I am being random

my third blog for today.. oh well..

came across an amazing blog. http://www.trevorromain.com/
a cartoonist, I believe. Read the story of his father, entitled 'Father's Day'. Very touching. He wrote about his letter to his dad.. nice. Took this pic from there:


bumped into his web by searching for pics on google

you can also visit his website. http://comicalsense.com/trevor/videos.php
Has videos of him with kids and all that. nice nice. Have yet to watch them myself. Remarkable life story, to me, at least.

Oh well, it's winter here in Melbourne and I am so so hot.. mom on the heater and i offed it but it is still so so hot and I am sweating.. God help me.

Let's blog about something else.

Okay, here is this other thing which I should have blogged about a long time ago, but delay delay until now.. Esther Lum from HUGE camp brought this up one day:

see the pic of Jesus on the cross? This is the Whirlpool galaxy.

" I really liked the speaker at the Chris Tomlin concert. Louie Giglio is a dynamic preacher, who uses a lot of word pictures...just what gets into my brain the best. His theme was the greatness of God, as the tour was called How Great Is Our God, after one of Tomlin's songs. He used the Universe with pictures up on the powerpoint screen to drive home how great the universe is and the God who literally breathed the stars into being. Then he told us about the Whirlpool Galaxy....a far off galaxy that was found using the Hubble telescope. It is a beautiful galaxy, white spirals with red jewel looking spots all through it. But at the very center of the galaxy is the most amazing picture. Usually at the center of any galaxy is a round black hole. This is what they found at the center of the Whirlpool Galaxy.



Then, after wowwing us with word pictures and visual pictures of God's awesome Greatness, he brought it down to how God is also interwoven into the smallest detail in our lives. There is a protein called Laminin which is like scaffolding of our cells...it holds it all together, like the rebar in the cement of our being. Then he showed us a picture of what laminin looks like....amazingly enough, it is in the structure of a cross. Laminin, the very protein that holds our being together, is shaped like the cross of Christ, who holds all of life together."
- by crickl http://www.angelfire.com/



amazing, isn't it?


* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

Dear Lord Jesus

I condemn myself over and over again
This life is not worth living
This life just needs to end
In front of me is
The picture of a kitchen knife
so conveniently placed in my hand

The things I've done wrong
and the people who've left me
keeps me wondering
How much I am really worth
The same old story of my past
gives me that terrible feeling
that forever seems to last
No matter how hard I try to resolve it

I can only think of death
and the life I once lived
because nobody can save me from my mistakes
although I regret everything I ever did;
I search for an answer
but the flashbacks of my memory flood my mind
so that there is no escape
from the truth that ever seeks to destroy me

Can anybody save me from my mistakes
You know I regret everything I did
Let's turn back time
Let's start all over again
but reality visits me
and I have to live with all my misery
so that there will never be a time
when I shall cease to think of death

Stop it all for me
and let there be salvation
from my everliving memories
and my never ending haunts of death
What will be of me in years to come
for how long shall I endure it
everyday is a dying day
when the past seemed to have just happened yesterday

Sing for me a poem
and recite to me a song
of freedom and new beginnings
so that the past will remain as it is, the past
and there is a hope of a future where We will be together
Hear now my prayer:

"Lord Jesus, I want to be pure,
but I don't think I can be;
I want to be made whole, Lord,
and I want to be set free;

Come, Lord Jesus, come,
come and be with me;
In this period of darkness,
It's Your eyes I need to see;

Help me, Lord Jesus,
only You can calm the raging sea;
You're the answer to all my prayers,
and You're the One who holds the key;

Let me now forget who I was,
and be all I can be,
for hope is now found,
in a new beginning of a new me;

Give me now a new name,
trust me now a new life to gain,
that I may live this life all over again,
I pray, in Jesus' name."

by ~Holy^angel

* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

Don't let anyone else tell you how much you're worth

This is how much you're worth

Take this Test to see how much you are worth:

^37 He who loves father or mother more than Me is not worthy of Me.
And he who loves son or daughter more than Me is not worthy of Me. ^
38 And he who does not take his cross and follow after Me is not worthy of Me.
~ Matthew 10:37-38 ~

But if you don't love Him more than everyone and everything else,
you were not worth it.

He who loves Jesus more than his father or mother is worthy of Him.
He who loves son or daughter more than Jesus is worthy of Him.
He who takes up his cross and follow after Him is worthy of Him.

How much am I worth:
If you passed the test, you are worth as much as God Himself.
If you failed.. ask God to forgive you then try again and keep trying until you pass.


For Tips on how to pass the test, click here.

* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

The best hug in the world

Hi mum..

I'm so sorry I took so long to send an e-mail to you, but I remember I said I was going to send you one, so here it is~! =) I guess there were just so many things to say since I arrived. I wish I could tell you everything,.. but too many things de..

:) That time when I said bye to you and "dad" at my house. Erm.. Thanks so much for that hug you gave me - it was the best hug in the world. I never got a hug like that from anyone.. other than God. But then again, God's hug is out of this world =) Thanks so much for that hug. Every time I think of it, it makes me tear.. seriously. Everytime, without fail.. (you know la.. i very fast cry. That time we watch C7 also cry.. ahah.. I every show also cry. Even funny shows - laugh until cry.

Erm.. too bad I didn't get to hug dad. Didn't know if it was appropriate or not.. ahah.. but at least I got to hug Andrew~!!! Ahahah.. I just had to la.. the notti side of me^^ but he like slumber only.. like he knows he will see me again.. ahah.. well,.. Father knows best =)

I miss helping Andrew with his homework.. =( *sniff* aihh.. the fun timez.. I love the times when we kept laughing.. ahah.. so much for looking back - I look back A LOT. Like everyday.. Don't know if it is okay to look back or not.. like.. miss home. I miss the house too.. and the whole Section 17 area.. I miss eating at the night stalls there.. and the tong sui.. and bobo-chacha.. aiyooo........

But among all the food, your cooking is the one I miss the most. Seriously. I keep thinking about the vegeeeee.... the sawi in soya sauce or something like that.. I don't believe something so simple can make me miss home so much!!! I guess it's because there's no sawi here.. and all the veggies are broccoli and cauliflower.. *sniff sniff* ...and lettuce and cabbage, carrot, zucchini and cucumber.. =( I eat the same food everyday.. I miss home-cooked food...

I tried the cheese in egg you cooked the other day, but I can't seem to taste the cheese!!! It's just not the same! How much cheese did you put per egg? What did you put inside? Soy sauce? Salt? I just put egg and cheese.. no salt, no soya, no nothing - aihhh.. silly me.. I forgot~ (see the pic of the egg and cheese - I cooked it all by myself! And put the sausage inside! - Joey's idea)

I can't wait to try out the Thai dish you learned to cook - one day, one day.. but don't know why, my family don't buy chicken breast one.. *sob sob* they buy all drumstick and chicken wing only.. I don't know why - I think it's cheaper.. I don't like.. I like chicken breast.. =(

And then don't know why - all the pizza we cook comes out burnt!!! Not one will come out okay! Even though we change the chef! No matter who cooks, we sure burnt the pizza! Makes me miss home even more!! And the fridge is stocked with frozen pizzas!!! Miss home food so much! Until that day I cannot tahan de, I told Caleb and Jie that I miss homecooked food- after I sat down at the table, then we prayed, then I look at the food my sis cooked, and although it looked nice, but I still was like.. "Aiyo.. I really miss the mom's cooking.."

And they were like.. "Why? The food here not nice, ah?"

Then I was like.. "no, la.. it's just.. different."

Then they were like.. "you learn to cook la!"

Then I was like.. "even if I cook.." Then Caleb continued for me,"the touch is not there, right?"

And I was like... "... yea :'( "

oh, well.. what to do? Just look at Andrew's pictures and drool.. ahah.. he so bad la he - that day eat Ramli Burger in front of my face~! He so bad - purposely ask to tapau and then eat in front of me!!! hmmph~ then he go and make the sound.. mmmMMMmmMMmmhhh,.. *sob*~

You know, I don't believe, after so long, I still chat with him - in fact, I think we chat more now.. I don't what we chat about, seriously..

At least I get to talk to you once a week.. you seem so busy~! I don't think you even got the time to reply this email! But take your time,.. it's okay.. no hurry.. :) Ahah.. just hope you can tell me how to cook the cheese and egg.. ahahahahah... and perhaps you have a better way of cooking the brocolli!!!! Oh yea.. did you know that there's such thing as Green Cauliflower? =D ..no, I couldn't believe it either! I ate some.. ahah.. it tastes like a cross between cauliflower and broccoli! ahah..



Oh,.. how's the car? I heard Andrew has the stuffies in safe keeping.. ahahah.. stuffy babysitter~! heh heh heh.. I owe him one, really.. oh.. did you manage to send it back to the mechanic? Ahah.. didn't think so.. but the mechanic is still waiting for it, I think..

I'm sorry to leave in such a hurry.. and had to pass all these things for you guys to do.. how very irresponsible of me.. sigh. I hope this is going to be my first and last time leaving.. the other day, I dreamt that everything happened all over again - I dreamt that I was back in Malaysia, and I had so many things to pack up and to dispose, and so many things were important to me that I wanted to keep, and I guess my 'insecurity' was really.. maximized.. that week.. and in my dream, I came back to Malaysia from Australia and had to leave back to Australia again, and it was like history repeated itself - I didn't learn my lesson - I had to say bye to people who were important to me, and yet so much packing to do that was not done, and all that haunted me in the dream again~!! Sigh.. how traumatic. Thank God it was just a dream.. then I woke up, and my mum started questioning me about my stuff back home and a cold chill just ran down my back.. yikes~ scary.

I guess it was because I had to pack alone, and no one was there to help me sort things out.. I guess sometimes I don't know how dependent I am until I am left to settle things on my own. Sometimes I can make it, but sometimes,.. like my assignments and all.. I'll just get really stressed and overwhelmed.



Anyway.. not to worry about that.. these are just things in life I have to learn from and grow up. I guess that's why God put me here in Australia. To learn how to be independent and grow up. Instead of over-depending on people..



Oh,.. you want to know what is my favourite meal here? Ahah.. you won't believe it! - sandwich~! Simple sandwich!!! Just bread with butter, tuna/ham with lettuce! That's it!! And it's the best meal here. Sounds pathetic, isn't it? Yea.. I know.. =.= but it's the best. It means I haven't got jelak of it yet.. yet. I'm still looking out for the next big thing because I know I will get jelak of sandwich very soon.. because I'm about to eat some now.. for branch.. yea.. its 4:11pm and I still haven't eaten anything the whole day.. no, la... today is special.. other days I eat earlier - no worries.. this is the first time eating so late..

I hope to catch up with you again soon.. so many things to write about, and today was mostly about food.. hope I didn't bore you out~!!! =) I did it for the pictures, so you get to see some stuff.. hehe.. ok, i go first..buhbyee

Home

Where Your love has always been enough for me..

Yes, homesick.. Miss everything, from the people, to the places to the food.

People and places I miss:

Not really the Sepang beach, though.. but my house yes. Ahah.. KDU, YES. Because somehow no matter which Uni I visit, there's still no place like home.. I miss KDU.. reminds me of XiYing and Aaron.. SIGHHHH~


Honestly, that day was the saddest day of my life. Everytime I view a picture I took in the airport or on that day, I just feel so sad.


what I left behind..


hmm,... oh.. and I left this too..


I think I left it somewhere on the floor in XiYing's house..


Should have left this at XiYing's house instead.. it's called 'Au Lik Eek'- an exotic ancient dessert..


can you believe I actually miss Vic too?


fun times.. at ming tien.. XiYing 'chiack-ing'... you know what's that? It's.. *chiak~!*

..chiack-ing.


yes, yes.. and Aaron Too.. eh.. since when did he become Mr.Too? I thought it was Mr.Tam.. ah nvm.




aih.. the memories.. sleeping partners 4evah!


Don't we rock the house down, XiYing? Oh, I forgot.. it was just the curtain.. =.=

one last one..


I can almost see the hallow on her head!!!
wanna know what else I miss? ..I miss this too..


D-Generator X aka Danielle and Da rest.. those notti bunch of fellas~!

ahah.. and I miss Simon..

one of the notti fellas..

our class was always the funnest~~



the best of the best..

you know what makes the best class? - a good teacher, well-behaved students, a very helpful assistant teacher and silence so golden, you'd think you're not just death but blind.

... lol!

And I miss..

my church buddy.. more or less the only friend I had in church.. now no fwens in church.. ='(

and I definitely miss..

helping someone with his art homework..

and I miss mom's cooking more than any other food:

mum's lovely beef... aihh.. can never get it here..

as Caleb says, even if we try to cook it, it's not the same- the 'touch' is just not there...



mum's sayur.. awwhhh.. makes me emo..

there's no place like home....