taken from Salman in his post titled "One Pakistani Lover is still in Malaysia" in Friendster Bulletin Board
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Love Letter
Afzal Khalid abasi was deeply in love with a pretty
foreign girl Monmon (Myanmar girl) whom he
wanted. But he did not have the courage to talk to
her in person. So he decided to go alone and with
the help of a dictionary, he wrote a letter of
proposal to her.
HE WROTE:
Most worthy of your estimation after a long
consideration and much mediation. I have a strong
indication to become your relation. As to my
educational qualification, it is no exaggeration or
fabrication that I have passed my matriculation
examination; no doubt without any hesitation and
very little preparation. What do you say to the
solemnization of our marriage celebration
according to the glorification of modern civilization
and with a view to the expansion of the population
of present generation?
On your approbation of the application, I shall
make preparation to improve my situation, and if
such obligation is worthy of consideration it will be
our argumentation of the joy and exaltation of our
joint dissimilation.
Thanking you in anticipation and with devotion, I
remain victim of your fascination.
Monmon REPLY (SHE WROTE)
Dear Mr. Victim of my fascination,
Congratulation for your lengthy narration of course
full of affection aimed at an affiliation for a
combination which on examination I find is a fine
presentation of your ambition. You have passed
your matriculation with little preparation, what
about my graduation after a long botheration, so
improve situation in education and make an
application by acquisition of post graduation and
minimum qualification for the convocation and
before taking your photo for circulation undergo
beautification. Further strict observation of the
following conditions is the regulation for the
determination of our relation.
1. Consultation of my parents before approaching
for my connection.
2. Communication of your confirmation that you
are not a victim of any fascination and,
3. Procreation must not be your recreation.
In anticipation of a solid action instead of
continuation of paper conversation.
I Remain, Unaffected by your affection.
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* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
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* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Saturday, June 18, 2005
Dialogue - Coffee with three guy friends at night
Location :: Coffee - Great Time, Great Taste
Time :: 11.30pm
Calvin : So where are you from?
Anna : Kuantan
Calvin : (Looks at Aaron) She's from Kuantan? Are you sure?
Aaron : (Smiling) ....
Anna : Haha..
Calvin : So, you're in the same uni as Aaron?
Anna : Erm,.. yupe..
Calvin : So, where are you from?
Anna : (Thinks a while) ... (Sincerely) I don't know..
Calvin : Wah.. How come you don't know where you come from one?
Anna : Haha.. (feels like slapping herself on the face)
Aaron : ...
Later,...
Calvin : So, where did he bring you?
Anna : To the beach!
Calvin : Oh, the beach.. Got see anything nice anot?
Anna : Got! (Thinks for a while..) Monitor Lizard~! :D
Calvin : (Surprised) Monitor Lizard?~!
Anna : Yaap~!
Calvin : How big was it?
Anna : (Arms opens wide) This BIG~!
Calvin : Wah,.. got that big ah?
Aaron : Yeah, (nodding head) she really saw a monitor lizzard that big..
Calvin : You go to the beach, see monitor lizzard?
Anna : (nodding head excitedly)
Calvin : Okay,.. what else did you see?
Anna : (Thinks a while..) Ermm... Snake~!
Calvin : Snake~! Wah all reptiles only arh?
Anna : Yap~!
Calvin : Wah.. where else did he bring you? Beach only ah? No other place meh?
Anna : (Thinks very hard) Where else arh...
Calvin : He got bring you to Sg Lembing anot?
Anna : Uhh...
Aaron : I know she don't like those kind of things wan.. she don't like to climb mountain one. So I didn't bring her lor..
Calvin : Oh, he must have bring you to Megamall all that right?
Anna : Got ah? (Thinking summore) Erm.. at night got la.. watch movie only.. Where else did we go arh..
Note :: Anna really didn't go anywhere else other than to the beach and to Megamall to watch Madagascar. She had a great time relaxing at home with the guitar and the bed for 4 fruitful days :P.. She went to the beach 3 times in that trip and enjoyed herself thoroughly.. Aaron also brought her to the river even at the first day of trip and belanja her makan almost the whole way starting from here at the river where he showed her real 'Aquas'. The waitresses there were actually Aquas~! And the river was so peaceful there, not like the KL river, full of rubbish. In KL, these kind of places will be thoroughly polluted and alot of people will be there. It will also be the most happening place. But here, it was quiet and calm. I even saw two guys fishing and playing chess in the moonlight just beside the river. We ate fried rice and he gave me extra ingredients.. After that, he took me to the beach a while,.. he was amazed that he didnt go for just two months, and already the car park is different.. we didnt know how to come out~!!
when we arrived there, i was like.. "are we at the beach?"
and he was like, "no, this is not the beach."
and i saw mcDs there. so i said, "yeah right, got Macdonals there, dont try to bluff me, i know this is the beach~!!"
and he said, "wah, you came that time got Macdonals already that means you didnt come too long ago lar.."
at the beach, we saw so many couples hanging out there.. then after enjoying the breeze at one of the benches there, we went back. On the way back, in the car, he went on babbling about how good Kuantan was and opened the window..
Aaron : Here at night, when you can hear the crickets one,.. Verrrry peaceful,.. (Opens the windows)
Anna : Hmm,... Really got wohh..
Aaron : You see my house, very near to the beach one..
Anna : Is it?
Aaron : (Still driving, points to one of the houses) This is one of my friend's house, I always come here to play football with him one, his house so near my house. He is a very nice guy..
Anna: Ooo..so nice,..
Aaron : Last time, my dad and I used to chase wild boars around here, (he pointed to the jungle on the left)
Anna : Wah, really arh..
Aaron : Very easy to go to my house only.. You see the kindergarden here?
Anna : Yeahh..
Aaron : (Moves towards the house right beside it) This is my house..
Anna : Wow..okie.
Aaron : (Parks the car) That's lizzie..
Anna looks up and sees a white dog with long fur.. and droopy ears. So that was Lizzie~! Hehe... At the other end of the car was another dog - a black one. And then between them were a small brown cute little Puppy~!
I came out and they all came to the door to greet me.. Eeee... so cute.. And then we went to the house. The dog followed us all the way.. until the front, and we didn't want the dog to come into the house, so he quickly opened the door, and said, "Quick, get in, get in.. wear your shoes in." So, I hurriedly went in with my slippers, and he came after me, then i saw his Ah Poh there..(Grandma). She was watching tv, but she saw me, so i waved. And then i asked him, "Can she speak english?" He said, "No, she can't." So we went upstairs..
Then we passed the study table, and passed by his room, he said, "This is my room."
I was like, "Okay."
Then he brought me to another room at the end of the corridor, and said, "This is your room."
So I asked, "Everybody sleep already arh?"
And he was like.. "Yeah, lor.. So late already.."
So I was like.. "Okie.." and went into the room with my heavy bag and red file. Then I saw the computer there, just like he said last time, 'The computer is in the guest room'. So i parked my bag there and sat on the bed. It was a queen sized bed with blue and white checked sheets and a little bit of flowers at the sides. It was really comfy. His lap top was parked there too, on the table, beside the com. This was great... All i ever needed..(so called), computer, bed. computer, bed. yay~! I am at home~!
what i really like was that he accompanied me in the room, didnt just leave me there, like what i did to my friends who came to my house, even my bfs.. i just dumped them somewhere and run away.. but he sticked to me all the way, which really was sweet and make me feel more than welcomed. It felt good. So then, i knew i wasnt alone. So then, he showed me all his songs he had.. so many!! Relient K, Audio Adreline.. and then he played afew and let me hear.. He parked on the bed and said, "Use my lap top la, if you want." I was like.. Use your lap top? Somehow, no one was so nice to me before. Somehow it sounded new. I've never heard it before. I know it may not sound anything to you, but to me, it was new. I came to Kuantan to really experience new things. Taste new food,(Ki Cap Mee and Fish Curry Puff), meet new people (Kai Mui, Calvin and Micheal), see new things(Monitor Lizard, Snake, Madagascar and 3rd bay), hear new things (Silent night and crickets only night), Learn new things (guitar and new songs).. I can you all about them. Most of all, i learn alot about Aaron himself..*hint *hint. Hehe,.. of course by the 5th day, Aaron found out my TrUe CoLoUr, wanna knoe? Ask Aaron~! Kekekeke.. :P
And so i checked mail, went on lelong, chat abit, and then Aaron was sleepy.. he was like.. "I want to sleep already.. very tired.. you use my computer first la. you can use my msn also if you want." i was like.. your msn?? really ah? so then i was like.. "okay. You dont want to use meh?" And he was like,.. "Youre here already, no need la.." i was like.. "yeah hor...true also" so since he let me use his msn, i did just that. but i didnt chat with anyone, i just left his msn running in case one of his friends want to leave a message for him, anyway his nick already put there || KO ||, so his friends should be able to get the message. Then halfway doing some stuff, joram came online,.. i was like uh oh,..... nvm. Doesn't mean he will chat with aaron right? after a while,.. a message from joram appeared. i was like.. "he is sleeping, sorry" and he just said "ok" and then didnt hear anything from him. then later, his fingers got itchy.. "who is that? abelene?" and i thought.. abelene? who is abelene? sounds familiar.. sounds like audio adreline, but thats a group band. he doesnt mean that, does he? and then i was like.. "who is abelene?" and he was like "his sister. are you outstation?" i was like.. he asked if i was outstation, not if i was from outstation... so .. "yeah." and then he asked, "do i know you?" and i was like,.. "yeah. if you know who is this, you wouldnt be talking to me right now." and he was like, "anna?" and i was like... "yeah" so chatted abit then he had to go. Then soon i also went to sleep already..
The next morning i woke up with alot of clinging and banging coming from just outside the window.. "BOOM~!" *Men shouting at each other **Giant Machines roaring... Guessed whats that? Yupe~! Construction~!!! Hehe.. Right at the back of the house where my room was.. nevertheless, i was ok.. it was about 8am. I tried to sleep, but couldnt. Tired as i was, it was noisy.. Then about 1 hour later, Aaron opened the door. Aaaah.. finally. Saved! and immediately, he was like "wah... so noisy wan arh?"
i was like.. "yeahlor~!!!" *complain complain..
then he was like "wah.. i didnt know woh, i go for two months already like that."
i was like.. "your room cannot hear wan meh?"
he was like.. "cannot woh.. wah... this morning my mum wake me up, fetch her to work.."
then he play guitar already, and then i started to take a kids pack of cards and we play some stupid game..hahah. i make him play one.. in the end both of our sets also dont have the correct pair and i take his card and he pick my card, and the game can never end because not all the cards there have a pair.. haha. teruk. everything left was single cards, and we didnt know..
"your bros and sis le?"
"all in school lor.."
i was like.. "ooh..." and then time for me to wash up~! so then i washed up and changed.
he asked, " you want to eat breakfast?"
" i dont normally eat breakfast wan woh.. you know la.. my breakfast at night one.."
"nvm..come we go and eat breakfast, i bring you to the shop near my house.."
"okie!!"
thats how we got ready to go for breakfast~! We went downstairs and out the door, the dogs were greeting us at the main door already~!! so lively and friendly and all.. so we tried to get out without letting any of them in, especially the smallest one, easiest to get in.. and then where was my slipper? it was in the shoe drawer nearest to the door.. the maid mustve placed it there. his slippers was also outside already.. so then we walked out the small gate and just to the shop 'opposite the house'. i say it is 'opposite the house' because its not exactly opposite, but thats what aaron uses to describe the distance it is from the house, it is really just that near, like across the road on the left, but not exactly opposite, more like beside, after the kindergarten. we took like less than 1 minute to reach the shop from the front of the house and then he ate Ki Chap Mee.. I think thats the first time i saw Ki Cap Mee. its basically noodles with lotsa ingredients in tomato sauce. his had alot of ingredients because he like to order the one with alot. i ate nasi lemak because i thought it was the cheapest thing there (as usual) and it was already ready, so i didnt have to wait (i was so hungry).. and then i drank soya bean in the box one. He didnt order a drink, but then the man just came and placed teh ais in front of him. then he said, "i no need to order one, the teh ais just come like that.."
i was like.. "ooo" because he went there so many times already.. no need to order.. hehe..
then he talked about the movie he watched, 'Shrawshrank' and a sermon he watched by Pastor Joseph in singapore about astronomy and he talked alot about it. Finally we decided to go back home and watch. which is what we did immediately when we got back. we went to the master bedroom, and there was a tv there and a one-seater couch and a massage chair next to each other in front of the tv. so we watched the sermon, which is how God used the stars as a sign to us. It starts with the virgin mary with the star 'Virgo' and ends with the Lion of Judah 'Leo', i can talk alot about it,.. later when i have clear clarification from my authority. But it honestly sounds realistically spiritual.
after the show, i was supposed to see his kai mui and go out with her, the three of us shopping.. but then i was so sleepy.. and i thought it will be good if he went out with his kai mui alone because she mustve really missed him, he just came back from kl only and didnt have a chance to go out with him.. i was like.. "im so sleepy.."
and he was like.." go and sleep la..".
he didnt compromise at all..so i thought he really wanted to go out with her alone.. so i said "okie" and went to sleep without seeing his kai mui.. aaron closed the windows for me(they were still having construction) and on the air cond for me and closed the door also.. so good hor? i slumber only crash on the bed.. i was only hoping he brought his kai mui back to see me at home, because i really wanted to see her..but slim chances also.. so i was thinking and thinking if i did the right thing or not.. and then he left so fast.. so i tried to sleep, too late already.. but it was still noisy.. so i had an idea.. i on audio adreline and went to sleep immediately~!! haha..
i woke up with two happy youthful voices in the room calling me.. i opened my eyes and guess what? yes, audio adrelien was still on happily singing away, but then there was this young girl standing in front of me with a bag full of famous amos cookies~!!!! hehehe... and the air cond was still so cooling and refreshing.. on my right was aaron at the bed there.. *yawwnnn *stretchhhhh...
then aaron go and kacau me,.. he said something about joram one.. and then i hit him kau kau.. whack him like anything in front of his kai mui.. i never hit him so much before... she just watch only..
after that aaron said at night he wanna go watch madagascar.. so he asked me, "anna, wanna watch madagascar tonight anot?" so i thought michel is going, so i was like "okay", so he said, "go and check what time is the show, go to the webpage there and find" and i was like "which webpage, wah.. now use me already la.." the show was 9.45pm.
hehe.. she was a great girl.. i love her so muchh.. aaron will be like.. *ahem *ahemmm.. hehehe.. she bought the chocolate famous amos cookies just for me.. she offered me the cookies..
i said politely, "no, thanks.."
aaron was like, "eh, she bought the cookies just for you, you know.."
i was like.."really meh.."
then he said, "really one.. take lar.."
"ok.. ok.." so i took.. i took 2~! so nice.. mmmmmmmmMMMMMMMMMMmmmmmmmm.. hungry yet?
you know why i like her so much? because aaron later said that she really wanted to buy me the cookies one.. she was like "i want to buy for jie jie anna.." and then i was like.."really..ah." and then aaron said she also wanted to buy a bear, same like his one.. he said no need.. >.<
i actually wanted to bring something for her before i went, and then i forgot... aihhhhhhhhhh..................................................................
honestly, she looks like she is older than me,.. thats why i also dare not talk to her much that day.. (sorry aaron..) because i scared she dont respect me as a jie.. i respect her too much already.. after that i went to the bathroom a while and then come out, the two of them wanna go out already, and then on the way out of the bathroom, i heard aaron say, "aah.. she can take care of herself wan la.. dont worry.. she got guitar got computer, happy already, can stay here whole day.." then she was like.. "really arh?" then he said "yeah lor.." the two of them running down the stairs... i knew they were talking about me because he mentioned the words 'she', 'guitar' and 'computer', and then i was wondering how aaron know me so well.. he was right. then when they saw me out of the bathroom, he was like, "anna, we go out first ya?" i was like.. "okay".. then.. eyer.. go out.. dunno where he go..never tell me how long also.. leave me here arh? but i am the guest woh.. like that la.. got his kai mui already no need me la.. what i want to do now? so bored.. aaron not online also.. he go out with his kai mui already, now what to do online.. computer got also no use.. aihh.. go lelong until bored liao . so i waited for them to come back lor.. wait until cannot wait already, sms aaron.. "wei.........................." because i have no idea where they went or for how long i want to wait.. you know that kind of feeling when youre like a small kid and your parents went out of the house and you dont know where they are or when they are coming back or what they are doing.. and youre bored to death? that was how i felt.. so he called back and said "what happened?"
so i answered "where you all go la.."
then he said "i am fetching my mum now", in a serious tone..
so i was like "oh ok."
then when he came back, he was without his kai mui.. then i was like.. "eh, where is she?"
so he said "go back already lor~! and then i fetch my mum here.."
i was like.. "oh" left two of us again.. and i didnt even manage to spend time with her..
i remember before she came, we were on the phone with her, and he called the house, "Hello, Michel please?"
then when she picked up the phone, he suddenly pass to me, i also havent prepare yet. simply hook up something.. "Hello?"
Michel said "Hello? Who is this?"
I replied, "Erm.. your boyfriends sister.."
and she was like "who is this? my boyfriends sister???" in a serious tone. so i takut already. faster pass back to aaron the angry voice..
and aaron was like, "thats anna, la.. sorry arh.." then he like want to kutuk me already.. "why did you say that youre her bfs sister??"
i also dunno where to hide my face already.. aiyo.. kena kau kau..
anyway, i think after that we all just hang at home, playing guitar, aaron playing football and guns, and thats about it.. wah,.. my memory so bad,.. i dont remember what we did before dinner la.. teruk. i know his mum came when i was lelong-ing and she popped her head in, and he intro me to his mum, and said that i also do lelong one, just like his parents, but she said she doesnt want to come into the room because it was cold.. but she called us to have our dinner downstairs.. so we had dinner..everyone else ate already.. i took the rice with alot of soup... then we talk abit while finishing the food, (fried wan ton) then bath already.. i remember when i came out of the cinema, his mom was with him in the room, in front of the lap top, looking at his pictures. he and his mum also ngam one.. and then his dad came in and then all look together, and his bro also, and then his mum was like asking him, "what time is your show?" and he was like, "9.45.." so she was like "okay"
then we immediately went to the cinema..so gaya two of us just bath only, hair all comb nice nice, before that i was wearing my mickey mouse red t shirt with shorts, but after change, wear long pants already,.. he ask me to wear long pants wan mah. scared i cold aready hug him.. what la..
after the cinema, we just go rounding, supposed to drink the coffee thingy, but scared cannot sleep, so he just showed me the coffee place only.. not bad also. the most kl-like place in thw whole kuantan.
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Time :: 11.30pm
Calvin : So where are you from?
Anna : Kuantan
Calvin : (Looks at Aaron) She's from Kuantan? Are you sure?
Aaron : (Smiling) ....
Anna : Haha..
Calvin : So, you're in the same uni as Aaron?
Anna : Erm,.. yupe..
Calvin : So, where are you from?
Anna : (Thinks a while) ... (Sincerely) I don't know..
Calvin : Wah.. How come you don't know where you come from one?
Anna : Haha.. (feels like slapping herself on the face)
Aaron : ...
Later,...
Calvin : So, where did he bring you?
Anna : To the beach!
Calvin : Oh, the beach.. Got see anything nice anot?
Anna : Got! (Thinks for a while..) Monitor Lizard~! :D
Calvin : (Surprised) Monitor Lizard?~!
Anna : Yaap~!
Calvin : How big was it?
Anna : (Arms opens wide) This BIG~!
Calvin : Wah,.. got that big ah?
Aaron : Yeah, (nodding head) she really saw a monitor lizzard that big..
Calvin : You go to the beach, see monitor lizzard?
Anna : (nodding head excitedly)
Calvin : Okay,.. what else did you see?
Anna : (Thinks a while..) Ermm... Snake~!
Calvin : Snake~! Wah all reptiles only arh?
Anna : Yap~!
Calvin : Wah.. where else did he bring you? Beach only ah? No other place meh?
Anna : (Thinks very hard) Where else arh...
Calvin : He got bring you to Sg Lembing anot?
Anna : Uhh...
Aaron : I know she don't like those kind of things wan.. she don't like to climb mountain one. So I didn't bring her lor..
Calvin : Oh, he must have bring you to Megamall all that right?
Anna : Got ah? (Thinking summore) Erm.. at night got la.. watch movie only.. Where else did we go arh..
Note :: Anna really didn't go anywhere else other than to the beach and to Megamall to watch Madagascar. She had a great time relaxing at home with the guitar and the bed for 4 fruitful days :P.. She went to the beach 3 times in that trip and enjoyed herself thoroughly.. Aaron also brought her to the river even at the first day of trip and belanja her makan almost the whole way starting from here at the river where he showed her real 'Aquas'. The waitresses there were actually Aquas~! And the river was so peaceful there, not like the KL river, full of rubbish. In KL, these kind of places will be thoroughly polluted and alot of people will be there. It will also be the most happening place. But here, it was quiet and calm. I even saw two guys fishing and playing chess in the moonlight just beside the river. We ate fried rice and he gave me extra ingredients.. After that, he took me to the beach a while,.. he was amazed that he didnt go for just two months, and already the car park is different.. we didnt know how to come out~!!
when we arrived there, i was like.. "are we at the beach?"
and he was like, "no, this is not the beach."
and i saw mcDs there. so i said, "yeah right, got Macdonals there, dont try to bluff me, i know this is the beach~!!"
and he said, "wah, you came that time got Macdonals already that means you didnt come too long ago lar.."
at the beach, we saw so many couples hanging out there.. then after enjoying the breeze at one of the benches there, we went back. On the way back, in the car, he went on babbling about how good Kuantan was and opened the window..
Aaron : Here at night, when you can hear the crickets one,.. Verrrry peaceful,.. (Opens the windows)
Anna : Hmm,... Really got wohh..
Aaron : You see my house, very near to the beach one..
Anna : Is it?
Aaron : (Still driving, points to one of the houses) This is one of my friend's house, I always come here to play football with him one, his house so near my house. He is a very nice guy..
Anna: Ooo..so nice,..
Aaron : Last time, my dad and I used to chase wild boars around here, (he pointed to the jungle on the left)
Anna : Wah, really arh..
Aaron : Very easy to go to my house only.. You see the kindergarden here?
Anna : Yeahh..
Aaron : (Moves towards the house right beside it) This is my house..
Anna : Wow..okie.
Aaron : (Parks the car) That's lizzie..
Anna looks up and sees a white dog with long fur.. and droopy ears. So that was Lizzie~! Hehe... At the other end of the car was another dog - a black one. And then between them were a small brown cute little Puppy~!
I came out and they all came to the door to greet me.. Eeee... so cute.. And then we went to the house. The dog followed us all the way.. until the front, and we didn't want the dog to come into the house, so he quickly opened the door, and said, "Quick, get in, get in.. wear your shoes in." So, I hurriedly went in with my slippers, and he came after me, then i saw his Ah Poh there..(Grandma). She was watching tv, but she saw me, so i waved. And then i asked him, "Can she speak english?" He said, "No, she can't." So we went upstairs..
Then we passed the study table, and passed by his room, he said, "This is my room."
I was like, "Okay."
Then he brought me to another room at the end of the corridor, and said, "This is your room."
So I asked, "Everybody sleep already arh?"
And he was like.. "Yeah, lor.. So late already.."
So I was like.. "Okie.." and went into the room with my heavy bag and red file. Then I saw the computer there, just like he said last time, 'The computer is in the guest room'. So i parked my bag there and sat on the bed. It was a queen sized bed with blue and white checked sheets and a little bit of flowers at the sides. It was really comfy. His lap top was parked there too, on the table, beside the com. This was great... All i ever needed..(so called), computer, bed. computer, bed. yay~! I am at home~!
what i really like was that he accompanied me in the room, didnt just leave me there, like what i did to my friends who came to my house, even my bfs.. i just dumped them somewhere and run away.. but he sticked to me all the way, which really was sweet and make me feel more than welcomed. It felt good. So then, i knew i wasnt alone. So then, he showed me all his songs he had.. so many!! Relient K, Audio Adreline.. and then he played afew and let me hear.. He parked on the bed and said, "Use my lap top la, if you want." I was like.. Use your lap top? Somehow, no one was so nice to me before. Somehow it sounded new. I've never heard it before. I know it may not sound anything to you, but to me, it was new. I came to Kuantan to really experience new things. Taste new food,(Ki Cap Mee and Fish Curry Puff), meet new people (Kai Mui, Calvin and Micheal), see new things(Monitor Lizard, Snake, Madagascar and 3rd bay), hear new things (Silent night and crickets only night), Learn new things (guitar and new songs).. I can you all about them. Most of all, i learn alot about Aaron himself..*hint *hint. Hehe,.. of course by the 5th day, Aaron found out my TrUe CoLoUr, wanna knoe? Ask Aaron~! Kekekeke.. :P
And so i checked mail, went on lelong, chat abit, and then Aaron was sleepy.. he was like.. "I want to sleep already.. very tired.. you use my computer first la. you can use my msn also if you want." i was like.. your msn?? really ah? so then i was like.. "okay. You dont want to use meh?" And he was like,.. "Youre here already, no need la.." i was like.. "yeah hor...true also" so since he let me use his msn, i did just that. but i didnt chat with anyone, i just left his msn running in case one of his friends want to leave a message for him, anyway his nick already put there || KO ||, so his friends should be able to get the message. Then halfway doing some stuff, joram came online,.. i was like uh oh,..... nvm. Doesn't mean he will chat with aaron right? after a while,.. a message from joram appeared. i was like.. "he is sleeping, sorry" and he just said "ok" and then didnt hear anything from him. then later, his fingers got itchy.. "who is that? abelene?" and i thought.. abelene? who is abelene? sounds familiar.. sounds like audio adreline, but thats a group band. he doesnt mean that, does he? and then i was like.. "who is abelene?" and he was like "his sister. are you outstation?" i was like.. he asked if i was outstation, not if i was from outstation... so .. "yeah." and then he asked, "do i know you?" and i was like,.. "yeah. if you know who is this, you wouldnt be talking to me right now." and he was like, "anna?" and i was like... "yeah" so chatted abit then he had to go. Then soon i also went to sleep already..
The next morning i woke up with alot of clinging and banging coming from just outside the window.. "BOOM~!" *Men shouting at each other **Giant Machines roaring... Guessed whats that? Yupe~! Construction~!!! Hehe.. Right at the back of the house where my room was.. nevertheless, i was ok.. it was about 8am. I tried to sleep, but couldnt. Tired as i was, it was noisy.. Then about 1 hour later, Aaron opened the door. Aaaah.. finally. Saved! and immediately, he was like "wah... so noisy wan arh?"
i was like.. "yeahlor~!!!" *complain complain..
then he was like "wah.. i didnt know woh, i go for two months already like that."
i was like.. "your room cannot hear wan meh?"
he was like.. "cannot woh.. wah... this morning my mum wake me up, fetch her to work.."
then he play guitar already, and then i started to take a kids pack of cards and we play some stupid game..hahah. i make him play one.. in the end both of our sets also dont have the correct pair and i take his card and he pick my card, and the game can never end because not all the cards there have a pair.. haha. teruk. everything left was single cards, and we didnt know..
"your bros and sis le?"
"all in school lor.."
i was like.. "ooh..." and then time for me to wash up~! so then i washed up and changed.
he asked, " you want to eat breakfast?"
" i dont normally eat breakfast wan woh.. you know la.. my breakfast at night one.."
"nvm..come we go and eat breakfast, i bring you to the shop near my house.."
"okie!!"
thats how we got ready to go for breakfast~! We went downstairs and out the door, the dogs were greeting us at the main door already~!! so lively and friendly and all.. so we tried to get out without letting any of them in, especially the smallest one, easiest to get in.. and then where was my slipper? it was in the shoe drawer nearest to the door.. the maid mustve placed it there. his slippers was also outside already.. so then we walked out the small gate and just to the shop 'opposite the house'. i say it is 'opposite the house' because its not exactly opposite, but thats what aaron uses to describe the distance it is from the house, it is really just that near, like across the road on the left, but not exactly opposite, more like beside, after the kindergarten. we took like less than 1 minute to reach the shop from the front of the house and then he ate Ki Chap Mee.. I think thats the first time i saw Ki Cap Mee. its basically noodles with lotsa ingredients in tomato sauce. his had alot of ingredients because he like to order the one with alot. i ate nasi lemak because i thought it was the cheapest thing there (as usual) and it was already ready, so i didnt have to wait (i was so hungry).. and then i drank soya bean in the box one. He didnt order a drink, but then the man just came and placed teh ais in front of him. then he said, "i no need to order one, the teh ais just come like that.."
i was like.. "ooo" because he went there so many times already.. no need to order.. hehe..
then he talked about the movie he watched, 'Shrawshrank' and a sermon he watched by Pastor Joseph in singapore about astronomy and he talked alot about it. Finally we decided to go back home and watch. which is what we did immediately when we got back. we went to the master bedroom, and there was a tv there and a one-seater couch and a massage chair next to each other in front of the tv. so we watched the sermon, which is how God used the stars as a sign to us. It starts with the virgin mary with the star 'Virgo' and ends with the Lion of Judah 'Leo', i can talk alot about it,.. later when i have clear clarification from my authority. But it honestly sounds realistically spiritual.
after the show, i was supposed to see his kai mui and go out with her, the three of us shopping.. but then i was so sleepy.. and i thought it will be good if he went out with his kai mui alone because she mustve really missed him, he just came back from kl only and didnt have a chance to go out with him.. i was like.. "im so sleepy.."
and he was like.." go and sleep la..".
he didnt compromise at all..so i thought he really wanted to go out with her alone.. so i said "okie" and went to sleep without seeing his kai mui.. aaron closed the windows for me(they were still having construction) and on the air cond for me and closed the door also.. so good hor? i slumber only crash on the bed.. i was only hoping he brought his kai mui back to see me at home, because i really wanted to see her..but slim chances also.. so i was thinking and thinking if i did the right thing or not.. and then he left so fast.. so i tried to sleep, too late already.. but it was still noisy.. so i had an idea.. i on audio adreline and went to sleep immediately~!! haha..
i woke up with two happy youthful voices in the room calling me.. i opened my eyes and guess what? yes, audio adrelien was still on happily singing away, but then there was this young girl standing in front of me with a bag full of famous amos cookies~!!!! hehehe... and the air cond was still so cooling and refreshing.. on my right was aaron at the bed there.. *yawwnnn *stretchhhhh...
then aaron go and kacau me,.. he said something about joram one.. and then i hit him kau kau.. whack him like anything in front of his kai mui.. i never hit him so much before... she just watch only..
after that aaron said at night he wanna go watch madagascar.. so he asked me, "anna, wanna watch madagascar tonight anot?" so i thought michel is going, so i was like "okay", so he said, "go and check what time is the show, go to the webpage there and find" and i was like "which webpage, wah.. now use me already la.." the show was 9.45pm.
hehe.. she was a great girl.. i love her so muchh.. aaron will be like.. *ahem *ahemmm.. hehehe.. she bought the chocolate famous amos cookies just for me.. she offered me the cookies..
i said politely, "no, thanks.."
aaron was like, "eh, she bought the cookies just for you, you know.."
i was like.."really meh.."
then he said, "really one.. take lar.."
"ok.. ok.." so i took.. i took 2~! so nice.. mmmmmmmmMMMMMMMMMMmmmmmmmm.. hungry yet?
you know why i like her so much? because aaron later said that she really wanted to buy me the cookies one.. she was like "i want to buy for jie jie anna.." and then i was like.."really..ah." and then aaron said she also wanted to buy a bear, same like his one.. he said no need.. >.<
i actually wanted to bring something for her before i went, and then i forgot... aihhhhhhhhhh..................................................................
honestly, she looks like she is older than me,.. thats why i also dare not talk to her much that day.. (sorry aaron..) because i scared she dont respect me as a jie.. i respect her too much already.. after that i went to the bathroom a while and then come out, the two of them wanna go out already, and then on the way out of the bathroom, i heard aaron say, "aah.. she can take care of herself wan la.. dont worry.. she got guitar got computer, happy already, can stay here whole day.." then she was like.. "really arh?" then he said "yeah lor.." the two of them running down the stairs... i knew they were talking about me because he mentioned the words 'she', 'guitar' and 'computer', and then i was wondering how aaron know me so well.. he was right. then when they saw me out of the bathroom, he was like, "anna, we go out first ya?" i was like.. "okay".. then.. eyer.. go out.. dunno where he go..never tell me how long also.. leave me here arh? but i am the guest woh.. like that la.. got his kai mui already no need me la.. what i want to do now? so bored.. aaron not online also.. he go out with his kai mui already, now what to do online.. computer got also no use.. aihh.. go lelong until bored liao . so i waited for them to come back lor.. wait until cannot wait already, sms aaron.. "wei.........................." because i have no idea where they went or for how long i want to wait.. you know that kind of feeling when youre like a small kid and your parents went out of the house and you dont know where they are or when they are coming back or what they are doing.. and youre bored to death? that was how i felt.. so he called back and said "what happened?"
so i answered "where you all go la.."
then he said "i am fetching my mum now", in a serious tone..
so i was like "oh ok."
then when he came back, he was without his kai mui.. then i was like.. "eh, where is she?"
so he said "go back already lor~! and then i fetch my mum here.."
i was like.. "oh" left two of us again.. and i didnt even manage to spend time with her..
i remember before she came, we were on the phone with her, and he called the house, "Hello, Michel please?"
then when she picked up the phone, he suddenly pass to me, i also havent prepare yet. simply hook up something.. "Hello?"
Michel said "Hello? Who is this?"
I replied, "Erm.. your boyfriends sister.."
and she was like "who is this? my boyfriends sister???" in a serious tone. so i takut already. faster pass back to aaron the angry voice..
and aaron was like, "thats anna, la.. sorry arh.." then he like want to kutuk me already.. "why did you say that youre her bfs sister??"
i also dunno where to hide my face already.. aiyo.. kena kau kau..
anyway, i think after that we all just hang at home, playing guitar, aaron playing football and guns, and thats about it.. wah,.. my memory so bad,.. i dont remember what we did before dinner la.. teruk. i know his mum came when i was lelong-ing and she popped her head in, and he intro me to his mum, and said that i also do lelong one, just like his parents, but she said she doesnt want to come into the room because it was cold.. but she called us to have our dinner downstairs.. so we had dinner..everyone else ate already.. i took the rice with alot of soup... then we talk abit while finishing the food, (fried wan ton) then bath already.. i remember when i came out of the cinema, his mom was with him in the room, in front of the lap top, looking at his pictures. he and his mum also ngam one.. and then his dad came in and then all look together, and his bro also, and then his mum was like asking him, "what time is your show?" and he was like, "9.45.." so she was like "okay"
then we immediately went to the cinema..so gaya two of us just bath only, hair all comb nice nice, before that i was wearing my mickey mouse red t shirt with shorts, but after change, wear long pants already,.. he ask me to wear long pants wan mah. scared i cold aready hug him.. what la..
after the cinema, we just go rounding, supposed to drink the coffee thingy, but scared cannot sleep, so he just showed me the coffee place only.. not bad also. the most kl-like place in thw whole kuantan.
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Saturday, June 11, 2005
Another way of making decisions
> 
>
> caleb aaron tan wrote:
>
> =). Andrew, you would not believe me if I tell you the truth. When
I decided
> to appoint you to be the next Attendance Monitor (AM), I did not
have you as
> the regular late comer at all. It was not in my mind at all. Just
share with
> all of you how I made such decision and decided to choose Andrew.
Want to
> hear or not?
>
>
>
> It all started when I discuss with the Lord about Denise doing a
fantastic
> job. This conversation was meant to give thanks to God for
such 'quality'
> person in our midst. I was telling God that, she must be promoted
and I told
> the Lord, she is good and therefore, must be raised.
>
> I told the Lord that, I would not want to waste such responsible
person, her
> talent to serve the King in a greater measure.
>
>
>
> As I was going on, God told me to pass her job to the next. In
order to
> raise her, to mature her and bring her to the next level, she needs
to move
> on.
>
> Bang on that instruction, I decided to look for the next person to
raise.
> Again, as usual, I ask God to show me who should be the next
candidates.?
>
>
>
> Guess what? Nope! Andrew's name did not occur to me on that day.
God did not
> speak until I've proposed name to Him. Surprisingly, He agreed to
it. That
> was how; Andrew was chosen to take over Denise's job.
>
>
>
> Well, I thought to clarify myself and at same time, share with you
how I
> make decision. I hope this would inspire some or if not, all of you
to walk
> with the Lord everyday of our life.
>
>
>
> Have a great day!
>
> Caleb
>
> PS: you would be next!
>
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
>
> caleb aaron tan
>
> =). Andrew, you would not believe me if I tell you the truth. When
I decided
> to appoint you to be the next Attendance Monitor (AM), I did not
have you as
> the regular late comer at all. It was not in my mind at all. Just
share with
> all of you how I made such decision and decided to choose Andrew.
Want to
> hear or not?
>
>
>
> It all started when I discuss with the Lord about Denise doing a
fantastic
> job. This conversation was meant to give thanks to God for
such 'quality'
> person in our midst. I was telling God that, she must be promoted
and I told
> the Lord, she is good and therefore, must be raised.
>
> I told the Lord that, I would not want to waste such responsible
person, her
> talent to serve the King in a greater measure.
>
>
>
> As I was going on, God told me to pass her job to the next. In
order to
> raise her, to mature her and bring her to the next level, she needs
to move
> on.
>
> Bang on that instruction, I decided to look for the next person to
raise.
> Again, as usual, I ask God to show me who should be the next
candidates.?
>
>
>
> Guess what? Nope! Andrew's name did not occur to me on that day.
God did not
> speak until I've proposed name to Him. Surprisingly, He agreed to
it. That
> was how; Andrew was chosen to take over Denise's job.
>
>
>
> Well, I thought to clarify myself and at same time, share with you
how I
> make decision. I hope this would inspire some or if not, all of you
to walk
> with the Lord everyday of our life.
>
>
>
> Have a great day!
>
> Caleb
>
> PS: you would be next!
>
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Be Near
Be Near
Shane Barnard, Shane Everett
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Shane Barnard, Shane Everett
Key: G
Intro:
Bm G Bm
Verse 1:
G Bm G Bm
You are all, Big and small, Beautiful
G Bm
And wonderful To trust in grace through faith
G
But I'm asking to taste
Em D/F#
For dark is light to You
G
The Depths are height to You
A
Far is near, But Lord I need to hear from You
Chorus:
D D/C#
Be near O God
D/B A
Be near O God of us
G
Your nearness
D/F# A Bm G
Is to us our good...(our good )
Verse 2:
Bm G Bm G
Your fullness is mine, Revelation divine
Bm G Bm
But oh to taste, To know much more than a page
G
To feel Your embrace…
Em D/F#
For dark is light to You
G
The Depths are height to You
A
Far is near, But Lord I need to hear from You
Chorus 2:
D D/C#
Be near O God
D/B A
Be near O God of us
G
Your nearness
D/F# A D
Is to us our good...(our good)
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Butterfly
#----------------------------------PLEASE NOTE----------------------------------#
# This file is the author's own work and represents their interpretation of the #
# song. You may only use this file for private study, scholarship, or research. #
#-------------------------------------------------------------------------------#
Artist: Seven Day Jesus
CD: Seven Day Jesus
benJAMIN'
Intro: Db--Ab--Bm--Fm--F#--Db--Ab--F#
Verse I
Bbm F# Db Ab F# Bbm F#
You see me, it's not me. There's something underneath my skin. I want to tear it off of
Db Ab F# (Repeat the same)
me and show the beauty that's within...
Chorus
Db Ab Bbm Fm F# Bbm
I want to be a butterfly, flying in the sky, with you today. I want to lose this old cocoon.
Fm F# Db Ab F# A--A--B--B
I want to do it soon and fly away........away!
Verse 2
Bbm F# Db Ab F# Bbm F# Db
One time I was crawling up the tree to fall back down again. This lonely place where I began
Ab F# Bbm (Repeat the same)
is not the place I'm going to end....
Interlude
A F#m Db A F#m Db
The wind is underneath my wings. It carries me away to my God who makes me see. When I'm on my
A F#m Ab
way, I change a little everyday.
Play chorus once
then play this at the end of the chorus:
on high e string:
2 A half-notes
then:
3 sets of G# triplets
chorus....back to normal
Any questions, comments, or death threats, e-mail me at electricpickboy@yahoo.com
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
The story of 2 sons
Once, there was a family known as Malaysia. In 1985, they were blessed with their first born, Proton. The family loved Proton all they can. They gave Proton everything. They protected Proton from the bigger boys in Kindergarten. They told Proton, "You're young, you need protection from
them. It's okay to make mistakes, you're young. Even if you don't learn from mistakes...it's okay...you are young."
Proton became spoilt. He always depended on parents and used up all his allowance on useless things. When he had to do his chores, he paid people to do it and the work is lousy, causing the parents having to call repairmen to fix all the mess that he made.
Anyway, when Proton was 10 (but he still acted like he is 1 or 2 years old), he had a younger brother, Perodua. At first, everyone thought: This younger brother will be like Proton. Anyway, this new baby was more handsome and looks smarter than Proton. Malaysia knew there is a possibility Perodua could be smarter than proton. Since they love Proton so much, they decided that Perodua can only learn a few things and not as much as Proton knows. This is so that Perodua wouldn't Beat Proton at what Proton is doing.
Although Perodua was also protected by Malaysia, he learn to be independent very fast. He made good friends with Daihatsu, who had An elder brother Toyota. The two of them helped Perodua in everything. Perodua, being independent and smart, learnt a lot and in a short while, was becoming as good as, if not better, than Proton.
Malaysia realized that Perodua was becoming better than his brother. Although proud of Perodua, they still love Proton best. They paid Lotus which is older and well known worldwide) to be friends with Proton. Using this advantage, Proton mentioned Lotus every time he wanted to tell people about himself. On this own, he was still the same.
Moreover, Proton is always not updated. When doing his work, he still uses the typewriter and refuses to use the computer. Perodua, so much younger, used the computer, with broadband for his work. Perodua was improving so much that Toyota has assigned him with his work, codename Avanza.
In 2005, Proton is has reached its 20 years of age, Perodua is only 10. It was obvious that
Perodua was the more successful of the two siblings. What is worse, Proton said he still needs his parents to help him for another 10 years. He still need protection from the big boys. In May 2005, Perodua was about the show Malaysia his best work so far...codename Myvi. Proton, being jealous... quickly came up with an unprofessional remark about Perodua's work and show off his work at the same time as Perodua on purpose
The future of Malaysia and her two kids are still unknown. But it would be obvious that Perodua will shine, leaving Proton crying. It would be wonder if in 2015, Proton will ask Malaysia for another 10 years of help and protection... maybe this time... protection from Perodua as well.......... THE END
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
them. It's okay to make mistakes, you're young. Even if you don't learn from mistakes...it's okay...you are young."
Proton became spoilt. He always depended on parents and used up all his allowance on useless things. When he had to do his chores, he paid people to do it and the work is lousy, causing the parents having to call repairmen to fix all the mess that he made.
Anyway, when Proton was 10 (but he still acted like he is 1 or 2 years old), he had a younger brother, Perodua. At first, everyone thought: This younger brother will be like Proton. Anyway, this new baby was more handsome and looks smarter than Proton. Malaysia knew there is a possibility Perodua could be smarter than proton. Since they love Proton so much, they decided that Perodua can only learn a few things and not as much as Proton knows. This is so that Perodua wouldn't Beat Proton at what Proton is doing.
Although Perodua was also protected by Malaysia, he learn to be independent very fast. He made good friends with Daihatsu, who had An elder brother Toyota. The two of them helped Perodua in everything. Perodua, being independent and smart, learnt a lot and in a short while, was becoming as good as, if not better, than Proton.
Malaysia realized that Perodua was becoming better than his brother. Although proud of Perodua, they still love Proton best. They paid Lotus which is older and well known worldwide) to be friends with Proton. Using this advantage, Proton mentioned Lotus every time he wanted to tell people about himself. On this own, he was still the same.
Moreover, Proton is always not updated. When doing his work, he still uses the typewriter and refuses to use the computer. Perodua, so much younger, used the computer, with broadband for his work. Perodua was improving so much that Toyota has assigned him with his work, codename Avanza.
In 2005, Proton is has reached its 20 years of age, Perodua is only 10. It was obvious that
Perodua was the more successful of the two siblings. What is worse, Proton said he still needs his parents to help him for another 10 years. He still need protection from the big boys. In May 2005, Perodua was about the show Malaysia his best work so far...codename Myvi. Proton, being jealous... quickly came up with an unprofessional remark about Perodua's work and show off his work at the same time as Perodua on purpose
The future of Malaysia and her two kids are still unknown. But it would be obvious that Perodua will shine, leaving Proton crying. It would be wonder if in 2015, Proton will ask Malaysia for another 10 years of help and protection... maybe this time... protection from Perodua as well.......... THE END
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
Bad Dream
I had a bad dream,.. normally most of my bad dreams are running away from someone and trying to save myself and my friends, but when i have a bad dream that has nothing to do with running away from someone, it normally impacts me alot, because its different..
Normally, the other type of dreams I have are the ones where those who are closest to me leaves me.. and this is just what happened in this dream. And when i dream something like this happens, something similar will happen the next day regarding these people.. (or am I just being sensitive? I have no idea..)
But in this dream, i dreamt that two of my closest friends left me. It happened like this... I was talking to one of them about something that meant alot to me, when he suddenly dissapeared.. then i saw him on his knees, playing with one of the other guy friends, saying "please.. please.. where is she?", a few feet from me.. so i was wondering.. I wonder which girl he is talking about.. must be someone special.. then as i watched, there she was like at the other end of the hall, carrying a baby.. i didnt know who she was, but when he saw her, he called for her and ran after her.. so out of curiosity and surprise, i watched along with a few other friends,.. then i found out that there were two of them, each having a child in their arms, both with long straight hair, tied half. They were petite and fair. They both looked alike.. because i cant see from so far away, but i know one wore a white short sleeve blouse and the other wore a darkblue one, i think. And then i managed to point to one, because they were all running all over the place, and it was hard to spot them from so far, blocked by the plants and chairs, and asked someone nearby.. "Who is that?" and that someone said, "It's the girl's mother.." then i was like... "ooh.." At first, i was hesistant to follow, but since everyone was following, it did no harm for me to go as well.. so i went, not expecting to be much more shocked later on..
We entered a big room used for lectures.. seemed to me we were in some kind of a school or college.. and there were alot of people there.. until now i dont know if it was a hall or a room,.. it was so big and the place was so confusing.. but it was darker and was crowded because it was smaller than the main hall.. and it was more stuffy here, but i guess they resorted to this place because it was more private compared to the main hall.. and then at the far end, there were rows of chairs, yellow plastic ones, like you see in the bus stations, for the public to sit on, screwed to the floor.. and there he was at one of the ends, sitting down with two kids in his arms... the rest of us just watched from a distance. He was partially blocked by a pillar.. so i couldnt really see what was going on at first. But i noticed the two ladies were standing nearby him and there he was hugging the two kids like he missed them so much,.. and he was crying gracefully.. the two kids just stoned, hugged him too and didnt want to budge, they didnt move and inch. They just wanted to stay there.. I know one was a boy, but i dont know if the other was also a boy or a girl.. one darkblue shirt, one white. And then i heard someone near said something like "Those are his kids.." and i was so shocked.. now i realized who is that girl.. the question kept ringing in my head.. is that his wife? so i asked those nearby, but until now, they didnt really take notice of me.. they took notice of each other, but didnt care about me.. it was okay i guess.. because i was in a state of shock already.. if that is not his wife, then that means... he had kids without getting married? why dont they want to get married? even if they did a sin, they should get married.. unless... she is already married??.... or she married someone else? all these questions were in my head.. but when i saw them there on that chair.. i was so moved.. all this time he didnt tell us that he had kids.. he kept everything to himself, even close friends like me didnt know.. and it is obvious that he missed them,.. yet he had to.. why? is it because he wanted to study? get a degree and then he can support his kids? all the time, he kept it all to himself..the heartache.. everything, and he can even laugh and joke with us.. i just stared and tried to understand the hurt and yet there was no bitterness.. somewhere at the back of my mind, there was a question i didnt ask myself in the dream, but i know the question was there.. why were the two ladies not talking to him? why were they standing instead of sitting next to him?.. lets come up with an answer.. since this is a dream and dreams are meant to be probed.. maybe she does not belong to him although the children belong to him? maybe she is married to someone else? maybe she doesnt like him.. doesnt respect him and doesnt want to marry him although he is the real father? and maybe she has another boyfriend somewhere else with other kids? and he doesnt mean anything to her.. but it was obvious that these were definately his kids.. too obvious. But i was touched with what i learnt.. the fact that he chose to miss his children in order to study so that he can generate income for his children.. and miss them for so long.. it was a hard but strong decision.. and the fact that he could hide his identity and sufferings away from us all and he could act like he was happy and all, when he actually had alot that he left behind.. too much.. i dont know why this impacted me, and i was so shocked... i just stared and didnt know what feeling it was inside me.. but now i know.. it is sadness.. i felt sad when i saw it.. touched and sad for him.. he didnt have someone to support him. yet, he had to support his kids with all he's got. he didnt have friends to support him, because he never told us and we never knew.. and now he even chose to abandon his friends to leave them out of his misery.. when i was talking to him, he just left without saying a word, and ran after his kids... if i didnt look for him, i probably didnt know about this either..if i didnt follow him all the way down here to the basement, where it is dark and crowded and stuffy and dirty, i wouldnt know either.. if i didnt try to find out what he was doing and stare and watch, i woulnt know what was happening.. if i didnt hang around with the rest and open my ears, i wouldnt know what was happening.. at that time, i thanked God in my heart that i didnt just walk away and didnt care about what was going on.. I thank God i took the effort to run after them and find out the story... the true story.
and then here comes the sad part.. other than the fact that i almost got lost.. i went to look for my second friend.. and i asked him,"did you know what happened?" because i dont remember seeing this friend at the basement justnow.. and surprisingly my friend answered, "yes, i know about it." so i was like... "how did you know?" and he was like.. "somebody told me about it" and so, as i was still in a state of shock.. i just stood next to him for a while,.. tried to cool down myself.. but it was doing no good.. then he asked.. "are you sad?" then i said, "no.. just in a state of shock.." then he went off... but i wanted to get my brain sorted out.. i was confused,.. so i guess he was going to Level 1, we were at Level 3 now.. Level 1 is the basement.. but he was going to the other side of Level 1, near the cafeteria.. so i wanted to get my sliperrs... i realized that i was bare footed and assumed i left it when i was chatting with my friends near the cafeteria, and so i went there, but since i knew that he was going there, i didnt want to make it look like i was following him, so i took the elevator.. the other side of Level 1.. the basement side.. and this was how i got lost.. never saw my second friend again. and it was getting late, and i was alone, and i couldnt find my slipper, and those that still remained in the school were unfriendly to me.. and it was getting more quiet there.. i was scared.. and there was a cleaner who did help me, but later i realized that it was the wrong room anyway and had to apologize.. such heartache.. i loved that slipper so much.. there were other shoes and slippers there.. but not mine.. i kept asking.. "anyone seen my slipper?" it is half white and half black.. sigh.. i hoped to see one or two friends.. but no one was there..
but this dream taught me a lesson.. a hard lesson.. never depend on your friends too much.. you might get dissapointed because friends can leave you anytime.. and your slipper which represents material things can also get lost.. the ability to make friends can also just vanish just like that, and i can be alone, with no one to love me or care for me in my greatest need and greatest time of trouble.. i was alone.. i need God.. God will never leave me, and God will never get lost and God is always there to make friends with me and to bring the right people in at the right time.. If i have GOD, I will have everything.. friends, slippers, and all..
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Normally, the other type of dreams I have are the ones where those who are closest to me leaves me.. and this is just what happened in this dream. And when i dream something like this happens, something similar will happen the next day regarding these people.. (or am I just being sensitive? I have no idea..)
But in this dream, i dreamt that two of my closest friends left me. It happened like this... I was talking to one of them about something that meant alot to me, when he suddenly dissapeared.. then i saw him on his knees, playing with one of the other guy friends, saying "please.. please.. where is she?", a few feet from me.. so i was wondering.. I wonder which girl he is talking about.. must be someone special.. then as i watched, there she was like at the other end of the hall, carrying a baby.. i didnt know who she was, but when he saw her, he called for her and ran after her.. so out of curiosity and surprise, i watched along with a few other friends,.. then i found out that there were two of them, each having a child in their arms, both with long straight hair, tied half. They were petite and fair. They both looked alike.. because i cant see from so far away, but i know one wore a white short sleeve blouse and the other wore a darkblue one, i think. And then i managed to point to one, because they were all running all over the place, and it was hard to spot them from so far, blocked by the plants and chairs, and asked someone nearby.. "Who is that?" and that someone said, "It's the girl's mother.." then i was like... "ooh.." At first, i was hesistant to follow, but since everyone was following, it did no harm for me to go as well.. so i went, not expecting to be much more shocked later on..
We entered a big room used for lectures.. seemed to me we were in some kind of a school or college.. and there were alot of people there.. until now i dont know if it was a hall or a room,.. it was so big and the place was so confusing.. but it was darker and was crowded because it was smaller than the main hall.. and it was more stuffy here, but i guess they resorted to this place because it was more private compared to the main hall.. and then at the far end, there were rows of chairs, yellow plastic ones, like you see in the bus stations, for the public to sit on, screwed to the floor.. and there he was at one of the ends, sitting down with two kids in his arms... the rest of us just watched from a distance. He was partially blocked by a pillar.. so i couldnt really see what was going on at first. But i noticed the two ladies were standing nearby him and there he was hugging the two kids like he missed them so much,.. and he was crying gracefully.. the two kids just stoned, hugged him too and didnt want to budge, they didnt move and inch. They just wanted to stay there.. I know one was a boy, but i dont know if the other was also a boy or a girl.. one darkblue shirt, one white. And then i heard someone near said something like "Those are his kids.." and i was so shocked.. now i realized who is that girl.. the question kept ringing in my head.. is that his wife? so i asked those nearby, but until now, they didnt really take notice of me.. they took notice of each other, but didnt care about me.. it was okay i guess.. because i was in a state of shock already.. if that is not his wife, then that means... he had kids without getting married? why dont they want to get married? even if they did a sin, they should get married.. unless... she is already married??.... or she married someone else? all these questions were in my head.. but when i saw them there on that chair.. i was so moved.. all this time he didnt tell us that he had kids.. he kept everything to himself, even close friends like me didnt know.. and it is obvious that he missed them,.. yet he had to.. why? is it because he wanted to study? get a degree and then he can support his kids? all the time, he kept it all to himself..the heartache.. everything, and he can even laugh and joke with us.. i just stared and tried to understand the hurt and yet there was no bitterness.. somewhere at the back of my mind, there was a question i didnt ask myself in the dream, but i know the question was there.. why were the two ladies not talking to him? why were they standing instead of sitting next to him?.. lets come up with an answer.. since this is a dream and dreams are meant to be probed.. maybe she does not belong to him although the children belong to him? maybe she is married to someone else? maybe she doesnt like him.. doesnt respect him and doesnt want to marry him although he is the real father? and maybe she has another boyfriend somewhere else with other kids? and he doesnt mean anything to her.. but it was obvious that these were definately his kids.. too obvious. But i was touched with what i learnt.. the fact that he chose to miss his children in order to study so that he can generate income for his children.. and miss them for so long.. it was a hard but strong decision.. and the fact that he could hide his identity and sufferings away from us all and he could act like he was happy and all, when he actually had alot that he left behind.. too much.. i dont know why this impacted me, and i was so shocked... i just stared and didnt know what feeling it was inside me.. but now i know.. it is sadness.. i felt sad when i saw it.. touched and sad for him.. he didnt have someone to support him. yet, he had to support his kids with all he's got. he didnt have friends to support him, because he never told us and we never knew.. and now he even chose to abandon his friends to leave them out of his misery.. when i was talking to him, he just left without saying a word, and ran after his kids... if i didnt look for him, i probably didnt know about this either..if i didnt follow him all the way down here to the basement, where it is dark and crowded and stuffy and dirty, i wouldnt know either.. if i didnt try to find out what he was doing and stare and watch, i woulnt know what was happening.. if i didnt hang around with the rest and open my ears, i wouldnt know what was happening.. at that time, i thanked God in my heart that i didnt just walk away and didnt care about what was going on.. I thank God i took the effort to run after them and find out the story... the true story.
and then here comes the sad part.. other than the fact that i almost got lost.. i went to look for my second friend.. and i asked him,"did you know what happened?" because i dont remember seeing this friend at the basement justnow.. and surprisingly my friend answered, "yes, i know about it." so i was like... "how did you know?" and he was like.. "somebody told me about it" and so, as i was still in a state of shock.. i just stood next to him for a while,.. tried to cool down myself.. but it was doing no good.. then he asked.. "are you sad?" then i said, "no.. just in a state of shock.." then he went off... but i wanted to get my brain sorted out.. i was confused,.. so i guess he was going to Level 1, we were at Level 3 now.. Level 1 is the basement.. but he was going to the other side of Level 1, near the cafeteria.. so i wanted to get my sliperrs... i realized that i was bare footed and assumed i left it when i was chatting with my friends near the cafeteria, and so i went there, but since i knew that he was going there, i didnt want to make it look like i was following him, so i took the elevator.. the other side of Level 1.. the basement side.. and this was how i got lost.. never saw my second friend again. and it was getting late, and i was alone, and i couldnt find my slipper, and those that still remained in the school were unfriendly to me.. and it was getting more quiet there.. i was scared.. and there was a cleaner who did help me, but later i realized that it was the wrong room anyway and had to apologize.. such heartache.. i loved that slipper so much.. there were other shoes and slippers there.. but not mine.. i kept asking.. "anyone seen my slipper?" it is half white and half black.. sigh.. i hoped to see one or two friends.. but no one was there..
but this dream taught me a lesson.. a hard lesson.. never depend on your friends too much.. you might get dissapointed because friends can leave you anytime.. and your slipper which represents material things can also get lost.. the ability to make friends can also just vanish just like that, and i can be alone, with no one to love me or care for me in my greatest need and greatest time of trouble.. i was alone.. i need God.. God will never leave me, and God will never get lost and God is always there to make friends with me and to bring the right people in at the right time.. If i have GOD, I will have everything.. friends, slippers, and all..
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
Burn :: Planet Shakers
G Am
Here in this place
C
I can feel You now
G Am
As I seek Your face
C
Showing me Your love
G Am
I need You now
C
Come and wash me over
G Am
Your Spirit reigns
C
Filling me with power
Pre Chorus:
G Am
Open up my heart
C
And You will find
G Am
This fire burns so deep
C
It burns so bright, for You
Chorus:
G D
Lord i will burn
Em C
Lord i will burn for You
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
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