I shall be very honest with you.. I am just an ordinary youth, nothing special about me, I am no Holy Angel. Holy Angel is just my nick and what I wish to be someday. But right now, I am merely human. I've made mistakes that last me a lifetime and sometimes I wonder if I have done more wrong than right.
The things I go through in life are just an average of what youth these days go through, though not as bad as most. I am sure that the things I go through are not even half of what my peers go through sometimes. I still consider myself blessed most of the time, and I rarely consider myself 'less fortunate', though there are times where I envied others. These 'others' are then again but the few.
Want to know about people I envy? Hehe.. :) The people I envy the most are either those whose parents are close to them or those that are the super pure and holy type, who has never been in a relationship and has never been kissed. Above all, I envy those who are both. Other people I envy but not as much are those who can play instruments really well, especially the piano and secondly, the guitar. I guess it's because I had a prophecy once that I could play the piano, but never made it well, and the guitar is because my dad plays it, and I always admired guys who can play it. I also envy those whose maturity surpasses their age, I guess we all do.
Surprisingly, I don't envy those who have intimacy with God because I consider myself as one of them already.. I don't envy those who aren't PKs (Pastor's Kids), on the contrary, I find myself blessed that I actually am. I am grateful for the spiritual inheritance that is due to us, yet quite unafraid of the spiritual attacks that comes along with them. I honestly love the attention from people, though I may profess otherwise *grins* (oops,.. was that a grin?). I am time and again forever grateful for the grace that abounds to us from the policeman when one caught me without an I/C and the driving examiner when he found out what my dad works as and later passing me (I failed 4 times altogether).
Ok, so back to the topic.. the top 7 things I tell myself every morning for the past one week is as follows: (7 being least said and 1 being most said)
WARNING: If you're already depressed, please don't read this!
7. I can't take it anymore (yes, sissy me)
6. Lord, please help me..
5. Where did I go wrong?
4. Why am I so sad / like that?
3. What is wrong with me?
2. I hate myself
1. I want to kill myself (Don't worry, although I say it the most, I don't have the guts to do it, and I don't quite have a good reason.. and like I said, I'm just an average youth.. I'm not perfect.)
So,.. yeah.. I'm far from being a role model.. I have my struggles,.. and I guess the biggest struggle right now is the sadness on my face.. those who have met me face to face will know that there is this constant sadness on my face that doesn't seem to fade. I guess they have wondered why that face.. I guess they were all wondering what is wrong with me and with that sad face I have been wearing for years and years and years of my life.. I myself have been wondering, actually.. Especially this week, when I am alone in my room, and the pain is ever so loud... Sigh.. ok, now you are actually wondering if I am a 'ministering case',.. haha..eww... let's hope not!
I found the answer- the sadness on my face is the result of the pain in my heart. Yes, honestly comes out once and for all.. and I shall say it again.. the sadness on my face which I can't get rid off is just an expression of the pain I feel in my heart which I can't get rid off. There is this constant pain.. even now, I can feel it, and the pain gets louder once in a while, sometimes when I am alone, and sometimes when I am with a really big group of people. When certain things happen, it just triggers the pain that increases ever so loudly and then gradually decreases back to it's normal faint scratch in my heart.
I used to think it's because of my past.. and this one week the Holy Spirit has been dealing with me,.. I have been talking to Him a lot, discussing the reason behind the sadness on my face, cried about it and all.. Digging out the trash..
Well, I soon came to realize something very provoking and surprising which I wonder why I didn't realize earlier- that although the main reason is because of my past, the reason why I keep forgiving and yet nothing is happening is because the wound is still fresh. And everytime I forgive, the wound heals but then a knife cuts the same wound open again. It's no wonder the pain never seems to go away and it's no wonder why everytime I get out of it that I fall back in again.
It's not so much the past then.. it's the present. I was being hurt ever so consistently that the sadness on my face remains all these years. Pathetic pain. It's no wonder why sometimes the pain hurts even more than other times- my cut has just been re-opened.
I dug even more.. Who was hurting me? What is wrong with me? Is it my behaviour that causes me to get hurt? Am I just being sensitive? Why is it that other people don't get hurt? Am I being childish?
I had to get down to the exact things in life that hurts me the most, and I realized that all those times when I was hurt, it was the little things that kept hurting me. You won't believe it- things that people would regard to as 'harmless', I would react in such a painful way.. I wonder why?
Figured it out- do you remember the time when you had your biggest accident in your life? And the wound on your leg/hand took a really long time to heal? Well, imagine if just ten minutes after the accident, someone sitting next to you just touched that wound? OUCHH... yes,.. the simple things in life which wouldn't hurt others hurt me badly.. a touch would be harmless, wouldn't it? No,.. it wouldn't. Not to that wound, it wouldn't.
Sometimes I would hide myself in the room... I guess what I was actually pleading was, "Stop touching me!!!! Stop touching my wound, it hurts bad enough already.. you're just making it worse." And when the Holy Spirit tries to dig out certain things and hit the jackpot, it's like a nurse putting medicine on the wound and hitting the jackpot.. I found myself crying over stupid things that I wouldn't even dare mention here. Pathetic. Then I find myself saying things like.. "I hate myself." Hate myself for being so pathetic.
The pain hurts, yes it does.. incredibly hurts. And you know what's the pathetic part of it all? I'm not done yet.. Still have digging to do.. just don't dare to get into it just yet.. give me some time to rest first... the tension and trauma is incredible. I need a break.
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Monday, July 30, 2007
Saturday, July 21, 2007
Confessions of a teenage Christian - Mary and Jo (Joseph, I meant)
Luke 2:5,6
5 to be registered with Mary, his betrothed wife,[a] who was with child. 6 So it was, that while they were there, the days were completed for her to be delivered.
Explanation:
Ok, I have a confession to make- I didn't know that Mary was not yet married to Joseph when she gave birth! I knew that she conceived before getting married but I didn't know that she actually gave birth before getting married! That brings a whole new revelation and meaning to what Joseph did! My goodness.. that means, that everybody would have thought that it was a scandal and to make it worse, frowns would be on Joseph! How much more then, these couple really loved You and all.. Imagine this really 'holy' couple having a son before their wedding! Imagine how Mary would have gone through her wedding day- with a son~!? Oh my goodness.. I never thought of it that way..
You know, the whole time, I thought that Joseph knew that Mary had conceived, so he faster married her, then no one will know... but I was wrong,.. and my mum said that, if he did that, then it will be very vague, there is no proof that Jesus is not Joseph's son. Joseph had to purposefully marry her after she gave birth.
Imagine, the shepherds walking into the manger to find Mary and Joseph.. and they ask.. oh.. "So this is your husband, what is his name?" and because she doesn't lie and all, she is so holy, so she will answer something like.. "Oh, no,.. this is not my husband,... this is my fiancee." And they are like... "aaaaahhhh,... and so.. this Baby is,.. erm,... the Holy One, eh? Saviour of the world or something like that?"
How can anything good come out from Nazareth? How can any good baby come out from a scandal? So Nazareth is like.. the backstreets.. its like.. the place where the sinners hang out.. Lots of drunkards, drug addicts, smokers, gamblers,.. people in immorality and all that.. so that's where Jesus grew up in. Graffiti on the walls.. skateboards.. people rapping on the streets... guys wooing girls.. *ahem *ahem... "C'mon, yo buddy...!" Mary and Joseph went there to raise a family because in places like this, scandals were a norm? All the families there are like that- imagine..
Mary and Joseph came from a good background- godly families. And when this happened, both their families abandoned them- they had to hide from everyone they knew.. what a sad wedding- what a quiet wedding, Mary and Joseph had no friends. That's why they left their families to live out in Nazareth- away from both their families, the relatives and all the frowns. Is it? Is that what really happened? No.. in the chapter, they talk about Mary and Joseph being among their relatives. How did Mary and Jo stand it? They must have really understanding relatives or something.. Imagine.. what if two really holy people you knew- a couple, got together and had a baby boy before their wedding? Like.. what if Pastor Debbie and Caleb had Caylie before their wedding day???? "Hey, do you mind holding Caylie during the wedding day? I need someone to hold her while I take my vows.. if she cries, just pass her over to my mum,.. she is sitting on the front row. You can't miss her. My mum can handle it. She's really good." Oh,.. my....What a disaster~!!! It's like.. the end of their ministry, man!
Okay,.. so.. sometimes, sacrifices has to be made.. oh my goodness,.. what about my face???? Do You know what is reputation? Oh,.. my,.. so are You asking me to throw away my face or something for You? But I thought reputation was important?~! My mum said something like.. the Bible said that we have to keep a good reputation or something,.. unless You want something to be done and then we have to be fools for Christ or.. rather.. looking like a criminal for life, without committing a crime. Such a bad testimony... >.< And my whole life my parents kept telling me about being a good testimony, good example of a Christian.. what a good example Mary and Joseph must have been~! Well, now they are a good example to me... I am doing my devotion on them... hmmm,.. so I have to be like Mary and Joseph.. mwhahahahahahha... no that's not what I meant.. What I meant was.. sometimes, I have to sacrifice my face to do what is right..
What Joseph did really touched me. He was brave. Very brave. It wasn't his love for Mary that made him a hero to the world, but it was his love for God. The love he had for Mary was not enough to kept him holding on. It was his love for God that made him do something like that. Everyone's finger would not be on Mary alone, but on him. And he had a choice, even if he married her, he had a choice to do it before her pregnancy was visible. But no, in order to prove something to the world, he married her after, bearing the cost of it all... Ouch.. That is what I call bravery and courage. This is something I can't do.
Application:
When I help people, sometimes, I have to tell people what I have done in order for them to open up and share with me.. It's not a nice thing telling people what I have went through and done. It's such a shame to my reputation and I don't know where to hide my face,.. really. But it is needful. I just have to swallow myself and let God do the talking.
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
5 to be registered with Mary, his betrothed wife,[a] who was with child. 6 So it was, that while they were there, the days were completed for her to be delivered.
Explanation:
Ok, I have a confession to make- I didn't know that Mary was not yet married to Joseph when she gave birth! I knew that she conceived before getting married but I didn't know that she actually gave birth before getting married! That brings a whole new revelation and meaning to what Joseph did! My goodness.. that means, that everybody would have thought that it was a scandal and to make it worse, frowns would be on Joseph! How much more then, these couple really loved You and all.. Imagine this really 'holy' couple having a son before their wedding! Imagine how Mary would have gone through her wedding day- with a son~!? Oh my goodness.. I never thought of it that way..
You know, the whole time, I thought that Joseph knew that Mary had conceived, so he faster married her, then no one will know... but I was wrong,.. and my mum said that, if he did that, then it will be very vague, there is no proof that Jesus is not Joseph's son. Joseph had to purposefully marry her after she gave birth.
Imagine, the shepherds walking into the manger to find Mary and Joseph.. and they ask.. oh.. "So this is your husband, what is his name?" and because she doesn't lie and all, she is so holy, so she will answer something like.. "Oh, no,.. this is not my husband,... this is my fiancee." And they are like... "aaaaahhhh,... and so.. this Baby is,.. erm,... the Holy One, eh? Saviour of the world or something like that?"
How can anything good come out from Nazareth? How can any good baby come out from a scandal? So Nazareth is like.. the backstreets.. its like.. the place where the sinners hang out.. Lots of drunkards, drug addicts, smokers, gamblers,.. people in immorality and all that.. so that's where Jesus grew up in. Graffiti on the walls.. skateboards.. people rapping on the streets... guys wooing girls.. *ahem *ahem... "C'mon, yo buddy...!" Mary and Joseph went there to raise a family because in places like this, scandals were a norm? All the families there are like that- imagine..
Mary and Joseph came from a good background- godly families. And when this happened, both their families abandoned them- they had to hide from everyone they knew.. what a sad wedding- what a quiet wedding, Mary and Joseph had no friends. That's why they left their families to live out in Nazareth- away from both their families, the relatives and all the frowns. Is it? Is that what really happened? No.. in the chapter, they talk about Mary and Joseph being among their relatives. How did Mary and Jo stand it? They must have really understanding relatives or something.. Imagine.. what if two really holy people you knew- a couple, got together and had a baby boy before their wedding? Like.. what if Pastor Debbie and Caleb had Caylie before their wedding day???? "Hey, do you mind holding Caylie during the wedding day? I need someone to hold her while I take my vows.. if she cries, just pass her over to my mum,.. she is sitting on the front row. You can't miss her. My mum can handle it. She's really good." Oh,.. my....What a disaster~!!! It's like.. the end of their ministry, man!
Okay,.. so.. sometimes, sacrifices has to be made.. oh my goodness,.. what about my face???? Do You know what is reputation? Oh,.. my,.. so are You asking me to throw away my face or something for You? But I thought reputation was important?~! My mum said something like.. the Bible said that we have to keep a good reputation or something,.. unless You want something to be done and then we have to be fools for Christ or.. rather.. looking like a criminal for life, without committing a crime. Such a bad testimony... >.< And my whole life my parents kept telling me about being a good testimony, good example of a Christian.. what a good example Mary and Joseph must have been~! Well, now they are a good example to me... I am doing my devotion on them... hmmm,.. so I have to be like Mary and Joseph.. mwhahahahahahha... no that's not what I meant.. What I meant was.. sometimes, I have to sacrifice my face to do what is right..
What Joseph did really touched me. He was brave. Very brave. It wasn't his love for Mary that made him a hero to the world, but it was his love for God. The love he had for Mary was not enough to kept him holding on. It was his love for God that made him do something like that. Everyone's finger would not be on Mary alone, but on him. And he had a choice, even if he married her, he had a choice to do it before her pregnancy was visible. But no, in order to prove something to the world, he married her after, bearing the cost of it all... Ouch.. That is what I call bravery and courage. This is something I can't do.
Application:
When I help people, sometimes, I have to tell people what I have done in order for them to open up and share with me.. It's not a nice thing telling people what I have went through and done. It's such a shame to my reputation and I don't know where to hide my face,.. really. But it is needful. I just have to swallow myself and let God do the talking.
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
The most beautiful song...
Beautiful Saviour - Planet Shakers
Verse 1:
A E/G# F#m7
Jesus, Beautiful Saviour,
E D
God of all Majesty,
A/C# Bm7 E
Risen King,
Verse 2:
A
Lamb of God,
E/G# F#m7
Holy and righteous,
E D
Blessed redeemer,
A/C# Bm7
Bright morning star
Pre Chorus:
E A/C# D
All the heavens shout your praise,
E A/C# D F#m7 E
All creation bow to wor---ship You
A F#m7
How wonderful, how beautiful,
E D A/C# Bm7 D/F# E/G#
Name above every name, ex------alted high
A F#m7
How wonderful, how beautiful,
E D Bm7 D F#m7 E A
Jesus Your name, name above e----very name, Je--sus
Bridge:
A F#m7 D Bm7 E
I will sing forever, Jesus I love You, Jesus I love You
Bridge 2:
A Asus
Jesus, Beautiful Saviour
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Disclaimer
I never knew how important disclaimers were until now. You won't believe it- everyone I have ever driven who has read that blog entry (yes you know which one) thinks that I was talking about them. Hah.. talk about perasan.. -_-' I didn't mention any names there did I? Perasan betul.. I was actually talking about a lot of people.. at least 6 different people, most of them I have abandoned years and months ago and at least 5 of them being girls.
No, I don't mind fetching people around. Depends who and depends on their attitude, that's all. Sigh... I don't mind fetching people who appreciate it and really need transport, who don't take me for granted. In fact, I kind of like fetching them, it makes me feel.. important and useful.
Sometimes, you can even see me going around asking people if they need transport- yes, that is what I normally do. Well, partially also because I am that lonely and I don't want to go home alone. I want to hang with some friends before going home but I didn't have friends, so I just ask people I don't know if they need transport. Yes, I am that pathetic and that alone. You won't believe it.
So, yeah.. side track a bit.. I am a loner and later, I will be going to Tesco alone and that's also another reason why I am writing this blog.. Sigh.. Lonely people need blogs. If you are lonely, get a blog like me. It helps me imagine that I am actually talking to someone when nobody actually reads my blog. Hahahah.. pathetic loner. Yeah, I think that's a good name.. I shall put it in my msn nick.. Hahahah.. nice nice.. very suitable- 'Pathetic Loner'.. Hehehe... I'm lovin' it.. Lone-lieeee... I am so lone-lieee.. I have no-baaah-dieee... I am aloo-OOO-oo-ne..
Lone-lieee.. I am so lone-lieeee,.. I have nobaaah-dieeee, I am aloo-OOO-oo-ne..
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
No, I don't mind fetching people around. Depends who and depends on their attitude, that's all. Sigh... I don't mind fetching people who appreciate it and really need transport, who don't take me for granted. In fact, I kind of like fetching them, it makes me feel.. important and useful.
Sometimes, you can even see me going around asking people if they need transport- yes, that is what I normally do. Well, partially also because I am that lonely and I don't want to go home alone. I want to hang with some friends before going home but I didn't have friends, so I just ask people I don't know if they need transport. Yes, I am that pathetic and that alone. You won't believe it.
So, yeah.. side track a bit.. I am a loner and later, I will be going to Tesco alone and that's also another reason why I am writing this blog.. Sigh.. Lonely people need blogs. If you are lonely, get a blog like me. It helps me imagine that I am actually talking to someone when nobody actually reads my blog. Hahahah.. pathetic loner. Yeah, I think that's a good name.. I shall put it in my msn nick.. Hahahah.. nice nice.. very suitable- 'Pathetic Loner'.. Hehehe... I'm lovin' it.. Lone-lieeee... I am so lone-lieee.. I have no-baaah-dieee... I am aloo-OOO-oo-ne..
Lone-lieee.. I am so lone-lieeee,.. I have nobaaah-dieeee, I am aloo-OOO-oo-ne..
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Monday, July 16, 2007
Hohoho.. I didn't know people actually read my blog
Crappy.. I'm in BIG shit... People actually read my blog.. err.. yeah.. and the last people who supposed to read it read it. Hahaha.. lalala... should I delete the entry before Joram lays his eyes on it? Well.. Joram and everyone else?? Or should I just leave the evidence there? Hmmm,.... to leave or not to leave...
Well,.. it DOES hurt people.. so I guess I will delete it.. well, if you're looking for it.. sorry, it ain't here..~! Adios~!
p/s: I am saving the evidence as 'draft' so if you really want to read it, ask me.
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Well,.. it DOES hurt people.. so I guess I will delete it.. well, if you're looking for it.. sorry, it ain't here..~! Adios~!
p/s: I am saving the evidence as 'draft' so if you really want to read it, ask me.
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Sunday, July 15, 2007
I am a 37~!
Below is Dr. Phil's test . (Dr. Phil scored 55; he did this test on Oprah - she got a 38.) Some folks pay a lot of money to find this stuff out!
Read on, this is very interesting!
Don't be overly sensitive! The following is pretty accurate and it only takes 2 minutes. Take this test for yourself.
Answers are for who you are now --- not who you were in the past. Have pen or pencil and paper ready.
This is a real test given by the Human Relations Dept. at many of the major corporations today. It helps them get better insight concerning their employees and prospective employees. It's only 10 Simple questions, so grab a pencil and paper, keeping track of your letter answers to each question.
Make sure to change the subject of the e-mail to read YOUR total. When you are finished, forward this to friends/family, and also send it to the person who sent this to you. Make sure to put YOUR score in the subject box.
Ready??
Begin.
1. When do you feel your best?
a) in the morning
b) during the afternoon ∧ early evening
c) late at night
2. You usually walk...
a) fairly fast, with long steps
b) fairly fast, with little steps
c) less fast head up, looking the world in the face
d) less fast, head down
e) very slowly
3. When talking to people you. .
a) stand with your arms folded
b) have your hands clasped
c) have one or both your hands on your hips
d) touch or push the person to whom you are talking
e) play with your ear, touch your chin, or smooth your hair
4. When relaxing, you sit with. ..
a) your knees bent with your legs neatly side by side
b) your legs crossed
c) your legs stretched out or straight
d) one leg curled under you
5. When something really amuses you, you react with...
a) big appreciated laugh
b) a laugh, but not a loud one
c) a quiet chuckle
d) a sheepish smile
6. When you go to a party or social gathering you ..
a) make a loud entrance so everyone notices you
b) make a quiet entrance, looking around for someone you know
c) make the quietest entrance, trying to stay unnoticed
7. You're working very hard, concentrating hard, and you're interrupted...
a) welcome the break
b) feel extremely irritated
c) vary between these two extremes
8. Which of the following colors do you like most?
a) Red or orange
b) black
c) yellow or light blue
d) green
e) dark blue or purple
f) white
g) brown or gray
9. When you are in bed at night, in those last few moments before going to sleep you are. .
a) stretched out on your back
b) stretched out face down on your stomach
c) on your side, slightly curled
d) with your head on one arm
e) with your head under the covers
10. You often dream that you are...
a) falling
b) fighting or struggling
c) searching for something or somebody
d) flying or floating
e) you usually have dreamless sleep
f) your dreams are always pleasant
POINTS:
1. (a) 2 (b) 4 (c) 6
2. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 7 (d) 2 (e) 1
3. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 5 (d) 7 (e) 6
4. (a) 4 (b) 6 (c) 2 (d) 1
5. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 2
6. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 2
7. (a) 6 (b) 2 (c) 4
8. (a) 6 (b) 7 (c) 5 (d) 4 (e) 3 (f) 2 (g) 1
9. (a) 7 (b) 6 (c) 4 (d) 2 (e) 1
10. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 6 (f) 1
Now add up the total number of points.
OVER 60 POINTS : Others see you as someone they should "handle with care." You're seen as vain, self-centered, and who is extremely dominant. Others may admire you, wishing they could be more like you, but don't always trust you, hesitating to become too deeply involved with you.
51 TO 60 POINTS: Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality; a natural leader, who's quick to make decisions, though not always the right ones. They see you as bold and adventuresome, someone who will try anything once; someone who takes chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your company because of the excitement you radiate.
41 TO 50 POINTS: Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.
31 TO 40 POINTS : Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful & practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over if that trust is ever broken.
21 TO 30 POINTS: Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It would really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment, expecting you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then, usually decide against it. They think this reaction is caused partly by your careful nature.
UNDER 21 POINTS : People think you are shy, nervous, and indecisive, someone who needs looking after, who always wants someone else to make the decisions & who doesn't want to get involved with anyone or anything! They see you as a worrier who always sees problems that don't exist. Some people think you're boring. Only those who know you well know that you aren't.
I'm a 37 (Anna-Grace) =)
1a 2
2b 4
3b 2
4b 6
5b 4
6b 4
7c 4
8f 2
9a 7
10b 2
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Read on, this is very interesting!
Don't be overly sensitive! The following is pretty accurate and it only takes 2 minutes. Take this test for yourself.
Answers are for who you are now --- not who you were in the past. Have pen or pencil and paper ready.
This is a real test given by the Human Relations Dept. at many of the major corporations today. It helps them get better insight concerning their employees and prospective employees. It's only 10 Simple questions, so grab a pencil and paper, keeping track of your letter answers to each question.
Make sure to change the subject of the e-mail to read YOUR total. When you are finished, forward this to friends/family, and also send it to the person who sent this to you. Make sure to put YOUR score in the subject box.
Ready??
Begin.
1. When do you feel your best?
a) in the morning
b) during the afternoon ∧ early evening
c) late at night
2. You usually walk...
a) fairly fast, with long steps
b) fairly fast, with little steps
c) less fast head up, looking the world in the face
d) less fast, head down
e) very slowly
3. When talking to people you. .
a) stand with your arms folded
b) have your hands clasped
c) have one or both your hands on your hips
d) touch or push the person to whom you are talking
e) play with your ear, touch your chin, or smooth your hair
4. When relaxing, you sit with. ..
a) your knees bent with your legs neatly side by side
b) your legs crossed
c) your legs stretched out or straight
d) one leg curled under you
5. When something really amuses you, you react with...
a) big appreciated laugh
b) a laugh, but not a loud one
c) a quiet chuckle
d) a sheepish smile
6. When you go to a party or social gathering you ..
a) make a loud entrance so everyone notices you
b) make a quiet entrance, looking around for someone you know
c) make the quietest entrance, trying to stay unnoticed
7. You're working very hard, concentrating hard, and you're interrupted...
a) welcome the break
b) feel extremely irritated
c) vary between these two extremes
8. Which of the following colors do you like most?
a) Red or orange
b) black
c) yellow or light blue
d) green
e) dark blue or purple
f) white
g) brown or gray
9. When you are in bed at night, in those last few moments before going to sleep you are. .
a) stretched out on your back
b) stretched out face down on your stomach
c) on your side, slightly curled
d) with your head on one arm
e) with your head under the covers
10. You often dream that you are...
a) falling
b) fighting or struggling
c) searching for something or somebody
d) flying or floating
e) you usually have dreamless sleep
f) your dreams are always pleasant
POINTS:
1. (a) 2 (b) 4 (c) 6
2. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 7 (d) 2 (e) 1
3. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 5 (d) 7 (e) 6
4. (a) 4 (b) 6 (c) 2 (d) 1
5. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 2
6. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 2
7. (a) 6 (b) 2 (c) 4
8. (a) 6 (b) 7 (c) 5 (d) 4 (e) 3 (f) 2 (g) 1
9. (a) 7 (b) 6 (c) 4 (d) 2 (e) 1
10. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 6 (f) 1
Now add up the total number of points.
OVER 60 POINTS : Others see you as someone they should "handle with care." You're seen as vain, self-centered, and who is extremely dominant. Others may admire you, wishing they could be more like you, but don't always trust you, hesitating to become too deeply involved with you.
51 TO 60 POINTS: Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality; a natural leader, who's quick to make decisions, though not always the right ones. They see you as bold and adventuresome, someone who will try anything once; someone who takes chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your company because of the excitement you radiate.
41 TO 50 POINTS: Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.
31 TO 40 POINTS : Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful & practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over if that trust is ever broken.
21 TO 30 POINTS: Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It would really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment, expecting you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then, usually decide against it. They think this reaction is caused partly by your careful nature.
UNDER 21 POINTS : People think you are shy, nervous, and indecisive, someone who needs looking after, who always wants someone else to make the decisions & who doesn't want to get involved with anyone or anything! They see you as a worrier who always sees problems that don't exist. Some people think you're boring. Only those who know you well know that you aren't.
I'm a 37 (Anna-Grace) =)
1a 2
2b 4
3b 2
4b 6
5b 4
6b 4
7c 4
8f 2
9a 7
10b 2
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Monday, July 09, 2007
Solution for period pain~! Yay~!
Not sure if this works, girls.. but here is a suggestion.. it's a bit difficult, but hey, it's worth the trade in return for no period pain, right? So girls and guys who want to take care of their girls, listen up.. You need to put a lot of determination and perseverance for this, and it will take the effort of everyone. You have to work together to make sure that she sleeps early before her period comes, preferably before 11pm.. tadaa~! Goodnight..
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Sunday, July 08, 2007
Happy!!!
Hehehehe... you know what? That day went to watch ..erm... Fantastic4 with xiying and the cf people and I tied my hair.. 'half-tie'. And then Likee said, "Eh, why today you look so beautiful wan ah?" Although it was Likee, but still, for a guy to tell me that.. well, it makes me happy. Hamsup or not.
And then, the next day, i wore a skirt again, and this time, Joram said, "Ooo.. someone wearing mini skirt."
And I was like.. "Yeah, I always wear, what."
And he was like,.. "Yeah, meh? I never see also.."
Then I was like, "You're just.. ...unfortunate." :D
He was like.. :( hehehe.. :)
Then after the yamchar, he was like, "Anna, you look nice today."
I was so... stunned, "Thank you!!" :D hehehe...
Then later i went into the car with Aaron Tham, and I was like.. "You heard that??? Joram said I looked nice today!!!" then I said, "I am so happy!"
And Aaron was like.. "You always look nice.." heheheheheheheh.... :D :D Double happy~!
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
And then, the next day, i wore a skirt again, and this time, Joram said, "Ooo.. someone wearing mini skirt."
And I was like.. "Yeah, I always wear, what."
And he was like,.. "Yeah, meh? I never see also.."
Then I was like, "You're just.. ...unfortunate." :D
He was like.. :( hehehe.. :)
Then after the yamchar, he was like, "Anna, you look nice today."
I was so... stunned, "Thank you!!" :D hehehe...
Then later i went into the car with Aaron Tham, and I was like.. "You heard that??? Joram said I looked nice today!!!" then I said, "I am so happy!"
And Aaron was like.. "You always look nice.." heheheheheheheh.... :D :D Double happy~!
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
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