if you can swim down beneath to my heart and take a little peek in it
you will see the walls full with Jesus pictures
and a lipstick print on each and every picture
be it small or large posters
and there will be drawings and paintings that i have done of Him
and then you will see a white grand piano where i worship and play songs to God
and you will see arched windows, all white
and then you will notice a desk
and the desk is pink
and as you go closer you realize that its my bathroom
and the seat is a toilet bowl
and there are walls that have these stickers of two tall green trees
just like the one in my bathroom
but then as you sit on the toilet bowl because youre tired, you can hear the wind blowing
and as you look at the pink tiles below you, you can see the shadow of the grape plant outside my window
and the leaves of the plant is big and being blown by the wind
and you can hear the rustle of the leaves and smell the freshness of the evening breeze
and then you look in front of you, a little to your right, you see my shower curtain
its not the one in the bathroom
this shower curtain is transparent
and it has pink and white flowers painted on it as a design
and its just like you see in those japanese cartoons where the flowers are fine
and then you close your eyes
and as you imagine these flowers flying in the wind, falling
you can hear a simple song that comes from your heart
and this song is made by God and yourself
as you sit quietly on that toilet bowl
and listen to the song
and listen to your heart sing
feel the smile across your face, adore God
and thank Him for all the goodness He has done in your life
for giving you a christian family, for making you so close to Him especially
you wonder how come a God like Him could love a person like you
and your expression changes as you think of all the bad things you did that day and that week
you remember the people you scoulded and the bad tantrum you casted
you remember the bad thoughts you had and negative views about certain individuals
you suddenly realize how proud you are and that you were not at all like Jesus Christ
and when you notice that warm wet itchy thing on your face, you start to wipe it off, later to realize that it was a tear
and then you cry even more
but God puts His arm around you and say
'now, you realize what i have done for you on the cross'
and you cry abit more
and give Him a hug
and never ever let go
until the day you die
and see Him again one fine day in Heaven
in Heaven you find yourself amiss white radiant lights
and clouds everywhere, youre even standing on them
and then you see the palace of God in front of you and you run
the huge doors open up before you and angels stand two rows, one to your left and another to your right
and they are singing majestically as you just stand there awed by everything
but then you suddenly realize that way in front of you is Jesus! sitting on the throne- God the Father
and you run like you have never ran before
and it seemed less than mili seconds that you are finally found in His arms of love and comfort
everything is ok
youre home, you made it
this is your hearts desire
and youre content
youve got all you ever wanted and you can feel it
this is what you want
all you want is God
thats all you want
and thats all you ever lived for
and He's all youll ever live for
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
