* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Beautiful
INTRO
D D/F# G D/F# X 4
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VERSE 1
D G
WE GOT MUSIC TO SOOTH YOUR SOUL
D G
WE'RE GONNA GET DOWN WITH A LITTLE BIT OF ROCK AND ROLL
D G
WE GOT RHYTHM TO MOVE YOUR FEET
D G
WE'RE GONNA MAKE YOU GET UP OFF YOUR FEET
CHORUS
D G
WHEN I LIFT YOU UP THEY COME RUNNING
D G
WHEN I SING YOUR SONG THE WORLDS TURNING TO YOU
D G
JUST THE SOUND OF YOUR NAME IS A BEAUTIFUL THING
D G
I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU
VERSE 2
D G
YOUR NAME IS BEAUTIFUL
D G
IT DRIPS OFF MY LIPS LIKE DROPS OF GOLD
D G
IT MAKES ME, WANT TO DANCE
D G
YOU'RE MY TREASURE, MY DELIVERANCE
Get Down
o|| - repeat
h - hammer
/ - slide
Intro Tab:
e|----2---------|-----2p0--------|-------2------|---0h2--|
b|-------3----3-|---3------------|----------3---|--------|
g|-2--------2---|-1--------------|-0------------|-2------|
D|--------------|----------------|--------------|--------|
A|--------------|----------------|--------------|--------|
E|--------------|----------------|--------------|--------|
Intro: D E7 G D
Verse Tab:
e|--------------|-------------------------|
b|----7-7-7---7-|-----------------8-8-8-7-|
g|----7-7-7---7-|-----------------7-7-7-7-|
D|-/9-7-7-7-9-7-|---------------7-7-7-7-7-|
A|-/9-------9---|-3/5-5-x-x-7h9-----------|
E|--------------|-------------------------|
_________________________ ____________
|1. ||2. |
e|--------------|------------------------o||---0--------|
b|--------------|----------------8-8-8-7-o||--3-3-----2-|
g|--------------|----------------7-7-7-7-o||-2-------2--|
D|----5-5----5--|--------------7-7-7-7-7-o||--------2---|
A|----5-5----5--|-5-5-x-x-7h9------------o||-------0----|
E|--3-3-3--3-5--|------------------------o||------------|
Bm
Lavishly our lives are wasted
D
Humbleness is left untasted
G D
You can't live your life to please yourself, yeah
Bm
That's a tip from my mistake
D
Exactly what it doesn't take
G Bm A
To win you've got to come in last place.
D E7
To live your life you've got to lose it
G D
And all the losers get a crown.
D
I get down, and he lifts me up
E7
I get down, and he lifts me up
G
I get down, and he lifts me up
D
I get down
Bm
All I need's another day
D
Where I can't seem to get away
G D
From the many things that drag me down, yeah
Bm
I'm sure you've had a day like me
Where nothing seems to set you free
From the burdens you can't carry all alone
In your weakness He is stronger
In your darkness He shines through
When you're crying He's your comfort
When you're all alone He's carrying you
This valley is so deep
I can barely see the sun
I cry out for mercy Lord
And You lift me up again
Hands And Feet
Intro: D D/A D/Em D/G Em A
Verse1:
Bm G Bm G
An image flashed across my TV screen, Another broken heart comes into view,
Bm G D G
I saw the pain, and I turned my back, why can I do the things, I want to?
A Em A
I am willing, yet I'm so afraid, You give me strength when I say
Chorus:
D D/A
I want to be Your hands, I want to be Your feet,
D/Em D/G
I'll go where You send me, go where You send me
(repeat)
Em A D A G
And I'll try, yeah I'll try, to touch the world, like You touched my life,
Em A
And I'll find my way to be Your hands.
Verse 2:
Bm G Bm G
I've Abandoned every selfish thought, I've surrendered everything I've got,
Bm G D G
You can have everything I am, and perfect everything I'm not,
A Em A
I am willing, I'm not afraid, You give me strength when I say
Bridge;
A G
This is the last time I turn my back from You,
E G
>From now on I'll go out, send me where You want me too,
A G
I finally have a mission, I promise I'll complete,
E G
I don't need excuses when I am your hands and feet
Fill
e|-2---2---2---2---2h3p2-|
b|---3---3---3---3-------|
Man Of God
a~b -- legato slide (first note picked only)
a/b -- slide, pick first note then slide down to the next
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|------------9 ~ 7--------------------------------|
|-------7------------9 ~ 7------------------------|
|--O--------------------------9---9 ~ 7---7 / 5---|
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|-------------------------------------------------|
|-------------------------------------------------|
|------------9 ~ 7--------------------------------|
|-5-----7------------9 ~ 7------------------------|
|-----------------------------9---9 ~ 7---7 / 5---|
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|-------------------------------------------------| Repeat that over and
|------------9 ~ 7--------------------------------| over again through
|--5----7------------9 ~7-------------------------| the verses.
|----------------------------9---9 ~ 7---7 / 5----|
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Use these chords through the chorus. It is very easy to
figure out the order they go in. I am almost deaf and I
can even do it. G2 D Em
3 2 O
3 3 O
O 2 O
O O 2
2 2
3 O
Thursday, September 01, 2005
Artist :: Audio Adrenaline
Saturday, August 27, 2005
From Ipoh to Miri
Yeap.. you got that right... travelling around malaysia in 7 days.. haha.. just kidding.. i went to ipoh because my sis ask me go jaga kids,.. erm... then go there see jusco, call chris out and hang out after the meeting.. watch choco factory with mr willy wonker.. hehe i luf that guy.. so cute.. and i hate the oopaa loompas.. they so irritating.. and all also same.. i see their face until sien already.. ish.. trying hard to forget that face now.. get it off my mind~!!!
okie enuf of willie wonker and the chocky.. hey, did i mention that i like willie wonker?? hahha... ok ok.. >.<
well another thing that happened in ipoh was that the police caught me and wanted to jail me.. haha.. they caught us on the road and ask us for i/c and then i never bring I/c... duh.. because it was in the house and we lost our way to the house.. actually we already stop at the road because we were waiting for our friends to come and bring us home because none of us in this car knows how to go home..so.. need backup.. then police come already, check i/c and create problem for me... aihhh.. who ask me never bring i/c right.. and then chris was driving and so he was called out of the car (hey, by right they are not allowed to ask us out.. its the rule..) but he went out anyway, and was questioned and he try to plead with the police to let me go because i was the only one who didnt bring my i/c.. and he actually can saman me or bring me to jail straight away.. so anyway, he plead and plead and i was waiting with denise in the car.. then you know la.. hungry people like me although i was already eating kit kat which denise bought at the cinema, still very fast impatient one.. so i come out of the car and stand between him and the police to see what all the trouble was about.. and the police (there were 2) asked me to fill in the details.. while i was writing it down on a scrap of paper the other police asked me what my dad was working as.. i was like... "err.. pastor.. paderi.." dont know how to say.. but also dont care.. as long as he so called understand la.. and then
he was like.. "oh.. kamu ni dari mana?"
i was like.. "mm.. kl.."
he said " kl mana?"
i was like.. "pj, section 12"
then he said " di sini jugak sama dengan di pj, tau? di sini ada banyak kes kes yang jadi" i just nodded..then he warned me that it was dangerous not to bring my i/c.. "kamu boleh kena saman tau?" i nodded again.. then he let me go.. *phew.. now i got peace,.. and continue eating my kit kat..
erm.. lemme see,.. what else in ipoh?? ahh.. yes, i met a new friend, her name is Winnie~!! she is 11 years old and she calls me "Anna Fish.."... great~! first Angela the fish then Eujin the fish and then now it is Anna the Fish~! are we a school of fish or a college of fish now~?~!.. anyway.. i like that name.. by the time i wanted to go back home, she gave me a pic of a fish and wrote this ::
For U Anna Fish!
From :: Winnie
at the back i asked her to write her address because she doesnt go online and doesnt even have an email address.. so i have to mail to her literally.. and then she also gave herself two fishes.. one was medium sized and one was mini size.. of course mine was GIANT size.. hehe.. because i so fat.. hahar.. anyway, on the medium one i wrote my add and on the mini one i wrote my online contact addresses and stuff.. who knows.. maybe one day, right?? yeh..
so now in miri.. there is connection here.. haha.. i so happie.. stay at hotel summore.. not longhouse or what.. thank God i brought my swimming gear and goggles.. just now went to the beach and then go swim swim.. hmm.. beach.. reminds me of aaron.. kuantan... aaron... kuantan... arghh~! >.< cannot~!
yeah lor.. so i went alone.. my parents busy in the meeting.. and then i go build sand castle.. i did a little model of my school which i wanna build.. a little one only la. nothing one.. dig one big hole.. make a wall around it.. then use the sand i dug out to build the school in in front or rather.. behind it.. altogether the school was like 2 feet and the hole another 2 feet long and the depth of the hole was like 1/4 feet?.. ook!! nvm...
and then i sit at the hole there and dip my feet into the water gathered at the hole.. because the sand arh.. is like clay sand one.. very erm... how to say.. like use to make pots one... yeah.. and then dig already alot of water down there one..because so near the sea.. further away got alot of crab like to stay one.. aaaaaaaahhhh!! i know why.. because it was low tide that time.. now i think my school habis musnah already..
and then go swim swim alone.. so boring.. then lie down at the long chair there facing the beach.. or supposed to face the beach, all blocked by other long chairs and tables in front of me.. and trees la.. all trees.. summore my long chair was on the grass.. it was like this.. from the hotel.. then you go to the pool.. then you see grass with long chairs and tables and shades.. then finally the beach.. so since i swim swim already then duhno where all the mah salleh there get their towels from so i no need towel la,.. just dry myself in the hot breeze... mmmmMMMMMmm.... on the white cushion long chair.. MMMMmm.. and then adjust my chair make it lower so can sleep.. MMMMmmmmMMMMMmmmMMMMMmm.... oklar,.. enuf... now can advertise for ParkCity Everly Hotel.. formerly Holiday Inn.. and then bought over and my mum said some china man duhno how to pronounce 'Beverly' so become 'Everly'... so sad, hoh?
Anyway.. thats life here la.. erm.. friends? so far no friends la..actually the first night itself i took 2 cups of coffee... and so i knew i wont be able to sleep, so after the 6 course chinese dinner with my parents and the leaders then i followed my brother elijah to the youth meeting.. apparently they said that the youth just loved to worship... and yeah~! i like totally agree.. they can spent hours.. and so even after the 6 course dinner they still worshipping.. so geng yah? and so i go with them see the youth people.. but in the end no one come shake hands with me.. >.<
so how? no friends yet lor.. see tonight can make friends or not.. try lah~! try very hard... >.< ....*sniff *sniff ... hmm... those old friends must be thinking what is wrong with me.. well anna no more introvert liao.. become extrovert already.. cant spend time alone for too long.. have to make friends one.. if go long journey like this need to make friends.. networking is important.. if not i feel like my journey there is not worth it.. something like that la...
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Hey, guess what? Nope,.. not a new bf,.. guess again.. Erm.. yeap, something weirder than that~! I am in the plane right now,.. nothing to do, so start blogging lor.. no, la.. no internet connection.. just using word.. on my mum¹s lap top.. it¹s a mac~! And I thought she would never let me lay my hands on it~! Well.. I am now..
Well, basically I just wanted to type about my trip to Miri,.. yeah, continuetion from yesterday¹s.. well, in the end I did meet new friends thereŠ there are all the girls because miri church is basically students and students are basically girls.. No,, not dissapointed, because I know it will be more appropriate for me to make more girl friends that guy friends, and if most of them are girls then I just get to make more friends~! Right? Right..
And then I started talking from english to malay to iban.. great.... well yeah,.. I started talking to them all in english but then they are not so comfortable in it, so I decided to talk in bm because the girl next to me at lunch was like saying to her other friends, ³eh, kamu lebih pandai cakap dalam BI, kamu cakaplah dengan dia..² and I was like looking at her,.. oh, her name is Joanne, btw.. and then there is the others.. Li, Vivian, Jaclyn, and Diana.. The one I kam ching with the most is in the end Joanne.. I started talking to her in BM, she is the one who first introduced herself to me, and I already put it into my heart to make only 1 or 2 really good friends when visiting anywhere because my stay there is limited and if I really want to kam ching with anyone, I only can spend time with 1 or 2 in order to build a stronger network,.. the rest can always meet again second time, but I need God to just show me who is the 1 or 2 people whom I should make friends with,.. and I think 1 is better than 2 people.. so far I only kam ching with one wherever I go. In Ipoh, it was Winnie and over here it is Joanne.. Joanne is 15, btw,.. oh,.. and do you know what? I just realized something.. Let me tell you abit about them..
Ok, Winnie is someone who is very mature for her age, and so is Joanne.. they are both people who desire for spiritual things and really have a relationship with God as I see it. I don¹t understand why I so kamching with these kind of people, but I am beginning to see that God specifically brought me all the way there to meet up with them.. in fact, I never told God who I wanted to meet and what kind of people, I just surrendered everything to God to bring them, and whoever it is that I kam ching with then they are the one I am to network with,.. I am very surprised at
the results.. really..
MIRI PHOTOS
Speaking of networking.. did you know that in the beginnning of the year, being an introvert, I still knew the importance of networking and in my New Year Resolution, i normally write the same general stuff and boring stuff every year.. expected already.. like give God certain amount of money, play piano in church, get good results.. stuff like that la.. but this year I surprisingly wrote something which I kept thinking about every now and then during the year and it really made me so excited whenever I thought about it.. that particular NYR was to meet up with the right people God want me to network with for the school.. and I know it is very important.. but it also makes me excited at the same time..
Oh.. great.. im reaching already,Š the cabin crew are collecting rubbish now.. just now someone keep farting.. so shmelly.. but not as shmelly as likee la.. hehe.. just kidding.. sorry shmelly..
One of the people I found my heart really fixed to was the cf in my college.. now I don¹t know if they are the people whom God has assigned for this mission, but never theless, I knew that if I have such a strong bond with them which I never had with anyone else in my life before, then surely, you know.. there is something in store for us.. and I thought, hey,.. surely if now is the end of the year, I would be confident to put there that this NYR is accomplished successfully because they are such a great bunch of people.. it is not yet half a year and already this NYR is
accomplished.. wau.. surely it was the Holy Spirit who put this NYR into my heart..
but as the year proceeds, things are beginning to happen, I suddenly get a call from my sis during cf prayer meeting asking me to go to Ipoh because she needs help, and I my mum while chatting with her in US, asked me to go to Miri.. Miri of all places? And its not like my parents to take the kids around with them on trips like that.. I mean.. Miri is not exactly like langkawi or what.. but the way she sounded online was as though I always wanted to go to miri or something.. like.. harlo? Who in the universe would ever come out to Miri?? And I didn¹t even know where it was.. Can you believe that? In the plane, on the way there.. i was like chatting with my mum..
" Mum, Miri is near Kuching right? "
" No, Anna.. It's near Brunei. "
" Hah?? Are you sure?? "
" Yeah.. It is.. Thats why people from west malaysia dont take a direct flight to Brunei.. its more expensive. Instead, they take a flight to Miri and then go to Brunei.."
" Oh, okaaayy.... I always thought Miri was near Kuching.. "
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And guess what? now i am at home in my room already.. listening to 'history makers' by delirious? and feeling so sleepy and lonely here.. just now called nic to see how he was doing, whether he still sick or not.. how was cf.. got people go yc or not.. but then.. sigh too bad his dad is there, so my call lasted 59 seconds and then no chance to ask him all those questions.. but still i managed to call likee before calling him.. i woke likee up to ask for nic phone number, okay? and then in the end ended up talking to likee summore.. the thing is that in the end, he asked me to pray for him because he got interview on tuesday.. that guy really know how to take opportunity... haha.. his usual words are ::
" Anna, i know you very good/cute/polite/pretty/etc... right? "
then continued by ::
" so can pray for/fetch/ask for/pay for/etc... me right? "
haha.. now you know la.. the more you hang out with him.. like that la.. kakakaka.. jk..esp when you see him almost everyday.. why everytime end up talking about likee wan arh..? cannot la.. he sure perasan one..
now i am telling aaron all the songs i like as i hear them from audio adrenaline.. aiyo.. teruk la.. all the songs i like already.. i supposed not to like audio adrenaline except to sleep... but then i hear the songs all nice nice already.. esp.. 'Beautiful', 'Get Down' and 'Hands and Feet'.. the songs like really nice, weh.. super nice~! >.< ...
What am i talking about now? I'm supposed to talk about Miri, right? Out of topic already.. so fast.. (purposely wan..)
:)
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
okie enuf of willie wonker and the chocky.. hey, did i mention that i like willie wonker?? hahha... ok ok.. >.<
well another thing that happened in ipoh was that the police caught me and wanted to jail me.. haha.. they caught us on the road and ask us for i/c and then i never bring I/c... duh.. because it was in the house and we lost our way to the house.. actually we already stop at the road because we were waiting for our friends to come and bring us home because none of us in this car knows how to go home..so.. need backup.. then police come already, check i/c and create problem for me... aihhh.. who ask me never bring i/c right.. and then chris was driving and so he was called out of the car (hey, by right they are not allowed to ask us out.. its the rule..) but he went out anyway, and was questioned and he try to plead with the police to let me go because i was the only one who didnt bring my i/c.. and he actually can saman me or bring me to jail straight away.. so anyway, he plead and plead and i was waiting with denise in the car.. then you know la.. hungry people like me although i was already eating kit kat which denise bought at the cinema, still very fast impatient one.. so i come out of the car and stand between him and the police to see what all the trouble was about.. and the police (there were 2) asked me to fill in the details.. while i was writing it down on a scrap of paper the other police asked me what my dad was working as.. i was like... "err.. pastor.. paderi.." dont know how to say.. but also dont care.. as long as he so called understand la.. and then
he was like.. "oh.. kamu ni dari mana?"
i was like.. "mm.. kl.."
he said " kl mana?"
i was like.. "pj, section 12"
then he said " di sini jugak sama dengan di pj, tau? di sini ada banyak kes kes yang jadi" i just nodded..then he warned me that it was dangerous not to bring my i/c.. "kamu boleh kena saman tau?" i nodded again.. then he let me go.. *phew.. now i got peace,.. and continue eating my kit kat..
erm.. lemme see,.. what else in ipoh?? ahh.. yes, i met a new friend, her name is Winnie~!! she is 11 years old and she calls me "Anna Fish.."... great~! first Angela the fish then Eujin the fish and then now it is Anna the Fish~! are we a school of fish or a college of fish now~?~!.. anyway.. i like that name.. by the time i wanted to go back home, she gave me a pic of a fish and wrote this ::
For U Anna Fish!
From :: Winnie
at the back i asked her to write her address because she doesnt go online and doesnt even have an email address.. so i have to mail to her literally.. and then she also gave herself two fishes.. one was medium sized and one was mini size.. of course mine was GIANT size.. hehe.. because i so fat.. hahar.. anyway, on the medium one i wrote my add and on the mini one i wrote my online contact addresses and stuff.. who knows.. maybe one day, right?? yeh..
so now in miri.. there is connection here.. haha.. i so happie.. stay at hotel summore.. not longhouse or what.. thank God i brought my swimming gear and goggles.. just now went to the beach and then go swim swim.. hmm.. beach.. reminds me of aaron.. kuantan... aaron... kuantan... arghh~! >.< cannot~!
yeah lor.. so i went alone.. my parents busy in the meeting.. and then i go build sand castle.. i did a little model of my school which i wanna build.. a little one only la. nothing one.. dig one big hole.. make a wall around it.. then use the sand i dug out to build the school in in front or rather.. behind it.. altogether the school was like 2 feet and the hole another 2 feet long and the depth of the hole was like 1/4 feet?.. ook!! nvm...
and then i sit at the hole there and dip my feet into the water gathered at the hole.. because the sand arh.. is like clay sand one.. very erm... how to say.. like use to make pots one... yeah.. and then dig already alot of water down there one..because so near the sea.. further away got alot of crab like to stay one.. aaaaaaaahhhh!! i know why.. because it was low tide that time.. now i think my school habis musnah already..
and then go swim swim alone.. so boring.. then lie down at the long chair there facing the beach.. or supposed to face the beach, all blocked by other long chairs and tables in front of me.. and trees la.. all trees.. summore my long chair was on the grass.. it was like this.. from the hotel.. then you go to the pool.. then you see grass with long chairs and tables and shades.. then finally the beach.. so since i swim swim already then duhno where all the mah salleh there get their towels from so i no need towel la,.. just dry myself in the hot breeze... mmmmMMMMMmm.... on the white cushion long chair.. MMMMmm.. and then adjust my chair make it lower so can sleep.. MMMMmmmmMMMMMmmmMMMMMmm.... oklar,.. enuf... now can advertise for ParkCity Everly Hotel.. formerly Holiday Inn.. and then bought over and my mum said some china man duhno how to pronounce 'Beverly' so become 'Everly'... so sad, hoh?
Anyway.. thats life here la.. erm.. friends? so far no friends la..actually the first night itself i took 2 cups of coffee... and so i knew i wont be able to sleep, so after the 6 course chinese dinner with my parents and the leaders then i followed my brother elijah to the youth meeting.. apparently they said that the youth just loved to worship... and yeah~! i like totally agree.. they can spent hours.. and so even after the 6 course dinner they still worshipping.. so geng yah? and so i go with them see the youth people.. but in the end no one come shake hands with me.. >.<
so how? no friends yet lor.. see tonight can make friends or not.. try lah~! try very hard... >.< ....*sniff *sniff ... hmm... those old friends must be thinking what is wrong with me.. well anna no more introvert liao.. become extrovert already.. cant spend time alone for too long.. have to make friends one.. if go long journey like this need to make friends.. networking is important.. if not i feel like my journey there is not worth it.. something like that la...
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Hey, guess what? Nope,.. not a new bf,.. guess again.. Erm.. yeap, something weirder than that~! I am in the plane right now,.. nothing to do, so start blogging lor.. no, la.. no internet connection.. just using word.. on my mum¹s lap top.. it¹s a mac~! And I thought she would never let me lay my hands on it~! Well.. I am now..
Well, basically I just wanted to type about my trip to Miri,.. yeah, continuetion from yesterday¹s.. well, in the end I did meet new friends thereŠ there are all the girls because miri church is basically students and students are basically girls.. No,, not dissapointed, because I know it will be more appropriate for me to make more girl friends that guy friends, and if most of them are girls then I just get to make more friends~! Right? Right..
And then I started talking from english to malay to iban.. great.... well yeah,.. I started talking to them all in english but then they are not so comfortable in it, so I decided to talk in bm because the girl next to me at lunch was like saying to her other friends, ³eh, kamu lebih pandai cakap dalam BI, kamu cakaplah dengan dia..² and I was like looking at her,.. oh, her name is Joanne, btw.. and then there is the others.. Li, Vivian, Jaclyn, and Diana.. The one I kam ching with the most is in the end Joanne.. I started talking to her in BM, she is the one who first introduced herself to me, and I already put it into my heart to make only 1 or 2 really good friends when visiting anywhere because my stay there is limited and if I really want to kam ching with anyone, I only can spend time with 1 or 2 in order to build a stronger network,.. the rest can always meet again second time, but I need God to just show me who is the 1 or 2 people whom I should make friends with,.. and I think 1 is better than 2 people.. so far I only kam ching with one wherever I go. In Ipoh, it was Winnie and over here it is Joanne.. Joanne is 15, btw,.. oh,.. and do you know what? I just realized something.. Let me tell you abit about them..
Ok, Winnie is someone who is very mature for her age, and so is Joanne.. they are both people who desire for spiritual things and really have a relationship with God as I see it. I don¹t understand why I so kamching with these kind of people, but I am beginning to see that God specifically brought me all the way there to meet up with them.. in fact, I never told God who I wanted to meet and what kind of people, I just surrendered everything to God to bring them, and whoever it is that I kam ching with then they are the one I am to network with,.. I am very surprised at
the results.. really..
Speaking of networking.. did you know that in the beginnning of the year, being an introvert, I still knew the importance of networking and in my New Year Resolution, i normally write the same general stuff and boring stuff every year.. expected already.. like give God certain amount of money, play piano in church, get good results.. stuff like that la.. but this year I surprisingly wrote something which I kept thinking about every now and then during the year and it really made me so excited whenever I thought about it.. that particular NYR was to meet up with the right people God want me to network with for the school.. and I know it is very important.. but it also makes me excited at the same time..
Oh.. great.. im reaching already,Š the cabin crew are collecting rubbish now.. just now someone keep farting.. so shmelly.. but not as shmelly as likee la.. hehe.. just kidding.. sorry shmelly..
One of the people I found my heart really fixed to was the cf in my college.. now I don¹t know if they are the people whom God has assigned for this mission, but never theless, I knew that if I have such a strong bond with them which I never had with anyone else in my life before, then surely, you know.. there is something in store for us.. and I thought, hey,.. surely if now is the end of the year, I would be confident to put there that this NYR is accomplished successfully because they are such a great bunch of people.. it is not yet half a year and already this NYR is
accomplished.. wau.. surely it was the Holy Spirit who put this NYR into my heart..
but as the year proceeds, things are beginning to happen, I suddenly get a call from my sis during cf prayer meeting asking me to go to Ipoh because she needs help, and I my mum while chatting with her in US, asked me to go to Miri.. Miri of all places? And its not like my parents to take the kids around with them on trips like that.. I mean.. Miri is not exactly like langkawi or what.. but the way she sounded online was as though I always wanted to go to miri or something.. like.. harlo? Who in the universe would ever come out to Miri?? And I didn¹t even know where it was.. Can you believe that? In the plane, on the way there.. i was like chatting with my mum..
" Mum, Miri is near Kuching right? "
" No, Anna.. It's near Brunei. "
" Hah?? Are you sure?? "
" Yeah.. It is.. Thats why people from west malaysia dont take a direct flight to Brunei.. its more expensive. Instead, they take a flight to Miri and then go to Brunei.."
" Oh, okaaayy.... I always thought Miri was near Kuching.. "
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And guess what? now i am at home in my room already.. listening to 'history makers' by delirious? and feeling so sleepy and lonely here.. just now called nic to see how he was doing, whether he still sick or not.. how was cf.. got people go yc or not.. but then.. sigh too bad his dad is there, so my call lasted 59 seconds and then no chance to ask him all those questions.. but still i managed to call likee before calling him.. i woke likee up to ask for nic phone number, okay? and then in the end ended up talking to likee summore.. the thing is that in the end, he asked me to pray for him because he got interview on tuesday.. that guy really know how to take opportunity... haha.. his usual words are ::
" Anna, i know you very good/cute/polite/pretty/etc... right? "
then continued by ::
" so can pray for/fetch/ask for/pay for/etc... me right? "
haha.. now you know la.. the more you hang out with him.. like that la.. kakakaka.. jk..esp when you see him almost everyday.. why everytime end up talking about likee wan arh..? cannot la.. he sure perasan one..
now i am telling aaron all the songs i like as i hear them from audio adrenaline.. aiyo.. teruk la.. all the songs i like already.. i supposed not to like audio adrenaline except to sleep... but then i hear the songs all nice nice already.. esp.. 'Beautiful', 'Get Down' and 'Hands and Feet'.. the songs like really nice, weh.. super nice~! >.< ...
What am i talking about now? I'm supposed to talk about Miri, right? Out of topic already.. so fast.. (purposely wan..)
:)
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
LIKEE
Hey... sowee you people.. never write bloggy for so long already.. anyway.. i guess my inspiration to write again was out of boredom and also from likee since he write so muchh.. you know, when i read whatever likee writes, whether posts or emails, at the start i always wonder why is like he got nothing better to do.. and nothing better to write about..its like.. his topics all like so general one.. merdeka day la.. and then all the things that you'd think people already knows already but he still must write such a lengthy journal about it.. you really wonder why, huh?
well, let him write whatever he wants to write la.. and at the start i also always think that he sounds like he really misses his school life so much.. no school also still wanna write all these essays.. but you know what? although his grammar is not so good and all.. i still read his blog~! hahah.. its like the daily newspaper~! hahahahhhaha.. anyway.. keep it up likee.. at least you write on your blog, and there is a place for all of us to hang out online.. likee's blog is like.. our online mamak.. where i see everyone there... like reunion or something.. yeah.. call me invisible whatever,.. you must also be wondering why i never posted anything.. well.. didnt wanna spoil the fun mar.. you guys sound so fun.. after i crack one stupid totally worse than lame joke there then all cabut already.. haha.. jk.. well in the end also post marr... said thanks.. thanks.. didnt wanna pollute your lovely blog, so i decided to pollute mine instead.. hehe.. :D
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
well, let him write whatever he wants to write la.. and at the start i also always think that he sounds like he really misses his school life so much.. no school also still wanna write all these essays.. but you know what? although his grammar is not so good and all.. i still read his blog~! hahah.. its like the daily newspaper~! hahahahhhaha.. anyway.. keep it up likee.. at least you write on your blog, and there is a place for all of us to hang out online.. likee's blog is like.. our online mamak.. where i see everyone there... like reunion or something.. yeah.. call me invisible whatever,.. you must also be wondering why i never posted anything.. well.. didnt wanna spoil the fun mar.. you guys sound so fun.. after i crack one stupid totally worse than lame joke there then all cabut already.. haha.. jk.. well in the end also post marr... said thanks.. thanks.. didnt wanna pollute your lovely blog, so i decided to pollute mine instead.. hehe.. :D
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Thursday, August 25, 2005
God loves me unconditionally
All the passages below are taken from Joyce Meyer’s book “Beauty for Ashes,” published in 1994 by Time Warner Book Group.
IF YOU ARE a person who has been abused, by now you have probably identified some problem areas in your life. To point out problems without offering a solution to them would be disastrous. If I did that, you would end up more frustrated than you were before you began reading this book.
I intend to outline the major truths that brought healing in my own life. As I do so, 1 would like to remind you that God is no respecter of persons (see Acts 10:34). What He does for one person, He will do for another, if it is a promise found in His Word.
THE PROCESS OF HEALING
My first husband did not know how to love, so I received no love at all from our relationship. Although my wonderful second husband, Dave, did truly love me, I knew no more than I ever had about how to receive love. I bounced back and forth between:
(1) rejecting his love and closing him out of my life by building walls around myself to ensure that I would not get hurt (or so I thought), and,
(2) trying to get him to love me with a kind of perfect and complete love that was humanly impossible for him to achieve.
In 1 John 4:18 we read that perfect love casts out fear. Only God can love perfectly and without fault. No matter how much anyone may love another person, he is still human. As our Lord said, “The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak” (Matthew 26:41). People always disappoint other people---they always love somewhat imperfectly, simply because that is part of human nature.
I was trying to get Dave to give me something that only God could give me, which was a sense of my own value and worth. I wanted my husband to love me totally and to treat me perfectly so I could finally feel good about myself. Whenever he failed me, disappointed me, or hurt me, I would put up walls between us and not allow him in at all for days or even weeks.
Many people who come from abusive, dysfunctional backgrounds cannot maintain healthy, lasting relationships because either they do not know how to receive love or they place an unbalanced demand on their marriage partners to give them what only God can give. The resulting frustration often ruins the marriage.
This same principle can be applied to friendships. One time a woman came up to me in a prayer line and said: “Joyce, help me. I am so lonely. Every time I get a friend, I suffocate her.” This lady was so love-starved that if she found anyone who would pay any attention to her at all, she tried to collect all her past emotional debts from that individual, who owed her nothing. Her new friend was usually frightened away.
GOD’S BOUNDLESS, UNCONDITIONAL, PERFECT LOVE
One day as I was reading the Bible, I noticed this statement in 2 Corinthians 5:7: “For we walk by faith [we regulate our lives and conduct ourselves by our conviction or belief respecting man’s relationship to God and divine things, with trust and holy fervor; thus we walk] not by sight or appearance.”
The Holy Spirit stopped me and asked, “What do you believe, Joyce, about your relationship with God? Do you believe He loves you?”
As I honestly began to search my heart and to study the Word of God on this subject, I came to the conclusion that I did believe that God loved me, but conditionally.
The Bible teaches us that God loves us perfectly or unconditionally. His perfect love for us is not based on our perfection. It is not based on anything except Himself. God is love (see 1 John 4:8). Love is not His occupation; it is Who He is. God always loves us, but often we stop receiving His love, especially if our behavior is not good.
I would like to stop here and present several passages of scripture that have come to mean a lot to me. Please take time to read them slowly. Digest them and allow them to become a part of you:
And we know (understand, recognize, are conscious of, by observation and by experience) and believe (adhere to and put faith in and rely on) the love God cherishes for us. God is love, and he who dwells and continues in love dwells and continues in God, and God dwells and continues in him.
In this [union and communion with Him] love is brought to completion and attains perfection with us, that we may have confidence for the day of judgment [with assurance and boldness to face Him], because as He is, so are we in this world.
There is no fear in love [dread does not exist], but full-grown (complete, perfect) love turns fear out of doors and expels every trace of terror! For fear brings with it the thought of punishment, and [so] he who is afraid has not reached the full maturity of love [is not yet grown into love’s complete perfection].
We love Him, because He first loved us. (1 John 4:16-19 Amp)
In this the love of God was made manifest (displayed) where we are concerned: in that God sent His Son, the only begotten or unique [Son], into the world so that we might live through Him.
In this is love: not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son to be the propitiation (the atoning sacrifice) for our sins.
Beloved, if God loved us so [very much], we also ought to love one another. (1 John 4:9-11 Amp)
Who shall ever separate us from Christ’s love? Shall suffering and affliction and tribulation? Or calamity and distress? Or persecution or hunger or destitution or peril or sword? (Romans 8:35 Amp)
For I am persuaded beyond doubt (am sure) that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities, nor things impending and threatening nor things to come, nor powers,
Nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. (Romans 8:38-39 Amp)
May Christ through your faith [actually] dwell (settle down, abide, make His permanent home) in your hearts! May you be rooted deep in love and founded securely on love,
That you may have the power and be strong to apprehend and grasp with all the saints [God’s devoted people, the experience of that love] what is the breadth and length and height and depth [of it];
[That you may really come] to know [practically, through experience for yourselves] the love of Christ, which far surpasses mere knowledge [without experience]; that you may be filled [through all your being] unto all the fullness of God [may have the richest measure of the divine Presence, and become a body wholly filled and flooded with God Himself]! (Ephesians 3:17-19 Amp)
Such hope never disappoints or deludes or shames us, for God’s love has been poured out in our hearts through the Holy Spirit Who has been given to us. (Romans 5:5 Amp)
Behold, 1 have indelibly imprinted (tattooed a picture of) you on the palm of each of My hands. (Isaiah 49:16 Amp)
1 John 4:16 is a key scripture for me because it says that we should be conscious and aware of God’s love and put faith in it. I was unconscious and unaware of God’s love; therefore, I was not putting faith in His love for me.
When the devil condemned me, I did not know how to say, “Yes, I made a mistake,” then go to God, ask for His forgiveness, receive His love, and press on. Instead, I would spend hours and even days feeling guilty about each little thing I did wrong. I was literally tormented! John tells us that fear has torment, but that the perfect love of God casts out fear (see 1 John 4:18). God’s love for me was perfect because it was based on Him, not on me. So even when I failed, He kept loving me.
God’s love for you is perfect---and unconditional. When you fail, He keeps on loving you, because His love is not based on you but on Him. When you fail, do you stop receiving God’s love and start punishing yourself by feeling guilty and condemned? I felt guilty and bad about myself for the first forty years of my life. I faithfully carried my sack of guilt on my back everywhere I went. It was a heavy burden, and it was always with me. I made mistakes regularly, and I felt guilty about each one of them.
In Romans 8:33-35 the apostle Paul says:
Who shall bring any charge against God’s elect [when it is] God Who justifies [that is, Who puts us in right relation to Himself? Who shall come forward and accuse or impeach those whom God has chosen? Will God, Who acquits us?] Who is there to condemn [us]? Will Christ Jesus (the Messiah), Who died, or rather Who was raised from the dead, Who is at the right hand of God actually pleading as He intercedes for us?
Who shall ever separate us from Christ’s love?
The devil’s goal is to separate us from God’s love, because God’s love is the main factor in our emotional healing.
` We are created for love. In Ephesians 2:4-6 Paul says that God is so rich in mercy that He saved us and gave us what we do not deserve, in order to satisfy the demands of His intense love for us. Think about it. God intends to love us. He has to love us---He is love!
You and I are created for love! Sin separated us from God, but He loved us so much that He sent His only Son, Jesus, to die for us, to redeem us, to purchase us back, so that He could lavish His great love upon us. All we need to do is believe what the Bible says about our relationship with God. Once we do that, the healing process can begin.
During the first year that my husband Dave and I began our ministry called Life In The Word, the Holy Spirit worked with me to teach me about God’s love. I kept a book of remembrance of special things the Lord did for me during that time---little things mostly, personal things that showed me that God cared. By this method I began to become more conscious of His unconditional love. It helped me to remember that God loved me.
If you can believe that God, Who is so perfect, loves you, then you can believe that you are worth loving.
Once you believe that you are accepted and loved by God, then you can begin accepting and loving yourself. Then not only will you start loving God in return, you will also start loving other people.
You CAN’T GIVE AWAY WHAT YOU DON’T HAVE!
Many people receive Jesus and then immediately start trying to love everybody. Too often they end up feeling condemned because they find that they just cannot do it. It is impossible to truly love others without first receiving the love of God, because there is no love there to give.
In 1 Corinthians, chapter 13, often called “the love chapter,” Paul emphasizes this truth quite clearly. In the first verse he defines love as “(that reasoning, intentional, spiritual devotion such as is inspired by God’s love for and in us).” This entire chapter is focused on teaching us how to walk in love, yet it clearly says that love must first be in us.
Most people can believe that God loves them when they can feel that they deserve it. Problems arise when they feel that they do not deserve God’s love, and yet desperately need it.
The following charts illustrate the ongoing effects of receiving or not receiving the love of God. Notice that the belief that God’s love for us depends on our worthiness is a deception that causes many problems in our lives. On the other hand, believing that God loves us unconditionally brings much joy and blessedness.
RECEIVING GOD’S LOVE
Determine in your heart that you will receive God’s love. Here are some practical suggestions to help you do that. These are all things that I believe the Lord led me to do, and I believe they will be of help to you too. However, remember that we are all special and unique and that God has an individual, personalized plan for each of us. Don’t get lost in methods.
The Trickle-Down Theory of Unconditional Love
Jesus loves me, this I know.
He loves me unconditionally.
THEREFORE: His love for me is based on Who HE is.
THEREFORE: I have not earned His love, nor can I earn His love.
THEREFORE: I cannot be separated from His love.
When I obey Him, He will bless me.
When I disobey Him, there will be consequences for my behavior. He may not like my behavior, but He always loves me.
THEREFORE: Since I have experienced God’s love, I know I am lovable.
THEREFORE, since I know that God loves me, I am able to believe that there are people who could love me too.
THEREFORE, I am able to trust people who genuinely love me.
THEREFORE, I am able to accept the love that those people give to me.
THEREFORE, since my most basic need for love and a sense of self-worth has been met by God, I don’t need to be “fixed” by other people.
THEREFORE, although I have needs that I look to other people to meet (i.e., companionship, affection, fun), I believe those needs are balanced and God-given. I try to be honest in assessing those needs and in asking for what I need.
THEREFORE, I expect other people to be honest with me. I can handle criticism or confrontation, if it is done with love.
THEREFORE, since I know that I am God’s special and unique creation, I know that the love I have to give is valuable.
THEREFORE, I do not feel that I have to “perform” for other people. Either they will love me for who I am, or they won’t. It is important for me to be loved for who I am.
THEREFORE, I am able to get my mind off of what others are thinking ABOUT ME and focus on other people and THEIR NEEDS.
THEREFORE, I am able to sustain a healthy, loving, lasting relationship.
The Trickle-Down Theory of Conditional Love
Jesus loves me, but...
He loves me conditionally.
THEREFORE: His love is based on my performance.
THEREFORE: I have to earn His love by pleasing Him.
THEREFORE: When I please Him, I feel loved. When I do not please Him, I feel rejected.
THEREF0RE: If God, Who is “all-loving,” does not always love, accept, and value me, how can I be expected to believe that I am valuable and lovable?
THEREFORE: I do not believe that I am basically a lovable, valuable person.
THEREFORE, I am not able to trust other people who say they love me. I suspect their motives or figure that they just do not know the “real” me yet.
THEREFORE, I cannot accept love from other people. I deflect it. I try to prove that I am right---that I am NOT lovable, and that they will eventually reject me.
THEREFORE, they usually do.
THEREFORE, I use the world’s standards (money, status, clothes, etc.) to prove to others and myself that I am VALUABLE. I need strokes and feedback from other people to prove to myself and to others that I am LOVABLE.
THEREFORE, I need a “fresh fix” of strokes every day just to get through the day feeling good about myself.
THEREFORE, I look to others to give me something that only God can give me---a sense of my own SELF-WORTH.
THEREFORE, I place impossible demands on people who love me. I frustrate them. I am never satisfied with what they are giving me. I do not allow them to be honest with me or confront me. I am focused on me, and I expect them to be focused on me too.
THEREFORE, since I do not love who I AM, I do not expect that others will love me either. Why would anyone want something that has no real value?
THEREFORE, I try to earn their love by what I DO. I do not give out of a desire to love, but to BE LOVED. Most of what I do is tied up in “self,” so the people I profess to love do not really feel loved. They feel manipulated. I am trying to avoid rejection rather than trying to build a loving relationship.
THEREFORE, I am not able to sustain a healthy, loving, lasting relationship.
These are things I suggest you do to help you receive revelation concerning God’s love for you:
· Tell yourself, in your mind and out loud, “God loves me.” Say it, and let it sink in. Repeat it often: when you awake in the morning, when you go to bed at night, and throughout the entire day. Look at yourself in the minor, point to yourself, call yourself by name, and say, “--------God loves you.”
· Keep a diary, a book of remembrance, of special things that God does for you. Include little things as well as major things. Read over your list at least once a week, and you will be encouraged. Let this become a Holy Ghost project. I think you will have fun with it, as I did.
· Learn, and even commit to memory several scriptures about the love of God for you.
· Read some good books about God’s love. I recommend that you start with the ones I have written called Tell Them I Love Them, and Reduce Me to Love.
· Pray for the Holy Spirit, Who is the Teacher, to give you a revelation of God’s love. (36-46)
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
IF YOU ARE a person who has been abused, by now you have probably identified some problem areas in your life. To point out problems without offering a solution to them would be disastrous. If I did that, you would end up more frustrated than you were before you began reading this book.
I intend to outline the major truths that brought healing in my own life. As I do so, 1 would like to remind you that God is no respecter of persons (see Acts 10:34). What He does for one person, He will do for another, if it is a promise found in His Word.
THE PROCESS OF HEALING
My first husband did not know how to love, so I received no love at all from our relationship. Although my wonderful second husband, Dave, did truly love me, I knew no more than I ever had about how to receive love. I bounced back and forth between:
(1) rejecting his love and closing him out of my life by building walls around myself to ensure that I would not get hurt (or so I thought), and,
(2) trying to get him to love me with a kind of perfect and complete love that was humanly impossible for him to achieve.
In 1 John 4:18 we read that perfect love casts out fear. Only God can love perfectly and without fault. No matter how much anyone may love another person, he is still human. As our Lord said, “The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak” (Matthew 26:41). People always disappoint other people---they always love somewhat imperfectly, simply because that is part of human nature.
I was trying to get Dave to give me something that only God could give me, which was a sense of my own value and worth. I wanted my husband to love me totally and to treat me perfectly so I could finally feel good about myself. Whenever he failed me, disappointed me, or hurt me, I would put up walls between us and not allow him in at all for days or even weeks.
Many people who come from abusive, dysfunctional backgrounds cannot maintain healthy, lasting relationships because either they do not know how to receive love or they place an unbalanced demand on their marriage partners to give them what only God can give. The resulting frustration often ruins the marriage.
This same principle can be applied to friendships. One time a woman came up to me in a prayer line and said: “Joyce, help me. I am so lonely. Every time I get a friend, I suffocate her.” This lady was so love-starved that if she found anyone who would pay any attention to her at all, she tried to collect all her past emotional debts from that individual, who owed her nothing. Her new friend was usually frightened away.
GOD’S BOUNDLESS, UNCONDITIONAL, PERFECT LOVE
One day as I was reading the Bible, I noticed this statement in 2 Corinthians 5:7: “For we walk by faith [we regulate our lives and conduct ourselves by our conviction or belief respecting man’s relationship to God and divine things, with trust and holy fervor; thus we walk] not by sight or appearance.”
The Holy Spirit stopped me and asked, “What do you believe, Joyce, about your relationship with God? Do you believe He loves you?”
As I honestly began to search my heart and to study the Word of God on this subject, I came to the conclusion that I did believe that God loved me, but conditionally.
The Bible teaches us that God loves us perfectly or unconditionally. His perfect love for us is not based on our perfection. It is not based on anything except Himself. God is love (see 1 John 4:8). Love is not His occupation; it is Who He is. God always loves us, but often we stop receiving His love, especially if our behavior is not good.
I would like to stop here and present several passages of scripture that have come to mean a lot to me. Please take time to read them slowly. Digest them and allow them to become a part of you:
And we know (understand, recognize, are conscious of, by observation and by experience) and believe (adhere to and put faith in and rely on) the love God cherishes for us. God is love, and he who dwells and continues in love dwells and continues in God, and God dwells and continues in him.
In this [union and communion with Him] love is brought to completion and attains perfection with us, that we may have confidence for the day of judgment [with assurance and boldness to face Him], because as He is, so are we in this world.
There is no fear in love [dread does not exist], but full-grown (complete, perfect) love turns fear out of doors and expels every trace of terror! For fear brings with it the thought of punishment, and [so] he who is afraid has not reached the full maturity of love [is not yet grown into love’s complete perfection].
We love Him, because He first loved us. (1 John 4:16-19 Amp)
In this the love of God was made manifest (displayed) where we are concerned: in that God sent His Son, the only begotten or unique [Son], into the world so that we might live through Him.
In this is love: not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son to be the propitiation (the atoning sacrifice) for our sins.
Beloved, if God loved us so [very much], we also ought to love one another. (1 John 4:9-11 Amp)
Who shall ever separate us from Christ’s love? Shall suffering and affliction and tribulation? Or calamity and distress? Or persecution or hunger or destitution or peril or sword? (Romans 8:35 Amp)
For I am persuaded beyond doubt (am sure) that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities, nor things impending and threatening nor things to come, nor powers,
Nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. (Romans 8:38-39 Amp)
May Christ through your faith [actually] dwell (settle down, abide, make His permanent home) in your hearts! May you be rooted deep in love and founded securely on love,
That you may have the power and be strong to apprehend and grasp with all the saints [God’s devoted people, the experience of that love] what is the breadth and length and height and depth [of it];
[That you may really come] to know [practically, through experience for yourselves] the love of Christ, which far surpasses mere knowledge [without experience]; that you may be filled [through all your being] unto all the fullness of God [may have the richest measure of the divine Presence, and become a body wholly filled and flooded with God Himself]! (Ephesians 3:17-19 Amp)
Such hope never disappoints or deludes or shames us, for God’s love has been poured out in our hearts through the Holy Spirit Who has been given to us. (Romans 5:5 Amp)
Behold, 1 have indelibly imprinted (tattooed a picture of) you on the palm of each of My hands. (Isaiah 49:16 Amp)
1 John 4:16 is a key scripture for me because it says that we should be conscious and aware of God’s love and put faith in it. I was unconscious and unaware of God’s love; therefore, I was not putting faith in His love for me.
When the devil condemned me, I did not know how to say, “Yes, I made a mistake,” then go to God, ask for His forgiveness, receive His love, and press on. Instead, I would spend hours and even days feeling guilty about each little thing I did wrong. I was literally tormented! John tells us that fear has torment, but that the perfect love of God casts out fear (see 1 John 4:18). God’s love for me was perfect because it was based on Him, not on me. So even when I failed, He kept loving me.
God’s love for you is perfect---and unconditional. When you fail, He keeps on loving you, because His love is not based on you but on Him. When you fail, do you stop receiving God’s love and start punishing yourself by feeling guilty and condemned? I felt guilty and bad about myself for the first forty years of my life. I faithfully carried my sack of guilt on my back everywhere I went. It was a heavy burden, and it was always with me. I made mistakes regularly, and I felt guilty about each one of them.
In Romans 8:33-35 the apostle Paul says:
Who shall bring any charge against God’s elect [when it is] God Who justifies [that is, Who puts us in right relation to Himself? Who shall come forward and accuse or impeach those whom God has chosen? Will God, Who acquits us?] Who is there to condemn [us]? Will Christ Jesus (the Messiah), Who died, or rather Who was raised from the dead, Who is at the right hand of God actually pleading as He intercedes for us?
Who shall ever separate us from Christ’s love?
The devil’s goal is to separate us from God’s love, because God’s love is the main factor in our emotional healing.
` We are created for love. In Ephesians 2:4-6 Paul says that God is so rich in mercy that He saved us and gave us what we do not deserve, in order to satisfy the demands of His intense love for us. Think about it. God intends to love us. He has to love us---He is love!
You and I are created for love! Sin separated us from God, but He loved us so much that He sent His only Son, Jesus, to die for us, to redeem us, to purchase us back, so that He could lavish His great love upon us. All we need to do is believe what the Bible says about our relationship with God. Once we do that, the healing process can begin.
During the first year that my husband Dave and I began our ministry called Life In The Word, the Holy Spirit worked with me to teach me about God’s love. I kept a book of remembrance of special things the Lord did for me during that time---little things mostly, personal things that showed me that God cared. By this method I began to become more conscious of His unconditional love. It helped me to remember that God loved me.
If you can believe that God, Who is so perfect, loves you, then you can believe that you are worth loving.
Once you believe that you are accepted and loved by God, then you can begin accepting and loving yourself. Then not only will you start loving God in return, you will also start loving other people.
You CAN’T GIVE AWAY WHAT YOU DON’T HAVE!
Many people receive Jesus and then immediately start trying to love everybody. Too often they end up feeling condemned because they find that they just cannot do it. It is impossible to truly love others without first receiving the love of God, because there is no love there to give.
In 1 Corinthians, chapter 13, often called “the love chapter,” Paul emphasizes this truth quite clearly. In the first verse he defines love as “(that reasoning, intentional, spiritual devotion such as is inspired by God’s love for and in us).” This entire chapter is focused on teaching us how to walk in love, yet it clearly says that love must first be in us.
Most people can believe that God loves them when they can feel that they deserve it. Problems arise when they feel that they do not deserve God’s love, and yet desperately need it.
The following charts illustrate the ongoing effects of receiving or not receiving the love of God. Notice that the belief that God’s love for us depends on our worthiness is a deception that causes many problems in our lives. On the other hand, believing that God loves us unconditionally brings much joy and blessedness.
RECEIVING GOD’S LOVE
Determine in your heart that you will receive God’s love. Here are some practical suggestions to help you do that. These are all things that I believe the Lord led me to do, and I believe they will be of help to you too. However, remember that we are all special and unique and that God has an individual, personalized plan for each of us. Don’t get lost in methods.
The Trickle-Down Theory of Unconditional Love
Jesus loves me, this I know.
He loves me unconditionally.
THEREFORE: His love for me is based on Who HE is.
THEREFORE: I have not earned His love, nor can I earn His love.
THEREFORE: I cannot be separated from His love.
When I obey Him, He will bless me.
When I disobey Him, there will be consequences for my behavior. He may not like my behavior, but He always loves me.
THEREFORE: Since I have experienced God’s love, I know I am lovable.
THEREFORE, since I know that God loves me, I am able to believe that there are people who could love me too.
THEREFORE, I am able to trust people who genuinely love me.
THEREFORE, I am able to accept the love that those people give to me.
THEREFORE, since my most basic need for love and a sense of self-worth has been met by God, I don’t need to be “fixed” by other people.
THEREFORE, although I have needs that I look to other people to meet (i.e., companionship, affection, fun), I believe those needs are balanced and God-given. I try to be honest in assessing those needs and in asking for what I need.
THEREFORE, I expect other people to be honest with me. I can handle criticism or confrontation, if it is done with love.
THEREFORE, since I know that I am God’s special and unique creation, I know that the love I have to give is valuable.
THEREFORE, I do not feel that I have to “perform” for other people. Either they will love me for who I am, or they won’t. It is important for me to be loved for who I am.
THEREFORE, I am able to get my mind off of what others are thinking ABOUT ME and focus on other people and THEIR NEEDS.
THEREFORE, I am able to sustain a healthy, loving, lasting relationship.
The Trickle-Down Theory of Conditional Love
Jesus loves me, but...
He loves me conditionally.
THEREFORE: His love is based on my performance.
THEREFORE: I have to earn His love by pleasing Him.
THEREFORE: When I please Him, I feel loved. When I do not please Him, I feel rejected.
THEREF0RE: If God, Who is “all-loving,” does not always love, accept, and value me, how can I be expected to believe that I am valuable and lovable?
THEREFORE: I do not believe that I am basically a lovable, valuable person.
THEREFORE, I am not able to trust other people who say they love me. I suspect their motives or figure that they just do not know the “real” me yet.
THEREFORE, I cannot accept love from other people. I deflect it. I try to prove that I am right---that I am NOT lovable, and that they will eventually reject me.
THEREFORE, they usually do.
THEREFORE, I use the world’s standards (money, status, clothes, etc.) to prove to others and myself that I am VALUABLE. I need strokes and feedback from other people to prove to myself and to others that I am LOVABLE.
THEREFORE, I need a “fresh fix” of strokes every day just to get through the day feeling good about myself.
THEREFORE, I look to others to give me something that only God can give me---a sense of my own SELF-WORTH.
THEREFORE, I place impossible demands on people who love me. I frustrate them. I am never satisfied with what they are giving me. I do not allow them to be honest with me or confront me. I am focused on me, and I expect them to be focused on me too.
THEREFORE, since I do not love who I AM, I do not expect that others will love me either. Why would anyone want something that has no real value?
THEREFORE, I try to earn their love by what I DO. I do not give out of a desire to love, but to BE LOVED. Most of what I do is tied up in “self,” so the people I profess to love do not really feel loved. They feel manipulated. I am trying to avoid rejection rather than trying to build a loving relationship.
THEREFORE, I am not able to sustain a healthy, loving, lasting relationship.
These are things I suggest you do to help you receive revelation concerning God’s love for you:
· Tell yourself, in your mind and out loud, “God loves me.” Say it, and let it sink in. Repeat it often: when you awake in the morning, when you go to bed at night, and throughout the entire day. Look at yourself in the minor, point to yourself, call yourself by name, and say, “--------God loves you.”
· Keep a diary, a book of remembrance, of special things that God does for you. Include little things as well as major things. Read over your list at least once a week, and you will be encouraged. Let this become a Holy Ghost project. I think you will have fun with it, as I did.
· Learn, and even commit to memory several scriptures about the love of God for you.
· Read some good books about God’s love. I recommend that you start with the ones I have written called Tell Them I Love Them, and Reduce Me to Love.
· Pray for the Holy Spirit, Who is the Teacher, to give you a revelation of God’s love. (36-46)
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
I'm going to write a poem
I'm going to write a poem
Something nice and sweet
Perhaps something to talk about
Perhaps something to feed
But when the ink runs dry and all summer is wet
I still dont think my words are far enough fetched
To whom am i writing to
And what will i bring
All the awesome chariots cannot hold down this feeling
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Something nice and sweet
Perhaps something to talk about
Perhaps something to feed
But when the ink runs dry and all summer is wet
I still dont think my words are far enough fetched
To whom am i writing to
And what will i bring
All the awesome chariots cannot hold down this feeling
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Mark Schultz
Mark Schultz \ When You Come Home
My first day of recess
They all laughed at me
When I fell off the swing set
And scraped up my knee
The nurse called my Momma
To say I'd be late,
And when she gave me the phone
I could hear Momma say
"I'm so sorry, son.
Oh I think you're' so brave"
And she was smilin when she said:
When you come home,
No matter how far,
Run through the door
And into my arms
It's where you are loved,
It's where you belong
And I will be here
When you come home
I waved good-bye through the window
As I boarded the plane,
My first job in Houston
Was waiting for me
I found a letter from Momma
Tucked in my coat
And as I flew down the runway
I smiled when she wrote:
I'll miss you, son,
You'll be so far away
But I'll be waiting for the day
When you come home
No matter how far,
Run through the door
And into my arms
It's where you are loved,
It's where you belong,
And I will be here
When you come home
Well, I don't think
She can hear you now,
The doctor told me
Your mother is fading,
It's best that you leave
So I whispered,
I love you
And then turned away.
But I stopped at the door
When I heard Momma say,
I love you, son,
But they're callin me away
Promise me before I go
When you come home,
No matter how far,
Run through the door
And into my arms;
It's where you are loved,
It's where you belong,
And I will be here
When you come home,
When you come home.
Artist: Mark Schultz
Album:
Song: Letters From War
Lyrics :
She runs to the mailbox
On that bright summers day
Found a letter from her son
In a war far away
He spoke of the weather
And good friends that he'd made
Said I'd been thinking 'bout dad
And the life that he had
Thats why I'm here today
And that the end he said
You are what I'm fighting for
It was the first of the letters from war
She started writing
(Chorus)
You're good and you're brave
What a father that you'll be someday
Bring him home
Bring him safe
She wrote everynight as she prayed
Late in December
A day she'll not forget
Oh her tears stained the paper
With every word that she read
It said I was up on a hill
I was out there alone
When the shots all rang out
And bombs were exploding
And thats when I saw him
He came back to me
And though he was captured
A man set me free
And that man was your son
He asked me to write to you
I told him i would oh I swore
It was the last of the letters from war
And she prayed he was living
Kept on believing and wrote every night just to say
(Chorus)
You're good and you're brave
What a father that you'll be someday
Bring him home
Bring him safe
Then two years later
Autumn leaves all around
A car pulled in the driveway
And she fell to the ground
And out stepped a captain
Where her boy used to stand
Said mom I'm following orders
From all of your letters
And I've come home again
He ran into hold her
And dropped all his bags on the floor
Holding all of her letters from war
Bring him home
Bring him home
Bring him home
Mark Schultz \ Do You Even Know Me Anymore
“Its cold tonight”,
I heard her say.
She was staring out the window as I came home late.
She tried to smile,
But looked away.
Oh but I could see the tears were running down her face.
She said “You go to work,
You pay the bills,
I stay at home,
And I make the meals.
But you dont even know who I am anymore,
Youre a million miles away,
Though I see you every day.
And Ive been waiting right here,
Over all these years.
And sometimes I get so lonely,
I need to know you love me,
But do you even know me anymore?”
I turned around,
To see my son.
Well I remember his first birthday. Now hes 21.
I missed his life,
I missed it all,
Oh to him I was a man just living down the hall.
He said “I learned to live,
Without you Dad,
But Id give it all
Just to have you back.
But you dont even know who I am anymore.
I used to wait at all my games,
But still you never came,
And Ive been waiting right here,
Over all these years.
For the time you said youd owe me,
I wanted you to show me,
But do you even know me anymore?”
Ive watched my days,
Turn into years,
And now Im wondering how I wound up here.
I dreamed my dreams,
I made my plans,
But all I’ve built here is an empty man.
And I dont even know who I am anymore.
God Im praying through the tears,
Let me make up all these years.
Oh have I waited too long?
Can I start again?
To be the man Youve wanted of me.
Im begging You to show me,
But do You even know me anymore?
Mark Schultz \ He's My Son
I'm down on my knees again tonight
I'm hoping this prayer will turn out right
See there is a boy that needs Your help
I've done all that I can do myself
His mother is tired
I'm sure You can understnad
Each night as he sleeps
She goes in to hold his hand
And she tries not to cry
As the tears fill her eyes
CHORUS:
Can You hear me?
Am I getting through tonight?
Can You see him?
Can You make him feel all right?
If You can hear me
Let me take his place somehow
See, he's not just anyone
He's my son
Sometimes late at night I watch him sleep
I dream of the boy he'd like to be
I try to be strong and see him through
But God who he needs right now is You
Let him grow old
Live life without this fear
What would I be
Living without him here
He's so tired and he's scared
Let him know that You're there
CHORUS
Can You hear me?
Can You see him?
Please don't leave him
He's my son
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Sunday, August 07, 2005
SOARING LIKE EAGLES
Before you read, i would like to thank Aaron for passing this to me during cf camp at peacehaven.. I think these lessons are relevant for all you eagles out there..
6 Lessons From Eagles
"They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint."
Isaiah 40:31
Have you ever wondered why Isaiah 40:31 is written the way it is?
Q 1 :: Why is the Eagle mentioned specifically?
Q 2 :: What so special about Eagles that they have a place in the Bible?
Q 3 :: What is the linkage between waiting upon the Lord and renewal of strength?
Q 4 :: Why is it that when you mount up with wings like eagles, you do not get tired?
Read on and you will find the answer.
The eagle is a creation of God. It is the most majestic of all birds and is mentioned many times in the Bible. In fact, the eagle is mentioned 38 times, much more than the dove or other birds.
An eagle is around 90cm tall and reaches over 2m between the wings. She builds her nest on the cliff or in a high tree. The nest is so large that a human can sleep in it. It can weigh 700kg and is also comfortable.
With the basis of God's Word, we shall see what the king of birds can show us concerning truths about God, and also about Christians. May the pracital lessons contained here be of encouragement to you. God Bless.
Lesson 1 :: All Baby Eagles Must Learn To Fly
High in the mountains, a baby eagle is born. Like all other babies, there are two things that baby eagles, known as eaglets love to do: Eat and sleep. The baby eagle would spend its initial life in the comfort of the nest. Everyday, mama eagle would find food and drop it directly into the open mouths of the hungry eaglet. With a satisfied stomach, the eaglet then goes to sleep and the cycle continues when it becomes hungry again.
This goes on for a few weeks, until one day, mama eagle would just hover over the nest. This time, there is no food. After hovering a few rounds, mama eagle would make a dive into the nest and begins to shake it violently. She then takes one of her babies in her mouth and starts soaring into the skies. The baby eaglet begins to tremble, "Mama is mad! Mama is mad!". Suddenly she drops the baby eaglet that starts to struggle. Just before the eaglet smashes againt the rocks, mama eagle would sweep down and pick it up. This goes on for about five to eight times. The eaglet starts to wonder why mama is doing this. Every time it is being froppwed from the sky, the eaglet would streggle by flapping its wings.
"Mama can fly. I want to fly liker her too!" the eaglet says to itself.
What a beautiful picture! Mama is teaching her young to fly. At about the fourteenth of fifteenth try, the eaglet begins to fly.
Relevance :: Christians are like baby eagles, comfortable in the nest. They come to church once a week to find food. They would wait for pastor to drop "spiritual" food into their mouths. When the service is over, they would go home, "sleep" for a few days and the cycle continues, until one day, something happens and they streggle. The nest gets shaken and they dont know what to do.
"Its the devil! Its the devil!" they exclaim. No, its not! Its just our loving Father who allows our nest to be shaken because He wants us to grow into maturity, so that we can fly. Its no point being an eagle that cannot fly.
The Word of God says in Exodus 19:4 that God bare the children of Israel on eagles wings. Here we see the eagle symbolises God, The way mama eagle treats her young shows us how God treats His children. Just when it seems like were going under.. SWISH.. like mama eagle, God, comes and picks us up.
In the world, they pish people upward when they are going up. But God lets us fall down to get us up. Hard times come, but after a couple of times I start to pray a little bit more, I start to read God's word a little bit more. And suddenly I realise that the answers to my prayers are coming.
hard times always come but I find Im not helpless, no, I see that I can stand on Gods word. What has happened? Ice learned to spread my wings! Ive learned to fly. GOD carries us supernaturally through all our trials, even if we dont feel it. Yea, who can see the wind. While mama eagle teaches her young to use their own wings, God teaches us to believe His Word and use our Faith.
Lessons 2 :: Eagles Are Made For The High Places
Unlike other birds that fly in the lowlands, eagles are made to fly in the high places, out of sight of the naked human eye and out of range of the hunters rifle.
Relevance ::
God made us to fly in the high places, free from the worlds control. A tourist to the Jurong Bird Park once commented that the eagles there looked very clean. In reply, the bird keeper said: "When eagles are in freedom, they are the cleanest birds. But when they are in captivity, they are the dirtiest."
God made us pure and holy to conform to the image of His Son. If Christians are in captivity, that is, being subjected to the ways of the world, we can be there "dirtiest" of all creatures. Unless we "fly" in the high places, out of the worlds control, and according to how God has made us, well maintain the dirtiest of creatures.
Lesson 3 :: Eagles So Not Fly, They Soar
Eagles do not fly like other birds, flapping their wings profusely and using their own strength. Instead, eagles SOAR majestically, making use of the wind currents to gain height. What makes the eagle so special is that she sits on the rock and reads the wind and when the time is perfect she takes off and soars upward with her great wings. There is a special up-going wind where the eagle rides the wind and circle high and higher toward the sky, without effort. She just spreads her wings.
Relevance:
The wind is referred many times in the Bible as the Holy Spirit. We can learn to cooperate with the Hily Spirit and let Him lift us closer to Jesus. The eagle in this case is the Christian who is being lifted by the Holy Spirit up and closer to Jesus.
Like eagles, we should learn to ride on the current of the Holy Spirit, instead of relying on our own strength. Only then can we "gain height" to "fly" in the high places. Isaiah 40:31 talks about growing in Christ, that happens when we have fellowship with Him in the Spirit.
Lesson 4 :: Eagles Go Through Specific Periods Of Renewal
When they are about 60 years old, eagles go through a period of renewal. An eagle would find a secret place up in the mountains. It would start to claw at its face and tear out the feathers that have been damages over the years. As a result, it would bleed badly. The eagle would then wait patiently for the rays of the sun to heal it.
Through this, the eagle renews its strength by getting rid of the unnecessary things. Otherwise it would not be able to live till 120 years that it normally does.
Relevance ::
Like eagles, Christians need to go through a renewal period sometime in our lives to rid ourselves of the unnecessary things and to wait upon the Lord. Renewal is a divine principal where God cuts off the unfruitful things in us so as to bring out the fruitful.
Lesson 5 :: Eagles Get Sick, Just Like Humans
When an eagle gets sick, it does not go to the doctor. It simply finds a favourite spot in the mountains and await the rays of the sun to heal it. The sun plays a major role in the life of an eagle and as such, is a major source of healing too.
Relevance ::
When we get sick, besides going to the doctor, do we also look to the Lord who plays a major role in our lives as our source of healing?
Lesson 6 :: Every Eagle Has To Die
When an eagle is about to die, it will fly to its favourite spot in the mountains, wraps its wings round itself and look at the suns rays and dies.
Relevance ::
Ideally, all Christians should die looking towards Jesus as our source of hope and comfort.
Isaiah 40:31 -- "But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
6 Lessons From Eagles
"They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint."
Isaiah 40:31
Have you ever wondered why Isaiah 40:31 is written the way it is?
Q 1 :: Why is the Eagle mentioned specifically?
Q 2 :: What so special about Eagles that they have a place in the Bible?
Q 3 :: What is the linkage between waiting upon the Lord and renewal of strength?
Q 4 :: Why is it that when you mount up with wings like eagles, you do not get tired?
Read on and you will find the answer.
The eagle is a creation of God. It is the most majestic of all birds and is mentioned many times in the Bible. In fact, the eagle is mentioned 38 times, much more than the dove or other birds.
An eagle is around 90cm tall and reaches over 2m between the wings. She builds her nest on the cliff or in a high tree. The nest is so large that a human can sleep in it. It can weigh 700kg and is also comfortable.
With the basis of God's Word, we shall see what the king of birds can show us concerning truths about God, and also about Christians. May the pracital lessons contained here be of encouragement to you. God Bless.
Lesson 1 :: All Baby Eagles Must Learn To Fly
High in the mountains, a baby eagle is born. Like all other babies, there are two things that baby eagles, known as eaglets love to do: Eat and sleep. The baby eagle would spend its initial life in the comfort of the nest. Everyday, mama eagle would find food and drop it directly into the open mouths of the hungry eaglet. With a satisfied stomach, the eaglet then goes to sleep and the cycle continues when it becomes hungry again.
This goes on for a few weeks, until one day, mama eagle would just hover over the nest. This time, there is no food. After hovering a few rounds, mama eagle would make a dive into the nest and begins to shake it violently. She then takes one of her babies in her mouth and starts soaring into the skies. The baby eaglet begins to tremble, "Mama is mad! Mama is mad!". Suddenly she drops the baby eaglet that starts to struggle. Just before the eaglet smashes againt the rocks, mama eagle would sweep down and pick it up. This goes on for about five to eight times. The eaglet starts to wonder why mama is doing this. Every time it is being froppwed from the sky, the eaglet would streggle by flapping its wings.
"Mama can fly. I want to fly liker her too!" the eaglet says to itself.
What a beautiful picture! Mama is teaching her young to fly. At about the fourteenth of fifteenth try, the eaglet begins to fly.
Relevance :: Christians are like baby eagles, comfortable in the nest. They come to church once a week to find food. They would wait for pastor to drop "spiritual" food into their mouths. When the service is over, they would go home, "sleep" for a few days and the cycle continues, until one day, something happens and they streggle. The nest gets shaken and they dont know what to do.
"Its the devil! Its the devil!" they exclaim. No, its not! Its just our loving Father who allows our nest to be shaken because He wants us to grow into maturity, so that we can fly. Its no point being an eagle that cannot fly.
The Word of God says in Exodus 19:4 that God bare the children of Israel on eagles wings. Here we see the eagle symbolises God, The way mama eagle treats her young shows us how God treats His children. Just when it seems like were going under.. SWISH.. like mama eagle, God, comes and picks us up.
In the world, they pish people upward when they are going up. But God lets us fall down to get us up. Hard times come, but after a couple of times I start to pray a little bit more, I start to read God's word a little bit more. And suddenly I realise that the answers to my prayers are coming.
hard times always come but I find Im not helpless, no, I see that I can stand on Gods word. What has happened? Ice learned to spread my wings! Ive learned to fly. GOD carries us supernaturally through all our trials, even if we dont feel it. Yea, who can see the wind. While mama eagle teaches her young to use their own wings, God teaches us to believe His Word and use our Faith.
Lessons 2 :: Eagles Are Made For The High Places
Unlike other birds that fly in the lowlands, eagles are made to fly in the high places, out of sight of the naked human eye and out of range of the hunters rifle.
Relevance ::
God made us to fly in the high places, free from the worlds control. A tourist to the Jurong Bird Park once commented that the eagles there looked very clean. In reply, the bird keeper said: "When eagles are in freedom, they are the cleanest birds. But when they are in captivity, they are the dirtiest."
God made us pure and holy to conform to the image of His Son. If Christians are in captivity, that is, being subjected to the ways of the world, we can be there "dirtiest" of all creatures. Unless we "fly" in the high places, out of the worlds control, and according to how God has made us, well maintain the dirtiest of creatures.
Lesson 3 :: Eagles So Not Fly, They Soar
Eagles do not fly like other birds, flapping their wings profusely and using their own strength. Instead, eagles SOAR majestically, making use of the wind currents to gain height. What makes the eagle so special is that she sits on the rock and reads the wind and when the time is perfect she takes off and soars upward with her great wings. There is a special up-going wind where the eagle rides the wind and circle high and higher toward the sky, without effort. She just spreads her wings.
Relevance:
The wind is referred many times in the Bible as the Holy Spirit. We can learn to cooperate with the Hily Spirit and let Him lift us closer to Jesus. The eagle in this case is the Christian who is being lifted by the Holy Spirit up and closer to Jesus.
Like eagles, we should learn to ride on the current of the Holy Spirit, instead of relying on our own strength. Only then can we "gain height" to "fly" in the high places. Isaiah 40:31 talks about growing in Christ, that happens when we have fellowship with Him in the Spirit.
Lesson 4 :: Eagles Go Through Specific Periods Of Renewal
When they are about 60 years old, eagles go through a period of renewal. An eagle would find a secret place up in the mountains. It would start to claw at its face and tear out the feathers that have been damages over the years. As a result, it would bleed badly. The eagle would then wait patiently for the rays of the sun to heal it.
Through this, the eagle renews its strength by getting rid of the unnecessary things. Otherwise it would not be able to live till 120 years that it normally does.
Relevance ::
Like eagles, Christians need to go through a renewal period sometime in our lives to rid ourselves of the unnecessary things and to wait upon the Lord. Renewal is a divine principal where God cuts off the unfruitful things in us so as to bring out the fruitful.
Lesson 5 :: Eagles Get Sick, Just Like Humans
When an eagle gets sick, it does not go to the doctor. It simply finds a favourite spot in the mountains and await the rays of the sun to heal it. The sun plays a major role in the life of an eagle and as such, is a major source of healing too.
Relevance ::
When we get sick, besides going to the doctor, do we also look to the Lord who plays a major role in our lives as our source of healing?
Lesson 6 :: Every Eagle Has To Die
When an eagle is about to die, it will fly to its favourite spot in the mountains, wraps its wings round itself and look at the suns rays and dies.
Relevance ::
Ideally, all Christians should die looking towards Jesus as our source of hope and comfort.
Isaiah 40:31 -- "But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Monday, August 01, 2005
Anna's Sleepin Song
CHORUS ::
Im gonna eat eat eat
Im gonna drink drink drink
Im gonna eat
Im gonna drink
Im gonna sleeeeeep
When the bed is open wide
Im gonna sleep at Jesus side
Im gonna eat
Im gonna drink
Im gonna sleeeeep
VERSE 1 ::
Im gonna march on around that bedroom
See my pillows and blankets before
Im gonna sit at the edge of the mattress
Where we meet to fart and snore
CHORUS 2 ::
Praise Him
Praise Him
Praise Him in the moonlight
Praise Him in the night time
Praise Him
Praise Him
Praise Him when the stars goes down
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Im gonna eat eat eat
Im gonna drink drink drink
Im gonna eat
Im gonna drink
Im gonna sleeeeeep
When the bed is open wide
Im gonna sleep at Jesus side
Im gonna eat
Im gonna drink
Im gonna sleeeeep
VERSE 1 ::
Im gonna march on around that bedroom
See my pillows and blankets before
Im gonna sit at the edge of the mattress
Where we meet to fart and snore
CHORUS 2 ::
Praise Him
Praise Him
Praise Him in the moonlight
Praise Him in the night time
Praise Him
Praise Him
Praise Him when the stars goes down
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Monday, July 25, 2005
The Shadow Of Your Face
The Shadow of Your Face
Bob Fitts
G2 D G D G
I will live my life in the shadow of your lovely face
D G
I will lift my voice to extol
Em7 A
Your tender mercy and Your grace
A D
I cannot live without Your love oh Lord
G D A
I cannot breathe without Your breath
A D
I cannot sing without Your song oh Lord
G D G
Ringing deeply in my breast
Em7 A D G
Where can I go from Your presence Lord
Em7 A D
You are with me all of my days
Em7 A D/F# G
In my deepest despair to the highest place
D/F# Em7 G/A A D
I will remain here in the shadow of your wings
D A G D A G
(Where can I go without you Lord, in the shadow)
©1996 Integrity’s Hosanna! Music / ASCAP
All Rights Reserved. International Copyright Secured. Used by Permission.
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Thursday, July 21, 2005
Open Up The Gates
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Verse:
B G#m
We come into this Holy place
E
To bring a sacrifice of praise
B E
Bow down before you and seek your face
B
We sing of the mighty things you've done
G#m B E
Cry out to you "let your will be done"
E B E
Tell all the World you're the Holy One
PreChorus:
F#m G#m E
Hear the shouts of praise As they're rising up to you
F#m G#m E
Come and fill this place As we bring glory to your name
Chorus:
B E G#m E
Open up the gates and let the King of glory in
B G#m
Fill this house with praises as we
E
Lift our hands and worship you
B E G#m E
Open up the doors and let your Glory fill the earth
B G#m E B E
King of heaven we dance before your throne
Bridge:
C#m E
King of heaven come and Take your place
C#m E
Dwell among us as we Seek your face
Monday, July 18, 2005
.........Continued.. Quantan
It is 3am in the morning.. Anna is watching football.. ( ? )
Aaron :: (Shouting in excitement~!)Anna~!! Anna~!! Come here~!! Comeee~!!!
Anna :: Ha??~!! (Equally excited) what's that? what's that? (runs to the main door where Aaron is)
Background music is dogs barking at the front door and the sound of football on the tv in the hall, now slowly fading away as Anna urgents to the main door..
Aaron :: Look! Will boar!
Anna :: :D Wild boar? Where? Where???
Aaron :: There! At the gate there..
Aaron rushes out of the main door without slippers towards the gate, and Anna follows, running without slippers..
Aaron :: Can see anot?
Anna :: Ya~! Ya~!!!!
She notices a dark round creature, about the size of a bicycle but a little shorter, bouncing off the street beside the jungle where Aaron mentioned he used to throw stones at the wild boars there with his dad..
Why i say 'bouncing off' is because the way it walks on the street was like pumba in real life.. you know? yeah.. so cute right? but it was much smaller than i thought also.. its only like 3 feet tall..i think.
I watched in awe of the wild boar and said,
Anna :: Wild boh.. Foot boh.. Aaron boh,.. hahahaha...
Aaron :: What??!~!
Anna :: Hahahahaha....
Aaron :: Anna!! You~!!!
Anna runs into the house.. escaping from Aaron Boh...
So that was the story of the Bohs...after that Aaron and Anna continued to watch football.. Soon, Anna fell asleep on the cushion there eventhough they drank coffee just before that..haha.. coffee dont seem to take effect when it comes to football.. ahhaha.. or rather.. foot boh...Anna only managed to wake up every now and then to ask,
Anna :: So got score anymore goals anot?
Aaron :: Not yet..
Because she thought she can pretend that she is awake by keep asking him questions about the football.. Then when she wakes up again,
Anna :: So whats the score now?
Aaron :: 2-0 already..
Anna :: Is it? Aiyah.. I missed it already..
Aaron :: Yeah.. go and sleep la you..
Anna :: Eh? How did you know i was sleeping?
Aaron :: I know la....
Anna :: :D
My time in Kuantan was one of the best times of my life.. i enjoyed myself thoroughly.. although i really want to go back to Kuantan now especially when it is Aaron's birthday next week, but I can't.. his parents can see that it is not appropriate anymore.. and i don't have anyone there whom i can stay with.. so i can't go anymore.. therefore, i know that i can never get back those 5 days again.. but i was telling Aaron.. that those were one of the best 5 days of my life where i thoroughly enjoyed myself.. ;) its like heaven on earth.. Aaron really took care of me.. and i guess its a once in a lifetime experience... he is the best host ive ever seen, and i always look to him as a perfect example of what a host should be.. thats why when Annie comes to my house i try to follow Aaron's example, but i know i can never be as good as him.. i can only aim to be as good. But the fact that Annie has returned to stay at my place is a sign that i did well for the first time.. and she did mention that she felt at home here and could do anything she wanted.. i wonder if after so many weeks that she still thinks the same way of me or not.. haha.. hope so..
Nevertheless, Annie can hear me complaining everyday.. " I want to go back to Kuantan.. I miss Aaron..." ... she also dunno what to do with me already..haha.. I talk about Kuantan all the time.. kUANTAN FREAK~!
Too bad i dont have any photos to show you guys, if not i sure place one here... but the photos are all in my memories~!!!... hehehe... :D
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Aaron :: (Shouting in excitement~!)Anna~!! Anna~!! Come here~!! Comeee~!!!
Anna :: Ha??~!! (Equally excited) what's that? what's that? (runs to the main door where Aaron is)
Background music is dogs barking at the front door and the sound of football on the tv in the hall, now slowly fading away as Anna urgents to the main door..
Aaron :: Look! Will boar!
Anna :: :D Wild boar? Where? Where???
Aaron :: There! At the gate there..
Aaron rushes out of the main door without slippers towards the gate, and Anna follows, running without slippers..
Aaron :: Can see anot?
Anna :: Ya~! Ya~!!!!
She notices a dark round creature, about the size of a bicycle but a little shorter, bouncing off the street beside the jungle where Aaron mentioned he used to throw stones at the wild boars there with his dad..
Why i say 'bouncing off' is because the way it walks on the street was like pumba in real life.. you know? yeah.. so cute right? but it was much smaller than i thought also.. its only like 3 feet tall..i think.
I watched in awe of the wild boar and said,
Anna :: Wild boh.. Foot boh.. Aaron boh,.. hahahaha...
Aaron :: What??!~!
Anna :: Hahahahaha....
Aaron :: Anna!! You~!!!
Anna runs into the house.. escaping from Aaron Boh...
So that was the story of the Bohs...after that Aaron and Anna continued to watch football.. Soon, Anna fell asleep on the cushion there eventhough they drank coffee just before that..haha.. coffee dont seem to take effect when it comes to football.. ahhaha.. or rather.. foot boh...Anna only managed to wake up every now and then to ask,
Anna :: So got score anymore goals anot?
Aaron :: Not yet..
Because she thought she can pretend that she is awake by keep asking him questions about the football.. Then when she wakes up again,
Anna :: So whats the score now?
Aaron :: 2-0 already..
Anna :: Is it? Aiyah.. I missed it already..
Aaron :: Yeah.. go and sleep la you..
Anna :: Eh? How did you know i was sleeping?
Aaron :: I know la....
Anna :: :D
My time in Kuantan was one of the best times of my life.. i enjoyed myself thoroughly.. although i really want to go back to Kuantan now especially when it is Aaron's birthday next week, but I can't.. his parents can see that it is not appropriate anymore.. and i don't have anyone there whom i can stay with.. so i can't go anymore.. therefore, i know that i can never get back those 5 days again.. but i was telling Aaron.. that those were one of the best 5 days of my life where i thoroughly enjoyed myself.. ;) its like heaven on earth.. Aaron really took care of me.. and i guess its a once in a lifetime experience... he is the best host ive ever seen, and i always look to him as a perfect example of what a host should be.. thats why when Annie comes to my house i try to follow Aaron's example, but i know i can never be as good as him.. i can only aim to be as good. But the fact that Annie has returned to stay at my place is a sign that i did well for the first time.. and she did mention that she felt at home here and could do anything she wanted.. i wonder if after so many weeks that she still thinks the same way of me or not.. haha.. hope so..
Nevertheless, Annie can hear me complaining everyday.. " I want to go back to Kuantan.. I miss Aaron..." ... she also dunno what to do with me already..haha.. I talk about Kuantan all the time.. kUANTAN FREAK~!
Too bad i dont have any photos to show you guys, if not i sure place one here... but the photos are all in my memories~!!!... hehehe... :D
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Sunday, July 17, 2005
God exists
A man went to a barbershop to have his hair cut and his beard trimmed. As the barber began to work, they began to have a good conversation. They talked about so many things and various subjects. When they eventually touched on the subject of God, the barber said: "I don't believe that God exists." "Why do you say that?" asked the customer. "Well, you just have to go out in the street to realize that God doesn't exist. Tell me, if God exists, would there be so many sick people? Would there be abandoned children? If God existed, there would be neither suffering nor pain. I can't imagine a loving God who would allow all of these things." The customer thought for a moment, but didn't respond, because he didn't want to start an argument. The barber finished his job and the customer left the shop. Just after he left the barbershop, he saw a man in the street with long, stringy, dirty hair and an untrimmed beard. He looked dirty and un-kept. The customer turned back and entered the barber shop again and he said to the barber: "You know what? Barbers do not exist." "How can you say that?" asked the surprised barber. "I am here, and I am a barber. And I just worked on you!" "No!" the customer exclaimed. "Barbers don't exist because if they did, there would be no people with dirty long hair and untrimmed beards, like that man outside." "Ah, but barbers DO exist! What happens is, people do not come to me." "Exactly!"- affirmed the customer. "That's the point! God, too, DOES exist! What happens, is, people don't go to Him and do not look for Him. That's why there's so much pain and suffering in the world."
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Monday, July 11, 2005
Dancing Gym
Elephant Man ft. Lil' Jon
Dancing Gym
[Intro: Elephant Man] + (Lil Jon)
Skubay!!! (Hey!!!) away!!!
Yuh jiggy body!!! Yuh jiggy body!!!
A ready ready ready ready ready ready ready ready ready
Elephant and Lil Jon (Elephant Man) we ready
A ready ready ready ready ready ready ready ready ready
Ready ready ready ready when yuh ready (Lil Jon!!!) (Elephant Man: Eastside Boyz!!!) (DJ Twin!!!)
[Lil Jon] + (Elephant Man)
Hey! Jamaica!!! (Ladies!!! Skubay!!!)
New York, ATL!!! (Yuh jiggy body!!!) Miami (Hey!)
[Chorus: Elephant Man]
Big girls if yuh waan get slim (Come on!!!)
Welcome to we dancin gym (Yep!!!)
Model off if yuh waan get trim (Ladies!!!)
Welcome to we dancin gym (Everybody now!!!)
Do di belly dance and swing (Alright!!!)
Welcome to we dancin gym (Eastside girls!!!)
Elephant Man and di crunk king (That's true!!!)
Seh welcome to we dancin gym (Come on!!!)
[Verse 1: Lil Jon] + (Elephant Man)
Let me see you bend over to the front, touch your toes (Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Straighten it!!!)
Let me see you bend over to the front, touch your toes (Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Yuh jiggy body!!! Yuh jiggy body!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Yuh jiggy body!!! Yuh jiggy body!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(A ready ready ready ready ready ready ready!!!)
[Verse 2: Elephant Man]
(Warm up) Hands up (Warm up) hands up (Warm up)
Everybody let mi see yuh hands up
(Warm up) Hands up (Warm up) hands up (Warm up)
Everybody let mi see yuh hands up
(Scooby Doo) Scooby Doo (Scooby Doo) Scooby Doo
Scooby dooby dooby dooby dooby Doo (Lil Jon: Hey!)
(Scooby Doo) Scooby Doo (Scooby Doo) Scooby Doo
Scooby dooby dooby dooby dooby Doo
[Verse 3: Lil Jon] + (Elephant Man)
Let me see you bend over to the front, touch your toes (Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Rockaway!!! Rockaway!!! Rockaway!!!)
Let me see you bend over to the front, touch your toes (Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(A ready ready ready ready ready ready ready!!!)
[Verse 4: Elephant Man]
Tambourine (Tambourine) tambourine (Tambourine)
ATL oonu fi do tambourine
(Tambourine) Tambourine (Tambourine)
Tambourine (Tambourine)
New York girls yuh fi do tambourine(Weh yuh seh?)
Signal di plane (Signal di plane) signal di plane (Signal di plane)
Signal di plane becau yuh hand dem nuh lame
(Weh yuh seh?)Signal di plane (Signal di plane)
Signal di plane (Signal di plane)
A ready ready ready ready ready ready ready!!!
Tunda clap (Tunda clap) Tunda clap (Tunda clap)
Tunda clap yuh body fit yuh nah stop (Weh yuh seh?)
Tunda clap (Tunda clap) Tunda clap (Tunda clap)
Tunda clap yuh body fit yuh nah stop
Rockaway (Rockaway) rockaway (Rockaway)
Yuh nuh know a so Jamaicans stay
Rockaway (Rockaway) rockaway (Rockaway)
Yuh nuh know a so di gangstas stay
Flowers a bloom (Flowers a bloom)
Flowers a bloom (Flowers a bloom)
Do yuh hands like yuh circle di moon (Weh yuh seh?)
Flowers a bloom (Flowers a bloom)
Flowers a bloom (Flowers a bloom)
Do yuh hands like yuh circle di moon
[Verse 5: Lil Jon] + (Elephant Man)
Let me see you bend over to the front, touch your toes (Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Rockaway!!! Rockaway!!! Rockaway!!!)
Let me see you bend over to the front, touch your toes (Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Ladies!!! Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
["Sample from Salt Shaker featuring Lil Jon]:
Shorty crunk, on the floor wide open
Skeet so much they call her Billy Ocean
Roll, like a eighteen wheeler
That girl fine but this girl a killer
She leakin, she soakin wet
She leakin, she soakin wet (Elephant Man: Come on!!!)
Shake it like a salt shaker
(LJ: Shake it like a salt shaker!!!)
Shake it like a salt shaker
(LJ: Shake it like a salt shaker!!!)
[Verse 6: Elephant Man] + (Lil Jon)
J-A-M-A-I-C-A Jamaica!!!
As di next dance gone one come back in
Why dem badmind yuh through yuh dancin (Let's go!!!)
J-A-M-A-I-C-A Jamaica!!!
As di next dance gone one come back in
Why dem badmind yuh through yuh dancing (Hey! Hey! Hey!)
Come on!!!
[Verse 7: Lil Jon]
Now don't start no shit won't be no shit!!!
Don't start no shit won't be no shit!!!
Don't start no shit won't be no shit!!!
Don't start no shit won't be no shit!!!
[Verse 8: Elephant Man]
Some gal caan go dung low, some caan go dung low
(ATL girls)Gal from yuh know old age nah run
Yuh don't wine go dung low
[Verse 9: Lil Jon] + (Elephant Man)
Let me see you bend over to the front, touch your toes (Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Rockaway!!! Rockaway!!! Rockaway!!!)
Let me see you bend over to the front, touch your toes (Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Come on!!! Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Ladies!!! Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
[Chorus: Elephant Man]
Big girls if yuh waan get slim (Come on!!!)
Welcome to we dancin gym (Yep!!!)
Model off if yuh waan get trim (Ladies!!!)
Welcome to we dancin gym (Everybody now!!!)
Do di belly dance and swing (Alright!!!)
Welcome to we dancin gym (Eastside girls!!!)
Elephant Man and di crunk king (That's true!!!)
Seh welcome to we dancin gym (Come on!!!)
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Dancing Gym
[Intro: Elephant Man] + (Lil Jon)
Skubay!!! (Hey!!!) away!!!
Yuh jiggy body!!! Yuh jiggy body!!!
A ready ready ready ready ready ready ready ready ready
Elephant and Lil Jon (Elephant Man) we ready
A ready ready ready ready ready ready ready ready ready
Ready ready ready ready when yuh ready (Lil Jon!!!) (Elephant Man: Eastside Boyz!!!) (DJ Twin!!!)
[Lil Jon] + (Elephant Man)
Hey! Jamaica!!! (Ladies!!! Skubay!!!)
New York, ATL!!! (Yuh jiggy body!!!) Miami (Hey!)
[Chorus: Elephant Man]
Big girls if yuh waan get slim (Come on!!!)
Welcome to we dancin gym (Yep!!!)
Model off if yuh waan get trim (Ladies!!!)
Welcome to we dancin gym (Everybody now!!!)
Do di belly dance and swing (Alright!!!)
Welcome to we dancin gym (Eastside girls!!!)
Elephant Man and di crunk king (That's true!!!)
Seh welcome to we dancin gym (Come on!!!)
[Verse 1: Lil Jon] + (Elephant Man)
Let me see you bend over to the front, touch your toes (Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Straighten it!!!)
Let me see you bend over to the front, touch your toes (Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Yuh jiggy body!!! Yuh jiggy body!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Yuh jiggy body!!! Yuh jiggy body!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(A ready ready ready ready ready ready ready!!!)
[Verse 2: Elephant Man]
(Warm up) Hands up (Warm up) hands up (Warm up)
Everybody let mi see yuh hands up
(Warm up) Hands up (Warm up) hands up (Warm up)
Everybody let mi see yuh hands up
(Scooby Doo) Scooby Doo (Scooby Doo) Scooby Doo
Scooby dooby dooby dooby dooby Doo (Lil Jon: Hey!)
(Scooby Doo) Scooby Doo (Scooby Doo) Scooby Doo
Scooby dooby dooby dooby dooby Doo
[Verse 3: Lil Jon] + (Elephant Man)
Let me see you bend over to the front, touch your toes (Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Rockaway!!! Rockaway!!! Rockaway!!!)
Let me see you bend over to the front, touch your toes (Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(A ready ready ready ready ready ready ready!!!)
[Verse 4: Elephant Man]
Tambourine (Tambourine) tambourine (Tambourine)
ATL oonu fi do tambourine
(Tambourine) Tambourine (Tambourine)
Tambourine (Tambourine)
New York girls yuh fi do tambourine(Weh yuh seh?)
Signal di plane (Signal di plane) signal di plane (Signal di plane)
Signal di plane becau yuh hand dem nuh lame
(Weh yuh seh?)Signal di plane (Signal di plane)
Signal di plane (Signal di plane)
A ready ready ready ready ready ready ready!!!
Tunda clap (Tunda clap) Tunda clap (Tunda clap)
Tunda clap yuh body fit yuh nah stop (Weh yuh seh?)
Tunda clap (Tunda clap) Tunda clap (Tunda clap)
Tunda clap yuh body fit yuh nah stop
Rockaway (Rockaway) rockaway (Rockaway)
Yuh nuh know a so Jamaicans stay
Rockaway (Rockaway) rockaway (Rockaway)
Yuh nuh know a so di gangstas stay
Flowers a bloom (Flowers a bloom)
Flowers a bloom (Flowers a bloom)
Do yuh hands like yuh circle di moon (Weh yuh seh?)
Flowers a bloom (Flowers a bloom)
Flowers a bloom (Flowers a bloom)
Do yuh hands like yuh circle di moon
[Verse 5: Lil Jon] + (Elephant Man)
Let me see you bend over to the front, touch your toes (Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Rockaway!!! Rockaway!!! Rockaway!!!)
Let me see you bend over to the front, touch your toes (Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Ladies!!! Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
["Sample from Salt Shaker featuring Lil Jon]:
Shorty crunk, on the floor wide open
Skeet so much they call her Billy Ocean
Roll, like a eighteen wheeler
That girl fine but this girl a killer
She leakin, she soakin wet
She leakin, she soakin wet (Elephant Man: Come on!!!)
Shake it like a salt shaker
(LJ: Shake it like a salt shaker!!!)
Shake it like a salt shaker
(LJ: Shake it like a salt shaker!!!)
[Verse 6: Elephant Man] + (Lil Jon)
J-A-M-A-I-C-A Jamaica!!!
As di next dance gone one come back in
Why dem badmind yuh through yuh dancin (Let's go!!!)
J-A-M-A-I-C-A Jamaica!!!
As di next dance gone one come back in
Why dem badmind yuh through yuh dancing (Hey! Hey! Hey!)
Come on!!!
[Verse 7: Lil Jon]
Now don't start no shit won't be no shit!!!
Don't start no shit won't be no shit!!!
Don't start no shit won't be no shit!!!
Don't start no shit won't be no shit!!!
[Verse 8: Elephant Man]
Some gal caan go dung low, some caan go dung low
(ATL girls)Gal from yuh know old age nah run
Yuh don't wine go dung low
[Verse 9: Lil Jon] + (Elephant Man)
Let me see you bend over to the front, touch your toes (Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Rockaway!!! Rockaway!!! Rockaway!!!)
Let me see you bend over to the front, touch your toes (Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Come on!!! Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
(Ladies!!! Straighten it!!!)
Bend over to the front, touch your toes
[Chorus: Elephant Man]
Big girls if yuh waan get slim (Come on!!!)
Welcome to we dancin gym (Yep!!!)
Model off if yuh waan get trim (Ladies!!!)
Welcome to we dancin gym (Everybody now!!!)
Do di belly dance and swing (Alright!!!)
Welcome to we dancin gym (Eastside girls!!!)
Elephant Man and di crunk king (That's true!!!)
Seh welcome to we dancin gym (Come on!!!)
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
4-5 months vs 4-5 years
Joram is going to aussie for 4-5 years.. 4-5 years is a long time.. i don't know if I'll live through it.. afterall, he might not be back at all..
Who is Joram.. he is a dear friend of mine.. as dear as all my college friends.. its just that he has done so much for us that it will difficult to live without him.. although ive only really gotten to know him for the past 4-5 months, 4-5 years is a long time..I've only started to live my life this 4-5 months.. yeah.. can you believe that? But it's true.. I've never lived my life as much before that.. never had friends like these friends in college, never had fun like i had here, and never had experiences like the ones i had during these 4-5 months..
ive got to know people.. Annie is cute and adorable.. but there is more to that. she is always cheerful and happy.. nicholas was one of the first people whom i got to know during this 4-5 months.. he is amazing.. you wouldnt think he can do anything from his outer appearance.. but God sees the heart. he is one of those Jesus freaks, but is the quiet type.. never heard? well, he reads his Bible quietly and prays a ton~! thats why i said, his outer appearance is nothing at all compared to the warrior within him. Adrienne is one of those few i met at the end of this 4-5 months and one of the first to leave too. but she is just wonderful.. in a way, i find her alot like me.. i know that if joram and aaron are going to wipe the floor until late night, and i tell her about it, she will think the same thing as me.. - join them~! i wont need to tell her to do it,. she already has the same thing in mind... i enjoy ministering together with her.. go round pray for people with her.. and when alter call come, and i felt that i need to go up to the front, open my eyes,.. she is already there. haha.. yeap.. she is one of those people you wish you knew earlier in life.. She will be leaving end of this year... Aaron is the one and only who will be with me the longest. he will be around until this 2 1/2 years end. he spent the most time with me.. i chat with him all the time and he is a great friend to have no matter what the circumstances. during holiday or during a hard time, it is always aaron time.. haha.. he stood by me when i would think others wont. many times i was irritating to him and pouring all my problems out like nobodys business as though i have nothing better to do.. sometimes i scold him for nothing and then say sorry because i misunderstood him, added to it, this happened when i was first starting to make friends with him.. yes, i pour my heart out and he knows me more than anyone in this world right now.. i really share to him whatever that comes into my head.. thats why i am no doubt the most irritating person on this planet to him. its amazing he still chats with me.. aaron, im touched,.. really. thanks for being there for me
but what will life be when i end college? no more cf meetings? no more prayer meetings? no more friends and yam char? no more chatting online?
during this 4-5 years.. the first 2 1/2 years from now till the end of 2007, i will be finishing my degree programme in kdu.. nic and annie will be leaving next year, and afew others including adrienne and the other 1-year people will be leaving end of this year.. already sharon, joram and sean are leaving this week.. im sad.. because the thought "4-5 years" brings me into the future.. brings me to this point of 2 1/2 years. In 2 1/2 years, nic, adrienne, joram will all be looooonnnnng gone.. and aaron and i will be leaving cf. Who will the next cf people be? can they do the job of raising cf up? already joram says he will be nothing but a legacy left behind.. did we actually make a difference after all that? i dont even remember who were the people before me, like before i came into cf.. the only ones i know of are the ones that come back again to speak. and even if they used to be cf presidents.. i dont know who the cat they are~! the only one who remember them is miss angeline.. Aaron will be leaving with me. The others will be long gone by then.. hugh.. its so hard to believe and even harder to accept. What will it be like? no nicholas, no annie, no adrienne, no joram, and worse.. after that dreadful time.. no aaron. Hugh.. i cant accept it!
do you know what? now that joram is leaving in 2 days.. adrienne is leaving end of this year and nic and annie will go next.. the people who mean so much to me.. added to it,.. 2 1/5 years from now, i dont know if i will see aaron again.
4-5 years time.. so after this 2 1/2 years, there will be another 2 1/2 years..to make it worse.. joram might never come back. and so what if joram comes back? will we all be in college again? will we all be there for prayer meetings again? will joram play the guitar again and nicholas lead in prayer? will adrienne pray with me for other people? will aaron chat online with me everynight? will annie smile and will we all go yam char again every alternate night? will aaron go to jorams house again for the whole night and complain to me that joram snores? will nicholas and joram pick me up and drop me at home? will aaron invite me to go kuantan again and drive me around like last time? nothing of this will happen again.. will it?
i will be at work.. i dont know what life will be like without joram, aaron, nicholas, annie and adrienne, but its sure not going to be the same.. will i make it? why do they mean so much to me? how can they not mean so much to me?.. 'LORD, won't You give me strength to make it through somehow'(Homesick, mercyme)
Make new friends.. but what will life be without nicholas, annie, aaron, joram and adrienne? what will happen.. these people are the best.. i love them alot. and after all that... life just goes on.. i know i just started to live my life this 4-5 months.. and i dont think i want to stop living it.. can i just pause time?
nothing lasts.. except Jesus. He is the only one who will stand with me through it all. we can blame God for not pausing time. we can blame Him for anything if we want to.. but how many of us realizes that He is going to be the only one that lasts? He will be there till the end.. till the day we die. And He will see us through to make sure we all get to Heaven someday.. all i can say for now is..
Adrienne, Aaron, Nicholas, Annie, Joram.. you guys rock! I love you guys~!!!
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Who is Joram.. he is a dear friend of mine.. as dear as all my college friends.. its just that he has done so much for us that it will difficult to live without him.. although ive only really gotten to know him for the past 4-5 months, 4-5 years is a long time..I've only started to live my life this 4-5 months.. yeah.. can you believe that? But it's true.. I've never lived my life as much before that.. never had friends like these friends in college, never had fun like i had here, and never had experiences like the ones i had during these 4-5 months..
ive got to know people.. Annie is cute and adorable.. but there is more to that. she is always cheerful and happy.. nicholas was one of the first people whom i got to know during this 4-5 months.. he is amazing.. you wouldnt think he can do anything from his outer appearance.. but God sees the heart. he is one of those Jesus freaks, but is the quiet type.. never heard? well, he reads his Bible quietly and prays a ton~! thats why i said, his outer appearance is nothing at all compared to the warrior within him. Adrienne is one of those few i met at the end of this 4-5 months and one of the first to leave too. but she is just wonderful.. in a way, i find her alot like me.. i know that if joram and aaron are going to wipe the floor until late night, and i tell her about it, she will think the same thing as me.. - join them~! i wont need to tell her to do it,. she already has the same thing in mind... i enjoy ministering together with her.. go round pray for people with her.. and when alter call come, and i felt that i need to go up to the front, open my eyes,.. she is already there. haha.. yeap.. she is one of those people you wish you knew earlier in life.. She will be leaving end of this year... Aaron is the one and only who will be with me the longest. he will be around until this 2 1/2 years end. he spent the most time with me.. i chat with him all the time and he is a great friend to have no matter what the circumstances. during holiday or during a hard time, it is always aaron time.. haha.. he stood by me when i would think others wont. many times i was irritating to him and pouring all my problems out like nobodys business as though i have nothing better to do.. sometimes i scold him for nothing and then say sorry because i misunderstood him, added to it, this happened when i was first starting to make friends with him.. yes, i pour my heart out and he knows me more than anyone in this world right now.. i really share to him whatever that comes into my head.. thats why i am no doubt the most irritating person on this planet to him. its amazing he still chats with me.. aaron, im touched,.. really. thanks for being there for me
but what will life be when i end college? no more cf meetings? no more prayer meetings? no more friends and yam char? no more chatting online?
during this 4-5 years.. the first 2 1/2 years from now till the end of 2007, i will be finishing my degree programme in kdu.. nic and annie will be leaving next year, and afew others including adrienne and the other 1-year people will be leaving end of this year.. already sharon, joram and sean are leaving this week.. im sad.. because the thought "4-5 years" brings me into the future.. brings me to this point of 2 1/2 years. In 2 1/2 years, nic, adrienne, joram will all be looooonnnnng gone.. and aaron and i will be leaving cf. Who will the next cf people be? can they do the job of raising cf up? already joram says he will be nothing but a legacy left behind.. did we actually make a difference after all that? i dont even remember who were the people before me, like before i came into cf.. the only ones i know of are the ones that come back again to speak. and even if they used to be cf presidents.. i dont know who the cat they are~! the only one who remember them is miss angeline.. Aaron will be leaving with me. The others will be long gone by then.. hugh.. its so hard to believe and even harder to accept. What will it be like? no nicholas, no annie, no adrienne, no joram, and worse.. after that dreadful time.. no aaron. Hugh.. i cant accept it!
do you know what? now that joram is leaving in 2 days.. adrienne is leaving end of this year and nic and annie will go next.. the people who mean so much to me.. added to it,.. 2 1/5 years from now, i dont know if i will see aaron again.
4-5 years time.. so after this 2 1/2 years, there will be another 2 1/2 years..to make it worse.. joram might never come back. and so what if joram comes back? will we all be in college again? will we all be there for prayer meetings again? will joram play the guitar again and nicholas lead in prayer? will adrienne pray with me for other people? will aaron chat online with me everynight? will annie smile and will we all go yam char again every alternate night? will aaron go to jorams house again for the whole night and complain to me that joram snores? will nicholas and joram pick me up and drop me at home? will aaron invite me to go kuantan again and drive me around like last time? nothing of this will happen again.. will it?
i will be at work.. i dont know what life will be like without joram, aaron, nicholas, annie and adrienne, but its sure not going to be the same.. will i make it? why do they mean so much to me? how can they not mean so much to me?.. 'LORD, won't You give me strength to make it through somehow'(Homesick, mercyme)
Make new friends.. but what will life be without nicholas, annie, aaron, joram and adrienne? what will happen.. these people are the best.. i love them alot. and after all that... life just goes on.. i know i just started to live my life this 4-5 months.. and i dont think i want to stop living it.. can i just pause time?
nothing lasts.. except Jesus. He is the only one who will stand with me through it all. we can blame God for not pausing time. we can blame Him for anything if we want to.. but how many of us realizes that He is going to be the only one that lasts? He will be there till the end.. till the day we die. And He will see us through to make sure we all get to Heaven someday.. all i can say for now is..
Adrienne, Aaron, Nicholas, Annie, Joram.. you guys rock! I love you guys~!!!
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Daniel 10
I just read Daniel 10 today.. its about Daniel..(duh).. and he was at the river.. big big river,.. called..erm.. wait arh, i check..It's called..Tigger~! eh.. sorry.. Tigris..and Daniel was praying for 3 weeks.. he was sorrowful and didnt eat proper food.. no meat and no wine,.. then at the river, he was with his men, and he saw a man in front of him with the body like beryl and the face like lightning, dressed in linen with a gold waist band, and feet and hands like bronze~! and the other men didnt see it, only daniel saw him, but the rest were filled with terror and hid themselves, but daniel fell on his face and trembled...and the man spoke to him and said that he was held back for 21 days by the prince of persia.. and daniel all the while had no strength within him anymore..and a hand touched him which made him tremble even more.. then he said to Daniel,..
" O Daniel, man greatly beloved, understand the words that i speak to you, and stand upright, for I have now been sent to you." and daniel stood trembling.
"Do not fear, Daniel, for from the first day that you set your heart to understand, and to humble yourself before your God, your words were heard; and I have come because of your words.
But the prince of persia withstood me 21 days; and behold. Michael one of the chief princes, came to help me, for I had been left alone there with the kings of persia.
Now I have come to make you understand what will happen to your people in the latter days, for the vision refers to many days yet to come."
daniel turned his face towards the ground and was speechless. and suddenly someone that looked like a man touched his lips and daniel spoke to the man who spoke to him.
"My lord, because of the vision, my sorows have overwhelmed me, and I have retained no strength.
For how can this servant of my lord talk with you, my lord? As for me, no strength remains in me now, nor is any breath left in me,"
then the one that looked like a man touched him and strenghtened him. and he said again to daniel,
" O man, greatly beloved, fear not! Peace be to you; be strong, yes, be strong! "
and daniel was strengthened~! tadaa~!!! and daniel spoke.
" Let my lord speak, for you have strengthened me."
did you realize that the guy who looked like a man had to touch daniel in order to strengthen him, but the other guy who spoke just spoke "be strong!" and daniel was strengthed.. the other guy who looked like a man didnt speak at all.. he only touched, and whenever this guy who spoke touched like at the beginning of the story, daniel was like .. totally freaking out~!
anyway, the guy who spoke said again,..
" Do you know why I have come to you? And now i must return to fight with the prince of persia; and when i have gone forth, indeed, the prince of greece will come.
But i tell you what is noted in the scripture of truth. (no one upholds me against these, except Michael your prince."
here i learn alot about prayer.. Ive learnt that Daniel took 3 weeks to get his prayer answered because that poor guy was fighting the prince of persia all alone, and Michael had to help him out..
and oh yeah.. Michael is daniel's prince? is it?? hmm,.. what does he mean by "Michael your prince" ? i thought Michael was a warrior angel.. which he is.. obviously,... but does the guy also mean that michael is daniels guardian angel?
obviously the word "prince" is used for a warrior kind of force. like prince of persia.. and Michael is one of the chief princes.. which i would understand is one of the chief warriors..
Daniel was a powerful prayer intercessor.. maybe thats why Michael is so powerful because michael is daniel's prince.. i dont know.. so does that mean if i pray hard enough that my guardian angel will be super strong?.. just a thought..
another thing,.. he said.. after he's done with the prince of persia that the prince of greece will come.. wow.. thats like.. full time warrior~! poor guy have one battle after another.. *phew.. looks like we got to keep praying ya? i wonder which battle my messenger is going through right now.. poor guy~!
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
" O Daniel, man greatly beloved, understand the words that i speak to you, and stand upright, for I have now been sent to you." and daniel stood trembling.
"Do not fear, Daniel, for from the first day that you set your heart to understand, and to humble yourself before your God, your words were heard; and I have come because of your words.
But the prince of persia withstood me 21 days; and behold. Michael one of the chief princes, came to help me, for I had been left alone there with the kings of persia.
Now I have come to make you understand what will happen to your people in the latter days, for the vision refers to many days yet to come."
daniel turned his face towards the ground and was speechless. and suddenly someone that looked like a man touched his lips and daniel spoke to the man who spoke to him.
"My lord, because of the vision, my sorows have overwhelmed me, and I have retained no strength.
For how can this servant of my lord talk with you, my lord? As for me, no strength remains in me now, nor is any breath left in me,"
then the one that looked like a man touched him and strenghtened him. and he said again to daniel,
" O man, greatly beloved, fear not! Peace be to you; be strong, yes, be strong! "
and daniel was strengthened~! tadaa~!!! and daniel spoke.
" Let my lord speak, for you have strengthened me."
did you realize that the guy who looked like a man had to touch daniel in order to strengthen him, but the other guy who spoke just spoke "be strong!" and daniel was strengthed.. the other guy who looked like a man didnt speak at all.. he only touched, and whenever this guy who spoke touched like at the beginning of the story, daniel was like .. totally freaking out~!
anyway, the guy who spoke said again,..
" Do you know why I have come to you? And now i must return to fight with the prince of persia; and when i have gone forth, indeed, the prince of greece will come.
But i tell you what is noted in the scripture of truth. (no one upholds me against these, except Michael your prince."
here i learn alot about prayer.. Ive learnt that Daniel took 3 weeks to get his prayer answered because that poor guy was fighting the prince of persia all alone, and Michael had to help him out..
and oh yeah.. Michael is daniel's prince? is it?? hmm,.. what does he mean by "Michael your prince" ? i thought Michael was a warrior angel.. which he is.. obviously,... but does the guy also mean that michael is daniels guardian angel?
obviously the word "prince" is used for a warrior kind of force. like prince of persia.. and Michael is one of the chief princes.. which i would understand is one of the chief warriors..
Daniel was a powerful prayer intercessor.. maybe thats why Michael is so powerful because michael is daniel's prince.. i dont know.. so does that mean if i pray hard enough that my guardian angel will be super strong?.. just a thought..
another thing,.. he said.. after he's done with the prince of persia that the prince of greece will come.. wow.. thats like.. full time warrior~! poor guy have one battle after another.. *phew.. looks like we got to keep praying ya? i wonder which battle my messenger is going through right now.. poor guy~!
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
I Will Build Again The Foundations
D A G
I will build again the foundations
D A G
I will heal the breaches thereof
D A G
I will raise up many generations
A
And I will heal, I will heal
D
Saith the LORD
G A D
I will restore what the worms have eaten
G D A
And the years the locust destroyed
D A G
I will come and bring again my people
A
And I will heal, I will heal
D
Saith the LORD
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
Keep Singing
Intro: C Am Em G (x2)
F C9
Another rainy day
F Am G
I can't recall having sunshine on my face
F C9
And all I feel is pain
F Am G
And all I wanna do is walk out of this place
F
But when I am stuck and I can't move
D
When I don't know what I should do
Am D
When I wonder if I'll ever make it through
Chorus:
C
I gotta keep singing
Am
I gotta keep praising Your name
Em G
You're the one that's keeping my heart beating
C
I gotta keep singing
Am
I gotta keep praising Your name
Em G
That's the only way that I'll find healing
F
Can I climb up in Your lap
G
I don't wanna leave
Dm C F G
Jesus sing over me
C Am Em G
I gotta keep singing
F
Can I climb up in Your lap
G
I don't wanna leave
C Bb Am
Jesus sing over me
D F
Oh.. You're everything I need
C Am Em G C
And I gotta keep singing
Chords:
Am = x02210
Bb = x13331(bar chord) or xx3331
C = x32010
C9 = x3203x or x32030
D = xx0232
Em = 022000
F = 133211(bar chord) or xx3211
G = 320003
Artist: MercyMe
Copyright Credits: Written By: Bart Millard, Peter Kipley, Barry Graul Copyright: © 2004 Simpleville Music Album: Undone
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
I Just Want To Be Where You Are
D Em7 G
I just want to be where you are,
A G D
Dwelling daily in your presence.
Em7 G
I don’t want to worship from afar,
A G D
Draw me near to where you are.
D Em7 G
I just want to be where you are
A G D
In your dwelling place forever.
Em7 G
Take me to the place where you are,
A G D
I just want to be with you.
Em7 G
I want to be where you are,
A Bm7
Dwelling in your presence,
Em7 G
Feasting at your table,
A Bm7
Surrounded by your glory.
G A
In your presence:
D A/C# Bm
That’s where I always want to be
G A
I just want to be
Bb C D
I just want to be with you.
D Bm
Oh my God,
Em7 Asus-A
You are my strength and my song.
F#m Bm
And when I’m in Your presence,
Em Asus-A
Though I’m weak you’re always strong
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Thank You Jesus for making me ME~!
C
If I were a butterfly,
F F7
I'd thank You Lord for giving me wings.
C
If I were a robin in a tree,
G G7
I'd thank You Lord that I could sing.
C
If I were a fish in the sea,
F
I'd wiggle my tail and I'd giggle with glee,
C F G C
But I just thank You Father for making me, me.
F G C
For you gave me a heart and you gave me a smile,
F
You gave me Jesus and you made me your child,
C F G C
And I just thank you Father for making me, me.
If I were an elephant
I'd thank you Lord, by raising my trunk.
If I were a kangaroo,
You know I'd hop right up to you.
If I were an octopus,
I'd thank you Lord for my fine looks.
But I just thank you Father for making me, me.
If I were a wiggly worm,
I'd thank you Lord that I could squirm.
If I were a fuzzy, wuzzy bear,
I'd thank you Lord for my fuzzy, wuzzy hair.
If I were a crocodile,
I'd thank you Lord for my great smile.
But I just thank you Lord for making me, me
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Saturday, July 02, 2005
My little prophecy
Pastor Daniel
-my mums pastor
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
-my mums pastor
Fear not, do not be afraid of what youre unsure of. What you are not sure of will come to pass. Do not be discouraged for what has not worked out for you in the past. God wants to saperate you to Himself. God is putting His arms around you. He loves you, Jesus loves you.
1st June 2005, 9.40pm, Cell Group
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Spirirt of the Living God
SPIRIT OF THE LIVING GOD
C Dm C G C
Spirit of the living God, fall afresh on me.
C Dm C Dm7 G C
Spirit of the living God, fall afresh on me.
F C D G G7
Break me, melt me, mold me, fill me.
C Dm C Dm7 G C
Spirit of the living God, fall afresh on me.
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
The Steadfast Love of the Lord Never Ceases
The Steadfast Love of the Lord
Robert Davidson
D G D A
The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases
D G A
His mercies never come to an end
G A
They are new every morning
D Bm
New every morning. (3x)
G A D A D
Great is Thy faithfulness, O Lord.
G A D
Great is Thy faithfulness. (2x)
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
shake another hand
Shake Another Hand
Shake another hand, shake a hand next to ya,
Shake another hand and sing along!
Shake another hand, shake a hand next to ya,
Shake another hand, and sing.... and sing this song!
Chorus:
Ah la la la la la le lu ya, Ah la la la la le lu ya!
Ah la la la la la le lu ya, Ah la la la la le, alleluia!
Other Verses: Touch another toe, pat another back, touch another nose, hug another friend...
Title: Shake a Friend's Hand
G D C G
Shake a friend's hand shake a hand next to ya
C G D
Shake a friend's hand and sing la la
G D C G
Shake a friend's hand, shake a hand next to ya
C G D
Shake a friend's hand and sing...sing
G D C G
A la la la, la la la le lu jah
C G D
A la la la, la le lu jah (2x)
Clap another hand...
Tweek another cheek...
Rub another back...
Jesus is a friend, is a friend unto ya...
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
Friend's Love Letter
taken from Salman in his post titled "One Pakistani Lover is still in Malaysia" in Friendster Bulletin Board
===============================================================
Love Letter
Afzal Khalid abasi was deeply in love with a pretty
foreign girl Monmon (Myanmar girl) whom he
wanted. But he did not have the courage to talk to
her in person. So he decided to go alone and with
the help of a dictionary, he wrote a letter of
proposal to her.
HE WROTE:
Most worthy of your estimation after a long
consideration and much mediation. I have a strong
indication to become your relation. As to my
educational qualification, it is no exaggeration or
fabrication that I have passed my matriculation
examination; no doubt without any hesitation and
very little preparation. What do you say to the
solemnization of our marriage celebration
according to the glorification of modern civilization
and with a view to the expansion of the population
of present generation?
On your approbation of the application, I shall
make preparation to improve my situation, and if
such obligation is worthy of consideration it will be
our argumentation of the joy and exaltation of our
joint dissimilation.
Thanking you in anticipation and with devotion, I
remain victim of your fascination.
Monmon REPLY (SHE WROTE)
Dear Mr. Victim of my fascination,
Congratulation for your lengthy narration of course
full of affection aimed at an affiliation for a
combination which on examination I find is a fine
presentation of your ambition. You have passed
your matriculation with little preparation, what
about my graduation after a long botheration, so
improve situation in education and make an
application by acquisition of post graduation and
minimum qualification for the convocation and
before taking your photo for circulation undergo
beautification. Further strict observation of the
following conditions is the regulation for the
determination of our relation.
1. Consultation of my parents before approaching
for my connection.
2. Communication of your confirmation that you
are not a victim of any fascination and,
3. Procreation must not be your recreation.
In anticipation of a solid action instead of
continuation of paper conversation.
I Remain, Unaffected by your affection.
================================================================
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
===============================================================
Love Letter
Afzal Khalid abasi was deeply in love with a pretty
foreign girl Monmon (Myanmar girl) whom he
wanted. But he did not have the courage to talk to
her in person. So he decided to go alone and with
the help of a dictionary, he wrote a letter of
proposal to her.
HE WROTE:
Most worthy of your estimation after a long
consideration and much mediation. I have a strong
indication to become your relation. As to my
educational qualification, it is no exaggeration or
fabrication that I have passed my matriculation
examination; no doubt without any hesitation and
very little preparation. What do you say to the
solemnization of our marriage celebration
according to the glorification of modern civilization
and with a view to the expansion of the population
of present generation?
On your approbation of the application, I shall
make preparation to improve my situation, and if
such obligation is worthy of consideration it will be
our argumentation of the joy and exaltation of our
joint dissimilation.
Thanking you in anticipation and with devotion, I
remain victim of your fascination.
Monmon REPLY (SHE WROTE)
Dear Mr. Victim of my fascination,
Congratulation for your lengthy narration of course
full of affection aimed at an affiliation for a
combination which on examination I find is a fine
presentation of your ambition. You have passed
your matriculation with little preparation, what
about my graduation after a long botheration, so
improve situation in education and make an
application by acquisition of post graduation and
minimum qualification for the convocation and
before taking your photo for circulation undergo
beautification. Further strict observation of the
following conditions is the regulation for the
determination of our relation.
1. Consultation of my parents before approaching
for my connection.
2. Communication of your confirmation that you
are not a victim of any fascination and,
3. Procreation must not be your recreation.
In anticipation of a solid action instead of
continuation of paper conversation.
I Remain, Unaffected by your affection.
================================================================
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Monday, June 20, 2005
comics
The spiritual journey continues...
© Copyright 2002 Bob West. All rights reserved.
Catch up on the story! Click on the above cartoon to see previous episodes.
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Saturday, June 18, 2005
Dialogue - Coffee with three guy friends at night
Location :: Coffee - Great Time, Great Taste
Time :: 11.30pm
Calvin : So where are you from?
Anna : Kuantan
Calvin : (Looks at Aaron) She's from Kuantan? Are you sure?
Aaron : (Smiling) ....
Anna : Haha..
Calvin : So, you're in the same uni as Aaron?
Anna : Erm,.. yupe..
Calvin : So, where are you from?
Anna : (Thinks a while) ... (Sincerely) I don't know..
Calvin : Wah.. How come you don't know where you come from one?
Anna : Haha.. (feels like slapping herself on the face)
Aaron : ...
Later,...
Calvin : So, where did he bring you?
Anna : To the beach!
Calvin : Oh, the beach.. Got see anything nice anot?
Anna : Got! (Thinks for a while..) Monitor Lizard~! :D
Calvin : (Surprised) Monitor Lizard?~!
Anna : Yaap~!
Calvin : How big was it?
Anna : (Arms opens wide) This BIG~!
Calvin : Wah,.. got that big ah?
Aaron : Yeah, (nodding head) she really saw a monitor lizzard that big..
Calvin : You go to the beach, see monitor lizzard?
Anna : (nodding head excitedly)
Calvin : Okay,.. what else did you see?
Anna : (Thinks a while..) Ermm... Snake~!
Calvin : Snake~! Wah all reptiles only arh?
Anna : Yap~!
Calvin : Wah.. where else did he bring you? Beach only ah? No other place meh?
Anna : (Thinks very hard) Where else arh...
Calvin : He got bring you to Sg Lembing anot?
Anna : Uhh...
Aaron : I know she don't like those kind of things wan.. she don't like to climb mountain one. So I didn't bring her lor..
Calvin : Oh, he must have bring you to Megamall all that right?
Anna : Got ah? (Thinking summore) Erm.. at night got la.. watch movie only.. Where else did we go arh..
Note :: Anna really didn't go anywhere else other than to the beach and to Megamall to watch Madagascar. She had a great time relaxing at home with the guitar and the bed for 4 fruitful days :P.. She went to the beach 3 times in that trip and enjoyed herself thoroughly.. Aaron also brought her to the river even at the first day of trip and belanja her makan almost the whole way starting from here at the river where he showed her real 'Aquas'. The waitresses there were actually Aquas~! And the river was so peaceful there, not like the KL river, full of rubbish. In KL, these kind of places will be thoroughly polluted and alot of people will be there. It will also be the most happening place. But here, it was quiet and calm. I even saw two guys fishing and playing chess in the moonlight just beside the river. We ate fried rice and he gave me extra ingredients.. After that, he took me to the beach a while,.. he was amazed that he didnt go for just two months, and already the car park is different.. we didnt know how to come out~!!
when we arrived there, i was like.. "are we at the beach?"
and he was like, "no, this is not the beach."
and i saw mcDs there. so i said, "yeah right, got Macdonals there, dont try to bluff me, i know this is the beach~!!"
and he said, "wah, you came that time got Macdonals already that means you didnt come too long ago lar.."
at the beach, we saw so many couples hanging out there.. then after enjoying the breeze at one of the benches there, we went back. On the way back, in the car, he went on babbling about how good Kuantan was and opened the window..
Aaron : Here at night, when you can hear the crickets one,.. Verrrry peaceful,.. (Opens the windows)
Anna : Hmm,... Really got wohh..
Aaron : You see my house, very near to the beach one..
Anna : Is it?
Aaron : (Still driving, points to one of the houses) This is one of my friend's house, I always come here to play football with him one, his house so near my house. He is a very nice guy..
Anna: Ooo..so nice,..
Aaron : Last time, my dad and I used to chase wild boars around here, (he pointed to the jungle on the left)
Anna : Wah, really arh..
Aaron : Very easy to go to my house only.. You see the kindergarden here?
Anna : Yeahh..
Aaron : (Moves towards the house right beside it) This is my house..
Anna : Wow..okie.
Aaron : (Parks the car) That's lizzie..
Anna looks up and sees a white dog with long fur.. and droopy ears. So that was Lizzie~! Hehe... At the other end of the car was another dog - a black one. And then between them were a small brown cute little Puppy~!
I came out and they all came to the door to greet me.. Eeee... so cute.. And then we went to the house. The dog followed us all the way.. until the front, and we didn't want the dog to come into the house, so he quickly opened the door, and said, "Quick, get in, get in.. wear your shoes in." So, I hurriedly went in with my slippers, and he came after me, then i saw his Ah Poh there..(Grandma). She was watching tv, but she saw me, so i waved. And then i asked him, "Can she speak english?" He said, "No, she can't." So we went upstairs..
Then we passed the study table, and passed by his room, he said, "This is my room."
I was like, "Okay."
Then he brought me to another room at the end of the corridor, and said, "This is your room."
So I asked, "Everybody sleep already arh?"
And he was like.. "Yeah, lor.. So late already.."
So I was like.. "Okie.." and went into the room with my heavy bag and red file. Then I saw the computer there, just like he said last time, 'The computer is in the guest room'. So i parked my bag there and sat on the bed. It was a queen sized bed with blue and white checked sheets and a little bit of flowers at the sides. It was really comfy. His lap top was parked there too, on the table, beside the com. This was great... All i ever needed..(so called), computer, bed. computer, bed. yay~! I am at home~!
what i really like was that he accompanied me in the room, didnt just leave me there, like what i did to my friends who came to my house, even my bfs.. i just dumped them somewhere and run away.. but he sticked to me all the way, which really was sweet and make me feel more than welcomed. It felt good. So then, i knew i wasnt alone. So then, he showed me all his songs he had.. so many!! Relient K, Audio Adreline.. and then he played afew and let me hear.. He parked on the bed and said, "Use my lap top la, if you want." I was like.. Use your lap top? Somehow, no one was so nice to me before. Somehow it sounded new. I've never heard it before. I know it may not sound anything to you, but to me, it was new. I came to Kuantan to really experience new things. Taste new food,(Ki Cap Mee and Fish Curry Puff), meet new people (Kai Mui, Calvin and Micheal), see new things(Monitor Lizard, Snake, Madagascar and 3rd bay), hear new things (Silent night and crickets only night), Learn new things (guitar and new songs).. I can you all about them. Most of all, i learn alot about Aaron himself..*hint *hint. Hehe,.. of course by the 5th day, Aaron found out my TrUe CoLoUr, wanna knoe? Ask Aaron~! Kekekeke.. :P
And so i checked mail, went on lelong, chat abit, and then Aaron was sleepy.. he was like.. "I want to sleep already.. very tired.. you use my computer first la. you can use my msn also if you want." i was like.. your msn?? really ah? so then i was like.. "okay. You dont want to use meh?" And he was like,.. "Youre here already, no need la.." i was like.. "yeah hor...true also" so since he let me use his msn, i did just that. but i didnt chat with anyone, i just left his msn running in case one of his friends want to leave a message for him, anyway his nick already put there || KO ||, so his friends should be able to get the message. Then halfway doing some stuff, joram came online,.. i was like uh oh,..... nvm. Doesn't mean he will chat with aaron right? after a while,.. a message from joram appeared. i was like.. "he is sleeping, sorry" and he just said "ok" and then didnt hear anything from him. then later, his fingers got itchy.. "who is that? abelene?" and i thought.. abelene? who is abelene? sounds familiar.. sounds like audio adreline, but thats a group band. he doesnt mean that, does he? and then i was like.. "who is abelene?" and he was like "his sister. are you outstation?" i was like.. he asked if i was outstation, not if i was from outstation... so .. "yeah." and then he asked, "do i know you?" and i was like,.. "yeah. if you know who is this, you wouldnt be talking to me right now." and he was like, "anna?" and i was like... "yeah" so chatted abit then he had to go. Then soon i also went to sleep already..
The next morning i woke up with alot of clinging and banging coming from just outside the window.. "BOOM~!" *Men shouting at each other **Giant Machines roaring... Guessed whats that? Yupe~! Construction~!!! Hehe.. Right at the back of the house where my room was.. nevertheless, i was ok.. it was about 8am. I tried to sleep, but couldnt. Tired as i was, it was noisy.. Then about 1 hour later, Aaron opened the door. Aaaah.. finally. Saved! and immediately, he was like "wah... so noisy wan arh?"
i was like.. "yeahlor~!!!" *complain complain..
then he was like "wah.. i didnt know woh, i go for two months already like that."
i was like.. "your room cannot hear wan meh?"
he was like.. "cannot woh.. wah... this morning my mum wake me up, fetch her to work.."
then he play guitar already, and then i started to take a kids pack of cards and we play some stupid game..hahah. i make him play one.. in the end both of our sets also dont have the correct pair and i take his card and he pick my card, and the game can never end because not all the cards there have a pair.. haha. teruk. everything left was single cards, and we didnt know..
"your bros and sis le?"
"all in school lor.."
i was like.. "ooh..." and then time for me to wash up~! so then i washed up and changed.
he asked, " you want to eat breakfast?"
" i dont normally eat breakfast wan woh.. you know la.. my breakfast at night one.."
"nvm..come we go and eat breakfast, i bring you to the shop near my house.."
"okie!!"
thats how we got ready to go for breakfast~! We went downstairs and out the door, the dogs were greeting us at the main door already~!! so lively and friendly and all.. so we tried to get out without letting any of them in, especially the smallest one, easiest to get in.. and then where was my slipper? it was in the shoe drawer nearest to the door.. the maid mustve placed it there. his slippers was also outside already.. so then we walked out the small gate and just to the shop 'opposite the house'. i say it is 'opposite the house' because its not exactly opposite, but thats what aaron uses to describe the distance it is from the house, it is really just that near, like across the road on the left, but not exactly opposite, more like beside, after the kindergarten. we took like less than 1 minute to reach the shop from the front of the house and then he ate Ki Chap Mee.. I think thats the first time i saw Ki Cap Mee. its basically noodles with lotsa ingredients in tomato sauce. his had alot of ingredients because he like to order the one with alot. i ate nasi lemak because i thought it was the cheapest thing there (as usual) and it was already ready, so i didnt have to wait (i was so hungry).. and then i drank soya bean in the box one. He didnt order a drink, but then the man just came and placed teh ais in front of him. then he said, "i no need to order one, the teh ais just come like that.."
i was like.. "ooo" because he went there so many times already.. no need to order.. hehe..
then he talked about the movie he watched, 'Shrawshrank' and a sermon he watched by Pastor Joseph in singapore about astronomy and he talked alot about it. Finally we decided to go back home and watch. which is what we did immediately when we got back. we went to the master bedroom, and there was a tv there and a one-seater couch and a massage chair next to each other in front of the tv. so we watched the sermon, which is how God used the stars as a sign to us. It starts with the virgin mary with the star 'Virgo' and ends with the Lion of Judah 'Leo', i can talk alot about it,.. later when i have clear clarification from my authority. But it honestly sounds realistically spiritual.
after the show, i was supposed to see his kai mui and go out with her, the three of us shopping.. but then i was so sleepy.. and i thought it will be good if he went out with his kai mui alone because she mustve really missed him, he just came back from kl only and didnt have a chance to go out with him.. i was like.. "im so sleepy.."
and he was like.." go and sleep la..".
he didnt compromise at all..so i thought he really wanted to go out with her alone.. so i said "okie" and went to sleep without seeing his kai mui.. aaron closed the windows for me(they were still having construction) and on the air cond for me and closed the door also.. so good hor? i slumber only crash on the bed.. i was only hoping he brought his kai mui back to see me at home, because i really wanted to see her..but slim chances also.. so i was thinking and thinking if i did the right thing or not.. and then he left so fast.. so i tried to sleep, too late already.. but it was still noisy.. so i had an idea.. i on audio adreline and went to sleep immediately~!! haha..
i woke up with two happy youthful voices in the room calling me.. i opened my eyes and guess what? yes, audio adrelien was still on happily singing away, but then there was this young girl standing in front of me with a bag full of famous amos cookies~!!!! hehehe... and the air cond was still so cooling and refreshing.. on my right was aaron at the bed there.. *yawwnnn *stretchhhhh...
then aaron go and kacau me,.. he said something about joram one.. and then i hit him kau kau.. whack him like anything in front of his kai mui.. i never hit him so much before... she just watch only..
after that aaron said at night he wanna go watch madagascar.. so he asked me, "anna, wanna watch madagascar tonight anot?" so i thought michel is going, so i was like "okay", so he said, "go and check what time is the show, go to the webpage there and find" and i was like "which webpage, wah.. now use me already la.." the show was 9.45pm.
hehe.. she was a great girl.. i love her so muchh.. aaron will be like.. *ahem *ahemmm.. hehehe.. she bought the chocolate famous amos cookies just for me.. she offered me the cookies..
i said politely, "no, thanks.."
aaron was like, "eh, she bought the cookies just for you, you know.."
i was like.."really meh.."
then he said, "really one.. take lar.."
"ok.. ok.." so i took.. i took 2~! so nice.. mmmmmmmmMMMMMMMMMMmmmmmmmm.. hungry yet?
you know why i like her so much? because aaron later said that she really wanted to buy me the cookies one.. she was like "i want to buy for jie jie anna.." and then i was like.."really..ah." and then aaron said she also wanted to buy a bear, same like his one.. he said no need.. >.<
i actually wanted to bring something for her before i went, and then i forgot... aihhhhhhhhhh..................................................................
honestly, she looks like she is older than me,.. thats why i also dare not talk to her much that day.. (sorry aaron..) because i scared she dont respect me as a jie.. i respect her too much already.. after that i went to the bathroom a while and then come out, the two of them wanna go out already, and then on the way out of the bathroom, i heard aaron say, "aah.. she can take care of herself wan la.. dont worry.. she got guitar got computer, happy already, can stay here whole day.." then she was like.. "really arh?" then he said "yeah lor.." the two of them running down the stairs... i knew they were talking about me because he mentioned the words 'she', 'guitar' and 'computer', and then i was wondering how aaron know me so well.. he was right. then when they saw me out of the bathroom, he was like, "anna, we go out first ya?" i was like.. "okay".. then.. eyer.. go out.. dunno where he go..never tell me how long also.. leave me here arh? but i am the guest woh.. like that la.. got his kai mui already no need me la.. what i want to do now? so bored.. aaron not online also.. he go out with his kai mui already, now what to do online.. computer got also no use.. aihh.. go lelong until bored liao . so i waited for them to come back lor.. wait until cannot wait already, sms aaron.. "wei.........................." because i have no idea where they went or for how long i want to wait.. you know that kind of feeling when youre like a small kid and your parents went out of the house and you dont know where they are or when they are coming back or what they are doing.. and youre bored to death? that was how i felt.. so he called back and said "what happened?"
so i answered "where you all go la.."
then he said "i am fetching my mum now", in a serious tone..
so i was like "oh ok."
then when he came back, he was without his kai mui.. then i was like.. "eh, where is she?"
so he said "go back already lor~! and then i fetch my mum here.."
i was like.. "oh" left two of us again.. and i didnt even manage to spend time with her..
i remember before she came, we were on the phone with her, and he called the house, "Hello, Michel please?"
then when she picked up the phone, he suddenly pass to me, i also havent prepare yet. simply hook up something.. "Hello?"
Michel said "Hello? Who is this?"
I replied, "Erm.. your boyfriends sister.."
and she was like "who is this? my boyfriends sister???" in a serious tone. so i takut already. faster pass back to aaron the angry voice..
and aaron was like, "thats anna, la.. sorry arh.." then he like want to kutuk me already.. "why did you say that youre her bfs sister??"
i also dunno where to hide my face already.. aiyo.. kena kau kau..
anyway, i think after that we all just hang at home, playing guitar, aaron playing football and guns, and thats about it.. wah,.. my memory so bad,.. i dont remember what we did before dinner la.. teruk. i know his mum came when i was lelong-ing and she popped her head in, and he intro me to his mum, and said that i also do lelong one, just like his parents, but she said she doesnt want to come into the room because it was cold.. but she called us to have our dinner downstairs.. so we had dinner..everyone else ate already.. i took the rice with alot of soup... then we talk abit while finishing the food, (fried wan ton) then bath already.. i remember when i came out of the cinema, his mom was with him in the room, in front of the lap top, looking at his pictures. he and his mum also ngam one.. and then his dad came in and then all look together, and his bro also, and then his mum was like asking him, "what time is your show?" and he was like, "9.45.." so she was like "okay"
then we immediately went to the cinema..so gaya two of us just bath only, hair all comb nice nice, before that i was wearing my mickey mouse red t shirt with shorts, but after change, wear long pants already,.. he ask me to wear long pants wan mah. scared i cold aready hug him.. what la..
after the cinema, we just go rounding, supposed to drink the coffee thingy, but scared cannot sleep, so he just showed me the coffee place only.. not bad also. the most kl-like place in thw whole kuantan.
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
Time :: 11.30pm
Calvin : So where are you from?
Anna : Kuantan
Calvin : (Looks at Aaron) She's from Kuantan? Are you sure?
Aaron : (Smiling) ....
Anna : Haha..
Calvin : So, you're in the same uni as Aaron?
Anna : Erm,.. yupe..
Calvin : So, where are you from?
Anna : (Thinks a while) ... (Sincerely) I don't know..
Calvin : Wah.. How come you don't know where you come from one?
Anna : Haha.. (feels like slapping herself on the face)
Aaron : ...
Later,...
Calvin : So, where did he bring you?
Anna : To the beach!
Calvin : Oh, the beach.. Got see anything nice anot?
Anna : Got! (Thinks for a while..) Monitor Lizard~! :D
Calvin : (Surprised) Monitor Lizard?~!
Anna : Yaap~!
Calvin : How big was it?
Anna : (Arms opens wide) This BIG~!
Calvin : Wah,.. got that big ah?
Aaron : Yeah, (nodding head) she really saw a monitor lizzard that big..
Calvin : You go to the beach, see monitor lizzard?
Anna : (nodding head excitedly)
Calvin : Okay,.. what else did you see?
Anna : (Thinks a while..) Ermm... Snake~!
Calvin : Snake~! Wah all reptiles only arh?
Anna : Yap~!
Calvin : Wah.. where else did he bring you? Beach only ah? No other place meh?
Anna : (Thinks very hard) Where else arh...
Calvin : He got bring you to Sg Lembing anot?
Anna : Uhh...
Aaron : I know she don't like those kind of things wan.. she don't like to climb mountain one. So I didn't bring her lor..
Calvin : Oh, he must have bring you to Megamall all that right?
Anna : Got ah? (Thinking summore) Erm.. at night got la.. watch movie only.. Where else did we go arh..
Note :: Anna really didn't go anywhere else other than to the beach and to Megamall to watch Madagascar. She had a great time relaxing at home with the guitar and the bed for 4 fruitful days :P.. She went to the beach 3 times in that trip and enjoyed herself thoroughly.. Aaron also brought her to the river even at the first day of trip and belanja her makan almost the whole way starting from here at the river where he showed her real 'Aquas'. The waitresses there were actually Aquas~! And the river was so peaceful there, not like the KL river, full of rubbish. In KL, these kind of places will be thoroughly polluted and alot of people will be there. It will also be the most happening place. But here, it was quiet and calm. I even saw two guys fishing and playing chess in the moonlight just beside the river. We ate fried rice and he gave me extra ingredients.. After that, he took me to the beach a while,.. he was amazed that he didnt go for just two months, and already the car park is different.. we didnt know how to come out~!!
when we arrived there, i was like.. "are we at the beach?"
and he was like, "no, this is not the beach."
and i saw mcDs there. so i said, "yeah right, got Macdonals there, dont try to bluff me, i know this is the beach~!!"
and he said, "wah, you came that time got Macdonals already that means you didnt come too long ago lar.."
at the beach, we saw so many couples hanging out there.. then after enjoying the breeze at one of the benches there, we went back. On the way back, in the car, he went on babbling about how good Kuantan was and opened the window..
Aaron : Here at night, when you can hear the crickets one,.. Verrrry peaceful,.. (Opens the windows)
Anna : Hmm,... Really got wohh..
Aaron : You see my house, very near to the beach one..
Anna : Is it?
Aaron : (Still driving, points to one of the houses) This is one of my friend's house, I always come here to play football with him one, his house so near my house. He is a very nice guy..
Anna: Ooo..so nice,..
Aaron : Last time, my dad and I used to chase wild boars around here, (he pointed to the jungle on the left)
Anna : Wah, really arh..
Aaron : Very easy to go to my house only.. You see the kindergarden here?
Anna : Yeahh..
Aaron : (Moves towards the house right beside it) This is my house..
Anna : Wow..okie.
Aaron : (Parks the car) That's lizzie..
Anna looks up and sees a white dog with long fur.. and droopy ears. So that was Lizzie~! Hehe... At the other end of the car was another dog - a black one. And then between them were a small brown cute little Puppy~!
I came out and they all came to the door to greet me.. Eeee... so cute.. And then we went to the house. The dog followed us all the way.. until the front, and we didn't want the dog to come into the house, so he quickly opened the door, and said, "Quick, get in, get in.. wear your shoes in." So, I hurriedly went in with my slippers, and he came after me, then i saw his Ah Poh there..(Grandma). She was watching tv, but she saw me, so i waved. And then i asked him, "Can she speak english?" He said, "No, she can't." So we went upstairs..
Then we passed the study table, and passed by his room, he said, "This is my room."
I was like, "Okay."
Then he brought me to another room at the end of the corridor, and said, "This is your room."
So I asked, "Everybody sleep already arh?"
And he was like.. "Yeah, lor.. So late already.."
So I was like.. "Okie.." and went into the room with my heavy bag and red file. Then I saw the computer there, just like he said last time, 'The computer is in the guest room'. So i parked my bag there and sat on the bed. It was a queen sized bed with blue and white checked sheets and a little bit of flowers at the sides. It was really comfy. His lap top was parked there too, on the table, beside the com. This was great... All i ever needed..(so called), computer, bed. computer, bed. yay~! I am at home~!
what i really like was that he accompanied me in the room, didnt just leave me there, like what i did to my friends who came to my house, even my bfs.. i just dumped them somewhere and run away.. but he sticked to me all the way, which really was sweet and make me feel more than welcomed. It felt good. So then, i knew i wasnt alone. So then, he showed me all his songs he had.. so many!! Relient K, Audio Adreline.. and then he played afew and let me hear.. He parked on the bed and said, "Use my lap top la, if you want." I was like.. Use your lap top? Somehow, no one was so nice to me before. Somehow it sounded new. I've never heard it before. I know it may not sound anything to you, but to me, it was new. I came to Kuantan to really experience new things. Taste new food,(Ki Cap Mee and Fish Curry Puff), meet new people (Kai Mui, Calvin and Micheal), see new things(Monitor Lizard, Snake, Madagascar and 3rd bay), hear new things (Silent night and crickets only night), Learn new things (guitar and new songs).. I can you all about them. Most of all, i learn alot about Aaron himself..*hint *hint. Hehe,.. of course by the 5th day, Aaron found out my TrUe CoLoUr, wanna knoe? Ask Aaron~! Kekekeke.. :P
And so i checked mail, went on lelong, chat abit, and then Aaron was sleepy.. he was like.. "I want to sleep already.. very tired.. you use my computer first la. you can use my msn also if you want." i was like.. your msn?? really ah? so then i was like.. "okay. You dont want to use meh?" And he was like,.. "Youre here already, no need la.." i was like.. "yeah hor...true also" so since he let me use his msn, i did just that. but i didnt chat with anyone, i just left his msn running in case one of his friends want to leave a message for him, anyway his nick already put there || KO ||, so his friends should be able to get the message. Then halfway doing some stuff, joram came online,.. i was like uh oh,..... nvm. Doesn't mean he will chat with aaron right? after a while,.. a message from joram appeared. i was like.. "he is sleeping, sorry" and he just said "ok" and then didnt hear anything from him. then later, his fingers got itchy.. "who is that? abelene?" and i thought.. abelene? who is abelene? sounds familiar.. sounds like audio adreline, but thats a group band. he doesnt mean that, does he? and then i was like.. "who is abelene?" and he was like "his sister. are you outstation?" i was like.. he asked if i was outstation, not if i was from outstation... so .. "yeah." and then he asked, "do i know you?" and i was like,.. "yeah. if you know who is this, you wouldnt be talking to me right now." and he was like, "anna?" and i was like... "yeah" so chatted abit then he had to go. Then soon i also went to sleep already..
The next morning i woke up with alot of clinging and banging coming from just outside the window.. "BOOM~!" *Men shouting at each other **Giant Machines roaring... Guessed whats that? Yupe~! Construction~!!! Hehe.. Right at the back of the house where my room was.. nevertheless, i was ok.. it was about 8am. I tried to sleep, but couldnt. Tired as i was, it was noisy.. Then about 1 hour later, Aaron opened the door. Aaaah.. finally. Saved! and immediately, he was like "wah... so noisy wan arh?"
i was like.. "yeahlor~!!!" *complain complain..
then he was like "wah.. i didnt know woh, i go for two months already like that."
i was like.. "your room cannot hear wan meh?"
he was like.. "cannot woh.. wah... this morning my mum wake me up, fetch her to work.."
then he play guitar already, and then i started to take a kids pack of cards and we play some stupid game..hahah. i make him play one.. in the end both of our sets also dont have the correct pair and i take his card and he pick my card, and the game can never end because not all the cards there have a pair.. haha. teruk. everything left was single cards, and we didnt know..
"your bros and sis le?"
"all in school lor.."
i was like.. "ooh..." and then time for me to wash up~! so then i washed up and changed.
he asked, " you want to eat breakfast?"
" i dont normally eat breakfast wan woh.. you know la.. my breakfast at night one.."
"nvm..come we go and eat breakfast, i bring you to the shop near my house.."
"okie!!"
thats how we got ready to go for breakfast~! We went downstairs and out the door, the dogs were greeting us at the main door already~!! so lively and friendly and all.. so we tried to get out without letting any of them in, especially the smallest one, easiest to get in.. and then where was my slipper? it was in the shoe drawer nearest to the door.. the maid mustve placed it there. his slippers was also outside already.. so then we walked out the small gate and just to the shop 'opposite the house'. i say it is 'opposite the house' because its not exactly opposite, but thats what aaron uses to describe the distance it is from the house, it is really just that near, like across the road on the left, but not exactly opposite, more like beside, after the kindergarten. we took like less than 1 minute to reach the shop from the front of the house and then he ate Ki Chap Mee.. I think thats the first time i saw Ki Cap Mee. its basically noodles with lotsa ingredients in tomato sauce. his had alot of ingredients because he like to order the one with alot. i ate nasi lemak because i thought it was the cheapest thing there (as usual) and it was already ready, so i didnt have to wait (i was so hungry).. and then i drank soya bean in the box one. He didnt order a drink, but then the man just came and placed teh ais in front of him. then he said, "i no need to order one, the teh ais just come like that.."
i was like.. "ooo" because he went there so many times already.. no need to order.. hehe..
then he talked about the movie he watched, 'Shrawshrank' and a sermon he watched by Pastor Joseph in singapore about astronomy and he talked alot about it. Finally we decided to go back home and watch. which is what we did immediately when we got back. we went to the master bedroom, and there was a tv there and a one-seater couch and a massage chair next to each other in front of the tv. so we watched the sermon, which is how God used the stars as a sign to us. It starts with the virgin mary with the star 'Virgo' and ends with the Lion of Judah 'Leo', i can talk alot about it,.. later when i have clear clarification from my authority. But it honestly sounds realistically spiritual.
after the show, i was supposed to see his kai mui and go out with her, the three of us shopping.. but then i was so sleepy.. and i thought it will be good if he went out with his kai mui alone because she mustve really missed him, he just came back from kl only and didnt have a chance to go out with him.. i was like.. "im so sleepy.."
and he was like.." go and sleep la..".
he didnt compromise at all..so i thought he really wanted to go out with her alone.. so i said "okie" and went to sleep without seeing his kai mui.. aaron closed the windows for me(they were still having construction) and on the air cond for me and closed the door also.. so good hor? i slumber only crash on the bed.. i was only hoping he brought his kai mui back to see me at home, because i really wanted to see her..but slim chances also.. so i was thinking and thinking if i did the right thing or not.. and then he left so fast.. so i tried to sleep, too late already.. but it was still noisy.. so i had an idea.. i on audio adreline and went to sleep immediately~!! haha..
i woke up with two happy youthful voices in the room calling me.. i opened my eyes and guess what? yes, audio adrelien was still on happily singing away, but then there was this young girl standing in front of me with a bag full of famous amos cookies~!!!! hehehe... and the air cond was still so cooling and refreshing.. on my right was aaron at the bed there.. *yawwnnn *stretchhhhh...
then aaron go and kacau me,.. he said something about joram one.. and then i hit him kau kau.. whack him like anything in front of his kai mui.. i never hit him so much before... she just watch only..
after that aaron said at night he wanna go watch madagascar.. so he asked me, "anna, wanna watch madagascar tonight anot?" so i thought michel is going, so i was like "okay", so he said, "go and check what time is the show, go to the webpage there and find" and i was like "which webpage, wah.. now use me already la.." the show was 9.45pm.
hehe.. she was a great girl.. i love her so muchh.. aaron will be like.. *ahem *ahemmm.. hehehe.. she bought the chocolate famous amos cookies just for me.. she offered me the cookies..
i said politely, "no, thanks.."
aaron was like, "eh, she bought the cookies just for you, you know.."
i was like.."really meh.."
then he said, "really one.. take lar.."
"ok.. ok.." so i took.. i took 2~! so nice.. mmmmmmmmMMMMMMMMMMmmmmmmmm.. hungry yet?
you know why i like her so much? because aaron later said that she really wanted to buy me the cookies one.. she was like "i want to buy for jie jie anna.." and then i was like.."really..ah." and then aaron said she also wanted to buy a bear, same like his one.. he said no need.. >.<
i actually wanted to bring something for her before i went, and then i forgot... aihhhhhhhhhh..................................................................
honestly, she looks like she is older than me,.. thats why i also dare not talk to her much that day.. (sorry aaron..) because i scared she dont respect me as a jie.. i respect her too much already.. after that i went to the bathroom a while and then come out, the two of them wanna go out already, and then on the way out of the bathroom, i heard aaron say, "aah.. she can take care of herself wan la.. dont worry.. she got guitar got computer, happy already, can stay here whole day.." then she was like.. "really arh?" then he said "yeah lor.." the two of them running down the stairs... i knew they were talking about me because he mentioned the words 'she', 'guitar' and 'computer', and then i was wondering how aaron know me so well.. he was right. then when they saw me out of the bathroom, he was like, "anna, we go out first ya?" i was like.. "okay".. then.. eyer.. go out.. dunno where he go..never tell me how long also.. leave me here arh? but i am the guest woh.. like that la.. got his kai mui already no need me la.. what i want to do now? so bored.. aaron not online also.. he go out with his kai mui already, now what to do online.. computer got also no use.. aihh.. go lelong until bored liao . so i waited for them to come back lor.. wait until cannot wait already, sms aaron.. "wei.........................." because i have no idea where they went or for how long i want to wait.. you know that kind of feeling when youre like a small kid and your parents went out of the house and you dont know where they are or when they are coming back or what they are doing.. and youre bored to death? that was how i felt.. so he called back and said "what happened?"
so i answered "where you all go la.."
then he said "i am fetching my mum now", in a serious tone..
so i was like "oh ok."
then when he came back, he was without his kai mui.. then i was like.. "eh, where is she?"
so he said "go back already lor~! and then i fetch my mum here.."
i was like.. "oh" left two of us again.. and i didnt even manage to spend time with her..
i remember before she came, we were on the phone with her, and he called the house, "Hello, Michel please?"
then when she picked up the phone, he suddenly pass to me, i also havent prepare yet. simply hook up something.. "Hello?"
Michel said "Hello? Who is this?"
I replied, "Erm.. your boyfriends sister.."
and she was like "who is this? my boyfriends sister???" in a serious tone. so i takut already. faster pass back to aaron the angry voice..
and aaron was like, "thats anna, la.. sorry arh.." then he like want to kutuk me already.. "why did you say that youre her bfs sister??"
i also dunno where to hide my face already.. aiyo.. kena kau kau..
anyway, i think after that we all just hang at home, playing guitar, aaron playing football and guns, and thats about it.. wah,.. my memory so bad,.. i dont remember what we did before dinner la.. teruk. i know his mum came when i was lelong-ing and she popped her head in, and he intro me to his mum, and said that i also do lelong one, just like his parents, but she said she doesnt want to come into the room because it was cold.. but she called us to have our dinner downstairs.. so we had dinner..everyone else ate already.. i took the rice with alot of soup... then we talk abit while finishing the food, (fried wan ton) then bath already.. i remember when i came out of the cinema, his mom was with him in the room, in front of the lap top, looking at his pictures. he and his mum also ngam one.. and then his dad came in and then all look together, and his bro also, and then his mum was like asking him, "what time is your show?" and he was like, "9.45.." so she was like "okay"
then we immediately went to the cinema..so gaya two of us just bath only, hair all comb nice nice, before that i was wearing my mickey mouse red t shirt with shorts, but after change, wear long pants already,.. he ask me to wear long pants wan mah. scared i cold aready hug him.. what la..
after the cinema, we just go rounding, supposed to drink the coffee thingy, but scared cannot sleep, so he just showed me the coffee place only.. not bad also. the most kl-like place in thw whole kuantan.
* tRUST & OBey the LORD *
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