about myself

I don't believe I'm single again! And it feels so good to be single.. I have my own life to live, I don't have rules, I can grow up being whoever I want to be and not live in the expectations of someone else.. I feel more like myself now than someone's. I feel independant and characteristical(does that word exist?).. Basically, I feel myself. I don't have to dress nicely to please someone, don't have to straighten my hair out (more like being bugged by my bfs to straighten my hair out).. Hey, anyway, what's a blog for if it is not for me to talk about myself.. Seems to me i write about alot of things except what has been really happening.. Well, for those of you who still don't know whats going on, I have had 2 bfs so far, in one year. 7 months each.. The first was Adrian.. he was the same age as me and loves art. He is currently studying Creative Arts in MMU and goes to AOG in cheras. He's a great kisser i must admit, and he wasnt a gentleman until i trained him :).. but he's okay. He always refer to himself as the devil, but is really nothing like it. you can see his art work here. He is a good boy actually. He respects my decision and has respect for me. He's absolutely sweet and caring.. but it didn't work out because I felt that we were not right for each other and all. I just had to break up, which broke his heart, i guess.. *sigh*.. I'm sorry Adrian.. please forgive me. He's still my best friend till today and although I have other bfs or like other guys, he will always stand by me no matter how hard life is. I thank God I ever knew him... He's a comedian.. very humorous and all.. And I love his artwork.. I am his greatest fan and I still encourage him to carry on his art.. I think he has ALOT of potential. He's really gifted and talented. I hope more people will realize that. He's really an angel inside and not what you think, no matter what he potrays himself to be,.. He's the kind of person I can be very open to and have nothing to hide from in anything

My second bf was Jouvarn. He is from klang and is 2 years older than me. He potrays himself as an angel and all,.. but he's totally the opposite of Adrian although they both love art. His art is very good and I think he is a pro at it.. He is like a pro in everything he does and seems to be the know it all type.. He has alot of confidence in himself, smart, handsome and probably could find another girl soon.. he wants to be a pilot in MAS and i felt that he had everything in the world he needed already. He went to DUMC and always advice people on the net.. People look up to him alot. Even me at that time. He broke my heart later.. I guess I was not up to his standards.. and he didn't accept me for who I was.. until now he still thinks that I need to change to be someone better.. we still talk and all but its not so easy.. we're not open to each other and never was. There was like a barrier between us,. maybe it was pride.. I don't know. He spent alot on me when we were together although we didn't do much together.. but I think the later is more important.. well, I guess he's having a good time now.. I really don't know what else I should write about him besides the fact that he has a big.. Unfortunately, I don't have a pic of that.. but I have one of his face if you want.. here.. how wicked,.

Now i'm in love again.. sigh. How quick.. the guy I like is just sooo ...>.< and he is someone I really like.. outspoken and mature. He plays guitar and leads in worship.. He's very caring towards people and always there for you if you are hurt and going to kill yourself (like me when Jouvarn broke up with me).. and he will belanja you out, take good care of you, ask you all sorts of healthy questions until you get your blurr brain sorted out and know what you want from life.. He helped me alot.. alot. I don't know how much I should thank him.. I wish he'd stay by my side forever, but unfortunately, I don't think he's that interested,.. his taste for girls are really high class and all.. he like those really holy type and I assume that there are so many girls after him.. he wouldn't want me.. but if God willing... >.< let us now bow our heads, close our eyes,,... and dont fall asleep..

* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

Bahasa Malaysia Songs

Mengejar HadirMu

Pengarang: Sidney Mohede | Pembawa: giving my best

G D Em C
Dekat padaMu itu rinduku
G D Em C
Setiap kataku Kau pun menunggu
Em G
Tak kusangka kutemukan
C G
Satu kasih yang abadi
Em C D
Kini kudatang dan kubawa hidupku

G D
Memandang wajahMu
Em C
Mengikuti kebaikanMu
G D
Mengejar hadirMu
Em C
Dalam hidupku
G D
Membawa sembahku
Em C
Menyatakan kebesaranMu
G D
Mengejar hadirMu
G (D)
Dalam hidupku


Kau yang Terindah


Penyumbang: Edwin | E-Mail: eloviyandhi@yahoo.com | Tanggal: 06 February 2003 |


Verse1

G Am
Kau Yang Terindah
D G
Di Dalam Hidup Ini
C D Bm Em
Tiada Allah Tuhan Yang Seperti Engkau
A D
Besar Perkasa Penuh Kemuliaan

Verse2

G Am
Kau Yang Termanis
D G
Di Dalam Hidup Ini
C D Bm Em
Kucinta kau lebih dari segalanya
A D
Besar kasih setiamu padaku


Reffrain:

D G Em
Kusembah Kau Ya AllahKU
Am D
Kutinggikan NamaMU Selalu
Bm Em
Tiada Lutut Tak Bertelut
Am D G
Menyembah Yesus Tuhan Rajaku




* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

New Home, Old House

Guess what??

Yeh.. i moved, man. I'm now right here in pj community.. yeh.. I'm staying in a 2.4 Million 3 storey bungalow howse with about 20 rooms, 13 bathrooms, 2 storerooms, 2 halls, an open air drying area on the top floor and so on and so on.... actually its two howses joined together :) To tell you the truth, i was born there, then i shifted to subang jaya and stayed there for the rest of my life.. or so i twought.. 15 years. And im back here in pj.. once again, in this heritage of a blessed howse. (lemme guess.. youre stwarting to fink i cant shpell 'house' cowwecttly.. shee?? I dhidit~!)

in case you guys wanna go yam char... and since all my friends like you are here in pj or dj instead of sj, and i was missing out on all the fun for sooo long, so thats why I'm here, lor.. >.< but in the end also, only vincent, my ex-student called me out to yam char.. he sooo good you know? take me to ss2 in his red kancil and belanja me mee goreng. hehe.. and teh 'o ais... and then took me for a short drive to spend time chatting about his gf.. how nice. Anyone else wanna come and pick me? wait la.. next month when all my assignments are over.. heh..

my holiday only end of may, mah.. then got 3 months break!! heh... now i got 6 hours break... class canceled again, just like last week, and my next class is from 3-5pm..

ya know, i got a good idea.. i call it wisdom!! yesterday i asked my teacher, mr anslem if i can use the same 2 companies for all my assignments!
-because Manangement requires us to do a study on 2 local companies listed in the stock exchange,
-and Directors and Shareholders requires us to do the same, thats 2 assignment thats due in the mid of may,
-and the third assignment is IT skills but due in Oct. and we have to start gathering info for 6 months on 2 shares/ 2 local or international company..

so i thought i just get the same companie, la! so mr anslem said, "yeah.. save your time"..

well.. what else? i also went jungle trackking last saturday. can you believe that?? well, i'll talk about that another day.. right now, i must concentrate on my assignments first... (we started off at TTDI and ended up in Seri Hartamas because we got lost in the jungle with the mosquitos..eeekkk..) >.<

* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

Could I Ever

When I woke up today
And thought of all the things you’d done
I find myself here
Feeling oh so overcome

You gave Your life away for me
Truly my heart belongs to You
So let me say

Chorus:
How could I ever thank You for

What You did at calvary
When You bled & died for me

How could I ever turn away
Knowing that You paid the price
That I could never pay

When I think of the way
That You died upon that cross
Bearing my sin
Even when my heart was lost

You gave Your life away for me
Truly my heart belongs to You
So let me say

Chorus


Intro
D | D/A | D | D/A |

Verse 1
| D
When I woke up today
| D/A | G/B | G Em11 |
and thought of all the things you'd done
| D
Then I found myself here
| D/A | G/B | G Em11 |
Feeling all so over come

Prechorus
| A | Em7 | G | Bm7
You gave your life away for me
| A | Em7
Truly my heart belongs to You
| G
So let my say

Chorus
| D | A/D | Bm7
(How) could I ever thank You for
| G | Bm7
What you did at Calvary
| A | Em7
When You bled and died for me
| G | D | A/D | Bm7
How could I ever turn away
| G | Bm7
Knowing that You paid the price
| A | Bm7
That I could never pay

Verse 2
| D
When I think of the way
| D/A | G/B | G Em11 |
That You died upon that cross
| D
Bearing my sin
| D/A | G/B | G Em11 |
Even though my heart was lost


* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

The PARENTS are in the HOWSE

Guess what?!

My parents came to college today to have lunch at CAFE 87. Wanna know where is that? It's in my college. Well, of course, I invited them, if not who knows these restaurants actually exist, right? Well, for those of you who dont know about my college, there are 3 restaurants, excluding the cafeteria.. they are Cafe '87, Connexions and Windows of Damansara.

Cafe '87 is the early bird located on the ground floor together with Connexions and the Cafeteria. Why do I call it the early bird is because its the first one open in the morning to catch everyone who is waiting for the elevator to go to their classes.. They normally send people to approach us, asking something like.. "Excuse me, would you like to have a look at our menu for today.. blah blah," passing us a bookmark size menu to keep. Normally, we would just smile and take it, then rush off to class and try to read the imprints. Sometimes the menu would be printed on a red, orange, yellow, green or white piece of paper with black ink. Today, it happened to be not only white, but belonging to one of the past week's one. I knew that because they had cancelled the former date with a pen and put todays date on it. In other words, today's wasn't as impressive as the previous days one. Usually, I would start thinking of my sis and mum, wondering if one day they would want to come here to have a bite because the prices were so reasonable.

So today, I had the opportunity to do just that. I smsed my mum and invited my parents over. So the appointment was made and we went from Windows of Damansara to Connexions to Cafe '87. How did that happen? Well, my mum came and informed me she had to leave by 12.30pm. At that time, it was already 11. We were walking towards Cafe '87 when i saw the look on my mums face that she was not at all impressed with its surrounding.. the crowd, the heat and the noise. So, that made me resort to the idea of taking them upstairs to the more reserved WoD. When i told my mum there was another restaurant with a better ambience, she was like.. "Better ambience? Where??"

Okay,. let me tell you abit about Wod.. at first, i never knew it existed. Until one day, my friend Andrew from kdu took me upstairs and said on the way up, "Do you know there is a restaurant upstairs?" And i was like.. "what?" and he said,.."yes, come let me show you" And that was it.. we went upstairs and i saw two body guards waiting there asking us with a coat and tie and all, "Do you have any reservations for today?" I was like,.. man this IS freaky.. At that point of time, i felt like i was standing in front of the gates of hell.. you know, those creepy yellow dim lights on either side of the door and all.. man.. scary people. Anyway, we just ran off like two frightened pariahs with skin desease being chased by a mad man.. (just kidding). Anyway, Andrew informed me that the food in WOD is just the same as Connexions because they are the same cook and all.. its JUST THE AMBIENCE. And the food is about the same price too.. because its JUST THE AMBIENCE!

So i took my parents upstairs using the lift. When we reached, i was like.. "Oops.. I think they're closed.." So i walked up the stairs and saw a meeting of chefs and waitresses inside. So i knocked on the door and called one out. A beautiful waitress came.. with her companion.. another beautiful waitress, and they attended to my needs..

" Yes, may I help you?"

so i said "what time do you open?"

"we open at 12, would you like to make a reservation?"

"yes, erm. arh.. " turning my head towards my parents, "mum? they open at 12."

my mum said, "no no no.. i cant afford to be late. Can you open now?"

the waitress was like.. "no, im sorry,.. you have to wait till 12"

so my mum said "ok then, lets go somewhere else.."

so thats it! they just lost their customer for today.. we went down the lift again. Saw that lively CF member in the lift AgaIn.. i said "hi" then she just replied. whats her name?.. argh. forgot. then my mum was like.. "Is this the same girl who came up with us in the lift just now?" and i was like "Yup.." you got that right.. so then we went to connexions and they too were not open, but i didnt wanna ask them with my parents there all embarrased, so i asked them to wait near cafe 87 and Ill ask connexions for them.

Connexions turn for me to introduce to you all.. Connexions has this glass wall that shows the world whatever is going on in there. I havent been to connexions before, but it certainly looks inviting although i dont feel like i want to be someone who sits in there so that everyone can see me eat my food. (dont think i have the appetite for that now, do i?), nevertheless, it is really lighted up. Always reminds me of my sis, Debbie who is always lighted up and very inviting, all her ways and doings are exposed to the world to see. But still so bright.. How do i explain? All i can say is,.. she's just like what Connexions look like. Pretty, inviting and bright.

So then we moved on to our last resort.. de ole' Cafe 87. We went in and took a sit beside the wall, and there we had our lunch. Dad ordered spagetti with meat balls.. well this wasnt the beef balls they use to have which was extremely salty.. he said this one was chicken.. Mum ordered steak which was just another 50c more, and she said wasnt really good quality because it wasnt really fresh.. then i ordered lasagna although i didnt want to eat anything because i had a heavy breakfast.

In the end, we were served plastic spoons which the waiter had to change for us for fear we broke them.. and soup was served in a CUP and the creamer and sugar was not only placed OUTSIDE the cafe, but not in packet form but liquid form. Despite all their weaknesses, the waiter was good.. he attended to all of our needs and he paid for us so that my parents didnt have to go to the counter and he went out of the cafe to put some cream into our coffee. The food and coffee was good, though. It was just the inconvenience and the way the stuffz were served.. Oh, and my salad came out like.. a small soury.. nvm, but lasagna and chips were okay.

I didnt manage to finish everything, so we tapaued the rest of the lasagna, mum finished my chips for me, and helped me with abit of the salad and dad ordered one more spegetti and lasagna for the kids at home and Jie Debbie..

Then, it wasnt enough.. he had to go to The Cafeteria to order chap fan for Caleb.. which i still dont get.. and then i walked them to the car,.. so thats about what happened today.. well of course, how could i forget the part when my mum said to me, "no one brought us here before.." because my Jie Ebbie and Kor Elijah used to be in this college too... well, maybe it was because the food was like really bad and all...

ooops .. class in the lab.. gtg

* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

How did this bg come about??

I couldnt sleep this morning, so I opened up illustrator and decided i should get to work on the backgroud because it totally looked awful.. so off to work i went, using the brush to extend the colours of the picture to make it look bigger.. nothing much.. but every brush stroke counted and i actually made sure it was the perfect size for the perfect spot.. in the end, the result came out like that..

I wonder why everytime we do something for a client, it always turns out professional and nice but everytime we do something for ourselves.. ,,,, nvm.

I do wish it would be better, though.. well, i guess youll have to wait for another sleepless night before i get to do the next bg!



* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

"Most embarrasing day of my life.." and "i walked to the bus stop just to help a boy scoup his turtle and went home"

Yesterday was the most embarrassing day of my life.. my management teacher, Mr Rose, was teaching about Motivation. At that point of time in the chapter, he was specifically talking about money as the main motivation.. and so he asked one of our classmates, whose name was Johan(John in Malay) and said, "If i were to give you $5,000 US to go to Acheh, where the tsunami just hit and is predicted to be the next location and most likely to be hit again, would you accept the offer?"

of course, he didnt want it.. so Mr Rose went on explaining that if it is putting your life in danger, money is not everything after all. Then he asked another person a very similar question...

"would you accept the offer of $6,000 US to go to a place where there are alot of booby traps?" and he also declined..

so here comes the tragic part,.. then he asked me, "Anna, the innocent girl there, would you accept an offer to be a Non-Government Organisation representitive(NGO) if i gave you $10,000 US to Iraq?"

well, at that time, all my friends were looking at me and i was trying hard not to blush,.. there was like 70-80 people in my class, okay? so i wasn't really listening to him.. all i heard was.. "would you accept,.. Non-government Organization.. Iraq" so i thought he meant terrorist.. so i said yes and smiled...

Mr Rose continued.. "No, right?" then he saw me nodding with excitement and said "OH!... she wants! Anna says yes! Anna, you are a VERY metirialistic person!!"

and all i could say was.. "mwahhahaha..."

man.. and i was wondering why not much laughed..


well, do you know what he meant by NGO?.. as Mr Rose used to say,.. "If you want to know, have a cup of tea with me and i will explain it to you.."

(fortunately enough for me,.. 75% of the class didnt know either..)




Just now i was supposed to go to the AYA thingy in Summit.. was wathing tv until i was late, then i had my bath until i was extra late and waited for the bus until there was no hope left. haha.. so i didnt make it. but as i reached the bus stop which was in front of someone's house, there was this newspaper covering some small dead animal on the road and a boy with a scraper and plastic bag heading towards it. At first i thought it was a cat or bird, as a car tried to avoid it, and the boy kindly stood up and gave way to the car to cross.. so as i approached him, I asked..

"What happened?" he looks like a malay boy, but it didnt matter.. so he looked up to me and answered,..

"Huh?" so i asked again..

"What happened?", then sadly, he replied..

"My turtle.."..he sounded kind of sad..

i thought to myself.. thats kinda big to be called a turtle

so the wind blew and the Carrefour plastic bag he carried started to be blown away, before i could go to the other side of him and catch it, he already got it, but i went over and held it for him..

so i asked, "How old is it?"

and he replied, "3-4 years already"

i felt even more for him then..

as he scooped up the broken body into the plastic bag, he said "omg.." because the sight of the shattered shell and all was totally awful, after all, it was a big turtle, almost a foot long and it has been his friend for a many 3-4 years now.. I really hoped I could do something for him at that time.. so he said thanks as i waited for him to put down the scraper and tools and passed the body now in the plastic bag to him..he tied the plastic bag, put it down, then went into the front of the house to take a small cangkul, pick up the platic bag again and headed towards the monsoon drain..

I thought to myself.. now, he is going to bury it. should i follow him or.. so i just waited to see where he was going.. if he goes a long way then he probably doesnt want me to follow, but if it was a short distance, like across the road then i can afford to follow.. so i watched, and he crossed the drain and stopped at the slope going upwards to the other side and started digging.. i really wondered why he chose that spot, though.. but i didnt follow, because i wasnt sure if i would make it across the monsoon drain and whether my shoes was able to support me, so i left him and waited at the next house for the bus,.. he finished the burial, and the bus never came. Then, he went into the house. I never got to talk to him again, but at least i know i came to the bus stop for a reason although i had to go home now. I came to help someone with a broken heart to scoup his turtle from the road into a cold plastic bag..

* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

DATELINE!!! :: 3pm

Well, as some of you know, I am a part time designer..(kekeke) and as a designer working for my bro-in-law, Caleb, I have datelines too! Its because he has to hand up his projects to his clients like within one week.. or less..

so my dateline was at 3pm. I already handed in one set of labels the evening before my dateline, but Caleb said he needed two more sets. So that night I woke up like 2.30am to rough some things out as I thought to myself,

'Hopefully, connection will come back in the morning so that I can send an attachment to myself and make it look nicer when I am in school'

I had to do it in school now, because I couldn't find the serial number on the cd in order to install photoshop.. silly me didnt check the disk itself.. i checked the folders, the cover and all but not the actual disk!

well, the next day, connection didnt come on.. and i was late for school. so i tried to burn it and the burner couldnt detect the rw disk i put in. So, my bro vic- the genius who was supposed to fetch me to school asked me to reboot. and it DID detect the driver and the disk.. so i finally got to work, and just when i placed my cursor on the button to burn the disk... guess what happens.. connection comes back on! HALLELUJAH!! and so i decided to cancel that idea, save my disk and send that email!

it worked and soon i was off to school.. once again, going in from one com lab to another because there was only one lab which had photoshop in it, and that was none other than.. lab B (again).. and that lab was TAKEN!.. so i spent the next hour waiting for their class to end and soon after that hour, another class pops in.. oh. thats just great! so i decided to go back to the cafeteria and see if nic and annie was still there, sending an sms to jouvarn to check my mail for me and fwd it to caleb on my behalf because all the com labs were occupied already! and jouvarn was one of the two people who still knows my email password..(or so i thought)

well, he agreed and i saw nic sitting in the cafeteria all alone.. pity him la,. he was waiting for annie for one hour already since i left for the com lab until now. and he was doing nothing but reading a book and a Bible but his head was directed at everything else.. and he said he was hungry but refused to eat even when i tried to tempt him by eating a sandwitch right in front of his face, because he was waiting for annie... how sweet,. when annie finally came almost another hour later, she felt sooo bad.. anyway, when she came, here comes joram too and he asked me to follow nic and annie to One U to buy some snacks for the picnic, and i agreed.. because i was originally invited to follow them by nic, but when he found out that my class was at 3 and it was already almost 2, he said nicely.. "byebye!".. (of course when annie found out she said he was 'very bad').. haha,.. good. I also thought joram was going but nvm... i really enjoyed myself there. Nic and annie were like the greatest jokers in history and i almost peed in my pants laughing.. almost!!

so then i got home later after college and met up with jouvarn online who told me you know what?? HE FORGOT MY PASSWORD!! and he had no credit to sms... i was like.. "YOU WHAT???" and i told him about my dateline and he was like.. "your dateline to caleb??" so i explained everything to him and bit myself for not letting him know earlier. then i told him that my job was at risk because if caleb finds out that i have no integrity then he might not hire me anymore because datelines are very important in a business world.. and i need that job. its like the only job i have left.. i cant afford to loose it. so he apologized.. he didnt know about it anyway. and i send the mail on my own.. i did wonder, though why caleb didnt say anything about it if i didnt send the mail on time..

when caleb actually came back, i questioned him about the mail and guess what!! he said he didnt have connection either, so he didnt check!!! HALLELUJAH!!!hahahahahahhaahahahahahahahaha....*phew!



so thats all for today..

* thank God for EVERYTHING *

Thank You, Jesus for giving me my assignment back!!!

It was a close one!!!! *phew!

Yesterday night, i smsed my good classmate, Lee and told him my anxiety..

" I left my diskette in the computer lab!!! Aaarrrghhh.... "

then he replied by saying,..

" Don't worry, you will find it."

then i was like thinking..

no way! KDU is notorious for taking anything that is usable around them no matter whose it is!

Honestly, i didnt believe him at all!


Then this afternoon, during my 3 hours break, i walked into the com lab, totally forgetting that i had lost my diskette, as all KDU people know, there are 5 usable com labs and lab B has almost 40 computers.. i lost my diskette in lab B, but the reason i chose to use lab B this time was because i had to do some designing work on adobe illustrator which my dateline was tomorrow(i work as a part-time designer for my brother-in-law, Caleb).

There were people already using the computers and i just went around searching for an available one, as would our normal routine be when looking for a computer to use..
So, i walked from row to row and spotted a computer near the wall and i told myself, "Hey, thats the same computer i used last week. Maybe i'll feel comfortable sitting there.." (I totally forgot that i left my diskette there). Then only as i sat down, i remembered, "I wonder if my diskette is still here.. God, please let my diskette be here.." So i checked A:/ but it wasnt there, then i checked the computer next to mine, but it wasnt there either.. then i just lifted up the keyboard.. and LO AND BEHOLD!! IT WAS THERE!!!! hahahahaHAHAH!!! PRAISE THE LORD!

Then, my di di in malacca, mic gave me this chapter to read :: Psalm 129

hehee... okie.. better do my work now.. dateline tomorrow!


* tRUST & OBey the LORD *