hehe...

hey, im havin so much fun these days.. i luf everybody~!

here is something nice joshua sent to me..


* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

My Best Friend chords

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United Live - My Best Friend
From "United Live - Best Friend"
©2000 Joel Houston and Marty Sampson (Hillsong)

Chorded by clumzy
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Intro:
C G F G 4x

C ....................................................................G F........................................................ G
Have you heard of the One called Saviour? Have you heard of His perfect love?
C.............................................................. G F ...............................................................
Have you heard of the One in heaven? Have you heard how He gave his Son?
Am ...........................................G ................................
Cause I have found this love, I believe in the Son
F ..............................
Show me Your way

C...................................................... G F ...............................................G
I believe in the One called Saviour, I believe He's the Risen One
C ...........................................G F .......................................................
I believe that I'll live forever, I believe that my King will come
Am ..........................................G ...............................
Cause I have found this love, I believe in the Son
F ...............................
Show me Your way


Chorus:
C ..........................................G .......................................Am
Jesus, You are my best friend and You will always be
................................F ........................
And nothing will ever change that
C ...........................................G ........................................Am
Jesus, You are my best friend and You will always be
.................................F .......................................................(C G F G C G F G)
And nothing will ever change that


C .......................................................G F .............................................G
I believe in the One called Saviour, I believe He's the Risen One
C ..............................................G F .....................................................
I believe that I'll live forever, I believe that my King will come
Am .........................................G .................................
Cause I have found this love, I believe in the Son
F ...............................
Show me Your way


(Chorus) 2x

Bridge:
C Am G F
C ...................Am........................ G ..................F ...................................
Nothing will ever change that, nothing will ever change that (4x)

(Chorus) 4x

(Bridge) 2x

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- Arena of Stars
- 4th December 2004
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Maksim, the internationally renowned pianist will be at Genting Highlands this coming December for an exclusive showcase.

Born in Sibenik, a small town on the Adriatic Coast in Croatia, Maksim Mrvica learnt to play the piano at the age of nine and gave his first public performance the same year itself. When war broke out in 1990, Maksim and his professor, Marija Sekso were determined that he should continue his music studies. Despite all the turbulence, Maksim won his first major competition in Zagreb, 1993.

By the time Maksim completed his musical education at the Franz Liszt Conservatoire in Budapest, he had received numerous awards and soon recorded his debut album, 'Gestures'. He was later spotted by musician-author-poet Tonci Huljic, and from there, this young musician captured international attention with his next album, 'The Piano Player' with the popular piece, 'The Flight Of The Bumble Bee' which became an instant hit worldwide.

Maksim is back in Malaysia to promote his third album, 'Variations' and will be performing exclusively at Arena of Stars.


Please buy because i really want to go but my ex bf and my bf cannot go, their parents dont let.. and i woke up at 5 something in the morning to get the ticket because its first come first serve only.. i went all the way to kl to get it and now they cant go..

* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

DREAM TREES

Sometimes we get what we need and not what we want..........
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Once there were three trees on a hill in the woods. They were discussing their hopes and dreams when the first tree said, "Someday! I hope to be a treasure chest. I could be filled with gold, silver and precious gems and be decorated with intricate carvings. Everyone would see my beauty."

The second tree said, "Someday, I will be a mighty ship. I will take kings and queens across the waters and sail to the corners of the world. Everyone will feel safe in me because of the strength of my hull."

Finally, the third tree said, "I want to grow to be the tallest and straightest tree in the forest. People will see me on top of the hill and look up to my branches, and think of the heavens and God and how close to them I am reaching. I will be the greatest tree of all time, and people will always remember me."

After a few years of praying that their dreams would come true, a group of woodsmen came upon the trees!. One came to the first tree and said, "This looks like a strong tree, I think I should be able to sell the wood to a carpenter," and he began cutting it down. The tree was happy, because he knew that the carpenter would make him into a treasure chest.

At the second tree, one of the other woodsmen said, "This looks like a strong tree. I should be able to sell it to the shipyard." The second tree was happy, because he knew he was on his way to becoming a mighty ship. When the woodsmen came upon the third tree, the tree was frightened, because it knew that, if it was cut down, its dreams would not come true. One of the woodsmen said, "I don't need anything special from my tree, so I'll take this one," and he cut it down.

When the first tree arrived at the carpenter's, he was made into feed box for animals, placed in a barn and filled with hay. This was not at all what he had prayed for.

The second tree was cut and made into a small fishing boat. His dreams of being a mighty ship and carrying kings had come to an end. The third tree was cut into large pieces and left alone in the dark.

The years went by, and the trees forgot about their dreams. Then a man and woman came to the barn. She gave birth, and they placed the baby in the hay in the feed box that was made from the first tree.

The man wished that he could have made a crib for the baby, but this manger would have to do. The tree could feel the importance of this event and knew that it had held the greatest treasure of all time.

Years later, a group of men got in the fishing boat made from the second tree. One of them was tired and went to sleep. While they were out on the water, a great storm arose, and the tree didn't think it was strong enough to keep the men safe. The men woke the sleeping man, and he stood and said "Peace," and the storm stopped. At this time, the tree knew that it had carried the King of Kings in its boat.

Finally, someone came and got the third tree. It was carried through the streets, and the crowd mocked the man who was carrying it.

Finally, the man was nailed to the tree and raised in the air to die at the top of a hill. When Sunday came, the tree came to realize that it was strong enough to stand at the top of the hill and be as close to God as was possible, because Jesus had been crucified on it.

When things don't seem to be going our way, always know that God has a plan for us. If we place our trust in Him, He will give us great gifts. Each of the trees got what they wanted, just not in the way they had imagined. We don't always know what God's plans are for us. We just know that His ways are not our ways, but His ways are always best!

* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

Who am i??!!!!!~~~ Make up YOuR MiNd!!

What Drink Are You?

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did someone day EXTREMELY RESPONSIBLE?? ROTFL!


* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

Unto You Chords

Intro: A C#m B

Verse:

E
I live for You
A
All of my days belong to You
F#m
You draw me to
B
Your tenderness, You make me new


Pre:

A B
Into the secret place I will run
A
Where my heart can be free in the
B
Grace that I found in You


Chorus:

E
Unto You
A
Be all Glory and Praise
F#m
How my heart seeks Your Face
B
As I’m waiting on You
E
Only You
A
Are my strength and my tower
F#m
Fill my life with Your Power
B A E
As I stand here in awe of You
A B E
I stand here in awe of You



Bridge:

E A F#m B C#m

F#m A B C#m


*thanks to Joshua Chay, my course mate for providing the chords.. he could actually just write them down from his memory

I'm sorry if the chords are not in place as they are supposed to be,.. i dont really know this song,.. all i know is the chorus. i will edit the rest later. Thank you for your patience. I hope those of you who really know the song can correct it and send it to me ya? thankuuu

* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

________****MY CELL***________

________****MY CELL***________

hey, this is my cell's blog!! come here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

whats it about? its about My Cell. No, im not going round the bush.. Thats the name "My CeLL".. really wan...

For all those who want to join us,.. please come for cell activities every friday night.. in PJ, seksyen 12... 8.30pm-10pm

this friday we will be celebrating my neice's birthday.. yup, you got that right,.. i'm an Auntieee!! yIppIeeee!!! Aunty Anna!

She will be 3 this thursday, so try to show face, ok? she's really cute... see her pic..



cute leh,... so you coming? call my hp.. 016 3955 160

*trust and obey the Lord*

Letter from heaven

Sally jumped up as soon as she saw the Surgeon come out of the operating room.

She said, "How is my little boy? Is he going to be O.K.? When can I see him?"

The Surgeon said, "I'm sorry, we did all we could."

Sally said, "Why do little children get cancer, doesn't GOD care any more? GOD, where were you when my son needed you?"

The Surgeon said, "One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes to let you spend time with your son's remains before it's transported to the university."

Sally asked that the nurse stay with her while she said good-bye to her son. Sally ran her fingers through his thick red curly hair.

The nurse said, "Would you like a lock of his hair?" Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of his hair and put it in a> plastic bag and handed it to Sally.

Sally said, "It was Jimmy's idea to give his body to the university for study. He said 'it might help somebody else,' and that is what he wanted. I said, no at first, but Jimmy said, 'Mom I won't be using itafter I die, maybe it will help some other little boy to be able to spend one more day with his mother.'"

Sally said, "My Jimmy had a heart of Gold, always thinking of someone else and always wanting to help others if he could."


Sally walked out of the Children's Hospital for the last time now after spending most of the last 6 months there. She sat the bag with Jimmy's things in it on the seat beside of her in the car. The drive home was hard and it was even harder to go into an empty house.

She took the bag to Jimmy's room and started placing the model cars and things back in his room exactly where he always kept them. She laydown across his bed and cried herself to sleep holding his pillow.

Sally woke up about midnight and lying beside her on the bed, was a letter folded up. She opened the letter, it said:

Dear Mom,

I know you're going to miss me, but don't think that I will ever forget you or stop loving you because I'm not around to say I LOVE YOU. I'll think of you every day mom and I'll love you even more each day. Someday we will see each other again. If you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, he can have my room and my old stuff to play with. If you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things as us boys do,so you will have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like.

Don't be sad when you think about me, this is really a great place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me aroundsome, but it will take a long time to see everything here. The angels are so friendly, and I love to watch them fly. Jesus doesn't look like any of the pictures I saw of Him, but I knew it was Him as soon as I saw Him.

Jesus took me to see GOD! And guess what mom? I got to sit on GOD'S knee and talk to Him like I was somebody important. I told GOD that I wanted to write you a letter and tell you good-bye and everything, but I knew that wasn't allowed.

God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter with. I think Gabriel is the name of the angel that is going to drop this letter off to you.

God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him about...Where was He when I needed him? God said, "The same place He was when Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children.

Oh, by the way Mom, nobody else can see what is written on this paper but you. To everyone else, it looks like a blank piece of paper. I have togive God His pen back now; He has some more names to write in the Book of Life.

Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm sure the food will be great. I almost forgot to let you know - Now I don't hurt anymore that the cancer is all gone. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and God couldn't! stand to see me suffer the pain either, so He sent The Angel of Mercy to get me. The Angel said I was Special Delivery!

Signed with love from:

God & Jesus & Me

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~* tRUST & OBey the LORD *~~~~~~~~

Honestly, whoever that wrote this, and whoever that fwd it to everyone,.. i want to thank you for sharing it with us because it has really inspired me and touched my heart!! *sniff *sniff,. you know, everytime i read this story, i can almost cry.. its really... touching. I meant, put yourself in the mother's shoe, okay? I am happy after reading this story, no matter what a bad day i've had, it inspires me alot.. thank you!

Back from the camp,.. want to hear some camp news?

What is the first thing that comes to mind when i think about camp?
The time we are sitting at the canteen early in the morning with tired eyes and our chins resting on our palms.. quiet time... and then i think about Rowen, Joash, Charis, Christine, Koon Eu, Dick and Amonre. i remember that all the guys at camp talk crap and nothing else but crap.. i remember that i was a.. a... a.... Group Leader randomly chosen by the Commitee, in other words, they dunno who is this girl but simply choose wan.. i was new and didnt expect to be chosen at ALL!! i was like.. "erm,.. why is my name in bold? Please tell me it was an accident!" My heart was beating so fast.. i was like,..no.. no .. tell me its NOT TRUE!!

haha.. neway it was a great camp although i came back home with 8 sand fly bites (6 on my left leg, one on my right leg and another on my left arm).. it was a sovenier from one of the many creatures living in Golden Sands Baptist Resort.. other creatures living there are the three dogs- one brown and two black, although someone claimed to have seen four, another person three, (but since i only saw three, i assume it was three..)

enuf of animals..

i remember telling two guys about how much i hated animals.. they saw me feeding the dogs some food and said, "you like dogs, ah?"

"nope!"

"then why you feeding the dog?"... "ya lah.. why you feeding the dog?"

"because this keropok pork one summore not nice.. stick to your teeth.."

"oh, that keropok ah? aiyo, cruel la you! nowander you give the dog, you really hate dogs man.. that keropok from where wan? after the dog got indigestion then you know!"

"from phillipines wan.."

"har? phillipine people eat things like that wan ah?"

"yeah lor.. they like pork mah..everything also pork"

"yeah, i heard they love pork"...."cats, leh? you like or not?"

"nope!"

"wah,.. cats also dont like!" ... "good la, youre not like the other girls i know who like everything wan.. everything also say cute. not cute also say cute.. nowadays they like all those thing,.. what is it called ah? i also dunno la, im not a girl.. looks like dunno what only and they all say cute"

at that moment of time i was thinking,..yeah lor..some guys not cute they also say cute..actually i am one of them la.. sigh. when it comes to guys, all also cute. *ahem

more news after this break..
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hahhhahhaa..............you wouldnt guess what just happened! haha.. i was writing this blog when suddenly something poped-up on my screen..

[By holding down the right SHIFT key for eight or more seconds, you have turned on the FilterKeys feature. With this feature, the keyboard repeat rates, acceptance rate and bounce rates are set for users with disabiblities.

Click OK to turn this feature on. If you do not want to use the feature, click Cancel.]

i was laughing like mad in the comp lab.. my friend like.. what happened to you? hehe..so funny.. so all those in kdu can try this out.. hehe just hold the right SHIFT key for more than 8 seconds,.. haha

and then i wanted to copy paste the pop-up message onto my blogger, so i tried to select it, but couldnt.. so i tried Ctrl-S..

[This operation has been cancelled due to restrictions in effect on this computer. Please contact your sistem administrator]

i wonder what happened..

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**msn and icq fighting**
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....welcome back for more of camp news

* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

going to pd for cf trip todayyyyy

today i packed my bag. really full now. although half is clothes but the other half is food.. hehe i guess i want to bring loads of food there until so packed already, and as for the newspapers i collected today,i asked my friend to take it home with her because i wont be going home today.

i must bring food everywhere with me wan.. last time right, when i go for long journeys esp in the car.. i would be the "shop keeper" or "waiter" or.. i dont know how you call it, but everytime neone was hungry, they will say,. "anna, ok.. what food did you bring with you?"
and then i will grin widely and not say a word.. instead, i would open up my bagSSS.. notice the asses.. and then one by one, my secrets would be revealed..

one peanut butter,...
half a loaf of bread...
(i grabbed everything edible in the kitchen without having to be cooked)

one box of biscuits
8 packets of maggie mee,.. 4 laksa, 4 chicken flavoured
(i know, i know,... i said it didnt have to be cooked but this one i kept so that we could eat in the hotel.. shhh.. i'll take it out later,.. better hide it first so i can surprise them with more food later.. kekekekeke...)

a packet of chocolate wafers
half a container of jacob biscuits..(plastic container, ok? medium sized.. not the huge tins)

one packet of keropok
a fresh new tin of pringels,(if i'm fortunate and happen to buy one in advance..but most of the time it would be one or two packets of potato chips like jack and jill or double decker chicken flavoured too)


oh and drinks!~ i forgot.. no wander my bags were so heavy last time,... how could i forget the drinks??

here, we have 4 soya bean packets with straw... and two sugar cane.. which one you want, mum?

Mum
>i'll take the soya bean,. is it cold?

Me
>>aiyah.. no la how to make it cold?

Mum
>nvm, i'll put it in front of the air cond and wait a while..

Me
>>good idea! i should try that too! mum, can you put mine there too??

Mum
>sure, see? it can balance! isnt that great? papa,. look! see? i created something to cool my drink!

Dad driving
>>>yaya, mummy so clever...

mum calls dad "papa".. dont ask me why..

oh.. im forgetting.. so back to the drinks..
you see? my mind wanders to the past.. sometimes people say im in deeeep thought but actually i am getting side-tracted in my thoughts.. hehe..

im going to put this email onto blogger.. because its so interesting..

so neway... i also brought along plain water because i know somewhere along the journey, we'll be thirsty.. and there goes my mum also bringing out her collection of o.5ml spritzers and hotel water bottles..

dad
>>> anyone got water at the back there? i'm very thirsty...

mum
>yes! plenty, just ask, ok? i made sure i brought plenty of water to drink! so that none of you will be thirsty.. everywhere we go, we need to bring alot of water..water is good for your body, it cools down your body system so that we wont be heaty and fall sick, if not by the time we reach the hotel, we'll be exhausted..
anna, could you pass me one bottle of water from behind papa's car seat? there should be 5 over there if i'm not mistaken. i told the maid to put them there, i hope she did her job if not we'll all go thirsty..



me takes it out and passes it to the front through between my mum and dad's seat
>>ya,...here..

it was a JW Marriot Hotel Kuala Lumpur 0.5ml water bottle.. its label was black and she had plentyyyy of those. i even brought one to school everyday. the same one,.. well, until it got lost..
erm,.. back to the story..

dad
>>>thanks, li..i'm so thirsty,.. cannot tahan already, sweating the whole way...

mum
>victory, take one for yourself, ok? Anna also.. Mummy also take one..
all of you make sure you have one each.. 5 more than enough for all of us.. there's four of us..
there, i got somemore here.. another three more with me here by the side of the door... aiya.. i didnt see..
ok, papa.. check.. how many you have? by the side of your door there have anot? im sure there were at least two there last time...
you see, i make sure she take out AAALLLL the empty bottles and refill them,..

* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

Jokes

TEACHER : Why are you late?
BALGOBIN : Because of the sign.
TEACHER : What sign?
BALGOBIN : The one that says, "School Ahead, Go Slow."
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TEACHER : Balgobin, why are you doing your math sums on the floor?
BALGOBIN : You told me to do it without using tables!
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TEACHER : Balgobin, how do you spell "crocodile"?
BALGOBIN : "K-R-O-K-O-D-A-I-L"
TEACHER : No, that's wrong
BALGOBIN : Maybe it's wrong, but you asked me how I spell it!
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TEACHER : What is the chemical formula for water?
BALGOBIN : "HIJKLMNO! "!!
TEACHER : What are you talking about?
BALGOBIN : Yesterday you said it's H to O!
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TEACHER : Balgobin, go to the map and find North America.
BALGOBIN : Here it is!
TEACHER : Correct. Now, class, who discovered America?
CLASS : Balgobin!
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TEACHER : Balgobin, name one important thing we have today that we didn't have ten years ago.
BALGOBIN : Me!
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TEACHER : Balgobin, why do you always get so dirty?
BALGOBIN : Well, I'm a lot closer to the ground than you are.
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BALGOBIN : Dad, can you write in the dark?
FATHER : I think so. What do you want me to write?
BALGOBIN : Your name on this report card.
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TEACHER : How can you prevent diseases caused by biting insects?
BALGOBIN : Don't bite any.
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TEACHER : Balgobin, give me a sentence starting with "I".
BALGOBIN : I is...
TEACHER : No, Balgobin. Always say, "I am."
BALGOBIN : All right... "I am the ninth letter of the alphabet."
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TEACHER : "Can anybody give an example of "COINCIDENCE?"
BALGOBIN : "Sir, my Mother and Father got married on the same day, same time."
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TEACHER : "George Washington not only chopped down his father's Cherry tree, but also admitted doing it. Now do you know why his father didn't punish him?"
BALGOBIN : "Because George still had the axe in his hand?"
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BALGOBIN : Daddy, have you ever been to Egypt?
FATHER : No. Why do you ask that? BALGOBIN : Well, where did you get THIS mummy then?
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TEACHER : What a pair of strange socks you arewearing, one is green and one is blue with red spots!
BALGOBIN : Yes it's really strange. I've got another pair just like that at home.
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TEACHER : Now, children, if I saw a man beating adonkey and stopped him, what virtue would I be showing?
BALGOBIN : Brotherly love?
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TEACHER : Now, Balgobin, tell me frankly do you say prayers before eating?
BALGOBIN : No sir, I don't have to, my mom is a good cook.
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TEACHER : Balgobin, your composition on "My Dog" is exactly the same as your brother's. Did you copy his?
BALGOBIN : No, teacher, it's the same dog!
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TEACHER : What do you call a person who keeps on talking when people are no longer interested?
BALGOBIN : A teacher

Jesus is in my heart

I LOVE JESUS... of CourSe!!! He's my
everythin!!!!

Message: Jesus....
> > "Tomorrow morning," the surgeon
> began,
> > "I'll open up your heart..."
> >
> > "You'll find Jesus there," the boy
> > interrupted.
> >
> > The surgeon looked up, annoyed "I'll
> > cut your heart open," he continued,
> > to see how much damage has been
> > done..."
> >
> > "But when you open up my heart, you'll
> > find Jesus in there," said the boy.
> >
> > The surgeon looked to the parents, who
> > sat quietly. "When I see how much
> > damage has been done, I'll sew your
> > heart and chest back up, and I'll plan
> > what to do next."
> >
> > "But you'll find Jesus in my heart. The
> > Bible says He lives there. The
> > hymns all say He lives there. You'll
> > find Him in my heart."
> >
> > The surgeon had had enough. "I'll tell
> > you what I'll find in your heart.
> > I'll find damaged muscle, low blood
> > supply, and weakened vessels.
> > And I'll find out if I can make you well."
> >
> > "You'll find Jesus there too. He lives
> > there."
> >
> > The surgeon left.
> >
> > The surgeon sat in his office, recording his
> > notes from the surgery, "...damaged aorta,
> damaged
> > pulmonary vein, widespread muscle
> degeneration.
> > No hope for transplant, no hope for cure.
> Therapy:
> > painkillers and bed rest. Prognosis:, "
> > here he paused, "death within one year."
> >
> > He stopped the recorder, but there was
> > more to be said. "Why?" he asked aloud.
> > "Why did You do this? You've put
> > him here; You've put him in this pain; and
> > You've cursed him to an early death. Why?"
> >
> > The Lord answered and said, "The boy,
> > My lamb, was not meant for your
> > flock for long, for he is a part of My
> > flock, and will forever be.
> >
> > Here, in My flock, he will feel no pain, and
> > will be comforted as you cannot imagine.
> > His parents will one day join him here,
> > and they will know peace, and
> > My flock will continue to grow."
> >
> > The surgeon's tears were hot, but his
> > anger was hotter. "You created that
> > boy, and You created that heart. He'll
> > be dead in months. Why?"
> >
> >
> > The Lord answered, "The boy, My lamb,
> > shall return to My flock, for He has
> > done his duty: I did not put My lamb
> > with your flock to lose him, but to retrieve
> > another lost lamb."
> >
> > The surgeon wept. The surgeon sat
> > beside the boy's bed; the boy's
> > parents sat across from him. The boy
> awoke
> and
> > whispered, "Did you cut open my heart?"
> >
> > "Yes," said the surgeon.
> >
> > "What did you find?" asked the boy.
> >
> > "I found Jesus there," said the
> > surgeon.

> >
> > * tRUST & OBey the LORD *

???how did you get my blog??

Hey,... today i rushed to school, got stuck in a jam all because i left early..

normally school started at 9am, but today was tuesday and so we had waterfall class (i always refer to moral studies as waterfall class when i talk to jouvarn) at 8am.. thats why i left early! .. and thats why i was late. Jam would've ended by 9am,..

well, interesting reason to give the lecturer.. nevertheless(i like this word),... i arrived in time to get my attendance taken! Hurrah~! i was already 'near the waterfall', as my lec, Mr. Warren would put it.. my friends said that he announced my impending doom when he was taking their attendance earlier that morning,..

well, interestingly enough, when i was about to leave after getting my attendance taken, he made a special remark. No, not about my waterfall issue,.. but he said something like, "how come you have not been blogging?" my immediate reaction,.. "har??" followed by raising my eyebrows... i left my mouth open to continue the next sentence, "how you know?"

"i've been reading your blog! And i realized you stopped blogging. Your last blog was dated quite a while back."

"...oh,.." then thinking of a reason.. "i have three blogs!"

he was chuckling,.. "how come you have three blogs??"

i smiled and continued my journey out of the lecture hall,..

well, to answer that question,.. (he might even be reading this blog!) ,.. this is my first blog which is the main blog and i assume this is the one he is talking about because the other two are private,. shhh...

yup! Private, meaning its only for two or three people to read. but if you happen to stumble upon any of them, well... you'll know its mine because i have my name on them too! And all blogs will be redirected to this one... because it is the main blog and most active.

to be honest with you, i did stop blogging for a while because i wanted to spend more time on my studies... i even stopped chatting on msn( my msn friends can be a witness to that),. until prefably this mid november when my exam ends.

well, of course, i havent been studying yet.. but at least i started something going by finishing one or two homeworks here and there and attending classes more regularly(another reason why i am not in the waterfall,.. yet) i guess i'll keep the momentum going so that one day i will be able to start studying at least.. if all goes well, i'll be already studying one week before my finals?,. hehe.. God knows when is my finals..

hey, come to think of it.. people actually read this blog, eh? tell me,.. what so nice about this blog? cause i cant seem to figure out why.. is it the angel pic there? umm,.. you guys like the colour green? eat cant paussiblie bee mai hourreebel ingeleesh? tell me!!!!! im dying to know the secret that lies behind your conciousness!!!

sighh.... some people

ok,. i wont force you to tell me nething,... take it easy ya?

you may keep your comments to yourself!

* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

Hand of hope- forwarded

Dear All,
>
>A picture began circulating in November. It should be "The Picture of the
>Year," or perhaps, "Picture of the Decade." It won't be. In fact, unless
>you obtained a copy of the USpaper which published it, you probably will
>never see it. The picture is that of a 21-week-old unborn baby named
>Samuel Alexander Armas, who is being operated on by a surgeon named Joseph
>Bruner.
>
>The baby was diagnosed with spina bifida and would not survive if removed
>from his mother's womb. Little Samuel's mother, Julie Armas, is an
>obstetrics nurse in Atlanta. She knew of Dr. Bruner's remarkable surgical
>procedure. Practicing at VanderbiltUniversityMedicalCenterin Nashville, he
>performs these special operations while the baby is still in the womb.
>
>
>During the procedure, the doctor removes the uterus via C-section and
>makes a small incision to operate on the baby. As Dr. Bruner completed the
>surgery on little Samuel, the little guy reached his tiny, but fully
>developed, hand through the incision and firmly grasped the surgeon's
>finger. In a
>Time Europe article highlighting new pregnancy imagery that show the
>formation of major organs and other significant evidence of the formation
>of
>human life but a few days after conception, Dr. Bruner was reported as
>saying that when his finger was grasped, it was the most emotional moment
>of his
>life, and that for an instant during the procedure he was just frozen,
>totally immobile. The photograph captures this amazing event with perfect
>clarity.
>
>The editors titled the picture, "Hand of Hope". The text explaining the
>picture begins, "The tiny hand of 21-week-old fetus Samuel Alexander Armas
>emerges from the mother's uterus to grasp the finger of Dr. Joseph Bruner
>as if thanking the doctor for the gift of life. "
>
>Little Samuel's mother said they "wept for days" when they saw the
>picture. She said, "The photo reminds us my pregnancy isn't about
>disability or
> >an illness, it's about a little person". Samuel was born in perfect
>health, the operation 100 per cent successful. Now see the actual
>picture,
> >
> >and it is awesome ... incredible. And hey, pass it on. The world needs to
>see this one!
Dear All,
>
>A picture began circulating in November. It should be "The Picture of the
>Year," or perhaps, "Picture of the Decade." It won't be. In fact, unless
>you obtained a copy of the USpaper which published it, you probably will
>never see it. The picture is that of a 21-week-old unborn baby named
>Samuel Alexander Armas, who is being operated on by a surgeon named Joseph
>Bruner.
>
>The baby was diagnosed with spina bifida and would not survive if removed
>from his mother's womb. Little Samuel's mother, Julie Armas, is an
>obstetrics nurse in Atlanta. She knew of Dr. Bruner's remarkable surgical
>procedure. Practicing at VanderbiltUniversityMedicalCenterin Nashville, he
>performs these special operations while the baby is still in the womb.
>
>
>During the procedure, the doctor removes the uterus via C-section and
>makes a small incision to operate on the baby. As Dr. Bruner completed the
>surgery on little Samuel, the little guy reached his tiny, but fully
>developed, hand through the incision and firmly grasped the surgeon's
>finger. In a
>Time Europe article highlighting new pregnancy imagery that show the
>formation of major organs and other significant evidence of the formation
>of
>human life but a few days after conception, Dr. Bruner was reported as
>saying that when his finger was grasped, it was the most emotional moment
>of his
>life, and that for an instant during the procedure he was just frozen,
>totally immobile. The photograph captures this amazing event with perfect
>clarity.
>
>The editors titled the picture, "Hand of Hope". The text explaining the
>picture begins, "The tiny hand of 21-week-old fetus Samuel Alexander Armas
>emerges from the mother's uterus to grasp the finger of Dr. Joseph Bruner
>as if thanking the doctor for the gift of life. "
>
>Little Samuel's mother said they "wept for days" when they saw the
>picture. She said, "The photo reminds us my pregnancy isn't about
>disability or
> >an illness, it's about a little person". Samuel was born in perfect
>health, the operation 100 per cent successful. Now see the actual
>picture,
> >
> >and it is awesome ... incredible. And hey, pass it on. The world needs to
>see this one! Dear All,
>
>A picture began circulating in November. It should be "The Picture of the
>Year," or perhaps, "Picture of the Decade." It won't be. In fact, unless
>you obtained a copy of the USpaper which published it, you probably will
>never see it. The picture is that of a 21-week-old unborn baby named
>Samuel Alexander Armas, who is being operated on by a surgeon named Joseph
>Bruner.
>
>The baby was diagnosed with spina bifida and would not survive if removed
>from his mother's womb. Little Samuel's mother, Julie Armas, is an
>obstetrics nurse in Atlanta. She knew of Dr. Bruner's remarkable surgical
>procedure. Practicing at VanderbiltUniversityMedicalCenterin Nashville, he
>performs these special operations while the baby is still in the womb.
>
>
>During the procedure, the doctor removes the uterus via C-section and
>makes a small incision to operate on the baby. As Dr. Bruner completed the
>surgery on little Samuel, the little guy reached his tiny, but fully
>developed, hand through the incision and firmly grasped the surgeon's
>finger. In a
>Time Europe article highlighting new pregnancy imagery that show the
>formation of major organs and other significant evidence of the formation
>of
>human life but a few days after conception, Dr. Bruner was reported as
>saying that when his finger was grasped, it was the most emotional moment
>of his
>life, and that for an instant during the procedure he was just frozen,
>totally immobile. The photograph captures this amazing event with perfect
>clarity.
>
>The editors titled the picture, "Hand of Hope". The text explaining the
>picture begins, "The tiny hand of 21-week-old fetus Samuel Alexander Armas
>emerges from the mother's uterus to grasp the finger of Dr. Joseph Bruner
>as if thanking the doctor for the gift of life. "
>
>Little Samuel's mother said they "wept for days" when they saw the
>picture. She said, "The photo reminds us my pregnancy isn't about
>disability or
> >an illness, it's about a little person". Samuel was born in perfect
>health, the operation 100 per cent successful. Now see the actual
>picture,
> >
> >and it is awesome ... incredible. And hey, pass it on. The world needs to
>see this one!





* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

*HoPe FoR ToDaY*

*HoPe FoR ToDaY*

yo, fellas! check this out, man!!!

wayyyy to go, sis!

-hehe

dc talk-- Like it Love it Need it

lyrics

Under these circumstances, they can hardly cope

Notice their fleeting glances and their lack of hope

I offer this suggestion, they don't seem to care-o

This is my generation, drowning in despair-o

You'll never find peace of mind in your pool of self

You'll never find peace of mind in a sea of wealth

You'll never find peace of mind in your rock and roll

You'll never find peace of mind if you sell your soul

(chorus)

You gotta like it, you gotta love it

I know you need some freedom from the strife

You gotta like it, you gotta love it

I know you need some Jesus in your life

[Some Jesus in your life, some Jesus in your life]

We circumvent our feelings through an angry sound

He who complains the loudest, wears the fattest crown

We're anti-everybody, call it paranoia

Well I ain't no judge or jury, but I'm praying for ya

You'll never find peace of mind in your lucky charm

You'll never find peace of mind on a hippie farm

You'll never find peace of mind in a one-night stand

You'll never find peace of mind in your superman

(repeat chorus)

You gotta like it, you gotta love it

I know you need itYou gotta like it,

you gotta love it

I know you need some Jesus in your life

Like it, love it, need it, don't leave it

Like it [don't you like it?]

Love it, need it [don't you need it?]

Don't leave it

Ya dropped right into the middle of a freak attack

Cause we're back and we're comin' like that

Ya see we're lowerin' the boom in the middle of the tune

Cause the funk is always heavy where it's at

And while you're whining all the time

Never changing any minds

It is clear to see your lip has lost its button

Cause if ya take a think at this

Then it's easy to admit

That the selfish way you're livin' is for nothing

You gotta like it

You know you need some freedom from the strife

You gotta love it

I know you need some Jesus in your life

(repeat chorus)

You gotta like it, you gotta love it

I know you need it

You gotta like it, you gotta love it

I know you, God knows you need it

You gotta like it, you gotta love it

I know you need it

Some Jesus in your life

Jesus in your life

* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

ATTN: who wrote this comment??

reply:

arghhh i know who you are in the end!!!!!
Loh li shan!!!!!
how can you??
never tell me, huh?!
thanks alot..!
miss ya..
muakks




who wrote this comment?
tell me your name !!!sigh
some people
neway,... thanks alot!!!

Comments:
hi..nice story.. long but
interesting...i seldom read long blog, but i finish this one!:P
#
posted by Anonymous : 7/30/2004 09:05:14 PM Post
a Comment

* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

Juwita Suwito - You in me

Juwita Suwito - You in me

Everytime I look into Your eyes,
There's a pleasant surprise,
awaiting me and amazing me
somehow i realize
i'm so tired of the lies they keep telling me
telling me i should look down inside in myself to find something greater
when i know i can look at the bright side and find the Creator
Chorus:
i just need to spend one moment with You
somehow it's a brand new world i'm passing through
You lift me higher
You let me see
over the walls that surrounded me
don't need to prove myself
just need to show and tell
it's You in me
Verse:
The other day a wolf in sheep's disguise
told me goodness would buy
a day or two for me in paradise
i can never pay the price ,not with a million lives
but its done for me
why should i just depend on myself and pretend i'd find something greater
when i know i can look at the bright side and find the Creator
(chorus)



* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

CYBERJAYA

Guess what this time? It's a one week break from the dusty and smelly college and into a new place thats totally weird.. Cyberjaya.. the kitchen away from home..

Right now i am in brenda's apartment. Brenda is one of the 6 angels of best friends i have and she is 20 this year. She studies Industrial Designing in Lim Kok Wing Cyberjaya and this is her final year. She has been staying here in an apartment which she rents out to her other girlfriends and i am here to spend my holidays with her. I have been here since sunday and will be going home on thursday with Adrian because he is currenly studying in mmu which happens to be on the same street but on the opposite end thats all. Well, its not too far i guess,.. since we have cars.

Adrian is also here. He is Studying Creative Multimedia - Animation, and staying in MMU hostel, as i mentioned earlier not too long ago. So i am here for two reasons actually, one is LEARN to cook and clean the house and another is assist Adrian redo his assignments.. they have the wrong measurements. So what happened the second day i was here was like this...

Adrian came over for dinner. After dinner, i helped to wash the dishes while Brenda decided to wash the floor at the laundry area. SUDDENLY, Brenda starts screeching, "There's a bat here!!..." Both Adrian and myself stares to where she is pointing. True enough there is something small and black... is was not as big as the palm of our hand until it stretched forth its wings, then it would be just a little bit bigger. She said it was there since a week ago and she dared not stay, but went home. She said she returned the next day with her dad who helped her look for it all around the house, behind the curtains and all,.. but to no avail. So they concluded that it was finally gone. Now to her dissapointment, it is still lingering around.

At first, when she saw it, it was not moving, then Adrian with his itchy fingers and nature as a guy was delibrately disturbing it while i was halfway rinsing the fork and spoons. I kept saying, you know, " WAIT TILL I FINISH... WAIT.. WAAAAAIIIIITTTT" and then he impatiently caused it to move, and it did. I screamed and threw the half rinsed fork and spoons back into the sink with all the completely dirty dishes, and ran for dear life after Brenda to the hall. That was an immediate reaction.. What was i supposed to do? The kitchen had no light and it was moving at my direction, okay? I'm human, you know? And a female one at that!Adrian admitted later,.. he was scared too, guy or gal we are still the same. As little as it was..

So the bat moved like spider man crawing on the wall, to the other end of the kitchen, to the empty bottom shelf where fungus grew. And it stayed there. So Brend and Adrian with their miraculous ideas came out with the solution of opening the drain hole on the floor and hoped that the bat would crawl in since it was darker there.. (although the kitchen light was spoiled),.. and myself who is always the blurrr one and dont know whats going on all the time, discoved their motive soon enough and supported their idea. Brenda even discovered the most appropriate weapon in disguise for Adrian to use in order to lure it towards the trap- a broom. He was trying hard with Brenda in command, but he reasoned out that it was not working because the bat was alive, and no matter how much he swept it, it would only move further from the trap. We had to come out with a better solution.

While we were "sqeeezing our brain juices" (as Adrian would call it), the bat decided to make the run for it (or should i say the 'crawl'). And it was heading towards the hole! Yes,.. the end of our story... ? Not so fast- it missed the hole and is now heading towards the shelf and crawing upwards!!! oh no.. Brenda's half-a-packet full of idiot proof Black Pepper sauce we just used for dinner is now in custody of the bat! "I'll throw the whole thing away!" Brenda treatened the bat. Soon the bat falls down, losing its hostage and onto the ground. But it didnt give up here. It still had a chance to escape. It crawled towards the wall where we first met it... Back to Square One.

As we watched the whole thing from outside the kitchen door, Brenda came out with a second plan. She held another weapon in her hand- SHELTOX! As soon as Adrian and Brenda drafted out a vague blueprint with their heads and 'brain juices', Adrian grabs the Sheltox from her freezing hands and begins to activate their plan. Mission Impossible 2 begins... First, Adrian puts the dustpan 5 inches behind the bat. Then, they move to the second part of the plan. In attempt to invade the laundry area, Adrian checkes the coast, and double checks. Suddenly, he points into the laundry area, " i see another bat!" "What???" we both exclaim, and check it out. We moved closer to have a look, but it was all a joke. There was nothing there, except another proof of Adrian's undeniable male character.

Brenda went into the laundry area through the window, while we watched the bat from outside the kitchen. She sprayed the sheltox underneath the door, but to no avail. The bat only moved further away from the dustpan. Adrian came to the rescue.. Brenda climbed back into the dining area safely. Adrian who replaced her opens the door bravely and sprays the Sheltox even nearer to the bat, this time, there is nothing to protect him from the bat except for the half opened foor between them. Nevertheless, the stubborn bat refused to budge. Closing the door, Adrian retreated. Mission Impossible 2 was indeed impossible.

"I have to do my assignment already,.. you guys go ahead," was all tired Adrian had left to say. "It's getting late" And he was right. This bat business had to end. His assignment was due tomorrow. "Ok, that's it. Lets get rid of the bat." We tried really hard this time, and i opted for the garbage bag, but Brenda refrained me. She and Adrian came out with the last and most desperate plan of all. Before i knew what was it, Adrian skillfully swept the bat with the same broom that failed us in Mission Impossible One. The helpful bat willingly hung on to it as Adrian knocked it into the hole. Thus was the last we saw of our dear old friend, the bat.

After finishing Adrian's Assignment, he went home to mmu and i threw myself onto the bed and fell into a deep, long sleep. Brenda was still playing the racing computer game 'Need for Speed Underground' when i awoke and had my bath. As soon as i came out, I realised that it was 2.30 in the morning and i was so shocked. I didn't expect it to be so late! Suddenly, my handphone rings.. Adrian is inviting us out for 'Yam Char' which meants a drink when translated. I agreed but Brenda was held back by the game. Nevertheless, he was on his way. When we left, it was already 3am. Brenda playing the role of an elder sister and host made me promise to be home by 4am. We sped off with Adrian's best friend, Ngai Choong who was the same age as us and studying with Adrian in MMU.

When we arrived at an indian restaurant some 15 minutes away, I had a plate of roti chanai and they had a bowl of maggie mee each for supper. When we were halfway done the shop was already closing. At 4.10am, we reached the building that held Brenda's apartment on the 4th floor ... Adrian took me upstairs while his friend waited in the car.. On the second floor, i was already one foot behind Adrian when i saw something rubbery and colourful yet had an unmistakable pattern on its side... Entangled onto the railing and moving upwards only a foot away from our legs was a,.. "Snaaaake!" I jumped back and shouted. "Yeah right.." was the immediate reply. I know Adrian was naughty but i wasnt. I was serious! Seeing my facial expression, he finally asked "Where?!" And i pointed it out to him, "THERE!!!" it was still so close to him. He too jumped down the stairs and Ngai Choong seeing the final episode from the car ran upstairs in disbelief but a wide smile on his cubby face. This was no bat. Adrian said almost like an adult, "We'd better tell Brenda." Soon he was on the line with her,.. i could only hear him say "..Really, wan! Here on the 2nd floor..." and " ..I am not joking! Got snake!". Lastly, ".. If you don't believe me, you can ask Anna!" He passed the phone to me. "Brend,.." i said slowly but the tone of my voice was getting higher, "there is snake. Really!" She replied, "No snake, la! First the bat, now a snake? I don't believe! Tomorrow i will see a tiger! This is not a zoo.." after battling with her like with the wall, she hangs up on me in disbelief.

We stood there staring at the snake. It was climbing higher and higher up the stairs. It even tried to strangle one of the fatter railings thinking it might be food. Finally, we hear footsteps rushing down the stairs.. but it was too fast, too furious! Ngai Choong calls out, "CAREFUL!". He was just in time. She stoped right there in front of the snake. She saw it. It was real after all. When i asked her why she finally came down, she answered " I could hear you guys downstairs when i was on the phone with you and I came down because you guys took so long to come up."

Thank God our brain juices were still active. Brenda tells Adrian to call the guard, so he drives to the guard house. Honestly, i didn't think that the guard would follow because it was the wee hours of the morning and they wouldn't trust someone who is not a resident and especially one who says there is a snake! What if the guard who follows him in his car gets killed or kidnapped, no one would know. Added to it, they won't have enough man power to send two. But lo and behold, Adrian comes back with one, not in another vehicle, but in his own car! The guard then sees the snake and commands that sticks be brought. After Adrian and the guard finds two sticks, the guard throws one at the snake, it was the fatter one that he threw, but the snake didnt move and inch. It had curled itself up at the end of the stair. We think it was either asleep or waiting for the right moment when it can attack the guard offguard. As the guard moved nearer and nearer to the snake, we got a little worried for him. It was hard for us to communicate with the guard because we speak in english and his english was not that good. We think he was a chinese, so we didn't speak to him in Malay. But Adrian managed to convince him that it was dangerous trying to hit the snake with a broom stick because the snake could easily move up the stick and attack him. So at his permission, Adrian called another guard to assist him.

I didn't think the guards could be so naive to send their people out one by one to get killed. They probably would have came back with a police car instead to check for dead bodies and Adrian in handcuffs as my imagination would have put it, but fortunately enough, Adrian came back with an empty car this time, and not with a whole troop of policemen waiting to investigate the case. Adrian said the guard refused to come because he was the only one in the guard house. We didn't know what to do this time. Time is running out and i would like to just bypass the snake, back to the apartment where i can sleep. After all, Adrian and Ngai Choong has college the next day. But they wanted the residents of the apartment to be safe. And i guess that is more important. I actually asked Adrian and Ngai Choong to go back first but they insisted in staying on to watch the show. It was a rare chance they didn't want to miss. And i agreed. Finally, the guard agreed to follow him to the club house for recruits.

True enough, they came back with a whole troop of indian and malay workers who had been sleeping in the club house so "syok-ly" at that time of the night. They had woke them up to kill a snake and afew of them came along. One said reassuringly, "Ini ular sawa" meaning, "This is the Ular Sawa snake". He says it doesn't have poison, but it still can strangle a person to death. Nevertheless, he says that it is a little one. I was thinking to myself, 'Little? What is he calling little? It is like 5 foot long, harlo?? And like more than a mug size fat??' Nevermind, i think i should exclude my criticism here. But all of us thought fairly well that it was huge enough to strangle a person's neck to his death.

After approximately 5 minutes, they had developed a strategy. At first they asked for a guni sack (a bag sack to keep rice or durian last time, but now they use plastic). Brenda obviously didn't have one. After checking, she came down with a garbage bag as asked for. As application to their newly developed strategy, only one man stayed upstairs. The rest went down and prepared for the attack or you can say, the kill. The one upstairs just pushed the snake down. It was hard like rock. I was curious why it didn't attack him at all. Adrian says that the snake is as scared of us as we are scared of it. Indeed, when the snake was pushed once, it didn't move, then it was pushed all the way down to the ground floor where it fell on the grass and tried to slither away. Thank God there were little trees and plants so that they could spot and hit the snake easily. Immediately after the snake fell down, the one who pushed it rushed downstairs and joined the rest in the kill. Brenda, Ngai Choong and i watched from upstairs and Adrian from downstairs as they beat the snake to death with a hoe and a shovel. Some of the workers were very brave, although one was so scared that he threw the hoe at the snake and totally missed. The brave one is the one who aims at the head and kills it, hitting and hitting, even when the snake is already dead. It was a pytiful sight, though. Those of us who were watching agreed to that. We saw the whole thing. But i thank God the snake is now dead.

* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

6 pages Assignment for Malaysian Studies

yup... i know
its very funny

CYBERJUNGLE

It’s a jungle out there in Cyberjaya and if you don’t believe me, then perhaps you should stay there for a one week holiday just as I have done! Not too long ago, when I was given this assignment, I made a decision to write about my holidays about wherever I had spent it. And to my decent surprise, I had spent it in Cyberjaya. I believe it is not a coincidence that such wild experiences had come to life here in ‘Cyberjungle’ as I should call it from now onwards. In this assignment, I shall talk about the origins of Cyberjungle and my special experiences which have occurred throughout my stay there.

According to the Cyberjungle Multimedia Super Corridor webpage http://www.cyberjaya-msc.com/html/cyberjaya.htm , they see Cyberjungle as a place where ‘Man, Nature and Technology’ live in harmony. From my personal experience as a guest there, I believe it is true. Cyberjungle is a city where man, nature and technology live together in harmony. That is the premise which Cyberjungle is built on - a city featuring a unique blend of lush tropical eco-friendly environment with the latest technology in IT infrastructure and facilities.

Cyberjungle is Malaysia's first truly intelligent city, officially launched by the prime Minister, Datuk Seri Dr Mahathir Mohamad on 8 July 1999. The landmark event was witnessed by 25 of the world's top personalities in the IT world. Spanning an area of 2,894 hectares (7,000 acres) the city is the nucleus of the country's vision for the next millennium, the Multimedia Super Corridor (MSC). Promising to be the city of the future, Cyberjungle will soon be the home ground for many IT & technology companies.

In order to be the city for the 21st century, the Flagship Zone of Cyberjungle is being developed as a self contained intelligent city, offering the ideal business and living condition for all. The Flagship Zone covers three main zone areas:

Enterprise Zone
Commercial Zone
Residential Zone

The rest of the Flagship Zone (at more than 50% of its total area) is designated for public facilities, green areas and zone for recreational purposes. The development of Cyberjungle is also divided into 2 major phases:

Phase 1: comprising approximately 1,460 ha (3,600 acres)
Phase 2: comprising approximately 1,430 ha (3,500 acres)
Cyberjungle is located at the heart of the Multimedia Super Corridor (MSC), the nucleus of Malaysia's vision for the next millennium. It is where the latest technology in IT infrastructure and facilities will set the standard for modern-day living. Added to it, it is also a world-class business and living environment where lifestyles are truly enhanced.
It has the best telecommunication infrastructure, High speed internet access and is a City Command Centre acting as a central monitoring hub for all traffic, utilities and public amenities. Cyberjungle includes a network for on-line shopping, education, entertainment and emergency aid. To know a little more about Cyberjungle, please visit http://www.cyberia.com.my/cyb.html
In Cyberjungle, high quality and efficient provision of utilities is supported by a back-up grid. Large recreational areas including Cyber Park, Cyber Axis garden and golf course is located in Cyberjungle for entertainment and a sure way to relax the mind. Six Smart Schools and Telemedicine Health Clinics are provided to ensure safety and well accepted education.
Cyberjungle is connected to KLIA, Putrajaya and KL Sentral Station by the Express Rail Link (ERL). It is served by a network of expressways including:
the North-South Expressway Central Link
the Lebuhraya Damansara-Puchong (LDP)
the South Klang Valley Expressway and
the proposed Dedicated Highway
It’s a jungle out there!
Now I would like to add in my personal experience here in Cyberjungle. During the second day of my stay here in Cyberjungle, I was visited by a bat while washing the dishes in the kitchen. Although the bat was a small one, it was black and dirty. We were horrified at the look of it. We tried all kinds of ways to dispose the poor thing. But finally, we figured everything out by shoving it into the kitchen drain hole on the floor.
On the same day, while I was walking up the second flight of stairs, to the apartment located on the fourth floor, I noticed something entangled to the railing. It had an unmistakable pattern. By no doubt, it was a snake! I jumped back, took a deep breath and shouted. It was just a foot away from my friend’s feet. When I shouted I showed him where it was and he too jumped backwards.

In Malay, it is called ‘ular sawar’ and this one just happened to be 5-feet long and about 3 inches wide. The ular sawar had no poisonous sting but it could strangle a person to death in a few minutes.

We were scared and called the guards to get rid of it immediately for the safety of the residents there. It took 5 men to bring down the snake. This was done by pushing it so that it fell unto the ground floor and the rest of them waiting for it to fall whacked it repeatedly with hoes, sticks and shovels until it died. Their strategy worked, and thus we have taken a picture of this snake which I have enclosed in this assignment.

After facing this two haunting incidents, my friends are forced to live in fear as long as they are still in Cygerjungle. For example, whenever we walk up the stairs, we have to be careful lest there be anymore snakes around. It is dangerous and we are not sure what will happen tomorrow. In fact, my friend admitted that she won’t be surprised if we spot a tiger the next day. Added to it, this was not the first snake reported sighted by one of her friends. I just happened to be one who sighted it this close to her apartment.

We understand that Cyberjungle is a newly developed area, but for the safety of the residents and visitors there, I hope that none of these disasters should ever take place again. I believe that this statement about the condition of Cyberjungle should be taken note of by the authorities, and that their citizens be warned so that this issue should come to the awareness of our society. If the government is truly concerned for its people they should not hide issues like this in the dark at their risk.

There are various steps that should be taken in settling this problem, for example, fencing certain commercial buildings and residential areas with electric fences, tightening the security system, placing alarms at certain areas, raring trained dogs to help the guards in patrolling the area, warning the public of such incidents to raise awareness and finally, survival and first aid training.

Fencing commercial buildings and residential areas with electric wires can be quite costly, but is an action which has to be taken into consideration because it is worth it for the sake of our residents and workers’ safety. These wired not only would prevent animals from getting through but also prevent other crimes such as thefts and break-ins. Technology has provided us with electric fences which doesn’t require high voltage, but just a buzz of it so that animals should keep their distance from restricted areas. The only possible disadvantage which can be seen through the application of this idea is the probability of children getting hurt. Nevertheless, as these fences only let out a buzz of electricity, we can be sure it won’t be too dangerous for them.

Tightening the security system should be seen as a must, as its budget isn’t going to be too affected or not affected at all this will only meant that they have to be on their toes for wild animals within the area other than break-ins. This could also mean that they have to make more rounds around the area to avoid mishaps such as this. It is better to be safe than sorry.

Placing alarms at certain areas might be a disturbance at times, nevertheless necessary as well. This would help the guards to locate wild animals and act upon it. These alarms may be censored alarms which would turn off once an animal has triggered it. These alarms must also be able to distinguish between humans and animals respectively. Nevertheless, this choice may not be suitable for those with budget constrains.

Raring trained dogs to help guards in patrolling the area is a good idea as animals have high sensitivity compared to human beings. Their eyes and ears are many times sharper than ours and once they detect a strange animal, they will bark to warn us and also bring us towards the location of the wild animal. Thus, the use of guard dogs should not be under estimated. Added to it, this step doesn’t require much funds either, at it seems to be one of the most effective

Warning the public of such incidents is not merely a step but the most important in building a safe environment. This is in fact the responsibility of the government and shouldn’t need to be taken into reconsideration. This should be done through many ways such as publicizing it in the newspapers and television.

Last but not least, is training out people how to act in these emergencies. These trainings should be conducted by organizing campaigns. In these trainings, people should be thought how to kill a snake or the fastest way to contact the right personnel in regards to capturing the snake. Should any of these wild animals be sighted, the authorities must be informed immediately.

These trainings must also include fist aid trainings in case any mishaps were to take place. By all means, killing a snake on ones own may not be advisable unless there is no other solution. The people should be taught the step-by-step procedures into handling each new situation as it seems fit. These steps should not be taken lightly, as it can save people’s lives.

The people have the right to protect themselves and survive. We cannot always depend on the authorities to do the thinking and killing for us, because by than it will be too late, for we all know the faults of man and their weaknesses when it come to efficiently handling emergencies in Malaysia.

Of course, there can be minor steps too, such as placing sulfur around the area or growing bamboo plants which are both greatly disliked by snakes, but should some other animal come in, we should think of more solutions in solving each problem. Therefore, I dun see why those in authorities are not taking serious actions if there are so many ways to prevent history from repeating itself.

Why must we wait for someone to be killed or injured in order to start acting? By than it would be just another regretful incident. We need to weigh out the possibilities and know it could happen anytime to anyone. If anything happens, there is no one to be blamed but ourselves. We know about it, and if we don’t warned others, their blood will be on our hands. We must be responsible citizen. If we don’t do something now, we will regret for the rest of our lives. Don’t let this be another lesson to be learnt. There were so many lessons in the past; this is the time to actually learn from them. Remember what our lessons have taught us. Let us be useful students.

We need to stop this before it is too late and put another of our friends’ or relatives ‘lives in danger because of our own naivety or inefficiency in handling this problem. Right now the case is still in our hands. We have the power the future in the present. Let’s do it!

Think about our friends’ way back in Cyberjungle. Think about their safety and ignorance. Think about the snake on the second flight of stairs and imagine what could probably take place within those few frightful seconds. If you have the voice to scream, then shout your lungs out and tell them that there is a snake only a foot away from their feet. Show them the 5 feet long strangler and its 3 inch wide width. Don’t watch them die.

* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

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A message from Ryan to his dearest daddy.. 8 weeks old

Ryan is my new nephew! He is 8 weeks old and Ebbie, my sis and his mum is really proud of him! Here is his fathers day message...

Today, CF was great! The worship was great and interaction was fun! For the interaction part, we did a quesionnare- personality test.. hAHA.. they said i am intuitive!.. so i am going to type out abit for you.. heh..

this is abit of who i am..

INTUITING
You (thats me) are blessed with the creation gift of imagination.(Thank you!) Because of it, you are never quite satisfied with things as they are. You seem to be inexorably drawn toward what could be, lured by the dream of the future's possibilities.(Wow.. how did you know that) Because of your deep-seated confidence in such visions, you probably are willing to sacrifice for your dreams.(Amen) For you, today is a stepping-stone into tomorrow. You live by inspiration, and you need to be ignited by vision and sustained by fresh glimpses of that vision and by the jow of achievements which reinforce your conviction about the possibility of the "not yet". Your enthusiasm may be so contagious that you are able to persuade others to follow your dreams.(Watch out you people... this is soon to come)
But you are also aware of your inadequacies. You may feel that details bog you down.(yeahh..) Sometimes you may spin castles in the air ( =O ..thats me!) and your plans lack sufficient grounding in the facts.(hahahahaha,... *shy) Your hopes for tomorrow may cause you to miss the precious moments of today - changing seasons, or the stages of your child's growth.(you really think i missed?... ... ...) Unsatisfied with things as they are, you may feel a sense of restlessness which others see as evidence of a changable, perhaps even unpredictable, nature.(I totally agree)

You like to chase the novel and complex.(meaning??) You have faith in your ability to overcome any challenges you face...(yup yup yup,.. totally!) highly independant..(my greatest desire) value adaptability and innovation.. you encourage and value change...(uh huh=))

You need freedom for action... you resist hierarchy and structure...(err,... sad to say.. yes) you push against all odds to further your projects with your entrepreneurial tendencies...(fighting spirit!) you can argue and find the flaws in any position...(HAHAHA...!! What on earth?...but i have to admit... its true!)

How'm I doing so far? (Not bad) You just accept things just the way they are...(opposite!! i don't!) you like to test new meanings and relationships.. (haha.. meants?.. not loyal ah?) when you don't get what you want, you use your cleverness and ingenuity to bring people around to your point of view... (shhhh,...) when you choose a career, you tend to set flexible goals that allow you to incorporate new information and accomodate to new circumstances...( sounds logical, but i dont have a career yet)

"Keep your options open" is your middle name...(unconciously.. yup) you like to explore the "road not taken."(i didn't realize that, but i can prove it) Your flexibility can look like indecision to others who don't have a clue about you...(HEARD THAT PPL?? its you who dont have a cluee!) you take advantage of opportunities...(*PHEW! So there is nothing wrong with that?) you realize potential of many things because of your ability to see connections and relationships betwen SEEMINGLY unrelated things... (=) thats me, hehe,... i do that with people and .. other things like.. using socks as a coin pocket.. or bread plasticbag to transport my dinner and bowl with fork and spoon) you cannot be ordered around, but rather handle things best when they are "suggestions" ...( my mum would totally agree with that!) like posting more on the Storm Palace BBS (huh?) you love excitement... (everyone does.. right?)

Competence is key to you...(Yeah meh?) you don't take advice or respect someone you don't see as competent(SO NOT TRUEEE. i respect almost anyone under me.. not those above me) you want work to be enjoyable..(not true.) you're a restless learner(i realized that, too.. i was about to bite my teacher'e head off this morning because i thought she was going too slow and i wanted her to answer my question.. more important) Knowledge is important to you.. you use your enthusiasm to get others involved in your learning..(one day i will be convincing enough.. this will be my next goal!!) you learn through give-and-take discussions and by challenging others...(haha...hehehe.. right again!) you like challenging your teachers and colleagues..(thats always the case.. interesting mah) limitations are mere challenges to you.. you take initiative, and once the ball is rolling, you like to turn it over to someone else..(SO TRUE... thats what i call PIONEER... I only know how to start and dont know how to finish... i get bored when everything is succesfull)

You like to organize logically and strategically... your work space might not LOOK organized(haha), but(there's always a catch somewhere) underneath it is all a system that works for you. You like to have an impact.. you need a job that allows you to be innovative, you like to take risks and explore..(=) my taste exactly).. an open calender for the weekend is really appealing.. you're often "in on the latest things..." ..you like to travel, 'cause it allows you to open up to new vitas and horizons(hehe..) corny, huh? (huh?)

Falling in love happens when there's a good "fit" with another person.. you often know after the first meeting whether there's any "real potential"...(huh!) you may not like to commit until that right person comes along.. therefore you probably won't settle down early..(how dare you!) you don't like to lose ANYthing you undertake..(rubbishh!) you're a born enterpriser(what does that have to do with this?)...

Things to be on the guard for: you have a great fear of looking dumb or incompetent..(hmm,..?..=))you may tend to think you have the perfect solutions for problems(but,..i do), and may become competitive when others challenge you...(of course la) you might start to think that you're the only one who's in on the truth of things(what to do,..), so you might not like to listen to the input of others..(haha.. since childhood) you may have the tendency to overextend yourself as you jump in on lots of ideas without considering how long it takes to work 'em through..(its so happening, man.. take out and chop all the ingredients before i work out the recipe!) commit too many projects?(like trying to work, study and all at the same time) .. you are a rebel(absolutely,.. once i get the kar keys, there's no turning backkk!!!!) you find it difficult to accept standard operating procedures..(no matter how hard i try, i can NEVER EVER follow the recipe 100%. I must modify, come out with my own concortion or change it totally, no matter how simple it is) and hate HAVING to follow exact rules or policies... learn to work within the system.(aiyo)

ENTP:"Each New Thought Propels"

Scary Dinner

hi ya all!!
long time no write.. well, i was abit sick today.. *sniff *sniff... so i wanted to skip class today, but.. ah.. might as well just go for the attendance. This week, my computing lecturer taught us how to use Adobe Photoshop.. man! What funn..

Hay, and guess what? I cooked dinner today! yay! But, actually, i just stand there and tell the maid what to do wan.. haha.. but at least it was my idea la, ok?.. what i cooked? well.. at first i wanted to cook fish.. but.. uh.. it turned out, i cooked two dishes.. one, was bayam and butter mushroom with onion and butter and egg yolk,.. and it is really nice! i love it! next time you ever cook any at all kind of vege, be sure to use butter and not oil unless you are using olive oil because olive oil is healthy... and the next dish was .. milk, tomato puree, potatoes, fish, tau foo, and the left over egg white, not forgetting the onions.. haha. of course the vege dish tasted much better! Here is the recipe...


first, put some butter into the kuali
then fry 1 small onion until brown
thirdly, put the bayam and butter mushrooms inside
lastly, off the fire,wait until cool, put an egg yolk(just to be careful, put it onto the vege, not the kuali so that it won't cook), salt, pepper
lastly, reheat!


thats the vege dish
heres the recipe for the weirdo


pour lots of milk into the kuali- about two cups
and put about 1 small chopped onion in and wait until it is soft
put butter into it with salt and pepper
dont forget 1 chopped potato into cubes
and one packet of tau foo and two pieces of fish
you can add in the tomato puree here.. about 3 tablespoons
and,... haha.. if you want, you can put in the leftover egg white, ha..


sacred of me now?
it sounds like i am playing masak-masak! don't worry la.. no one home for dinner so i makan sendiri.. nice what!

CAYLIEeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Can you believe that?

She was half screaming and half crying at the same time. She was just behind me when it happened. My mother being Grandma by now was fully awake and in panic- something was in Caylie's mouth. Caylie, being my two year old neice had something invisible in her mouth, it seemed, but there was certainly something there. Grandma shouted out,.. "what did she eat??!!" . Among scattered batteries, beside Grandpa's side of the bed, UHU Glue was found on the floor... They hurried her to the bathroom and washed her mouth clean,,....

Do you know how hot and painful that could have been? Have you ever tasted Super Glue, or at least felt it on your skin?...

Well, Caylie is fine now... its over.. her parents are back already. Caylie was crying for her, so they had to get her parents back asap. On the phone, Caylie was saying "mimi?... mimi?". Calling for her mother, the child could be heard whimpering in agony....

nice poem to a friend

If one and one added make two



Then where in the world is there a place



for two who would become one?



And for the sacred arithmetic of grace



which says to give is second to none?



What are we to do? And how are we to understand?




Here is where the answer lies:



One - in the rough and tumble of today and the looking toward tomorrow



Two - in the steady hand



Three - in the tender kiss



For these they are that do abide -- faith, hope and love



And, like to grace, reduce to One



Love; it is the secret sum of this addition



and heaven's grave retort to the wisdom of this world


Hold fast, hold fast



and in this counting count love's debt



as far beyond your means



but well within your grasp


To labour under love, this is the test



To understand the cost, this is the rest



To know without a doubt, this is the best




2 July 2001



Las Vegas
http://www.peterschrock.com/old/prob_ericnat.html

* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

This is better than I love you!

Marty wakes up at home with a huge hangover. He forces himself to open his eyes, and the first thing he sees is a couple of aspirins and a glass of
water on the side table. He sits down and sees his clothing in front of him,
all clean and pressed. Marty looks around the room and sees that it is in a
perfect order,spotless, clean. So's the rest of the house. He takes the
aspirins and notices a note on the table "Honey, breakfast is on the stove,
I left early to go shopping. Love you." So he goes to the kitchen and sure
enough there is a hot breakfast and the morning newspaper. His son is also
at the table, eating. Marty asks, "Son, what happened last night?" His son
says, "Well, you came home after 3A.M., drunk and delirious. Broke some
furniture, puked in the hallway, and gave yourself a black eye when you
stumbled into the door."Confused, Marty asks, "So, why is everything in
order and so clean, and breakfast is on the table waiting for me?" His son
replies, "Oh that! Mom dragged you to the bedroom, and when she tried to
take your pants off, you said, "Lady, leave me alone, I'm married!"


* tRUST & OBey the LORD *

Something else,..

It is possible to pray for God's will while resenting that God is God. Many people despise God because He has not made them master of their fate, captain of their soul, or rulers of their own destiny. * tRUST & OBey the LORD *

A studie on abortion for english class

this is a testimony i stubbled upon during my research on abortion to present in english class,.. hope it meants something in your life,...

i thought you might like it.. i already planned to share it with you before i found my name in it... when i found my name there i take it as a confirmation that i really should share it with you,..

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The Post-Abortion Review
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Amazing Grace
Case Study: Carolyn "Allen"



I was 24 years old, and had recently had sex for the first time—outside of marriage. I had grown up in a Christian home and was already ashamed and ambivalent about my sexual relationship. Then I got pregnant right off the bat.
I had a pregnancy test at my ob./gyn. and she told me she didn't think I was pregnant. She thought I might have a tumor, because my uterus was enlarged. I "prayed" for cancer. But I turned out to be pregnant; I found out the next day.

I was panic stricken. I couldn't believe I was pregnant. I immediately blurted out, "I have to have an abortion." I had never even thought about it before, but that was the first thing that came to mind. I told my boyfriend I was pregnant, but we didn't discuss what to do. I left him just assuming I would have the baby.

I told no one else. I had asked my doctor for sleeping pills until I could have the abortion four days later; I don't think they worked. I didn't want to think; I just wanted to get it over with.

I wondered if my baby knew what I was planning. I talked to my baby and apologized. But mainly I just wanted it to be over. I thought I could cover my sin, erase the past few months, break off my relationship with the father, and start over—just as though none of it had ever happened.

My abortion was a cowardly, selfish decision. I saw it as my whole life being "over" if I stayed pregnant. I didn't even consider any other options. I chose myself over the baby.

I had a D&C abortion at a women's hospital in Washington, D.C., under general anesthesia. I was scared and upset, and when they came to put an IV in my arm I told them I didn't want to be put to sleep until I had seen my doctor. They told me it was just vitamins, but then put the anesthesia in anyway. So I don't know to this day whether my own doctor (a woman) did the abortion, or one of the men who was standing there as I went to sleep. I just remember feeling the stuff in my arm, calling out "No!" and then I was out. I don't mean this to say I was going to change my mind about the abortion. I wasn't.

When I woke up in recovery, I asked if they would just tell me if it was a boy or a girl. A nurse harshly responded, "It's just tissue. There's no way to tell."

I took a cab to the hospital and took one home. I wanted to do it all by myself, so no one would know. I felt so alone.

I felt a huge, gaping hole, an emptiness, right away. I also felt terrible guilt. I turned away from God completely, because I could not face Him with my abortion. I felt I had passed the point of no return—just gone too far. That was an unforgivable sin. And I had gone into it knowing that. It was sort of like I sold my soul.

I immediately began a pretense. I went back to work ("I was just a little under the weather last week," etc.) I tried hard not to think about it.

I did have to tell the baby's father. He was very hurt and upset, but he said he understood and he still wanted to marry me. I had planned to break it off, but now I thought that no one else would ever want me, and I had hurt him so much. So I married him.

My wedding was three days after my baby's due date. I pasted a smile on my face and pretended to be a happy bride, but I was thinking about my baby.

I began to drink a lot to be able to get to sleep, to not think. My relationship with my husband went downhill immediately. I now understand the rage and hurt he must have felt over my aborting his child without even telling him first. But I was just so wrapped up in my own hurts I didn't think about that then. We never talked about it.

He was abusive, and I accepted it. I would hear in my mind, "So what's your problem? At least he didn't kill you. You killed your baby!"

I wanted to die, but I was afraid of hell. I even felt guilty about not committing suicide: "You didn't have any problem killing your baby. Why get cold feet now? You deserve to die! You're not only a murderer, you're a coward!" I wanted to be in a coma. I guess I thought I could wake up in 50 years or so and be able to deal with it then.

Six years later, we were divorced. I had been stuffing my feelings down or anesthetizing them with alcohol so long, and wearing a mask and pretending for so long, that I felt numb. I remember getting out of the car to go into a grocery store one day and thinking, "I'm even just pretending to go to the store. I don't even exist." I felt like a zombie.

The abortion changed me in every way. I went from being an outgoing person who loved friends to being a hermit, not wanting to be close to anyone. I thought they would hate me if they really knew me. I became a heavy drinker—probably bordered on becoming an alcoholic. I ran from God and hated myself. I accepted abuse and felt humiliated over that, and all the while I had this gnawing emptiness. For 12 years I was in a state of non-growth—just existing.

I became a Christian while I was separated, shortly before my divorce. At that time, I asked God to forgive me for my abortion, but I still felt so numb. I didn't cry about my baby or anything. I felt hard-hearted and unable to really confess. I wondered if I was really sorry, or just regretted what had happened to me.

I told a pastor about my abortion, but just in a list of things wrong. He didn't mention it again and neither did I. Then I saw a Christian counselor who tried to convince me that I was abused as a child (I wasn't) and we didn't deal with the abortion at all.

Three and a half years ago, I went through a support group that used Women in Ramah, a Bible study by Linda Cochran. I was finally able to face my abortion. I found God's promise to "take away my heart of stone and give me a living heart of flesh." I asked Him to do that for me and He did.

I finally was able to get over myself and think about my baby, come to love my baby, and then grieve for my baby. And I was really able to understand God's forgiveness—that all my self-punishment and misery could not atone for my abortion, that there was nothing I could do to pay for it, that Jesus died on the cross for my abortion and all my other sins, and paid for my sins in full. God not only forgave all my sins, He brought me peace and joy. Real joy!

My baby's name is Callie Anna. Anna is the name God gave me, and it means grace. Now, when the "accuser" attacks, even my baby's name reminds me of God's grace and forgiveness. Doing the Bible study was the best thing I ever did for myself and I thank God for it.

Now that I have found healing and forgiveness, I am once more developing friends, and am able to serve God however He chooses to use me. I know God works everything for good, and I have seen Him use me to help others now. After working through my abortion, and seeing how very much God values each one of His creation, I am less critical of others, and tend to see all people as precious in God's sight.


---this a poem written by a guy (father)

Just Let Her Know You Love Her

How ever can I explain it? Tell me, where do I begin,
to try and justify the cause of just another sin?
I remember the day she told me, and the fear within her eyes.
I hid my love for you behind ``it's-your-decision'' lies.
How could I fight a verdict that she so quickly made?
All I could do was love her, and try to ease her pain.
I guess I always thought that atonement could be mine--
if we had another child someday, we'd undo this tragic crime.

I wish that I could blame her, to help relieve my guilt,
But I only blame myself, and I know I always will.
I should have protected you, instead of her or me.
But I loved her so much, living for her touch....
That's what I hope you'll see.

Now, I see you up in Heaven, your finger pointing down,
upon the lap of Christ, millions of innocents, gathered `round.
Knowing you are in Heaven, offers some relief to me
because our all-forgiving God has promised to set me free.

I know we'll be joined together, as family once again
when our time on earth is over and our eternity can begin.
So please forgive us both, for such a selfish task.
Just let her know you love her; it's all I'll ever ask.

-- Anonymous