often very kind and considerate, melancholics can be highly creative - as in poetry and art - but also can become overly pre-occupied with the tragedy and cruelty in the world, thus becoming depressed. The temperament is associated with the season of autumn (dry and cold) and the element earth. A melancholy is also often a perfectionist, being very particular about what they want and how they want it in some cases. This often results in being unsatisfied with one's own artistic or creative works and always pointing out to themselves what could and should be improved.

   Choleric
   Choleric corresponds to the fluid of yellow bile, the season of summer (dry and hot), and the element of fire. A person who is choleric is a doer and a leader. They have a lot of ambition, energy, and passion, and try to instill it in others. They can dominate people of other temperaments, especially phlegmatic types. Many great charismatic military and political figures were cholerics. On the negative side, they are easily angered or bad tempered. In folk medicine, a baby referred to as having "colic" is one who cries frequently and seems to be constantly angry. This is an adaptation of "choleric," although no twentieth/twenty-first century scholar or doctor of medicine would attribute the condition to bile. Similarly, a person described as "bilious" is mean-spirited, suspicious, and angry. This, again, is an adaptation of the old humour theory "choleric."
   
   Check this stuff out in wikipedia - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Phlegmatic
   

Humour	Season	Element	Organ	Qualities	Ancient name	Modern	MBTI	Ancient characteristics
Blood	spring	air	liver	warm & moist	sanguine	artisan	SP	courageous, hopeful, amorous
Yellow bile	summer	fire	gall bladder	warm & dry	choleric	idealist	NF	easily angered, bad tempered
Black bile	autumn	earth	spleen	cold & dry	melancholic	guardian	SJ	despondent, sleepless, irritable
Phlegm	winter	water	brain/lungs	cold & moist	phlegmatic	rational	NT	calm, unemotional

Also from wiki

Okay, so I got distracted,.. excuse me.

So well.. now you know that when she behaves extremely melancholic out of a sudden, and she is NOT having her pms, it only means that there is a high possibility that her pms is only a couple of days away.. and when it does come, she'll be more or less okay.. because by then she'll know what to expect.

So what do you do when she starts screwing up? Ahah.. this all depends on what kind of girl you have, but I highly suggest you remain supportive if she is melancholic, and.. well.. cooperative if she is choleric.. I'm sorry to burst your bubble, guys.. but girls cannot get more upset than when they are having their mood swings.

They will totally realize what they said and did when it is all over. And if you were supportive and cooperative, well.. they'll most probably thank you if not in their hearts.. and well.. let's say that they are fully aware of their surroundings, and aren't drunk, so some of these moments can last a lifetime, if you know what I mean- people remember them.

So in all cases, always, I repeat always remain calm. And use your brain, because someone has to be sane around here.. and if it's not you, then who? So think positive, be understanding, supportive and cooperative. Don't shoot back, fight back, scold back, discourage, or condemn them in any way. Sounds simple, no? =D You'll get the hang of it..

Let me give you a tip- you wanna keep them happy, aite? So keep feeding them chocolate.. it works sometimes, well at least when they're with you ;)

That's all for now. Well, all the best, guys~! Lemme know what problems you're facing, and I'll try to help out..

* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

Damn.. I screwed up again...

Sigh.. drafted 17 times today. I suck, yes, I know.. so I'm not perfect.. big deal. I've just got to learn from my mistakes.. I do hope I will be more careful.. growing pains, they call it. I better grow this time.. My blog is censored now.. And it will continue to be, sorry for restraining honesty from you guys.. It was my dream to make this the most honest blog you can find, though.. It's still honest.. just.. not 100% transparent.. what is, anyway?

People screw up.. I just happen to screw up more often than most.. Haha,.. and XiYing, that includes you- I screw up more than you, you just didn't watch me screw up as much as you watched yourself. I screwed up big time.. big time after big time.. and I never seem to learn. As I said, I suck.. yes.. totally. I didn't realize how immature I am until I get around others.. When I am alone, I think that I am the most matured person on the planet.. until I screw up again.. and I screw up when I am around others- because the actions of others affect us, and vice versa.

Screwed up.. oh boy.. Anna.. when will you ever learn? *slaps herself on the face* it's no wonder my name is 'grace'.. I need that maximum.

Well... it's Christmas Eve, my family is enjoying our annual Christmas dinner and here I am- blogging.. Blogging about some flippin' screw driver who never learns..

So many things I can't say here.. but at least I can talk about my low self esteem- I hate myself. I screwed up and now I hate myself.. I hate every single part of me. I hate me for being me. I'm sorry God.. I'm sorry for my low self confidence.. I'm sorry I am so much like me, and so little like You.. Why can't I be perfect? Like You? Even if I am not perfect.. at least.. why can't I improve? Change? Why can't I have more self confidence, at least? My thorn in flesh. Sigh.

I suck, I really do. Do you know why I try to hate myself every time I screw up? So that when people hate me, it's not so bad. I try to hurt myself so that when other people hurt me, I don't feel it. That's what we do.. when a mosquito bites us, we try to mark it with a minus or plus sign, so that it won't be so itchy. When we have a headache, we try to bang our head on the wall, so that we don't concentrate on the pain in our head, but the pain outside our head. That's what we do- distract ourselves from the pain that we are trying very much to avoid- bring rejected by others.

I thought that if I hate myself, then when others hate me, it won't be so bad- I was the first to reject myself anyway, at least people will agree with me that I suck.. now I actually feel like I'm on the winning side.. Get it? Sigh.. it's like.. I know that my enemy is going to kill me, so before he reaches here, I take the sword and plunge it into my heart, at least I die with honor.. ahah.. the things people do in order to avoid being affected by others..

If I talk enough about how bad I feel, then I will feel good later.. I mean, who created that concept in the first place? Disappoint myself now, so that I won't be disappointed by others later- same concept. Then why don't you just kill yourself now, so that you won't have to face death later? -silly bunch of idiots. That includes myself..

* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

Being involved in church is not as important as being involved outside the church

This is my third post for today.. and it's only in the afternoon.. See? This is what happens when I lack sleep.. or is it the other way around? Maybe I have too many things in my head and that's why I can't sleep. Anyway, I was being asked the question yesterday, by someone important- an adult.

He asked me, "So, Anna,.. are you involved in church?"

And I answered, "I used to.."

"Used to? How come?"

"Well.. let's just say I retired.. haha.."

Someone else, who overheard the conversation said, "There is no such thing as retiring when it comes to serving in church."

"I know, but give others a chance also la.."

No comments from the rest.

Okay, let me explain myself..

Firstly, let me explain my church and how we have changed our missions over the years.. we are NOT, i repeat, NOT focused on evangelism. We are, in fact, focused on nation transformation and Kingdom issues. And in these, we are to go into the world, not being called to go into the church. We have, therefore, little activities that involves around the church- minimum, in fact. The only activities we have are kids, performing arts and Kingdom Club (a business men and women fellowship), of which I am only involved in the first two.

Performing arts (The Voice) plays some sort of an annual role in the church- normally presenting during National Convention and Christmas, and sometimes, Easter, which would just be a simple performance- nothing fancy. The greatest productions are normally Christmas Productions, prepared months in advance, starting from somewhere in June. The National Convention is normally prepared weeks to a month in advance. And lastly, the Easter performance, normally involving only a handful of seasoned crew, a week to three in advance.

I used to be very involved in the Performing Arts group, before they were called 'The Voice'. Those were one of the best days of my life- so many sweet memories.. ah.. yes, those were the days when we would camp for about a month together- doing nothing but practicing our different dances.. it was beautiful to be part of a team, so bonded as a family.. we cooked for each other, cleaned up with each other.. played together.. you name it.. Some even tried to commit suicide together (inside story), but yeah.. those were the days, back when I was in primary school till high school..

Then what happened? Well, not to say that I am no involved with The Voice anymore, but hey.. to be honest.. my reason is really stupid. Other than the approaching final semester, I had a more accurate reason- I was scared. Yeah.. so now you know? Why scared? Well.. I have been performing in church from as far back as 8 and have been every year ever since. But I guess.. people change. My reason is very simple, and very stupid. Hence my long explanations to avoid the simple fear I had- adrenaline.

Haha.. yes.. I'm very simple in fact (not!). I'm scared when I get up on stage.. and when I reached college, I told myself.. that I had enough. Every flipping presentation got me more and more afraid. Why the sudden change? Well.. I'm not that random, there were some external causes.. like.. the performing arts group decreased its quantity presentations to quality presentations during that time, and so instead of presenting every alternate month or so, we presented like twice a year- such a sudden drop in my momentum. It was hard to face the crowd when I finally needed to, after all those months- I was not used to the adrenaline anymore.. I lost confidence and I became afraid, added to it, my physical stamina dropped and I would black-out easily. When I practiced for a dance item, I would tell myself,.. "Okay.. this is my last one.. not going on after this." And then Christmas would come and I volunteer to dance again.. and I will be like "What the heck?" and then I got 'smarter' and resorted to drama, but then realized that the adrenaline was seriously taking its toll on me.. and I would simply say, "Okay.. no more presentations.. presentations are just not for me."

Yea, call me chicken, whatever.. so I decided to become a scriptwriter- somewhere away from the spotlight but hey,.. I've got the heart for it.. I loved writing, anyway, poems, stories.. what not. But the first script I wrote was a total disaster- my greatest regret of today. Everyone thought the story was about me, I mean- what could be worse than that? The script was horrible.. Although it made people cry when they read it, especially people who could identify with it. No, it was a happy ending, thank you for wondering, but.. it never materialized- the group that was supposed to present it chickened out because it was too.. corrupted. Don't figure. I had another idea for a script, though.. told some influential people about it, but.. they said it was too difficult because they didn't have anyone to play 'God'. So.. yet another discouragement.. I guess I give up too easily, but these two scripts meant a whole lot to me, so yeah.. I was disappointed, so kiss me..

So my role as a scriptwriter vanished into thin air.. just like that, so yes, I am in The Voice group, but what's my role? I have no flippin' idea.. lately, I tried something new- supposed to play the violin for Christmas- no kidding. Took up classes months in advance. Never practiced and never made it for class.. Violin still here, lying down comfortably on my bedroom floor next to my guitars.. I practiced a little,.. seriously.. enough to play one or two songs, and I bet that if I just sticked to one song, I could pull it off with my violin teacher- Cheryne. But well.. had my dissertation coming up.. So I said byebye to that idea. So yes, I was supposed to be involved this Christmas, I just didn't have the time. And perhaps if I stayed on and be involved, my answer to the above question, "Are you involved in church?" would have been a "Yes, quite..".

I guess I answered "No" because I compared myself to some people who had church activities every other time of the day. Considering the amount of activities we had in church.. My church didn't have that many activities. But if I considered the percentage of my activities among all my own church activities, I would probably get a high percentage, just by being involved in that one performance, it would be close to 100%. Haha! Get it?

My goodness, I can do a theses on this. It's really long, no? And I'm not done yet- I just started. Now I'm just done with talking about my church. Now, let's get to the second issue I was to discuss- me.

As the title of this post suggests- Being involved in church is not as important as being involved outside the church. Allow me to involve a little of my church's mission here- nation transformation and kingdom issues. Where is all that? Outside the church, as I said. The people in the church are not in need as much as the people out there. I'm sorry, but my ministry calls me to get out there, not stay in here. And the leaders of my church all agree that the real mission field is out there, not in here. It is the pride of my church, in fact that we as members are out there, and not in here- no, I'm not kidding. Thus the reason for minimum church activities. We are not church-centered (now, don't get me wrong, I didn't say all the other churches are) but they'll become like us, one day. It's just a matter of time.

My church is a forerunner church- it's our calling to go ahead and pioneer things a decade or so before other churches get into it. And for that, we get through much persecution.. much. Like the one I might be getting right now, for not being involved in church. No, I'm sorry, but being involved in church is not everything. It is something, yeah.. but not everything. It's significance still stands, yes.. where it should. There are bigger fish to fry out there.. and no, I don't have time for church stuff.. I want nation stuff.

No, I'm not boasting.. I'm just trying to open your eyes to bigger things. My ministry is into education.. the marketplace. Here is where the people are. Not in the church, no. And I'm tired.. I'm tired of all those presentations that get only a handful of people saved every year- we DON'T have time for that. That is NOT the main issue out there. People are dying.. and getting them saved will get them to heaven, yes, but how many, exactly? You know what's ironic? Let's draw up the charts, shall we? You say those meetings are evangelistic, how many people actually get saved? 10 each meeting? Yes, I know, for each soul saved, the whole Heaven rejoices.. is everything just about getting people saved? You think that is our mission on earth- to get people saved? Oh boy.. now we are getting wayy off topic.

Okay, that is a different issue altogether.. but what's so bad about going off topic? This is after all, my blog.. and there's nothing to be too honest about here. I'm just lazy to explain all from Adam and Eve's time.. Okay, so when God created them, He gave them a mission- now let me ask you- what is the reason God created human beings? Is it to preach the gospel? To who? Adam preach to Eve and Eve preach to Adam is it? No, wait.. God created Adam first, so who is he supposed to preach to? The animals? God? No.. why did God create the flippin' Adam for? Some would answer, 'to worship Him'. Are you sure? But He had the angels to worship Him. Does God actually need us to worship Him? You think He got more powerful when we did? No.. His power can't possibly be measured.. then? Or do you really think God is that vain that He just adores being worshiped? No..

God did NOT create us simply to worship Him. He created us to have a relationship with Him. He created in His likeness, to be His sons and daughters, to love Him. And in that package of being sons and daughters, He created us in His likeness. Now, what is the likeness of God? God is.. all powerful, am I right? He created us like gods on the earth- to have dominion over the seas and the dry land- to fill the earth, multiply, subdue it.. This is the kingdom principle. Dominion in the center of God's will. So that God, not us, would reign over the earth. The Kingdom includes the 7 pillars, Peter Wagner has researched. Arts, Business, Church, Culture, Education, Families, Government.. all I know is, it's ABC..

Okay, anyway.. where was I? Yea,.. as for me, I am more into Education, so I shall focus more on that,. it doesn't mean I can't be involved in church, I still am, but what I mean is.. being involved in church is not everything. Do NOT persecute people who are not involved in church. God doesn't require everyone to serve in the Church. God does, however, require everyone to serve OUTSIDE the church.

My friends- they are people whom I should be caring for.. take them out when they are having problems.. then they cry, they share, and I share to them about Christ. It doesn't happen all the time, but if you have enough friends in need out there, and if you're there for them, trust me.. you'll get your hands full.. because there is always someone in need. And if you're too busy with your church routines, lay them down, give others a chance, and go be that one friend to help them. Because helping your friends are more important than being involved in church. You don't have to counsel them or anything- just be there for them, happy times, sad times,.. if you're there enough, they will know who to look for when they need a shoulder to lean on and cry on. But if you're busy.. you're just going to miss that chance when it comes. Like I said,.. it doesn't happen all the time. It comes randomly.. and you never know which friend will be in need next..

This is another reason why I don't want to get caught up with all these practices and trying to get my timing and dance moves right.. trying to reach the right key, trying to play the right role.. because who am I doing them for anyway? My friends, right? Then how can I abandon my friends for these practices? I can't.. trust me, for all you evangelicals out there.. I get more friends saved driving them around in the car than practicing my dance steps..

* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

An idea of closing down this blog

Dear Readers,

It is 2 something in the morning, and I can't sleep.. I've been thinking.. Maybe I should close down this blog. Honestly, I've been too honest here, and too many things has happened because of my honesty in this blog- guys found out that I have feelings for them, close friends found out the things I hated about them, and girls found out that I have taken their bfs.. and no, these aren't good things- not the least bit. To make it worse, all my mistakes I've done in this life are plain for all to see- what goes on in my head and the wrong assumptions I've made- I'm most familiar with this as it has occurred the most frequent through the entire lifetime of this blog.

Nevertheless, I'm even more sorry to say that I love this blog too much to close it down. Perhaps it has been my negligence or perhaps I was inconsiderate, or perhaps both. What are the intentions for my honesty? Well, like I always wanted to say- this is my blog. If you have a problem with that, don't read it. Okay, so I am being plain inconsiderate.

But I have thought about it a lot, over the years.. believe me, I have regretted saying too many things here.. and I always told myself- perhaps I could make my blog private (but didn't know how), or perhaps I could close it down (no heart), or the more matured way would be to control my honesty. My tongue is my greatest enemy, as Jie told me when I was 5 or 6. She was right.. and all these years, I took her advice lightly- in fact, I never took it. And now, just now,.. I'm beginning to see how 'prophetic' her advice was. It was an advice, I, especially, should carry through my life. Maybe you CAN know a person when they are yet that young. Needless to say, my tongue is personally my greatest weakness. Want to know how important this advice is, read James.. somewhere in that book it talks about the power of the tongue- able to bridle the whole body. It is like a rudder- able to steer the whole ship. With a tongue, you could build a person up, or you can crush that person. Oh the danger I despised to foresee!

Too many times have I turned previous posts back into drafts, and I am so doing again after posting this. I have two options now- I can either regret or I can move forward, and too many times, I have chosen to move forward. Maybe now, just now, I should opt to regret. Because by regretting, it would be painful enough for me to learn from my mistakes, as not to repeat it again. Then perhaps, just perhaps.. I could be more careful next time. Too many times have I told myself to neglect those regrets. And too many times have I repeated the same mistakes, year after year.. It's time to learn, and it's time to move on with what I've learned. A "tinged theory of regret" refers to both regretting and moving forward- moving forward, but with what I have already learned. In this case, regret as I move forward is more needed than plainly moving forward. Already I hear voices of sighing coming from XiYing and Joram, saying "finally..".

Dear reader, this will probably be one of the most honest blogs you have came across, so bask in my past honesty, but from this point on.. I'm sorry, but I shall be more careful.. hit or no hit, I shall be more careful.

* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

Come to Jesus

CAPO 1

B
Weak and wounded sinner, 
F#
Lost and left to die, 
C#m         E            F#
O, raise your head for Love is passing by,


    B
Come to Jesus,
    E
Come to Jesus,
  B F#   B
Come to Jesus and live,

B
Now your burden's lifted,
F#
And carried far away, 
C#m   E       F#
And precious blood has washed away the stain... so

    B
Sing to Jesus ,
    E
Sing to Jesus ,
       B  F#      B
Sing to Jesus and live,

(Same progression, move to the key of C)

C
And like a newborn baby,
G
Don't be afraid to crawl,
Dm                   F                  G
And remember when you walk sometimes we fall... so

          C
Fall on Jesus,
          F
Fall on Jesus, 
       C  G     C
Fall on Jesus and live,

C
Sometimes the way is lonely,
G
And steep and filled with pain,
Dm               F                    G
So if your sky is dark and pours the rain... then

         
         C
Cry to Jesus,
   F
Cry to Jesus,
      C  G      C
Cry to Jesus and live,


(Same progression, move to the key of D, transition by playing an A before
going to D)

D
O, and when the love spills over,
A
And music fills the night,
Em                G                   A
And when you can't contain you joy inside... then

            D
Dance for Jesus,
            G
Dance for Jesus,
         D  A      D
Dance for Jesus and live,

D
And with your final heartbeat,
A
Kiss the world goodbye,
Em                    G                 A
Then go in peace, and laugh on Glory's side... and

         D
Fly to Jesus,
         G
Fly to Jesus,
      D  A       D
Fly to Jesus and live,

         D
Fly to Jesus,
         G
Fly to Jesus,
      D  A       D
Fly to Jesus and live,

Some Chords:
C#m     F#
4fret
OO---O ------
----O- O---OO
--OO-- ---O--
------ -OO---

* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

Beyond my wildest dreams...

My dream just came to pass today^^.. after lunch, I went down to the hall and just sat there at the sofa- Noel, 1 (he's the youngest among all my nieces and nephews), and Ryan, 3, were watching Barney^^.. don't think they noticed me. Then I called Noel, "Hi, Noel.." then Noel looked at me and smiled, then he went to ride his toy car. Then, he realized who I was, abandoned his toy car, and half-ran into me and hugged me, saying, "Aunty~!!!" hehehe.. aih... my wishes just came true~^^ I'm so happy today- Noel just made my day! Normally, Caylie will do that when I come home or bump into her, but looked like Noel picked it up from her too.. lol! I'm just so happy- one of my childhood dreams just came to pass! I always wanted to run to kids and just hug them- especially orphans and all.. but this time.. well.. hahah.. I guess I never dared dream this far~

* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

Welcome to.. Mira Country~!!!! ^^

1) Pray for breakthrough in sales of ticket. We want to complete all tickets by Dec.10, 2007. Believe God for this!
2) Pray for good weather for all three days and nights!
3) Pray for good traffic - No jam should come between and cause delays!
4) Pray for good recruitment drive - the public will be drawn by theVOICE production and decided to sign up! We want 50 new recruits by year end! Believe God for this!!
5) Pray for Mira Country players to be in good health and state-of-mind. They are to be well and able to complete all their roles and responsibilities with flying colors. Pray, they are able to perform and bring out the standard and quality for the entire performances.
6) Pray for divine connection with public that have passion for the arts and willing to take the arts to higher level. These divine connections are to be sent or appointed by God to bring theVOICE into higher places.

* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

Read slowly...

17 November 2007
John 4:10
FV3

10 Jesus answered and said to her, “If you knew the gift of God, and who it is who says to you, ‘Give Me a drink,’ you would have asked Him, and He would have given you living water.”

I like this verse because all I need to do is to ask You, and You will give me living water. Nothing else can quench my thirst and can satisfy my desires but You alone. And when I ask, You will give- that is Your promise to me. I need it badly- I need Your living water because I am thirsty, just like this Samaritan woman. I can identify with her- I feel for her. She has had five husbands. If I was her, I wouldn't know what to do with my life anymore. She didn't have five boyfriends- but five husbands. How bad is that? I thought I was bad..

You knew she was coming- that's why You sat at that well and asked her for a drink. You knew her desires. You knew she wanted something so bad. She really needed You, Lord. She was looking for something that man couldn't give her. She's tried so many until she just decided to give up on marrying them altogether. What is it she is looking for, God? I feel so much like her right now.. I've had three boyfriends, and the one I am with right now is not even my boyfriend. What is it I am looking for, Lord? Please tell me.

Whatever it is, I just pray that You give it to me- because what this world has to offer, can never quench this thirst of mine- be it boyfriends or husbands, they cannot quench it- only You can. I don't want to spend my entire life like this woman- lost, looking for something she can never find because she is looking at the wrong place. I know where to find You- You're right here.

Lord, I give up- I lay my cards down. Whatever it is I'm looking for, just give it to me. I am asking You right now, Lord. I give up trying to find my own way. I admit that I can never find it my way. I give up. My way is just wrong. It's just not the way. It's not going to get me anywhere. Whatever it is I'm looking for- just give it to me! You promised You'll give it to me- You said it in this verse, and You never break Your promise. So give it to me.. I don't even know what I'm asking for.. but You know. You call it living water- so give me this living water. I know living water is just a metaphor, because she happened to be drawing from a well. So, I don't know what it is called. But it doesn't matter- I want it.

Wait- I know what she was looking for- You are that living water, aren't You? She asked, "Sir, give me that living water." And You never break Your promise- so that means that You did give it to her. And the point where she left her waterpot was just after she asked You for the Messiah, and You said that it was You, then she left. That means, she was actually looking for the Messiah- You, and she found You, and she was overjoyed!

I'm looking for You, Lord.. I want You, and I'm asking for You. So please, come into my life, and be with me. I need You, desperately.

Mental Picture:
This little girl was asking her dad a question, and she had big eyes and looked so cute and innocent. She seriously wanted to know and she asked him gently and sweetly as she looked up to him with her tilted head. She was holding his little finger, strolling round the park with him. He wore this white shirt and black pants, like he was on his lunch break, but took time off to see her, just taking an aimless walk around the park, spending time with her- doing nothing. I was so touched by her dad- he was a busy man, but somehow, she seemed more important to him. I just don't understand why he took time off to answer simple questions, which seemed to bewilder her. Simple questions about common things that happen daily, which no one bothered about. And he answered her, as detailed and as slowly as he could, so that she understood. He spoke softly and gently back to her, as though it was an important question and he wanted to make sure she caught everything he said and treasured every sentence.

Application:
I want a dad like that- a dad that i can just hold his little finger and walk around the park aimlessly. A dad who thinks I am the most important person in the world- more important than his work. The little girl was probably asking, among all the other questions- why he actually took time off to see her that day. And his answer was probably spoken to her gently, softly, slowly and as detailed as he could, so that she understood every single sentence.

I'm asking You.


* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

Chris Daughtry - Over You

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
And I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
And I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,

I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
And I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
And I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

One life - One love

Learn - Youtube Vid
key D

Intro Bm 020230
G 320030
Asus 002030

Bm - G - Bm - Asus

Bm
who am i
G D
that You would know me from the start
Asus
set me apart

Bm
who am i
G D
that You would place eternity
Asus A
into my heart


Em
You have given to me
D/F#
More than this world could give
G Asus
My purpose is found, in You

D
one life
A /C#
i lay at Your altar
G
one love
D
i have with You
Em
touch me again
D/F#
fill me as you hold
G A
my outstretched hands

D
one word
A/C#
You know i will follow
G
one heart
D
broken to You
Em
use me again
D/F#
Your mercies follow me
G Asus
for all my days

G
in Your presence
Bm
in Your power
A
Holy Spirit
A
i surrender


* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

Random Quotes.. erm.. lol..

"i remember the future, live in the past and wonder about my present" me

"dont open yourself to giving what you might not want to"

"life is only as low as you want it to be, until you step on the brake, turn the wheel, and take charge"

"love is the path of life that requires risk. giving up is the path that requires too much brains"

"If you've never experienced love, you've never experienced life. If you've never loved, you have no life!"

"The start of brilliance is sparked by dreams."

"No matter how far the waters may carry our boats, my boat will always have your name on it."

"If it takes a star to win your heart, I'll tear down the whole sky."

"Count the numbers of the hair on your head. Thats how much I love you. Uncountable..."

"Take a cup, add you and me, and we get instant mee"

"If the stars gave the sky its shine, you'd be the star that gave me my smile."

"Don't count the things you haven't done
Count the things to do
and get them done"

by me

* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

Then what is a relationship? :: Part 2 ::

lawrence_teoh89 said...

Hmm.. Hav a better understanding now.. but then.....I define it as understanding and commitment between each other... lol..

Cause if you commit to each other but never understand each other throughly, not that good right? :P

But hmm.. if you don't see/accompany each other, do that makes a relationship? I don't really think so.. Cause in a relationship, there must also be intimacy right? and that involves meeting that person face to face.. If I am mistaken, correct me.. lol..

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Anna's reply:

I like the way you think.. the reason I wouldn't involve understanding in the definition is probably because I was identifying love relationships in general, despite the fact whether it was a good love relationship or not.. lol! If it was in terms of a good love relationship, well, then I guess, there are loads of other things to add, isn't there? Hehe..

Secondly, addressing your statement involving intimacy, I get what you mean. You're actually right. I totally agree with you- there has to be some sort of communication between the two. That's why if relationships are about real commitment, there will be real communication. Therefore, I summarized it as commitment, that's it. Got it? :)

Once again, intimacy is the result of a healthy relationship, but unfortunately, not all relationships have intimacy. They are therefore unhealthy relationships, but relationships nonetheless.

* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

You can gain my love, but you can't gain my respect

Today, I suddenly understood the importance of respect. All along, I thought that if you loved a person, you would automatically respect them.. I was wrong. I just realized how I can esteem someone much more than another just because of respect. In fact, I respect Joram and Aaron so much that no matter which bf I get, I will always respect them. For instance, if my bf didn't like them.. then it's just too bad because I respect them, no matter what he says. I guess that's if I don't respect my bf as much as them.

I just realized how I can like a certain guy more than another guy.. For example- Rueben. I respect him so much, that when I see other guys.. I just can't get feelings for them.. no matter how nice or spiritual they are. I guess it all comes down to respect. It DOES have a large effect on feelings. So I can't help it.. even if the guy is so darn cute.. but if I don't respect him.. like, if I thought he was still a kid.. then I just can't have feelings for him- no chemistry, you know what I mean?

All this while I asked people- "What is respect compared to love? Who could possibly choose respect over love? Respect is not important!" My ego allows me to say this- that I was wrong. It is impossible to have feelings without respect. I just realized the pattern in the people I esteem the most in life, that they all have one thing in common- my utmost respect.

What determines my respect for people? You see I respect Joram, Aaron and Rueben. What makes them so different? It is not just the experiences that they go through in life, but how they take it. For example, a few people may go through the same experience, but it is their attitude towards those experiences that determine the level of respect I have for them.

Secondly, it is their voice of reason. One of the first things that developed my respect for Vic, my elder brother, was his voice of reason. I still remember clearly, like it happened yesterday- when I was 11, I organized a camp for kids- Indoor Camping- Organizer and Coordinator- 11 years old.. (:cough: :cough: .. ego ego..) Okayyy.... so here I was.. shouting my head off at them, trying to get them to do things I wanted them to do- buying them off with candies and sorts- oh, that worked.. but I was soon running out of candies.. -what do you expect? I was only 11. My social skills developed here, at this camp. My brother told me something that I will never forget-

As I walked into the Chairman's room (that's what it used to be called- Dad's office), Vic was there- amused. Amused at the connection between my activities and my age, I assume. I gained his respect enough for him to listen to a couple of sentences I blurted out to him (he used to shut me up by "SHUT UP, you irritating freak!" or just "SHUT UP, WILL YOU?") but this time, strangely enough, he listened as if I said something of importance. He treated me like a grown adult- (respected him first for that- will come to that later), and he gave me advice (now I was amused. Vic? -my enemy? Giving me advice? Since when did he switch from big bully to older brother? Needless to say, I treasured the moment. And remembered it like it was yesterday night.)

I said, almost in defeat, but in definite frustration- "The kids are not listening to me." I plumped onto the gray sofa nearest to me. (Sounds like a husband and wife conversation, no? -shows our level of maturity at such a young age.. :cough: :cough:)

He smiled and replied, "Anna,.. respect has to be earned." I was taken aback by the words. I know I've heard it before, and he didn't just come up with it, but it was appropriate for the moment and I finally learned how to apply quotes- and the importance of it. I guess here is where I developed my passion for quotes. They just come in so handy sometimes.

See? I couldn't remember the rest of the conversation, but I guess I know more or less on how it went. I asked him how to gain respect and stuff.. Anyway, my approach to the kids changed a lot after that. I have a tool now, and I shall use it- the art of gaining respect and taking advantage of it.

So, respect has to be earned. Firstly, through experiences and developing the right attitude towards them. Secondly, by being the voice of reason. Thirdly, as I said, 'I shall continue later', well.. that later is now. The first step in gaining respect is simple- by simply treating others with respect- whether you really respect them or not. This is the foundation and first step towards gaining respect.

I am sure there are other factors which contribute to the development of respect, but I can't think of it right now.. Nevertheless, these are the three main reasons that capture the utmost respect I have for Joram and Rueben.. Of course,.. I respect Joram so much more.

Oh.. and one more thing- age is not a factor- far from it. In fact, the older a person is, the harder it is for that person to gain my respect- this is because I would expect a higher level of maturity from them, and if they don't produce it, I tend to.. despise them- yes, an obvious weakness of mine- that's why certain adults find me really rude.. I guess I have to apply the first step when it comes to them- to treat them with respect, whether or not I really respected them.

Before I end, I would like to add one more thing- sometimes, a younger person may not be as matured as me, but because that person's level of maturity succeeds that person's age, that person has my respect- but this doesn't exactly apply to Rueben because his level of maturity didn't just succeed his age, but mine and my level of maturity at certain areas. Want me to be specific? He is what I would like to call 'hardworking'- he helps his dad, catch up well in his studies, earns money all at the same time.. don't know how he does it. Financially independent to a certain extend. Secondly, he did go through some stuff in life I wouldn't have taken so positively- kind of reminds me of Joram, but not as bad. Thirdly, he definitely treats me with respect (and I guess.. every other girl too), ma'am this, ma'am that.. lolz!

* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

Quotes.. more quotes..

I've been reading a book- "with this ring, i'm confused" by kristin billerbeck, and I have a few quotes with me:

"I made a lot of mistakes I would take back if I had to do over again. But of course, I can't, so you move on."

and

" Life is full of twists and turns. We can't plot our course. We only think we can, and eventually you become content with what God gives you, or you screw it up further."

both said by the character Kay- Ashley's house-mate.



* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

Then what is a relationship?

I'm finally giving up.. finally.. finally.. I've given up trying to find God's will for my life.. I know that I am not even supposed to find in the first place.. but.. you know.. as a human, I have expectations too.. and I am so sick of it. I have finally begin to accept the fact that I will never find the guy for me, at least not anytime soon.. so currently, I just roam about.. flirting probably.. just befriending everyone normally and drooling over cute guys, but never really getting emo-involved with anyone of them.. that's the best for now.

You don't believe me, eh? Especially Xiying.. she will be like.. "Yeah, right.. Anna giving up- lol! Anna and her 'infatuations'.." hahah.. I can imagine the expression on her face matching that tone of her voice.. hahahaha.. so XiYing..

But seriously lar.. now is not the right time to get emo-involved with any guy.. I still have a lot of growing up to do.. besides,.. there are exams, assignments and boring stuff..

To all you singles out there who is interested in finding a stable relationship and settling down- what are you thinking? A relationship is not about going out hang kai everyday, seeing each other every day and talking to each other everyday.. there are better things to do in life. So what is a relationship really about?

A relationship is not about seeing each other. It is not even about accompanying each other. A lot of people have fine long distance relationships. Then what is a relationship? A love relationship is a commitment. A commitment between two people, to esteem and to love each other above everyone else. This is Anna's definition of a relationship.

The dictionary defines a relationship as an emotional or other connection between people. So I guess you have gained more understanding about the definition of relationship before you get into one, or if you're already in one- by reading this post. Thank you.

P:S- I have a love relationship with God- by my definition, of course.

* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

Driving dreams...

Here is a silly sms session with a friend of mine which went totally round the bush..

Bold : me

Eh.. Busy arh? When you coming back?

So fast mis me? Lol, on my way home.. Anything?

Where got so fast? Considered slow already la.. But much faster than you la..

Ahah, thought ur didi wil accompany u.. He's like everything to u.. Hehe

He just recovered from chicken pox.. He took me to 1u this morning, then dumped me at home and went out with his friends. Didi only, mah.. Not bf.

Ahah, so how much effort u took to look after him, he dump u home 4 friends.. Cute la u..

What cute? Like that also cute ah? I show you what is cute want or not?

Ahah, dats exciting, wads cute?

-_-" it was just a statement.. What were you expecting, dude? A mirror?

U said u wanted to show me? Dats mean! U cant juz tel ppl wad u wanna show n not showing them kay!

Wah.. First i'm cute, now i'm mean? That's not fair..

Well, dun blame me, i said u were cute, u said u wanted 2 show me cuter, n it got me excited, n now ure telling me its juz a saying? Huge disappointment! Meanie

Haha.. Well, sorry to dissapoint you, [name withheld],.. but other than me, nothing's cute..

Ahah, looks like sum1's head is growing eh! Excuse me, im cute too aite, u cant hold that title all 2 urself! Learn to share!

Fine, so i can make exceptions.. But i'm telling you.. This is as for as it goes.. My decision is final.

Ahah, aww, stingy u

It's not about being stingy.. It's about being honest.

Ahah, Thx 4 ur honesty, so tel me wad else u wanna be honest about?

What do you mean? I'm always honest.. Aren't you?

Of course.. Wad else u wan 2 noe? Lol, wad do i gain by lying eh?

I want to know what time you're coming back.. Wasn't that the first thing i asked you? -_-"

Ahah, how can i tel u dat? U cant predict wads on the traffic

Erm.. Why not?

Well, i suck when it comes to directions..

Directions? You're navigating?

Driving

Go dream..

* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

God of my forever - City Harvest Church

I just realized I found my fav artists.. CHC stuff.. lol!

E Emaj7 A B

E C#m
GOD OF MY YOUTH I REMEMBER
A B
YOUR CALL ON MY LIFE TOOK ME O'ER
E C#m
YOUR LOVE HAS SEEN ME THROUGH ALL MY DAYS
A B
I STAND HERE BY YOUR GRACE

E/G# A
ON THIS ALTAR I'VE WRITTEN MY LIFE
E/G# C#m - B
TELLS OF THE STORY I HAVE WITH YOU
F#m B
MY LORD I WANT THE WORLD TO KNOW

E Emaj7
GOD OF MY FOREVER
E7/D A - - E/G#
AND FOREVER I'M WITH YOU
F#m - B G#m - C#m
MY LIFE IS SAVED WITH A PRICE
F#m B
YOUR SACRIFICE REDEEMED MY SOUL
E B/D#
GOD OF MY FOREVER
C#m A
AND FOREVER I WILL SING
F#m - B G#m - C#m
MY GREATEST HONOR WILL ALWAYS BE
F#m - B E
TO SERVE MY LORD AND KING

GOD OF MY LIFE I SURRENDER
MY HEART FINDS ITS REST IN YOUR WORD
PRAISES WILL NOT BE ENOUGH TO SHOW
HOW MY LOVE FOR YOU HAS GROWN

NOTHING MATTERS WHEN YOU’RE HERE WITH ME
IN THE END JUST TO HEAR YOU SAY “WELL DONE”
BOWING BEFORE YOUR THRONE

C#m E/G#
FOREVER AND EVER
A B
JESUS YOU ALONE IN GLORY REIGN
C#m E/G#
FOREVER AND EVER
A B
WITH YOU I’LL WALK THIS NARROW WAY

*thanks to Cyril .. hear the song here http://www.khorst-wushu.blogspot.com/

God of My Forever
By Gan KC

Intro: D A/D G/D A

Verse 1:
D A/D
God of my youth I remember
G/D A
Your call on my life took me over
D A/D
Your love has seen me through all my days
G/D A
I stand by Your grace
F#m7 G
On this altar I’ve written my life
F#m7 G Em7
Tells of a story I have with You my Lord
A
I want the world to know

Chorus:
D Dmaj7
God of my forever
D7 G
And forever I’m with You
Em A F#m7
My life is saved with a price
Bm7 Em A
Your sacrifice redeemed my soul
D D/C#
God of my forever
Bm7 G
And forever I will sing
Em A F#m7 Bm7
My greatest honor will always be
Em A D
To serve my Lord and King


Verse 2:
D A/D
God of my all I’ve surrendered
G/D A
My heart finds rest in Your word
D A/D
Praises will not be enough to show
G/D A
How my love for You has grown
F#m7 G
Nothing matters when You’re here with me
F#m7 G Em7
In the end just to hear You say “well done”
A
Bowing before Your throne

Bridge:

Bm7 F#m7
Forever and ever
G A
Jesus You alone in glory reign
Bm7 F#m7
Forever and ever
G A
With You I walk this narrow way

These are the correct chords from KC.
_________________
~City Harvest Church~

I am willing...

Mark 1
FV1

2 As it is written in the Prophets:
“ Behold, I send My messenger before Your face,
Who will prepare Your way before You.”

I like this verse because You always prepare the way for me when You ask me to do something. You will not ask me to do something that I cannot do. You always make a way..


3 “ The voice of one crying in the wilderness:
‘ Prepare the way of the LORD;
Make His paths straight.’”

I like this verse because sometimes, You send me as a messenger to make things straight for You to come again.. You use me to put things in order for Your Kingdom to be established. And I like to be used by You. I feel very important.. like a key person.. same as when You ask me to build a school for You also.. I feel really important..


4 John came baptizing in the wilderness and preaching a baptism of repentance for the remission of sins.

I like verse because it always starts with repentance.. sometimes when I want to come back to You again,.. it starts with repentance. When I ask You to forgive me, then it is easier to come back.. now I know what to do when I feel far from You.


5 Then all the land of Judea, and those from Jerusalem, went out to him and were all baptized by him in the Jordan River, confessing their sins.

I like this verse because there was a revival. I would love to see the nations come to You from everywhere, to be cleansed by You, to come back to You.. it really touches my heart to see that. It is my desire.


7 And he preached, saying, “There comes One after me who is mightier than I, whose sandal strap I am not worthy to stoop down and loose.

I like this verse because John the Baptist was so humble.. he really put Jesus as such a high position.. even when He is his cousin. In a way, it makes me feel like I want to be like John the Baptist in the way he looks up to You.


8 I indeed baptized you with water, but He will baptize you with the Holy Spirit.”

I like this verse because You bring the Holy Spirit for me. I love the Holy Spirit and I need You everyday. Without You I cannot do anything. I really need You to guide me each step of the way. I cannot live without You, Holy Spirit. I want to do everything in the Spirit.


9 It came to pass in those days that Jesus came from Nazareth of Galilee, and was baptized by John in the Jordan.

I like this verse because You were humble.. Although You were the Christ, but You chose to put Yourself under certain authority and spiritual order and protocol. Even You put Yourself subject to it.


10 And immediately, coming up from the water, He saw the heavens parting and the Spirit descending upon Him like a dove.

I like this verse because its so nice the way Your Spirit descended. It shows Your beauty and majesty. It shows Your awesomeness. There is nothing like that in the earth. When You are with me, it's like that too. The things You do to show Your love for me is so special. Nothing is like it. You really treat me so special. That's just You and the way You treat people that You love.


11 Then a voice came from heaven, “You are My beloved Son, in whom I am well pleased.”

I like this verse because You really go all out for me, to show everyone that You love me. People can see how much You love me. You're not a person that loves me in secret, but You love me openly when I love You openly. You dare to show people. It speaks Your character a lot.. You know,.. sometime guys, when they love a girl.. they are afraid to make the first move.. and then again, there are girls who make the first move.. I guess it just speaks Your character as an individual that You are a person who dares to make the first move in this relationship. You know.. many people thought that You are a god that is very quiet and all.. but You are far from it. You are loud and outspoken. You don't care about what people think because You are God, and You act like You're God.. hehe..


13 And He was there in the wilderness forty days, tempted by Satan, and was with the wild beasts; and the angels ministered to Him.

I like this verse because in times of temptation, You bring angels to minister to me, it may be people or it may be ministering angels.. but You always provide the good in the bad times also. I guess that's You.. that's Your love for me. You can't leave me alone.. You can't stop doing nice things for me.


15 and saying, “The time is fulfilled, and the kingdom of God is at hand. Repent, and believe in the gospel.”

I like this verse because there is timing. There is always a time for everything and I know that You will tell me when is the right time. Sometimes, it's not that I made the wrong decision, I just made the right decision at the wrong time. I need You to tell me what time it is.


17 Then Jesus said to them, “Follow Me, and I will make you become fishers of men.”

I like this verse because You ask me to follow You. You chose me.. I wonder why.. I feel really touched that You want me. Among all the people in the world, You picked me to follow You. It is an honor to walk everywhere You go, and to enter into the places that You enter. To do the things that You do. To follow after Your footsteps. To be like You. To follow exactly like You.

I feel so touched that You want me to follow You. Don't I irritate You? Don't I disappoint You? Don't I make You unhappy or angry? Don't I make You upset with me all the time? But You still want me to follow You.. You don't make mistakes, right? I wonder why then did You choose me. I have so many weaknesses.. I think if I'd mention them all, I'd get depressed just writing them..

But if I have a chance to follow You.. if You give me that option, I would grab it. I would seize it and follow You with all I can. Because that is all I ever wanted and there is nothing else I want more than to follow You. What can I do in this world which can be more meaningful than that? What- catching fish? If I follow You, I can do so much more- save people. This is what You can do- You can make my life from nothing to worth something. All I want is You. I will give my all to follow You. I would leave my nets.. I would leave my family, I would leave my house to follow You. It's not a very hard thing- what is mine anyway? It's like giving a rubbish man a position as CEO of the largest company in the world- Microsoft? What's so hard?


18 They immediately left their nets and followed Him.

I like this verse because I am impressed by them that they left immediately. They didn't make excuses or ask for extra time to prepare anything. Many times, when You ask me to do something, I am like.. "err.. what? Now, arh?.. You sure? You like.. very sure?.. Why not later? Why not someone else?.." I have a thousand and one excuses. They were more than just obedient. They were immediate.


20 And immediately He called them, and they left their father Zebedee in the boat with the hired servants, and went after Him.

I like this verse because they went after You. I don't believe it, but I actually have this mental picture of them literally running after You. I can imagine them on the beach there.. running! I know it wasn't mentioned in the Bible.. It was just my imagination.. I would probably be something I would have done if You walked too fast.. I would be like.. "Hey! Wait for me!!!" I will run after You..


21 Then they went into Capernaum, and immediately on the Sabbath He entered the synagogue and taught.

I like this verse because You taught me so many things that I cannot learn elsewhere. So many things in my life.. I can't even recall all of it. I think every single thing I know comes from You. You taught me everything I know, Lord.. Everything.. that's just Your character.. You like to teach. I guess that's why everyone called You 'teacher' that time. You know.. if You are teaching then I believe that I should be teaching as well.. I should teach Your word to the class on Sundays.. because that's what You like to do.


22 And they were astonished at His teaching, for He taught them as one having authority, and not as the scribes.

I like this verse because You are different. You have something that other people don't have. You have authority. You have boldness when You speak. Everyone knows that You are the Son of God. There is an awesomeness when You speak. You are not dry and weak like the scribes.. boring and all.. but You are full of life and energy.. when people hear, they wake up! And when You speak, such revelation flows.. that's when I know if it is from You or not. I really admire You so much.. You know I like presentations and all.. and I like to speak out publicly.. although I am a shy person.. but I like it when I do something right and everyone praises me.. haha.. who doesn't? And of course I have role models too.. I admire people like my sis Debbie because of the way she used to speak in front of crowds.. I always pretend that I am her. But You are much better than that! You are like the best speaker.. You are indeed my greatest role model.. :)


24 saying, “Let us alone! What have we to do with You, Jesus of Nazareth? Did You come to destroy us? I know who You are—the Holy One of God!”

I like this verse because everyone knows You in the spiritual realm.. hahaha.. I can't imagine their faces when they see You.. It's like their greatest nightmare! It's so fun.. casting out demons and stuff.. I guess I should have been there to witness the whole thing.. It's just so cool, the way You scare them like that.. hehehe.. I think it was really cool.. nuts.. should've taken a video of it! It's so cool..


27 Then they were all amazed, so that they questioned among themselves, saying, “What is this? What new doctrine is this? For with authority He commands even the unclean spirits, and they obey Him.”

I like this verse because You not just scared the demons but the people also.. You freaked them out.. they were like.. what the.. hahah.. I guess it was really an eye opener for them.. They never seen anything like it before! It must be really fun doing stuff like that, huh.. ahh.. wish I was one of those people who supported You that time.. I would've been so proud of You and myself for following such a geng person..


28 And immediately His fame spread throughout all the region around Galilee.

I like this verse because Your face spread so fast.. You just started Your ministry only.. Everybody liked You.. they thought that You were special. I think You're special too. I'm not surprised at how people are receptive towards You.. How much they hunger.. when they hear,.. news spread so fast.. Sometimes I imagine if it happened in todays time.. hehe.. I think I'd see You on Oprah Winfrey and David Letterman shows.. You have something to give that other people don't. And this something is the exact thing that I am searching for.


29 Now as soon as they had come out of the synagogue, they entered the house of Simon and Andrew, with James and John.

I like this verse because You went to Your disciples' house. Just like You're coming to mine. I am Your disciple, right? And You want to build Your relationships with Your disciples. I appreciate the effort You make to get close to me.. and we become like one big happy family.


30 But Simon’s wife’s mother lay sick with a fever, and they told Him about her at once.

I like this verse because when there is a problem, people go to You first. And I think it should be that way.. when people have a problem, they should come to me first, because I have You,.. and when I have a problem, the first person I should go to is You.


31 So He came and took her by the hand and lifted her up, and immediately the fever left her. And she served them.

I like this verse because You took her by the hand. I always picture myself as her.. I feel so touched. It showed Your love.. It's so sweet of You to take me by the hand and lift me up from my situation.

It's the same as yesterday's devotion.. You also took the little girl by the hand. In that devotion, I mentioned "I just need You to believe in me, and I can do anything.." and I liked that phrase so much that it became my msn nick. I think You're trying to say something to me.. there are similarities between these two chapters, and this is one of them.

So in both situations, You took me by the hand and lifted me up. I thank You, Jesus for doing that for me. I really appreciate it so much. I thought that You were far away, but You were holding my hand and lifting me up. How could I not see that? You are so special to me.


32 At evening, when the sun had set, they brought to Him all who were sick and those who were demon-possessed.

I like this verse because people were crazy for You.. sun set already still want to come.. they were desperate.. just like I am desperate.. I don't care.. seriously.. I am so desperate for You..


33 And the whole city was gathered together at the door.

I like this verse because so many came, until the door there also crowded.. There is something in my heart that cannot be described. The longing I have to be wherever You are.. If You're in the wilderness, I'll go.. if You're in the house, I'll go. If You're in Australia.. -_-" I'll go..


34 Then He healed many who were sick with various diseases, and cast out many demons; and He did not allow the demons to speak, because they knew Him.

I like this verse because throughout Your whole life on earth.. this is what You did, and You were not bored of it.. I am amazed.. You just gave Yourself to the people.. You just give Yourself to me like that.. all the time spent just healing me from my stupid heartaches.. just transforming my rotten life, over and over again.. and You're not sick of it.. I wonder how You tolerate me..

I really admire You.. I really wish that I can be like You.. one day..


35 Now in the morning, having risen a long while before daylight, He went out and departed to a solitary place; and there He prayed.

I like this verse because of Your relationship with God.. You were desperate to spend time with Him too.. and I need this desperation.. If I really long for You, the compact duties of the day cannot hold me down.. because I should even wake up before that to spend time with You.


38 But He said to them, “Let us go into the next towns, that I may preach there also, because for this purpose I have come forth.”

I like this verse because You're very focused. You don't just try to please everyone. You know why You are here and You are all out to accomplish it. I admire Your focus and stability. You are not easily swayed by people. People don't tell You what to do. I wish that I could be more firm sometimes instead of letting people drive me up and down. I need more of Your character in my life.


39 And He was preaching in their synagogues throughout all Galilee, and casting out demons.

I like this verse because You are a person of regions.. You try to cover the whole region, and then go to the next region and cover it.. I don't know, but there is something territorial about the whole thing.. Sometimes You place me at a certain place, and then You bring me to another place.. and then when it's done, You bring me to another place.. but You don't bring me to another place until the whole area is covered.


40 Now a leper came to Him, imploring Him, kneeling down to Him and saying to Him, “If You are willing, You can make me clean.”

I like this verse because it was so touching.. he was so.. desperate.. when he said those words,.. my heart just melted.. "If You are willing.." wah.. I think I cry man.. if I am Jesus, I will also say.. I am more than willing.. it's like my friend to tried to belanja me makan.. I wanted to pay her back.. but she insisted.. and she said.. "It's okay.. you don't have to pay me back.. just tell me more about Jesus." ..my heart just melted to nothing.. And I will never forget that day.. I was more than willing..


41 Then Jesus, moved with compassion, stretched out His hand and touched him, and said to him, “I am willing; be cleansed.”

I like this verse because You were moved with compassion.. sometimes the things I do have to be out of compassion.. I picture it.. A leper.. no one wants to touch- came. And when it comes to healing lepers.. You always touch them.. just like when it comes to healing people on the bed, You take their hand and lift them up.. then paralyzed people, You command them to take up their bed.. there is a certain similarity.. a pattern.. I know there are explanations for each one of them.. Paralyzed people have to overcome their disbelief.. those people on the bed need someone to love them and support them.. and the leper needs someone to be willing.. to be willing to touch them.. to love them more than they love themselves when others were afraid of touching them.

When You said "I am willing.." it wasn't just "I am willing to make you clean.." but "I am willing to touch you with my bare hand.." it was that kind of willing that cleansed him. He wasn't just healed of his sickness. He was healed right there in his heart.

When the leper said.. "If You are willing.." it showed his hurt and fear of being avoided.. after so many lepers that You cleansed and all those stories, I am sure it was evident that You were willing.. he needn't ask. After all, I bet he came all the way because he heard that You heal lepers in the first place.. if not he wouldn't have been there.. but he was so hurt and all.. he had to ask first. I mean.. what made him any different from the other lepers? Why need he ask? He needn't. But he ask out of the fear of being rejected.. disappointed- hurt. That's why You were moved with compassion. Because You had compassion on his soul that was so hurt.. so broken inside.. aihhh.. now I also feel the compassion.. sigh..


42 As soon as He had spoken, immediately the leprosy left him, and he was cleansed.

I like this verse because he wasn't healed when You touched him but when You spoke that You were willing and ask him to be cleansed. But most of all, I like this verse because he was cleansed.. it was a happy story! Yay~! My favorite leper was cleansed! Hallelujah!!!


45 However, he went out and began to proclaim it freely, and to spread the matter, so that Jesus could no longer openly enter the city, but was outside in deserted places; and they came to Him from every direction.

I like this verse because it is the last verse.. and I am done! Hahaha.. just kidding.. I like it because the people came from every direction to a deserted place.. well.. I guess that place isn't so deserted after all! You changed even a deserted place to a major meeting point of people from every direction.. it was crowded! There were so many people there.. thousands.. many times, I feel that I also am deserted.. but it is only a good sign to show that You will make my life as a major meeting point and I will meet people from every direction! From all over the world.. hehe.. thank You, Jesus..



* tRUST & OBey the LORD *