Been out lately.. what to do? Leaving de mah.. aishh.. so sad.. so sad to let them go.. but no choice.. Have to get on with life.. have to fulfill God's call upon my life.. and it's just not here, and I know it. But I'll be back.. one day. And I know that too. Just like I told Joram, I will tell you guys, "I will come back to Malaysia.". I know I will. That's the whole reason why I am going in the first place - so that I may come back - a whole new person. A better person. Hopefully, a more mature and independent person. Someone who will be of benefit to the society, at least.. but I just want to be the person God wants me to be. I want to be a blessing. And I want to be the best I can possibly bring myself to be.
I'm coming back, so don't worry.. I just don't know when. It can be anything between 3-7 years. No idea. But I know that by then, I won't be the same. My pilgrimage. My quest to find God. It's not that I don't have Him, I do. I just want more of Him. I want to achieve my greatest desire in my life - intimacy with God. And no matter what, I know that I must get to there before I die. I don't care how long it takes, but I must get there. And I won't give up searching until I have found my greatest Desire. And I hope you all will be like me in this manner
13 And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart.
So I've been packing.. I'm so not ready to go.. people ask me, so how do you feel about going.. well.. mixed feeling, la.. excited but very very very sad. So sad to leave the people I care about the most.. some of you read my blog, some of you don't. But you know who you are.. Right now, let me just mention one.
XiYing.
The first time I met you, was the nuttiest cf I ever encountered, my dear. Seriously. I didn't even know you back then, but you treated me like you knew me forever. We laughed and laughed about nothingness and you are seriously nothing but crap. What do you have up there, XiYing? Is there anything in there at all?? XD
Okay, I'm being mean.. but being mean means I mean it. Lolee!!!
Okay, crappiness is coming back again... lalalalalallala...
Oh, shucks. better stop here.
Change topic, quick!! (sorry, XiYing.. I will come back to you later, when I am not so crappy)
Andrew Chang.
Talking about laughter and talking about crap suddenly brings this boy to mind. Hahaha.. sorry, I said I was only going to mention one, but lemme just mention another one more, since we're here in the topic of laughter and crap. (Well, right now, laughter and crap may bring to mind a few more names, like Deborah Tan Ai Jern. She is the pioneer. lolee..)
Okay.. so talking about laughter and crap, Andrew Chang is the latest member.. seriously. I suddenly had a flush of memories of me and Deborah and my childhood years when I spend time with this guy laughing my head off.. I was thinking to myself like, "Okay, Anna.. this seems familiar.. when was the last time you had a laugh like that?" It was one of those times when everything seems funny.. you know what I mean? Like the smallest thing in the room can be a laugh about. Seriously... erm.. lemme see... Cockroach legs or something? Ewww!!! And that little queen ant thing you tried to kill in the bathroom.. omg.. what was that thing, really?
Oh, well.. Andrew doesn't read my blog, but maybe one day he will.. lolee! one day..
xIyING.
Oh, got to pick XiYing up from her house soon.. guess this will be one of the last times, XiYing.. I'm so gonna miss you.. Love you loads!!^^
Till then, I'll catch up with you guys later.. see ya!!!
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
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